I am overwhelmed by how many folks came forward to express their opinions.

Thank You!

My stories have never sought any more than a PG rating. I am all about love, not the actual act. If I've included sex as most of you said, it's just talked about, not graphically portrayed.

And that's where I will take it.

I will write the story, but it will be on your terms and mine.

Thank you,

Leslie

I have spent five holidays in Hawaii and every time I have spent most of the time on Maui, and each time I have been in close proximity to Lahaina. I never stayed in the town itself but always in Ka'anapali, a couple of miles north and Lahaina was where we would go to dine and just walk around for enjoyment. The banyan tree was a favourite sitting spot and Front Street was where all the good cafes and restaurants were located, so it is with a heavy heart that I see the devastation which has befallen the town.

I’m a contributor to the Transfiction wiki, but I have to ask... is it really a wiki about transgender fiction? Each time I look at the recent changes, virtually everything is the upload of a “superhero” type character (commonly an image) with nothing to make clear why it features on transgender fiction wiki.

Maybe I’m just the odd one out and you all love comic books.

I tried to post a story today and this is what came up!

I just wanted to post a vignette today, but I suppose that it could go in a book (I have found one called "Maryanne Peters")
How is this supposed to work?
Maryanne

My muse went crazy and decided that I could write a story that takes place in London England. A challenge I've been avoiding due to the differences in the King's English and what we speak on this side of the pond. But I guess like cross-dress, suppressing your muse's desire to write, makes it grow stronger. So I've given in to the pressure. Not only have I completed one, but I have another in the pipe line and one that I've only sketched the premise in a few paragraphs for.

Very nice visit with one of the writers from BCTS and his lovely wife last week. We met at the Cowboy Hall of Fame at OKC. Several cowgirls are tour guides there.

Over the last fortnight, I've been gathering my resources, buy men's clothing, and making all sorts of decisions in a very deliberate way. Life is really complicated and where possible I intend to live as a man as far as that is possible. I idea of living as a recluse in the deep woods keeps passing through my head. I have no idea what my life will look like in the future.

Apologies to my readers. I forgot to add the detailed map to VotV #78.

It has been fixed now. I have also included it below for reference.

Session Seven of “You’re Only Human” has been posted.


Elise returns…but is it really “her”?

Seth has his doubts…but he’s too happy to have her back to really take notice of the issue.

Three guesses as to who's it was?

This *ISN'T* a bad thing!

We're prepping an upcoming Doppler release that contains all my previous books, PLUS a handful of other stories, so I unpublished the other versions to make sure there weren't any issues with it.

Special Someones, by Melanie E., out soon on Kindle!

For those who are unfamiliar Fa'afafine is the Samoan 3rd gender.
When I first read about fa'afafine, The article said families that had all boys would choose one to raise as a girl to help in the home and look after the parents in old age.

I wrote a story called The Fa'afafine Bill set on an alternative earth. One comment said that it was stupid premiss as men could do the same jobs as women without being women.

Well hi.

It's been a long while since I wrote anything and for the first time in all that time, I hope I've actually got something on the go that I can post. Honestly, I'm missing the feedback and the kudos.

I can't say how far through I am, but as much as it pains me, I'm glad I didn't do what I'd done before, trying to make a series on the fly and finding myself up the creek without a paddle. This one, I promised wouldn't go up in parts until I'd actually finished it.

I was just reading over at fanfiction .net when one of their inbuilt ad spaces opened to show an add for this seller. AThe first book listed was by the esteemed (fancy word, I know) author ms. O'Malley, Hands of the Morri. It was listed as pre-order. I don't have an account so could not say anything nice about it. But, it is getting closer.

Apparently Patreon is having issues with my monthly contributions not letting them go through. They said they're working on it.

I am a very amateur cyclist. But I have some friends who are serious cyclists. And many of us on this blog have perhaps become fans or at least gained a deeper understanding of the sport from reading the many Gaby novels.

So I think perhaps we can all mourn the death on Saturday of 17 year old U.S. cyclist Magnus White. He was hit by a vehicle and killed while training for the upcoming world championships in Scotland.

R.I.P. Magnus

I've not been writing or commenting little if any at all. I'm searching for a way for an old person to move away and become a recluse. I was checking out cars on line, perhaps a lease if they'll let me. I hope that the financers don't try to play games with me.

Chris Archer and I are pleased to announce the launch of our novel, ‘Gamer Girl’ – available completely free at the link below:

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1431133

Petey gets a clue, in the swimming pool with a tampon!

I had intended "Afterglow" to be a solo, but my muse disagreed, so here is part 2

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/98914/afterglow-part-2

Randy can't race motorcycles anymore. But no one thought to say Randi can't ride side-hack!

I don't like to post stories so close together, but a little piece came to me last night, and I'm setting it free . . .

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/98888/afterglow

This is a long rant about my tattered relationship with my father.

Or what Maddy did next!

While the Labour party in Britain struggles with the gap between trans rights and feminist worries Russia has no such worries, Putin has banned all treatment for transgender folk making it illegal. And I thought we had problems in the west.

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2023/jul/24/vladimir-putin...

If one is stealth and not ready to out themselves, be vary wary of Mother Nature's Temporary Tattoo Parlor. Many years back I tried to get a bikini tan. Hours sunbathing, front, back and eventually if one wasn't too judgmental and used a lot of imagination it was possible to see I had been wearing a bikini while out in the sun. Over the years the results are about the same. Sadly I didn't have the opportunity to show off my bikini tan line to anyone. Okay, the dogs, cats got to see. My doctors only asked me to remove my blouse when they are behind a lead wall and aren't looking.

Cathy Michel called me this morning. She wanted everyone to know that she is still alive and keeping up the struggle. She has given my phone number to her caregivers so that in the event something happens, they can call me and let the BC community know.

Cathy is unable to sit at the computer and work or even read at this time, but she wants everyone to know how much she loves us all collectively and many of us individually as well.

There's a new short story up over on the BCTS Patreon!

https://www.patreon.com/posts/t-shirt-by-e-b-86468856

"T" Shirt

By Melanie E. and Melanie Brown

That's right! Me and Ms. Brown traded off on writing duties on this one. Can anyone guess whose parts are whose?

Melanie E.

From Norton's latest log of resolved security risks:

7/20/2023 9:11:43 PM,High,Norton Internet Security 2006 Password Manager setup.exe (Heur.AdvML.B) detected by Virus scanner,Quarantined,Resolved - No Action Required,Threat Actions performed: 1

 

7/20/2023 8:28:37 PM,High,Norton Internet Security 2006 Password Manager setup.exe (Heur.AdvML.B) detected by Virus scanner,Quarantined,Resolved - No Action Required,Threat Actions performed: 1

As most of you can tell, "Games without Frontiers" is pulling from the darkest part of my past, and then spinning it by imagining if I had been given support right away.

And writing it is stirring up my PTSD like crazy.

So why am I doing this to myself?

Because I think I have no choice.

This story is bubbling up every time I go to bed, so by the time I wake I either write or explode.

So the story will continue, and I will need all the support I can get.

I’m watching Ken Burns’ excellent Baseball.

I think there are a few baseball stories here. Recommendations?

So I have had a tough time the last couple of days.

Been fighting PTSD, and dealing with depression at the same time.

And just for the sprinkle on top, I have also been dealing with gender dysphoria.

But I will not surrender, and the sun will shine again.

Until it does, I appreciate any huggles you guys want to sent.

I've had an email today from the Tavistock & Portman NHS Trust to confirm that they have accepted a referral for me. I immediately responded, asking them for my effective referral date and who made the referral. The answers took 15 minutes (!): 26 July 2022 and my GP's team made the referral.

So it's in. Unfortunately the other piece of information from the Trust was that they are giving first appointments to patients with a referral date in July 2018! So if you felt tremors, it's not because I'm jumping up and down with joy.

mixed with hurricanes!

...to discover that my work is being pirated online.

Earlier this year, I noticed one of my pen names come up on a routine online search. The link led to the "erotic fiction" section of a (fairly) well known file-sharing site. Apparently, people have been trading PDFs of my short story collections since (at least) May 2020. These included most of my anthologies and related artwork.

This is interesting. Next Saturday is the fictional date of Darry and Marcia's wedding in book 3, and AF 2 is scheduled to come out on Kindle just about now. what a nice wedding present for the two.

I just finished reading Horse by Geraldine Brooks. I hadn't read anything else by the author and chose it almost at random from the available titles at the library. She does a remarkable job of combining the true history of the greatest race horse of the nineteenth century with her fictional tale of slavery and of racism then and now. While referencing physical abuse and family separations she brings home the truth of Frederick Douglas's explanation of the harm of slavery even under a "good" master.

'Dear Rylee' is being taken down from BCTS, save for the first three chapters and the epilogue due to Amazon's policies, but there is good news! The ebook will be released in a few days, meaning you can purchase that, or buy the print version. It would also be a shame if you could click here and just get the whole damn thing for free.

At Costco, in OKC, yesterday back at the pharmacy dept. She is one of those women we all write about. The one in ten thousand females we lesser mortals never see. Let me set the scene. Her facial features had the looks of a top movie actress. She is wearing lycra or painted on polished black pants along with a crop top same material. From my long experience judging women’s measurements, she was a thirty eight, twenty six, thirty eight. Her polished black hair in a ponytail still reached the top of her buttox. Her age was around twenty six. She was wearing strappy sandals.

I have noticed that the last several stories I posted are not getting many reviews. Two years ago, it was common to get 20-30 reviews from a post and now it is a struggle to get 5.

The reason I write is primarily an outlet for myself and secondly to support the readers here and the site.

I admit that reviews of my stories help motivate me as I love hearing how what I wrote helped someone, even if it was just to take their mind to a better place for a few hours.

I wouldn't call myself homosexual having never had willing penetrative intercourse other than anal rape. Many years later I look back at the three boys who did it and hope that they repented and had good lives. When it happened, the victim was blamed as much as the assailants. The PTSD and Psychologists who drove surgical intervention were as much at fault as I am. Lately I am just sure that I would have done fine as a crossdresser. I did not know it at the time but the peculiarities of law mean that if I had not started living as a woman, I might be living in a tend or even dead.

Where transgender compete on equal footing

My partner, Laura, of 33 years just died.

One moment she was struggling with a bad chest congestion and next moment her heart stopped and she stopped breathing.

I was there when it happened. As soon I realized she had stopped breathing I called 911. The EMTs were there soon after.

I am still in shock at the moment.

She was far from perfect but she was all I had. She struggled with alcoholism, fallout from a fall that hit her head, depression, deepening memory issues, psoriatic arthritis. She was basically bed bound for the most part.

Well, despite the bike troubles I made it to NordKapp today. Winds gusting to 20mph from the north giving a temp inc wind chill of -2C. Then the clouds cleared and it rose to + 3C (in wind chill) out of the wind, it is actually nice.

Doing better now...

Ever since my name & gender change was official, in March of this year, I have been informing various folk officially of the change. One of those was the Tavistock & Portman GIC Trust in London. When I received a "who are you" back in May I had to let them have my old and new NHS registration numbers, but they couldn't find me. Most recently I sent them the referral documentation.

Well, it's been 3 years since I posted a story for through the years and two years since my last blog. Life has been busy, but I think I finally got some stuff done and wanted to post again. I looked and saw I've been on this site for over 12 years now. So what a better way than bringing out my original story and continuing it

For many years me and Fiona have provided an IRC server with Ellesmera.dragonaerie.de. However, since about 6 years we have seen a steady decline in people visiting. Only spam bots found it then and when. We kept the service up, even when the network split occurred and when the chat moved to discord.
Nothing much happened there for the past 3 years, so today has been the day, I have finally switched off the IRC server. Ellesmera is no more.
It has been with us for a very long time.