Well, as of Wednesday Morning at about 10AM CT, my name is officially Joy Anne Phillip.

The judge signed the order, and now the only things I have left to do in this journey is the SRS (which I may not get) and to tell my mother that she has four daughters now. All my boy clothes (with the exception of about 6 shirts totsl) are gone. Not having to keep two warddrobes certainly helped.

Need to get my voice higher, but I can't seem to find good voice coach stuff on the Web.

Big closet was down for me for over an hour and now that it is back up, it looks like it was hacked extremly well by a bunch of idiots. My sincere thanks go to them for causing Erin and her people all this work and heartache.

Grew up with a lot of veterans around me and with the stories they told me. I'm not talking about the politicans or if a war is right. I'm talking about the women and men that did the sweating, the bleeding and, sadly enough, the dying. Maurice (kind of grandpa/ KW vet Be), Tom (friend of Maurice / KO vet Be, Joe (J Hess/KW vet US), Thank you for spending time with a kid. To every vet's and the women and men currently in uniform, thank you.

Being Normal?

An Essay by Angharad.

I’m sitting here in my dining room, which serves as a study cum computer room and library–I use the latter term loosely, I have books all over my house, but the dining room has a few more than the others, about a thousand more but that’s not the subject of this piece.

The idea for this arose as I was dressing this morning and is one that has occurred to me many times. It’s simply this, that much of the time the sort of things I wear are not that dissimilar to the things I wore many years ago, ie before transitioning.

After so long, I finally finished my Retcon fanfic. I always knew it would end up fanfic because Lilith stated that the Man or Maid of Steel would not be making an appearance. However, I had an idea I thought was interesting and fun. I just wanted to have a little fun with the concept and run with it. Things got crazy when others finished theirs way, way before I did and helped shaped the Retcon universe. That caused me all kinds of problems until I managed to work my way around it. In the end, I finished and I'm rather happy with it.

I've done another chapter of this, so as soon as Melanie approves it, I'll post it.

Thought I'd warn you all so you can read the previous three to remember the plot line - don't forget to sprinkle comments and kudos as you go.

Angharad.

I just posted the 2012 Ultimate Writer's Challenge challenge list in the forum.

For those still interested in trying to finish enough of the 2011 set to get the prize, there's still time! It's open 'til March 1, 2012 for those who wanna try to get it, and of course, it's not like I'm gonna tell people they can't write stories off the list's ideas whenever they want anyhow.

I just wanted to thank everyone that took the time to read 'You Have it all Wrong 1,2.and 3' And leave a comment asking for more of it.
Well I'm pleased to tell you that I will be adding a 4th book to the series soon.
In the mean time I hope you take the time to read something a little different by me called 'Project Guardian'

Happy reading, and Chrissy and Co will return.

Hugs and Love

SaraUK

I know, it's in the Daily Wail, but it might be true. In which case I want some.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2058603/Nip--Fabs-...

Angharad

Well, last night was a good example on why you shouldnt get a movie based on the blurb. I saw this movie at my work called "Amanda" which said it was about a "player" guy who meets the perfect girl - but dumps her when she tells him she was born a man. I'm not sure what I was hoping for, but it was a pretty pedestrian romantic comedy. He's pretty bad about the trans thing, calling her new vagina "a wound", making me wounder what she would see in him, but he learns he cant live without her, makes a big romantic gesture, and wins her back by declaring that "love has no gender".

Hello All who care to read this, i have read a lot of post recently (including my own) on depression. I, for one am glad people are starting to speak up about this potentially dangerous subject openly, as it can be deadly.

I have an offsite blog Looking Forward, Moving Forward where i write about T* issues and very often about depression and the gender gifted, but it is for everyone, no matter how they identify.

I watched this against my better judgement - usually, I stay well away from cliche TV - and on the whole was pleasantly surprised. There were still cliches, Drew takes two and half hours each day to apply her makeup, and sadly looks like she should either be on the catwalk or stage - it's OTT big time. Presumably a case of overcompensation, sadly because both she and Donna - who is all tattoos and piercings could make quite attractive females in a more conventional way. All the new women had rather male voices which also shattered the illusion they were trying to create.

Well, at our lunch break last night, a co-worker said I looked red in the face, and then when I got home this morning, my mom said the same thing. It could be a sign of high blood pressure, which would be very bad. If I have to stop the hormones due to high BP I don't know what I'll do ....

DES MOINES, Iowa — Melissa Gartner will have to wait a bit longer to find out if she'll be listed on the birth certificate of the child her wife bore.

Melissa Gartner, 41, and Heather Gartner, 39, sued the state when the Iowa Department of Public Health refused in 2009 to list both names on the birth certificate of their daughter, Mackenzie.
Iowa District Judge Eliza Ovrom heard arguments in the case Monday and will issue a written ruling at a later date.

Genre-based attacks on stories posted as comments are not allowed. I'm tired of this unfriendly behavior. Multiple and repeated attacks of this sort MAY NOT get further warnings and MAY result in banning from the site.

If you don't like the genre of the story you are reading, exercise the muscle between your ears and stop reading it! You don't have to tell anyone publicly about it either.

If you like BC as a place to come and read the kind of stories you like, allow other people the same dignity and respect you would like to have.

Hugs to all,
Erin

Okay everyone Been a bit busy, so I really haven't touched up any writing for Through the Years in a few days. I'll try for tonight but not promising

Well, I'm over 14,000 words on my "Quest" story, and not even close to done. I might actually end up with a novel, or at least a novella before I'm done....

Well, part 2 of "The Dead Kid Returns" got half as many comments as part 1. I wonder why?

Lulu seem to like having regular offers - they've just launched another one for UK readers, which is valid until 11:59pm Friday.

20% off site-wide, up to a maximum discount of  £100.

The code is: EARLYSHOPPERUK305

So if you've been procrastinating over the possibility of buying one of Maddy's books... :)

Hi

What a week! Been writing so much that my fingers are bleeding... not quite, but almost. Have amost finished MARINE Book 1, just waiting on my Muse for a cracking ending that grabs people and makes them want the next book so badly... so perhaps a week or two to get it just right. I've just had another light bulb moment for a new book, so we'll have to wait and see. I have a week away with the family soon, so may get a chance to do some more writing.

Managed to get another title.. TWISTED DREAMS.. onto Kindle with slight revisions, but it is still on my site and here for free.

I'm Home.

I've been on a journey of discovery, pain, love, and hope these last few weeks. I shared some of it, with some of you. You see, my mom remembered my telling her I'd been abused.

I've also spent the last week+ on the road, with my wife DJ most of the time, with one of my sisters and her spouse part of the time, and running down the corridors of my mind whenever I allowed my self to think.

This gag caught me by surprise, cute.

http://sinfest.net/comikaze/comics/2011-11-07.gif

Killing Billie off in Bike is the hardest thing I've had to do and it's left me feeling like I've had a real bereavement, I've been flat and depressed since - so why did I do it?

At times I've allowed the fantasy stuff take us away from the realities of life. Cathy's had to deal with all sorts of low-lifes and some quite absurd incidents too. At times the story has been humorous, verging on comedic; at others it's been more like a thriller and just to let you get your breath back I slip in a couple of domestic bliss storylines.

I'm recruiting authors to join my new universe, the DarkRealms. I've already written one story for it, Life is Precious. Maggie and Lilith have both contributed as well, both their stories are still currently on the front page for those of you who haven't read them. So if anyone is interested in writing a story, PM me and pitch me an idea :)

EOF

I'm coming back! There are a few more things to take care of yet, but I'm now able to get in my house safely, so I should be home for good sometime in the coming week. There is now a ramp for my wheelchair, so until my stump is healed and I can use my prosthetic, I can still get in.

You ever get the impression that you are in a place for a higher purpose? Well, in my case, it was more than an impression, it was like getting a smack on the head. See, while I was in Slave Lake, one of the girls I was working with told me her son just came out to her as trans, and she had been doing research into it, when along comes me, doing my RLT. I talked with her awhile, and then gave her my e-mail addy so she can get a hold of me if she needs to. The rest of my time there was okay, but that little moment was just ... special.

A giant redwood fell over the other day and was featured on the daily evening news. It seems this tree was old. Older than me. I wonder what it figured out about life that caused it to uproot itself.

After I posted my last story I asked myself . . . What the Fuck?

You see -- I never quite get around the idea that my next story will be my best.

I never see the rejection coming until Lucy's pulled that GD ball out from under my swingin' boot.

All I have to do now is finish off the scene I'm on and I will be done my first complete chapter!

Nancy's current story sent me back to reread one or two of my own, which is an odd feeling. It was brought about by one of my male colleagues, who wanted to read some of my stuff. That brought back my thoughts as I wrote it, and I went looking for some of my memories on the net.

Don't you just hate when you have to be out of the house early in the morning and can't come back until late in the evening?

Not fitting the binary definition of gender-
first here-
http://www.sinfest.net/comikaze/comics/2011-11-01.gif
then here-
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Well, I had my first shift here in Slave Lake, and it went okay. the hotel is nice, but I dont expect to have a lot of time to look around the town between work and sleep. Interesingly, one of the staff here has a son who just recently came out to them as trans, and has been doing some research on it, so she wanted to ask me how I'm finding it. My responce is "so far, so good." The hotel has a internet kiosk that charges by the hour, so I can check in on you wonderful people, so behave!

This makes me feel so nasty. I think he should go to prison

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwAFJbJmSpQ&oref=http%3A%2F%2...

Andrea James posted a link for a wonderful organization called Trans Youth Family Allies on her page today. I have contacted them to see if I can volunteer. I have seen and read stories here locally about parents who were totally clueless about what it means for their child to be Trans. One case resulted in suicide from being bullied and rejected by their mother. I tried to get our Trans support group involved in this worthy cause, but they didn't want to "Rock the boat" and chose not get involved.

I've decided to create a universe out of my Halloween story, Life is Precious. Its now apart of The DarkRealms Universe. There's a universe page up now and I'm looking for any interested authors who might want to write in it---I already have a few but am looking for more.

If you want to read new stuff!

http://maddybell.com/gms01.html

Bottom of page

Mads

Note to self. Next time I need to take the clothes dryer off of the wall to fix the belt, take the 4" stiletto's off first. :)

Well, I'm just about to leave for Slave Lake Alberta. They changed my destination, and now I'm going to be there an extra day, so more than likely this will be my last chance to talk to you guys until Friday. Wish me luck, I'm a little nervous.

Yesterday morning I found out I had lost ten pounds and now I have a whole lot of leftover Halloween candy in my house (NOT GOOD!).

Happy Halloween everybody!

Was almost ready to send off four chapters to get edited for Through the years and I realized how much I hated them. So right now I am in the process of changing a lot of stuff around. I am also deciding to work on the "Impossible dream." I know, I need to do more, but been busy lately watching very bad slasher films.

also noticed something. I have a few ideas outlines for other stories and I came to an interesting discovery about my stories. They're all named from songs.

Through the years: Kenny Rogers
Could I have this dance: Anne Murry

So I was looking through to see what movies were being shown today, and found that TCM is showing Frankenstein Created Woman http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0061683/ this afternoon. 3:15 Eastern (check to make sure of the time).

Lets get this procrastination blog going... tomorrow. :D

I have been told that I was not clear in my Blog on the above noted program. According to the CBC's website, the program airs tonight, October the 30th at 22:00. It is followed by one titled "The Third Sex" at 23:00.

My apologies for any confusion I may have caused. I have a DVD player hooked to my boob tube but have never used it but will try tonight if the weather is clear - I only have satellite reception - no reception when there is nothing to do but watch TV - LOL.

I hope the program lives up to the trailer I saw.

Queen Ruth

May the sun always shine on your parade

The CBC has announced that its program "The Passionate Eye" will present a documentary next Sunday at 22:00 eastern time dealing with transgendered children and their parents. The trailer, shown tonight, led me to believe that the parents were supportive and the children young.

This for your information in case that you are interested in viewing.

Queen Ruth

May the sun always shine on your parade

I have stopped writing, I know I just posted a little while ago so people may not have noticed.

Well, last night I had an incident that shows how much I've changed in the last while. See, I was on my way to work, and I stopped in at sub place to grab lunch, and the kid behind the counter said "What can I get you sir?" Now, I was in my wig, my wal-mart clothes, and was carrying a purse, so "sir" just wasn't the pronoun I would have preferred him to use. But while not that long ago an incident like that would have sent me spiraling downwards, I immediately thought "poor kid, needs better glasses, cant tell sirs from ma'ams." I think its a good sign, dont you guys?

I got the final word just this afternoon.

My Chemotherapy starts around noon on Monday.

And I have been accepted into the trial study of the immunosuppressant inoculations. There was a fifty fifty chance I would actually receive the injections, and the other fifty percent, that I would just be in the other half, being monitored periodically the rest of my life.