I had avoided talking about this, mostly because she reads this blog on occasion (and has no interest in performing for others) but I love her dearly, and right now, i am very scared. Last night, she sounded so depressed, in fact suicidal, and there is nothing i can do to help. I dont live close, i dont even have a rl phone number i can call her on. I am stuck hoping she is smart enough to seek help. Hon, if you read this, please hold on, okay?

Don't know if anyone has been following the It Gets Better Project (www.itgetsbetter.org), but it's been one awesome YouTube video after another, telling bullied LGBTQ kids (and others) that there is hope for their future lives, that they are valued and will be loved, that the despair, isolation, and bullying of high school is but a temporary hurdle, and not to go and off themselves. Ordinary folks and famous ones, the powerless and the powerful are participating with wonderful supporting videos. They're not all gold, but some of them are outstanding.

I've been a little depressed these last few weeks, and usually when I'm depressed I avoid people in real life and I spend more time online. This isn't exactly the greatest cure for depression.

Well, I am basically trying to hold on until my Dr.'s appointment on January 28. I don't really want to need to call in before then, but it's touch and go whether I am going to make it or not. It makes me wonder why I have such trouble asking for help. I think it is because of of my rapist being a doctor, but i am not sure. I dont even know why i am feeling so fragile right now. Is it the meds, dealing with flashbacks, my gender struggle, or maybe all three at once?

Here's one for Sci-Fi fans: the 10th Doctor is to marry the 5th Doctor's daughter. Who once played the 10th Doctor's daughter/clone.

Well, he is on record as talking about the "wibbly wobbly timey wimey" nature of his travels, so I guess anything's possible...

http://www.theregister.co.uk/2011/01/05/who_marriage/

Well, my muse has made her call, and my "wild card" story drew the short straw, and i have begun the writing for it. To (hopefully) whet the appetite of my five fans (I am kidding, there might be ten of you), i will give you a quick little link to some info on the series:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wild_Cards

My story takes place in 1989, just after George H.W. Bush is elected president in the U.S.

In the 1969 the United States Congress enacted legisdlation making it legal for 18 year olds to buy, possess, and drink alcohol. This legislation would be in effect until the Reagan Administration's The National Minimum Drinking Age Act of 1984 was passed. for more information about what the Alcohol laws were before 1969, please go to a university law library and look at those statutes or if you live in a state capitol, go to the capitol law library. Even Wikipedia says that in the Reagan administration the law was passed declaring 21 to be the minimum drinking age.

Did anyone watch the Today Show this morning? They ran a segment on a 5 year old boy who likes to wear sparkly pink dresses and do other "girl" things. He started this when he was about 2. His mother said that she was uncomfortable with this at first and tried to distract him with saying "Why don't you play with this truck?" or other "boy" toys. After a while his older brother asked "Why can't you just let him be happy?" (Out of the mouths of babes!!) The mother then realised that this was HER problem and not his, and now supports him.

Now that Best Served Cold is winding down toward the end, I've started developing two new stories. The first will be a follow up Center story, that actually takes place at the same time as Best Served Cold, starring Mattie. The story will fill in some of the blanks of this story.

The second story is How To Be a Hero, a sequel to my Green Arrow story. The story will be told in a similar fashion like the first one, with a combination of present day events and flashbacks.

My question is which one do I do first?

Well, welcome to a new year, and a new decade. I havent done a lot of writing since finishing part 3 of "the lucky one". but i am less panicked about that than i would have been before. i have my "wild card" story to work on, a couple of ret-con ideas, sequels to a couple of my earlier stories, and my first and probably only attempt at a SRU story, and that's not counting having to try to write my way out of the box i put myself in for the conclusion of "The lucky one".

Thanks to the love and care of family, the lurgi seems to be subsiding somewhat. I managed to write a bit last night after I woke myself up in a coughing fit, and whatever that may sound like it, it is an improvement on the last week and a bit. I'm hopeful that I may have a post within the next week or so, but please don't hold me to it.

I hope you all have a wildebeest of a year, and loads of fun.

New Year Hugs,

Angharad.

Well, i was looking at my account the other day, and noticed I had passed the 1 year anniversary of being a member here. However, at the end of January, it will be one year since i published "The saga of E-Girl". A lot has changed for me since then, much of it for the good. I have (hopefully) improved as a writer, I have made some wonderful friends, Wand I have made serious progress in dealing with my rape, as well as my gender status. Who knows what the next year will bring? Not me, that's for sure. I would never have predicted what has happened this one. Happy new year, everybody.

She is the first transgender person known to have been elected as a trial judge and one of very few elected to any office.

Read the article here, before it is archived in a few days.

http://www.contracostatimes.com/news/ci_16966747?nclick_check=1

I followed this election, though I live in the next county.

There was some opposition by some people/groups, but her opponent did not seem to use her gender/gender change as much of an issue.

I got the following email from my Son when I got back to Ohio, and had Computer access again:

Dad,

I think I have hit that place where you were when you decided that Christianity or the Christian's definition of God was not for you. When I was having a child out of wedlock and Christy was accusing mom of cheating on you, only to find out that Christy was doing bad things herself. What awful days those must have been.

I'm posting a couple of stories that aren't TG stories on Fictioneer.com. Come on over, there are many good stories. I posted Dena a few days ago, and I've started a new serial, Side Affects. Dena is a short with very little TG, and Side Affects has none. They are stories I started writing after my amputations, so they are a little angrier than what I write now.
Fictioneer has some really good stories, check it out!

Wren

I'm starting a new job in downtown Manhattan in mid-January, and I need to locate a residence-type hotel where I can stay for a couple of months.

I'm hoping to find one far enough out of the city that it's less expensive (yeah, I know, dream on) but with a fairly straightforward commute on the train.

Is there anybody out there who can make some suggestions? Long Island? New Jersey? Connecticut?

Any advice will be gratefully appreciated.

I'm a reader of blogs and certain forums. One of which is airliners.net. A post from November 2000.

Well, as it turned out, i didn't lose my stuff. Thanks to my friend, who is the bestest techie ever, I am back in business, and she even got my stories back. expect more silliness from "The Lucky One" soon!

Well, there I am after a week's shifts, and listening to music...and what comes onto my stereo is Loreena Mckennitt's adaptation of Tennyson's Lady of Shalott. Now... a better analogy, I can't imagine.

Today everyone was the 4 month anniversary of me and Jonelle formally letting you all know that we're together. I'm not sure when you actually should start counting these things I think 6 months is an important one too...anyways, seeing as it falls so nicely between X-mas and New years I'm sharing this with all of you and saying it to her.

I blithely expected my kids to be accepting when I told them I was transgendered; after all, I'd modeled acceptance to them all their lives. So telling them would be a piece of cake! Right??

Wrong

My oldest told my wife the only reason he didn't yell at me when I told him was because we were traveling down the freeway at 75 MPH in a driving rain and I was practically comatose huddled against the door.

My middle son said nothing. Of course that means little since he normally says almost nothing.

Apologies for the late posting of episode 6. Christmas got in the way somewhat and now I'm down with a virus which is, amongst less pleasant things, affecting my creative flow. The next chapter will be posted as soon as I'm happy with the writing.

My nephews and niece showed promptly at our agreed time, saw me for the first time as Cathy... and embraced me and told me they love me and accept me!

We went out and ate, re-hashed old times, insulted one another.. good naturedly of course, and just had a wonderful time. They all knew about my transition before this, but had never actually seen Cathy. Now they have, and I have regained some of my family. I had the chance to explain why I am changing, in a way they understood and accepted. THIS is the best Christmas present I could EVER have gotten, and I am so thankful.

A spammer promoting tours of West Bengal in Afrikaans? WTF?

One more spammer down, 367,955,403 to go.

Hugs,
Erin

I know this has nothing to do with tg topics, but I wanted to share this any way.

Last Wed night, my parents, my wife, my son and I went to see the new production of Les Miserables, it is currently at the Papermill Playhouse in Millburn, NJ thru this next week, and then continuing on tour thru the US. I believe the next stop is in Philadelphia.

My son had come to enjoy the music from the 10th anniversary concert, but had never had the opportunity to see the show, he was enthralled, it was great to share this with him.

Well, Christmas turned out ok. My daughter and i made a gingerbread train, she opened every present in the world, and generally turned my house upside down (but in a good way), and then the ex came over and we had a civilized Christmas dinner. All in all, a good Christmas. I hope all of you had good ones as well.

I just hung up my phone after making lunch plans with two of my nephews and one niece for tomorrow! None of them have seen me since I began my RLT more than two years ago, and I'm, I think justifiably, nervous. Long tailed cat in a roomful of rocking chairs, anyone?

This might be the beginning of a reconciliation with my family, from whom I have been estranged since I began my RLT. I'm so excited right now I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight!

Wish me well?

Cathy

What is going on? I look at the numbers on the chapters of 300 Rains and it seems like 200+ hits on Chap 20 missed chap 19. Are people missing the story?

We've got rain here. After two days of sunshine it's back to rain again. It's getting downright soggy. I don't live in any of the mudslide-threatened areas but there have been evacuations and road closings. Even one of the freeways was closed because of boulders loosened by the rain rolling down the mountainsides and into traffic.

Okay, this is a bit crazy even for me. Chapter 19 of 300 Rains got posted, then a quick posting of Chapter 20. So two new chapters of that story and then this morning I had an urge to finish up the next chapter of my Ranma fic. Crazy man. So three stories in under 24 hours. Merry fricking Christmas indeed.

So, one more present for you all and things will hopefully return to normal next week for chapter 21 of 300 Rains.

I wanted to add another chapter of Assassin, but I'm not finished with it yet, so I'm leaving nothing but a lump of coal. Actually, the reason for this blog is to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, and if you're not Christian what ever holiday you celebrate. This is the time of year to love anyone you sometimes want to hate. Peace, Arecee

It appears that in making my first post on behave of SaraUK's story I've left a html tag off the end and messed up the front page.

Many many apologies for doing this, I would fix it myself but I can't find a way to edit my post.

Xmas Hugs

Sammi

If you need to know where Santa is, go here:

http://www.noradsanta.org/en/index.html

You can also visit google earth:

http://www.noradsanta.org/en/track3d.html for more detailed information on his whereabouts.

Remember to leave out some mince pies,carrots for the reindeer and a glass of sherry to keep Santa warm.

Happy Christmas

Love

Sue

XXXX

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Ho, ho, ho!

I wanted to wish everyone a Happy Holidays and Seasons Greetings! So Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanza, Good Yule, Happy Soltice, Happy Festivus... whatever you do or don't celebrate. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you for a safe and glorious season! If you drink, have one for me, but please be safe doing so!

To Everybody;

In the spirit of the season, and recognizing the multi-cultural nature of our group, I want to wish all of you a Happy Holiday season!

Wren (Ho Ho Ho!)

I know writers love to have their stories noticed and a comment is perhaps the most appreciated. This isn't a plea for more comments rather a plea for those so carefully written missives to find their way onto the list.

Just recently I've made some erudite(?) comment and found, to my surprise, it wasn't where I expected to find it. At first I thought I'd made some dreadful mistake and Erin had deleted it. Then I realised I'd fallen foul of the double layer posting regimen and clicked off the story without confirming the comment preview.

Just a quickie to let you know I'll be offline for a few days - so you'll have to cope without your daily dose of random weirdness in the comments section of your stories :) No doubt you'll also spot plenty of catching up comments when I return mid-week :)

Anyway, on with the main point of this post: wishing you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Or, for the benefit of some readers, Nadolig Llawen a Blwyddyn Newydd Dda.

Well, I would like to take a break from my regularly scheduled whining and remember all the gifts i have been given this Christmas. These are in no particular order, but here goes:

1: my home. In a time when far too many have none, i have a safe, warm bed, a fridge full of food, lights, TV, internet, and i can dress how i please in it

2: My mom. Her acceptance of me as Dorothy has simply amazed me, and gives me such comfort when i am struggling.

3: My daughter. I love that bundle of energy more than i thought i could love anyone, and i know she feels the same about me.

Hi folks,

well, today is a very happy day for me, so I thought I might share some news with you. First for the fans of the Gabyzone IRC channel on Cyberbrats Network - Fiona and me will moving the European hub to a less expensive and more powerful server. We're taking every precaution possible to avoid any service disruptions but... we can't guarantee for anything, so there might be short disruptions in service.

The other even better news is: The court in Potsdam decided about my name change application and from today on my name is official :) One of the best xmas gifts I ever had.