You know, soon I should stop being surprised I pass. For example, I went to my local mall to print a couple of my stories out at the library (My personal printer has decided to commit suicide). After I was done that, I went to the food court and grabbed a taco salad (I'm slowly teaching my body to enjoy healthy food). A couple of old ladies came up as I was finishing, and asked me for the time, so I got to flash my new watch. Then, when I got home, a young boy asked me to look our front garden for a ball. As far as I could tell, they saw nothing even slightly unusual about me.

... the Gluteus Maximus

Well, last night, I gave myself a belated birthday present. I used the gift card my brother had given me for my birthday, and bought myself a ladies watch. I also bought some foundation and cleanser as well. Just wearing the watch last night at work was enough to lighten my spirits considerably. That's a very good thing.

Just found out that the group I work for is getting rid of my job on the 21st of August. Not too sure what to do, but I'll figure something out

I hope

I'll try to keep up on Troy's story, but if things get tight I offer no promises

I was frustrated as an author when I first started writing on Fictionmania in 2002 that I couldn't find the kind of products which would transform my male characters into realistic-looking women. So, the Big Busts shop was born, and I filled it with my own fictional items which I developed in that and subsequent stories.

today 2 Aug. 2011 I turned four score and seven minus the order that Arizona was admitted to the union, plus Julius Ceasar's big day in march plus the (maximum number of strikes in a game of bowling subtract two and divided by 2) years old.

Not to make this sound like a bunch of out farts but I am having surgery agin this wednesday 8/3 having my right hip replaced so it will match the left hip the good point about this is if I die in the woods they will know who I am by the serial numbers the bad aprt is it is bad news a the airport I set off so many bells you would think I hit the JACKPOT in Vegas and then a trip to the little room for a strip search WHAT FUN when they find my panties --- see you all the beginning of neaxt week as I am coming home from the hospital THANKS to everybody for being my friends -- LOVE YOU ALL -- RICH

I am very new to writing, so I don't know very much about it. All I do konw, is that one comes up with an idea and tries to convey that idea in words and discriptions. My writing process is usually typing/writing down what comes to my head as it comes to my head. I have not used an outline before (in writing) and I'm not too sure how it helps. Im wanting to increase my writing ability and skills, but I'm kind of stuck. If any of you out there in Interweb Land would like to share how you write, it would probably help alot.

I had originally posted this in the comment section of the final chapter of Maggie Finson's Shades Of Grey, in Lilith Langtree's Comics Retcon Universe.

After posting there, i realized i had to share this broadly..

Plans right now are that Piper and I will combine our business interests into a company to be called QnEZ, LLC. I will provide capital and Piper will provide contacts and expertise to operate CyberBrats Hosting as a division of QnEZ. Doppler Press publishing and BigLittleUs marketing will be other divisions, most likely. (QnEZ is a name I own with a non-registered trademark.)

And her favorite way of dealing with stress tends to be by giving stress to someone else. For example, when my mother woke me up in a panic shortly after I had gotten asleep yesterday to ask me what to do about the dog, and I suggested a vet and went back to bed, Apparently I was supposed to go with her, despite needing my sleep for my night shift. This led her to say there isnt much feminine about me, either now or in the past. Somehow the fact that I held down a job as a nurse's aid for 10 years doesnt count. Ah, well

Well, my dog had to be taken to the vet today, and it turned out she had an infection in a gland in her rear. She's stuck wearing the cone thing, and will need pain meds for the next ten days, but it could have been worse.

Was toodling about and came across Least I Could Do and came across Lar's twitter feed and saw several entries on #agingsuperheroes

One of my favorites? Blue-Hair Beetle
followed by Batman and Rogaine

I am working on Ch 2 of "I am NOT Mystique" and I need a beta tester.

Someone who knows Lilith's CRU and can spot my CRU continuity violations before they Jump the Shark.

Someone who also plays a MMORPG would be good too.

I'm torn on this one because someone who doesn't play might have trouble understanding the story and I want even a non-player to get it.

Any takers? :)

As many of you know, Jaye is very ill, although I haven't heard from him in a while. At his request, I'm working to finish his story, retaining as much of his vision for it as my poor skills can manage. I have no information other than this to offer, nor any way to contact him, and can only assure you that his stories will be finished (in fact, that last two chapters of this one have already been written, it's just a few in the middle that are missing)

Levanah

Just spent $2300 for purchase of four servers to be new homes for BigCloset, Stardust, Fictioneer, Sapphire's Place, TGFiction.net, TG LIbrary, Tuckerspawn, Storysite and at least a dozen more sites. These servers will be the new homes for the next few years of these sites and will also be a lilypad for as many of Bob's sites as we can get moved before Lani has to shut down Bob's internet accounts.

You’re sitting at your group’s favorite table, sipping scrumptious mixtures of coffee, ice, chocolate, and cream. Everyone has spent two to three minutes each sharing stories to “catch up”. It’s your turn.

You’ve got a great story to tell them, but they need to know quite a bit of background information for your story to make sense. As you go through that necessary information you notice your friends are becoming increasingly bored with what you want to tell them.

I know Zoe's taken breaks before. I'm just a bit more than worried.;0

She's a dear friend.

One of the few people I share my Love for music with. Not sure why? It's just one of those 'connection' things.

If anybody has some contact info, it'd be greatly appreciated!!!

Love And Hugs,
A Concerned Jonelle

Interesting, and somewhat sympathetic, article in the NY Times today:

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/07/31/movies/new-roles-for-trans...

Discuss.

Has anyone, ever, written a slime/goo girl story that isn't just fetish fuel but actually has a plot? If someone knows of one could someone give me a link?

This is, I guess, a continuation of that previous blog of mine, "Hoping for some help, or Grrrrrr." (See http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/blog/29554/hoping-some-help-or... )

Originally, I planned to just respond to the comments, but when I found my response more than already several paragrahs long, I decided to post another one...

A link to a story about fanfiction that contains a link to a site run by a lawyer for fanfiction writers: http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=9257767...

I guess I'm having some problems standing it anymore.

The annual Bulwer-Lytton prizes have been announced!

This year's worst, and hence, truly awesome winning sentence is:

Cheryl’s mind turned like the vanes of a wind-powered turbine, chopping her sparrow-like thoughts into bloody pieces that fell onto a growing pile of forgotten memories.

Let us all celebrate!

Click HERE for the full list of prize winners and names.

So tell me dear friends,
What does a fifty + woman wear to a job interview?

Here is the link to the newspaper article

http://www.wral.com/news/strange/story/9906680/

Melanie Dian

Doesn't time fly? I apparently first signed up to BCTS on 24th July 2009.

Looking back through "Track", my first 66 comments (including several on the first day!) were all in response to a single story (albeit different chapters!).

1 year 48 weeks ago I posted my first blog entries and found some other stories to comment on.
1 year 33 weeks ago saw me inflicting you with my Christmas Tunes Acronym Quiz (did I ever give out the answers link?)
1 year 26 weeks ago saw my first two stories arrive.

The chatroom is up and running, at least for the moment.

so come and enjoy while it lasts.

My apologies for these poor bits of verse. I'm afraid that I'm using them to allow me to express and clarify my own feelings and thoughts as I go through the various stages of transition.

Persephone

The music has started, the carousel spins,

I’ve accepted myself and my journey begins.

I wrote Erin last night before going to bed asking her to unpublish Mishap. The latest chapter of which had been published for over 12 hours and had not gotten one single comment*.

What a bunch of ingrates. You want want want but can't give. I say it again because I'm sick of the excuses** I hear not to comment. There's even a certain element who will even go so far as to complain they aren't getting the type of stories they want. Those are the same people who never post a comment either. The authors work here for free but they feel they can complain about it.

Well, that's pretty much how I feel right now. I can try to move forward in dealing with my gender issues, and risk losing my daughter, or I can stay as I am, and more than likely suffer a breakdown, eventually. Not long ago, I had a vision of what my future could be like following both of these choices, and both end in despair, with me alone and broken. There just has to be a third choice, I don't believe in the no-win scenario ...

Some photos from the comc con as shown on the guardian website. Some of the con goers make great efforts with their costumes, Mark Hamill was brilliant - instead of reprising Luke Skywalker, he seems to be appearing as Jabba the Hutt.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/culture/gallery/2011/jul/23/comic-...

Angharad :)

Today is a very special day for me, an anniversary if you will. Even though I read on this site for a long time, it took me a while to actually become a member. It took even longer than that for me to finally write something. But a year ago today, I finally broke my 6 year writing dry spell and posted the very first chapter of The Syndicate. I'd like to thank Lilith for allowing me a chance to play in her world. As it turns out I haven't really stopped writing since. I've managed to pump out one story after another, from Center to Retcon and back again.

A while ago, I wrote a poem by that name (here is a link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/18355/hit-brick-wall-r... ) Well, right now that's close to how I feel. I think I'm psyching myself up for a charge at that wall, and its going to hurt But I simply don't know what else to do. When I first became honest with myself, and then came out to my family, I felt better. When I got a job as Dorothy I felt much better, and I think I kidded myself into believing I could stay like this - half in each gender. But I can't, not for long.

I looked at my account on getting back in from work today, and was rather astonished to find I had hit 18,000 on the kudos count. Thank you...

I'm doomed. I'm convinced that this is destined never to get fixed. What else can possibly go wrong?

RAMI

R.I.P. American Space Program.

The American Space Program died today, when the Space Shuttle Atlantis made its final landing at Kennedy Space Center. This tragic event occurred almost exactly 42 years after Neil Armstrong walked on the moon.

Well, I went out for breakfast with my mother in male mode, and I felt like a total fraud. I've never felt so uncomfortable going out as a man before. I felt like I was in drag, and that's a new feeling for me. Ah, well.

Why does it always happen to me? Someone, somewhere, must know a plumber who actually turns up when he says he will, but I've never met one.

For some time now, we've had a damp patch on the (concrete) kitchen floor. Just occasional seepage from somewhere. Not very much, and no smell so I'm guessing it's mains water rather than sewage. Just recently the stains started to get larger and I reluctantly decided that we would have to get the problem fixed.

Cross-dressing isn’t all that hard to understand.

Somewhere along the line the word fetish took on a negative connotation.

A fetish is an inanimate object that is felt to have magical or spiritual powers. What is negative about that?

Comments on this board about “not understanding cross-dressing” have made me go back to the basics.

I have been listening to NPR ( National Public Radio ) lately and 3 days ago they did an artical on the New California law that requires the teaching of LGBT history in state schools.
They compaired a man named Harvey (I know when somebody smarter than reads this they will correct Mr. Milks first name) Milk, who was assinated for being an equal rights spokesman and also gay, to Dr. Martin Luther King.
To listen to the artical you can probally go to your local NPR station on the net.
I guess the mainstream media missed this or thought unnewsworthy

James

I just wanted to let everyone know that part 19 should be posted in the day or so I have sent it off to be wren to be edited. It took longer then I wished but was dealing with a bit of writers block, hoping the next part will come easier.

Cain129

If you have asked yourself this question, and even if you havent, here is what may be coming soon from me:

A couple of ret-con projects, both going about the speed of molasses in January....

A fan-fic taking place in the universe of a TV show popular enough to make me intimidated in terms of not wishing to alienate anyone who enjoyed the series .....

A quiet little story that starts with a quiet little conversation in a park and keeps threatening to take a detour into the Twilight Zone .....

One of the joys of BC/TS is the interaction and encouragement.

In so many ways that wonderful support and encouragement that I, and I'm sure so many others, have received here has been instrumental in helping me truly accept who I am, and allowing me to properly start on my path through transition. Erin's insistence on a Friendly Place, whilst frequently stressful and traumatic for her and her team to police, has made a huge difference to so many of us at various stages of our journey.

A while back someone posted a story that had SF and Transformations. It started off with a scientist accepting applications for a trial study using a type of gene therapy. One of those applicants was his old college roommate who was very brilliant, but was crippled by disease and genetic disorders. As a matter of fact all the study's subjects had severe problems and health issues.

I've got some ideas for names for the NPO/Corp we've been talking about. Two of them are names I already have domains registered for:

BigLittle.Us

and

StarStuffR.Us

I think either would be appropriate. Do people have preferences? Other suggestions?

Hugs,
Erin

Well, I think I figured out what happened yesterday. I've been dealing with some frustration over not being able to do much to make progress on my gender journey the last couple of days, and then had stuff involving my rape come up both at work and thanks to what I read. The combination was too much, and I (temporary) got overwhelmed. But I'm back on track now.

Here's a thought we've been kicking around behind the scenes amongst the site managers. Our very own webhosting and publishing company organized as a non-profit corporation (NPC).

There are advantages.

Many of the sites could be hosted for less than people are paying now with possible improvements in service. Publishing contracts for books could be written that did not depend on just goodwill between author and publisher. Donations to an NPC can be tax deductible. An NPC can own things that will survive the death or disappearance of actual human beings.