Killing Billie off in Bike is the hardest thing I've had to do and it's left me feeling like I've had a real bereavement, I've been flat and depressed since - so why did I do it?

At times I've allowed the fantasy stuff take us away from the realities of life. Cathy's had to deal with all sorts of low-lifes and some quite absurd incidents too. At times the story has been humorous, verging on comedic; at others it's been more like a thriller and just to let you get your breath back I slip in a couple of domestic bliss storylines.

I'm recruiting authors to join my new universe, the DarkRealms. I've already written one story for it, Life is Precious. Maggie and Lilith have both contributed as well, both their stories are still currently on the front page for those of you who haven't read them. So if anyone is interested in writing a story, PM me and pitch me an idea :)

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I'm coming back! There are a few more things to take care of yet, but I'm now able to get in my house safely, so I should be home for good sometime in the coming week. There is now a ramp for my wheelchair, so until my stump is healed and I can use my prosthetic, I can still get in.

You ever get the impression that you are in a place for a higher purpose? Well, in my case, it was more than an impression, it was like getting a smack on the head. See, while I was in Slave Lake, one of the girls I was working with told me her son just came out to her as trans, and she had been doing research into it, when along comes me, doing my RLT. I talked with her awhile, and then gave her my e-mail addy so she can get a hold of me if she needs to. The rest of my time there was okay, but that little moment was just ... special.

A giant redwood fell over the other day and was featured on the daily evening news. It seems this tree was old. Older than me. I wonder what it figured out about life that caused it to uproot itself.

After I posted my last story I asked myself . . . What the Fuck?

You see -- I never quite get around the idea that my next story will be my best.

I never see the rejection coming until Lucy's pulled that GD ball out from under my swingin' boot.

All I have to do now is finish off the scene I'm on and I will be done my first complete chapter!

Nancy's current story sent me back to reread one or two of my own, which is an odd feeling. It was brought about by one of my male colleagues, who wanted to read some of my stuff. That brought back my thoughts as I wrote it, and I went looking for some of my memories on the net.

Don't you just hate when you have to be out of the house early in the morning and can't come back until late in the evening?

Not fitting the binary definition of gender-
first here-
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then here-
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Well, I had my first shift here in Slave Lake, and it went okay. the hotel is nice, but I dont expect to have a lot of time to look around the town between work and sleep. Interesingly, one of the staff here has a son who just recently came out to them as trans, and has been doing some research on it, so she wanted to ask me how I'm finding it. My responce is "so far, so good." The hotel has a internet kiosk that charges by the hour, so I can check in on you wonderful people, so behave!

This makes me feel so nasty. I think he should go to prison

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwAFJbJmSpQ&oref=http%3A%2F%2...

Andrea James posted a link for a wonderful organization called Trans Youth Family Allies on her page today. I have contacted them to see if I can volunteer. I have seen and read stories here locally about parents who were totally clueless about what it means for their child to be Trans. One case resulted in suicide from being bullied and rejected by their mother. I tried to get our Trans support group involved in this worthy cause, but they didn't want to "Rock the boat" and chose not get involved.

I've decided to create a universe out of my Halloween story, Life is Precious. Its now apart of The DarkRealms Universe. There's a universe page up now and I'm looking for any interested authors who might want to write in it---I already have a few but am looking for more.

If you want to read new stuff!

http://maddybell.com/gms01.html

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Mads

Note to self. Next time I need to take the clothes dryer off of the wall to fix the belt, take the 4" stiletto's off first. :)

Well, I'm just about to leave for Slave Lake Alberta. They changed my destination, and now I'm going to be there an extra day, so more than likely this will be my last chance to talk to you guys until Friday. Wish me luck, I'm a little nervous.

Yesterday morning I found out I had lost ten pounds and now I have a whole lot of leftover Halloween candy in my house (NOT GOOD!).

Happy Halloween everybody!

Was almost ready to send off four chapters to get edited for Through the years and I realized how much I hated them. So right now I am in the process of changing a lot of stuff around. I am also deciding to work on the "Impossible dream." I know, I need to do more, but been busy lately watching very bad slasher films.

also noticed something. I have a few ideas outlines for other stories and I came to an interesting discovery about my stories. They're all named from songs.

Through the years: Kenny Rogers
Could I have this dance: Anne Murry

So I was looking through to see what movies were being shown today, and found that TCM is showing Frankenstein Created Woman http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0061683/ this afternoon. 3:15 Eastern (check to make sure of the time).

Lets get this procrastination blog going... tomorrow. :D

I have been told that I was not clear in my Blog on the above noted program. According to the CBC's website, the program airs tonight, October the 30th at 22:00. It is followed by one titled "The Third Sex" at 23:00.

My apologies for any confusion I may have caused. I have a DVD player hooked to my boob tube but have never used it but will try tonight if the weather is clear - I only have satellite reception - no reception when there is nothing to do but watch TV - LOL.

I hope the program lives up to the trailer I saw.

Queen Ruth

May the sun always shine on your parade

The CBC has announced that its program "The Passionate Eye" will present a documentary next Sunday at 22:00 eastern time dealing with transgendered children and their parents. The trailer, shown tonight, led me to believe that the parents were supportive and the children young.

This for your information in case that you are interested in viewing.

Queen Ruth

May the sun always shine on your parade

I have stopped writing, I know I just posted a little while ago so people may not have noticed.

Well, last night I had an incident that shows how much I've changed in the last while. See, I was on my way to work, and I stopped in at sub place to grab lunch, and the kid behind the counter said "What can I get you sir?" Now, I was in my wig, my wal-mart clothes, and was carrying a purse, so "sir" just wasn't the pronoun I would have preferred him to use. But while not that long ago an incident like that would have sent me spiraling downwards, I immediately thought "poor kid, needs better glasses, cant tell sirs from ma'ams." I think its a good sign, dont you guys?

I got the final word just this afternoon.

My Chemotherapy starts around noon on Monday.

And I have been accepted into the trial study of the immunosuppressant inoculations. There was a fifty fifty chance I would actually receive the injections, and the other fifty percent, that I would just be in the other half, being monitored periodically the rest of my life.

This week I've really been out of it, but I wanted to post the two stories I had ready. Knight and Dragon to BCTS and Spinning to StarDust. However, like I said I've been ill and actually messed up the title to my own story. LOL! I posted it as Dragon and Knight instead of Knight and Dragon. Even that wasn't the original title because someone else posted a St. George and the Dragon tale. The two stories are very different but I changed mine because I like all authors want to be remembered and unique. Then working on my Voodun story, I saw someone had posted one with that in the title too!

I just wanted to thank all my readers for their response to my latest effort, St. George and the Dragon. I was concerned that the reception might be considerably less positive than it was. Those of you who have been reading it know that the theme is not tightly tied to the TG experience; however, many of the trials one of the characters goes through are directly due to the homophobic beliefs of the people in the circle where she lives.

I got up this morning had a stretch and opened the curtains and smiled.

Not a bad view and I didn't need Photoshop. The mist on the ground over the fields was lovely.

Hugs
Sue

PS: taken with an Olympus E-510 with a 40-150 lens

Did we get hit with a spammer in the comments? ->David Grace

i have been feeling ...i don't know... it's not a colour... grim is a decent enough word. i'm trying i am... i mean if i cannot feel good without popping prescriptions or smoking herbal pharma... shrugs... i do what i have to do, my bills are paid... so i've been sleeping a lot... anyways (headshake) i just wanted to apologize in advance.
diana

Once you have voted in the current contest is there a way to remove the post at the top of the screen so it no longer shows?

This is a last ditched effort to save my site from being lost forever. I would assume that if you clicked the link to open this message, you would know who I am (Dawn Hamilton) or on this site as (Rountree Dawn) and what my site was (transgender tales from Roundtree Bay)

well, my little experiment with tampons is over. While the feeling was slightly uncomfortable, it wasnt horrible. Assuming it felt at all like what a g-girl feels like once a month, I have more appreciation for what they go through ...

mostly, for me this was mostly about being able to be stimulated there without feeling "dirty." In doing this, I took a little more ownership of my body today, and that's a good thing

Just wanted to post a quick note and let everyone know that the Robinverse is officially live!

I have read most of Tanya Allans books and one Nick B book on my Kindle from Amazon.Can anyone tell me of any other BCTS authors on Amazon.co.uk please.
P.S the two authors I have allready read I would recommend to all.

This is an apology to all those who commented on my story Alone. Normally, I try to give everyone a PM or a comment in reply. However right now, real life is being a real bear with coming down with a cold, and the usual bumps in the road of bad fortune. Like all authors I regard each one like they were gold, but right now I'm really out of it.
Big Hugs to everyone and I promise to get to those thank yous when I can.
Grover

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-hampshire-15443687

All together now: awwwwwwwwwwwwww!And from Cathy's neck of the woods.

I thought I would share this for the benefit of those contemplating getting SRS. Hopefully you will be wiser because of what I am going to share.

Mine was done in Bankok, Thailand by Dr Kamon on August 15, 2006.

From the beginning Dialation of the Faux Vagina was problematic. The actual surgery was extremely simple and I had an almost pain free recovery. During post op Dilations of three times a day, I managed to achieve 1 1/4 inch diameter and 4 1/2 inch depth. When I left, I felt well but weak.

NaMoWriMo is this next month. (I hope I have that right)

I have never particiapated in it, but I believe this year I will give it a try. 3 years ago I had a good writing spell during Nov. and ended up writing 35,000 words. So I hope with a little bit of planning I can make the 50,000 word goal.

I've finished editing the first 37 chapters of HaP and am working on a detailed outline for the next 10+ chapters. I also have Princess and the Jock to re-write since the first few chapters were disasterous with errors. I could also work on Rock,Paper,Scissors.

For a few days I have been looking for my 38B padded push up bra, as I have a nice little dress that really makes the girls stand out. UM well, I'm not 38, but I use an extender and that brings it out to my 42. And before anyone says it, no it does not work that well because the straps always fall off my shoulders.

So, anyhow, my black bra was missing. :( So I made do and went out. Well, this morning my black bra was laying on top of my charging cell phone, so I know it was not there before last night. So, who returned my black bra?

I am really missing the comments I hardly get anymore. I will still keep writing I guess but I lack feedback on how sections of my story are going. Just to let you know comments may not make me change where a story is going, but they can improve what needs to be improved or help me continue what I am doing right.

Paula

Well, I was thinking about "girl lessons", and I want to go into some detail on the subject. See, because of what happened to me, I not only fought against my need to be feminine like my life depended on it, whenever I did give in and let Dorothy out, I struggled with feeling like I could never really be a girl anyway - never look like one, never really act like one. Compliments like the one I got yesterday are helping me move past those anxieties, but very, very slowly, and it still comes up on occasion. So keep cheering Team Dorothy, its really making a difference....

Who is this guy? Is he in the US congress or Senate?

http://www.addictinginfo.org/2011/10/21/dan-savage-offers-to...

Hi ladies 'n gentle beings! 'Tis I, Diana, your loopy Moongoddess, anxious and eager to share a wonderful, beautiful look at the city i call home.

Toronto Tempo is a short time-lapse film that really shows off the T-Dot in a way that no recent film has.

I hope you enjoy a wee vacation :) when you get to veemo, probably best to switch hi def off as it slows down the stream... Anyways... welcome to my city!
Hugs,
Diana

Many happy returns of the day and CARPE CAKEM!!!!! This whole internet thingie would be a lot less fun if not for you.

Huggles 'n stuff from
Catherine Linda Michel

I just wanted to say a GREAT BIG Thank You to all of you who have written to me offering support and kindness these past few days.
I had to put my beloved Mother in a nursing home this past Wednesday and it almost crushed me! She has lived in lower floor of my house for twenty years and I have taken care of her these last years because she was suffering from Dementia. A horrible disease that affects the mind to a great degree. There is no cure and and the prognosis is bleak for those afflicted with it.

This I thought was the best response to the comments left on the first part of chapter 19 of Sweet Dreams by the three really Amazing awesome girls Diana, Lisa, and Lizzie. They were so awesome it definitely get a blogpost.

You girls are right add in Jonelle and it goes over the top amazing and unbeatable. If she brings in Zoe and Ashleigh then...

Wow, I'm kinda feeling like Hank with all my Whately girls:)

LOL!
*Great Big Hugs*
Kisses for my Jonelle.
Love you all.
Bailey.