I'm trying to remain optimistic, as my attempt at humor in the title here might seem to indicate. My diabetes looks like it's finally under control with the optimum level of Insulin dosage. But the fibro and chronic fatigue continue to make things less than comfortable on a daily basis. Little steps in the right direction, though.
Last week youtube had posted a video of the judge beating his daughter. This week the story broke about the molestation of over twenty boys over a period of years by the former assistant football coach of Penn State. Neither was anticipated because they both were out of the normal context of things, which caught me blindsided and led to flashbacks and accompanying emotional and even physical distress. Having said that, along with the encouragement of a dear friend to take steps to avoid both stories, my coping mechanisms are so much better than they've ever been, and I recovered quickly.
Finally, I'm very upset with myself; not just upset, but profoundly disappointed and sad, because something I said to another person was entirely inappropriate and unfair, leading someone whom I respect to become very disappointed with me. I cannot begin to tell you how hurt I am over my own actions, and that I let down someone whom I regard as a mentor and a friend. I am so sorry for being so foolish and selfish in my attitude and actions and I am so sorry I let this person down. They deserved better. Andrea
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I Don't Think It Was Me
Not that I regard myself as any kind of mentor....a friend most certainly, and I can't imagine how you would let me down.
'Drea, just get yourself as well as possible,
Joanne
Ohhh! Holds you tightly!
Tante Andrea! I'm here if you ever need me! please remember that.
Hugs you hard!
Diana
Only Human
RAMI
Dear Friend
If you need a shoulder to cry on, mine are available. If you need a boost, I will try and give it to you. But mostly, you are human. All of us, even the best of us, have human frailties and make mistakes. No one is perfect. The only time you stop making mistakes, is when they can no longer be made, when you are six feet under. Until then, mistakes will happen, we will fail, we will disappoint others, etc. What do you do when you realize you made a mistake, well that is the first step, knowing you made the mistake, and admitting it to yourself.
If your mistake injured someone else, in any manner, own up to it (you have done so quite publicly hear), tell the person who is involved that you made a mistake, apologize. Once that is done, it is up to them to forgive. If they do so, then you have nothing to worry about, and should go forward. If they do not, then again you have done all you can do. You can do no more, and worrying about it, and letting yourself get morose, does not help. Perhaps, if the faux pas is great, a simple verbal apology is not enough. A letter or e-mail might help. If you can, get the person a small gift, a simple token of appreciation. Do something for them. You can also make it up by doing something positive that the injured party would admire.
Try and be strong, sadness, leads to depression. You do not need that.
As to the terrible things we hear and see in the news and the internet, just shut it off. Also, as you know there is evil in the world. Evil must be fought. You have suffered evil in you life, but are overcoming it, because you are a fighter. It may be hard, and at times, the evil may be overwhelming, but you have the fortitude to fight it, especially now that you have discovered yourself. If you have the strength, the best way to fight the evil, is to somehow help those, directly or indirectly who have suffered.
Also, remember that the publication of these two evils, brings the tragedy to light and allows the good folks to punish the evil doers. The Judge will likely be thrown off the bench, if not, he will not be reelected. He may even loose his law license. The girl has gotten rid of (at least partially the burden she carries by making it public. Joe Paterno and those at Penn State will be punished. Perhaps not as severely as necessary. Joe Paterno, instead of going at as the great coach he was, the last things people will remember about him is this controversy.
It may take a long time, but the GOOD will win at eventually.
Your friend and a shoulder
RAMI
RAMI
It is wise to remember
It is wise to remember when we get down on ourselves; to be human is to be fallible, it just goes with the territory.
Hugs,
Erin
= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.
= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.
Everyone makes mistakes
We wish we could undo the things we did, but it isn't possible. If that person is a real friend, they would understand that. Appearing foolish is a common human failing, but it is NOT the same as being a fool. I hope your friend will understand that.
I wish I could give you a hug and tell you things will work out, but this is the best I can do.
I wish you the best, and you are in my prayers.
Wren
big hugs, sis
I'm praying for your health hon. I am glad you avoided the stories, the pen state one caught me a good one last night. As for being disappointed in yourself, give yourself a bit of a break, okay? You've always been awesome to me.
Big hugs sis.
Dorothycolleen, member of Bailey's Angels
Well, there is forgiveness.
Sometimes I feel as if I am the most despicable, loathsome character about. But I know that to feel unacceptable is common among us. I am reminded of a Linda Ronstadt song where she uses the words "despicable me" in the lyrics.
The best you can do with your friend is to simply apologise, and if they do not eventually forgive you, then they do not have the elevated character that you believe they do, do they?
I am very sorry for your continuing pain, and know what that is like, though mine is not so severe in the last few months. You shall have my prayers for your health and peace of mind.
Much peace
Gwendolyn