Well maybe!

Okay so last night, I dreamed I was back in university, and for some reason I decided I was ready to come out as Dorothy.

I was told there was a building with a lot of clothes and other items being given away, so I went there, and after riding the most bizarre series of elevators ever (it was more like a ride at an amusement park) I found the place.

But looking at the clothes, they were apparently discards from the drama department, and I decided that was of little help to me, as I wanted to look as much like a regular female student as possible.

So when my brother came over on Friday, he told us that his doctor had a lot of trouble finding a pulse on his foot.

Now, none of the reasons this could have happened are good news, but some are obviously worse than others, and I'm going to admit I'm worried.

So I'm taking all hugs and prayers anybody wants to send my way, and if you would include my brother in those care packages, that would be awesome.

Which all feels a bit weird!

How is the movie The Matrix about the trans experience?

It might surprise some people who know me as having focus issues - ie: "Squirrel" every few seconds, but on a few occasions I have actually been able to enter a state of hyperfocus.

Now, its possible I'm wrong, but I think this state is a combination of being in manic mode while also wanting to disassociate due to PTSD triggers.

for the last time! Well for now, i shall be back.

Its been quite an eventful month, one that i'd rather not repeat although there have been some good days, but on Friday i will be back on a bus to Brizzle. Things with father have settled down, his time in the convalescent home will depend on the physio so there is no necessity for me to stay longer, my brother should be about for visiting purposes from Friday. The other thing delaying my return south has been my back, its not right yet but i should manage the journey without too much discomfort by travel time.

OK, time for the truth: did anyone else here ever hold private strip-shows in the mirror when you had the house all to yourself?

Details, please. Leave nothing to the imagination.

Image released into the public domain by the author.

We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.

So I had an interesting thing happen in March this is the first time I have thought about it since then

I was at a birthday party for my friends kid.

Her aunt started trying to tell me being trans goes against the bible.

I looked at her and told her that trans people have been around since before the pack of lies called religion and that we would be here long after then I quoted a bible verse of proverbs 4/7 talking about knowledge wisdom and UNDERSTANDING and got her to shut up

Modern gender role assumptions may have wrongly colored conclusions about the past:

https://www.livescience.com/archaeology/men-hunt-and-women-g...

but needs must!

This is probably nonsense, but it is a theory I had not heard about trans folk. This is about the effect of pollution on gender.

Recent evidence indicates that phthalates from plastic and polychlorinated biphenyls (PCBs) are one of many factors predicting gender dysphoria, particularly in the case of male-to-female transgenders.

Polluted groundwater yields ambiguous genitalia for vulnerable species. The modern human environment is replete with substances that mimic sex hormones. Could these chemicals play a role in contemporary gender fluidity?

It was my fault entirely that I pasted the wrong story into this site.
I have rectified that now. I am sorry for the confusion it might have caused.

I get an opportunity for an update!

So, the site tells me I have been on BC for a year and a day (Insert picture of champagne bottle here)! I’ve posted a lot of what Janet Seldon called “words ’n’ shit” over the last twelve months.

Maybe too many.

If I’ve been annoyingly eager, annoyingly enthusiastic, or just plain annoying, I apologize. There are times when I know I’ve butted up against the three golden rules, and I’m extremely sorry for that. You are a wonderful group of people, and you have been very welcoming. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Hi wonderful BCTS family!

I hope everyone has been doing as well as possible, especially if you're stuck in the parts of the world affected by the horrible heat and humidity at the moment.

I've been dealing with some not fun medical stuff, and it's making things really difficult and expensive here. I've started having seizures more often, and we don't know why just yet. I've had to take a few new meds, buy new medical equipment and severely reduce my hours I put into my on the side jobs.

I know everyone is waiting for 'Dear Ariel', but this time I'm sticking to a very strict posting schedule for a few reasons. First of all, the chapters are longer and take more time to write, so I want to stay 2-3 weeks ahead so I don't run myself into the ground. Second, the editing takes time, and thirdly, I'm chronically depressed and sometimes need to go outside and scream at the ocean. I live in Michigan though so...there's no ocean.

In any case, there are a lot of Ariel scenes in Dear Ariel, but today I'm going to share a Rylee scene with you. Enjoy

is it just me or did 9 years plus of my stories get wiped out?

I just logged in to check a plot or 2 the fastest way I know how and each one of my stories I checked is ZERO words?

is anyone else seeing that?

cause I don't know if I have it in me to days of reposting all of the over again!

Playing Bumper Cars in real life with real cars is not an option

If you use PayPal, as some of us do to help fund this site, please be careful about phishing. I spotted an exceptionally well-crafted attempt where the second “a” of “PayPal” was replaced by the IPA schwa symbol: depending on font, nearly indistinguishable without keen eyes.

So today I took Sam (and Sharon and Mom) to the local airplane museum.

Sam had an amazing time, she found it so fascinating, especially with my mom providing bits of personal history (my step dad was a pilot, my dad was an air traffic controller, and my grandfather drove a tank in WW II)

All in all, a pretty good day.

over Sheffield last night!

The last chapter I read for this story was chapter 19. Are there any new since that one appeared? I kinda fell in love with it and hope that it continues.

Charlotte

I only just realised that this was only a link to an external site which no longer seems to exist and as I had the story on a pen drive I quickly edited it and have posted it as new story. Apologies to those who have already read it but it's probably worth a second one. I have met James Cracknell and he really is dishy. (Didn't wash my hand that had shaken his for a couple of days!)

I thought my problems with fatigue and everything else was Covid related, but it turns out I have cat scratch fever, and all of my symptoms match the common symptoms for that. I have started medication for it, and I'm feeling better every day. Cat scratch fever is fairly rare, and in most cases resolves itself, but with my weakened immune system, I have apparently been fighting it for some time now. It can be very serious if untreated for long periods of time, but I have no symptoms of it having reached that point.

After enjoying the regular Sunday afternoon/evening Zoom chats hosted by Wendy Jean, I got to thinking that my trip to Canada in July could be an opportunity to meet with a few BCTS members. My main reason for the trip is a conference regarding the use of [Mennonite] Low German in media and the process of documenting and formalizing the grammar and orthography, as well as developing the corresponding writers utilities as open source software tools. This conference is scheduled for 12-14 July in Aylmer, Ontario. I will have some down-time on the Saturday and Sunday.

There is at least one balanced view on the recent hysteria of transwomen invading women-only spaces, this is well written article quoting evidence to support her view that trans women are likely to be more vulnerable and to have received more abuse than cis gendered women and that instead of being exclusive we should all be supporting each other to protect ourselves from predatory men, which isn't a diatribe against men, just those who abuse and murder all types of women and vulnerable groups.

Do read it, it's really good stuff.

The final book sale for June will be “To Be a Different Someone”
It will not be free, just on sale, starting June 20th until the 24th.

If you're the praying type, please pray for me as I am struggling with a combination of PTSD and manic phase rage. If you're not, you could always send a huggle.

Rather puzzled here. Just went to sort out some more of a story, and all of my posts seem to have disappeared. The framework is there, and the comments, but no stories.

I'm very ill with a Urinary Tract Infection and Arthritis in my back. The Hospital has given me Antibiotics and Narcotic pain killer. Right now it all feels quite dire.

Gwen

Ok all try again to be more detailed boy works hard at school to get extra time off over Christmas vacation and goes to visit friends or family in florida starts dressing as a girl think there are two sisters
Works as a elf or a Christmas show can't remember which
Also meets some wealthy boys and there father and at some time gets involved in something illegal and gets on the news as he helps get the bad guys cought when he returns home decides to live as a girl and is sort of popular because of being on the news

and apparently I am not showing any signs of neurological damage.

The doc said my occasional memory lapses are more likely caused by my manic phase, and my PTSD than the beginnings of dementia

I think that's good news.

There are movies that hurt, but in a good way. These movies stay with us for years to come. Yet everytime we watch them we cry yet again.

These are some that instantly come to mind.

The black hole- death of bob.

Star Trek the motion picture- when Kirk and Scotty show us the new rebuilt enterprise for the first time.

Field of dreams - while the whole movie is well done the end just kills me.

Titanic.

Galaxy quest- the beginning of this movie hurts.

The wraith- car movie totally but the end hurts.

I could use a proof of concept reader. Need someone to tell me if I a crazy or insane. send email addy and I will send you a story. It is like my usual stuff. message me.

Paula

Hi Everyone!

We're getting very close to the end of Dear Rylee, and I while I realize that most of you are wondering if she survives the next chapter, I'll remind you that it's an autobiography, and I'm right here :P That being saiiiiiddd I want to thank everyone for sticking with the story in spite of typos, subpar writing, and literal mental breakdowns from me every thirty seconds. Though, admittedly, I've improved quite a bit since The Mockreet, and even more since my doctor prescribed Prozac(which is working well, by the way).

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Here is my plug for my latest book on Amazon - "Romancing History".

I don’t remember all of it, though I know the kindle add is or had at one point been here.

The kid has a backpack on.

A I believe a teenager is either kicked out or runs away. Due to sexual abuse by father/stepdad.

Lives nearby secretly in the woods/forest in a treehouse

Rescues sister from same fate

Reunion with I believe mother only for her to be killed moments later.

Neighbour/s help the child/ren.

That’s about all I remember, it’s really bugging me.

It's Petey Time!

I don't know how many people are aware, but I'm trying to help Ms. Joyce with some things involving the site. Part of that help includes organizing new authors and/or books to come out on Doppler.

Well, we have a great writer lined up to join the ranks of those we've helped get published, but there's one problem: one of her stories, quite an excellent one, that she wants to publish uses the Altered Fates/Medallion of Zullo universe.

And thus, the rights game begins!

I've just posted Mindful 2 as the sequel to Mindful 1 on BC. It's the full length novel,

got a new song up:

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/98371/we-cant-be-erased

Good morning! I know there are readers who prefer not to start a multi-part series until it’s finished, so I wanted to let all of you now that Always and Forever is done. Eighteen chapters over eight installments, but the word total is around 45,000, so it’s not a long read. Enjoy!

I finally finished a different writing project over the weekend so today I started work on UG5. At the moment the working title is ....{redacted}.... There's a few thousand words down so far and if my muse is going to stay on good form then I may have this book with my proofreaders in about a month!

Meanwhile I will shortly start to serialise UG3 Diminishing Returns

There are plenty of ideas for new Tammy at the moment but no new words as yet.

I am at a crossroads of emotional confliction.

It has been a long time of pain & misery, the loss & abandonments & all the other devilish evils that continue to plague me.

My life has been a burden of extreme hardships, continual abuse, unrelenting strife & reoccurring defilement.

is certainly living up to the hype so far!

Then your health fails. In my case that means my attention falters. This is extracted from a reply to an author I was trying to get some updates from. The author decided to be a smartass in reply.

I've been undergoing treatment for heart failure, and my attention to BC has faltered. Thankfully my shoebox of medications, for that as well as chronic major depression is sorting things out so I am getting back to (semi) normal. Still got some major heart tests to run that might throw a monkey wrench in the works, but we'll find out when we find out.