Well we buried Jimmy yesterday . He is no longer in pain after his Motorcycle crash 2 years ago . I got to meet his children and Grandchildren . His younger daughter not only lost her dad BUT her husband got the call that his DAD died the same morning . What are the odds of losing 2 important people on the same day .
Goodbye my friend

Forgot the links to Lulu!

http://www.lulu.com/content/paperback-book/gaby---culture-cl...

I have been reading about Leelah Alcorn, and even though I never knew her in life, I find myself feeling a strong connection with her death.
Because I've been where she was.

Two times I had a plan, and came within moments of carrying it out, and once I simply found myself with a knife at my wrist not even remembering putting it there.

I have tried to "pray away the trans" as hard any person could, and with every bit of sincerity I possess.
I have been to Christian councilors looking for someone to "cure" me.

I have wondered if God hated me.

Actually trying to remember a story. Over the holidays I heard some kids complaining about going back to school. Basically, what's the point if you can look stuff up on the internet.

I thought, what you going to do if the internet/communications are down?

But, back to school. What is school? Learning yes but I think one of the biggest reasons is socialization. Teaching kids how to interact with the world and others.

to everyone who requested artwork or info regarding it. The principal, who was going to give it a try, decided to scrap the whole project.

My intentions were good, but then we all know what the road to hell is paved with, yes?

Again, my abject apologies. I'm sorry if I got anyones hopes up, only to dash them. Please forgive me.

Catherine Linda Michel

I was remembering and going through some older stories and fun time I had with them (It would be nice to see all star Maiden by Decree read by people again) and remembered Edeyn´s stories - mainly my favourite Violet Ajah and Sk8r Grrls.
Since Edeyn had both mainly pulled down for rewrite, only shards of them remain here on BCT. If there would be an interest, I have original 27 chapters of Sk8r Grrls still saved on HDD, so their re-upload would not be problem if anyone is still interested in them.

that I didn't get Wednesdays update done on my site - you can read it today instead.

In other news, my editor has just taken delivery of 7 new chapters so look out over New Year for the conclusion of Book 12+1!

ttfn

Mads

Well, I am back in sunny Florida and the high temp was 80 degrees. Yesterday I was in San Francisco and the temp was low 50s. On the other hand I just had a glorious 6 days with my son, Sean and his mom, Toni. There was warmth. They love me. I'm not sure that I understand it all but they love me.
Toni got us tickets to "Chanticleer" www.youtube.com/watch?v=ohH62CSC574, which was magnificent and I even went to church with her on Christmas Eve to hear her in the choir.

Just came back from the vet.

Our four year old, Simon, has a couple chipped/broken teeth that may need to be removed. Otherwise very healthy.

Rusty, almost 20 years old, has lost a pound - 1/8th of his weight -- since this summer. He has blood in his stool, is somewhat anemic and his colon feels thick and abnormal. This on top of his kidney disease and heart murmur.

They did tests. We find out Monday.

They gave us some meds to ease his symptoms.

The vet first thought colitis but given his age and the abnormal feeling bowel... quite possibly cancer.

or

Here I go again.

No health insurance, which means scripts run out. One of them was my antidepressants. I probably am going to have to go out of pocket with this one.

Problem is the withdrawal. It is a killer, or could be. About a week before Christmas I went into a depression that I would class as life threatening. When I get like that I don't reach out to people, I just shut down. Which probably accounts for why I don't have the meds yet, a positive feedback loop of the worst sort. It broke in time for Christmas, which was good.

I seem to have a habit of creating stress in situations far beyond what the situation actually calls for.

For example, leading up to my going to my aunt's for Christmas dinner, the battle I was waging to conquer my fear and go in a dress was so intense I was in tears. (Jaci can confirm this, she listened to me cry)

But in the end, I went in my church dress, and it was no problem whatsoever.

This article appeared on today's Guardian website and makes worrying and disturbing news.

http://www.theguardian.com/world/2014/dec/26/transphobic-tra...

So, I am feeling a bit of frustration because several of the author's whose stories I really like post so infrequently between chapters that I've forgotten everything by the time they do. And I have been guilty of the same offense myself.

So, I am wondering about posting an entire story of say 12 chapters, as an example, at once as 12 different files? I've had poor performance at writing new chapters of a multi chapter story and getting them posted in a timely manner. For example, my 4 chapter "Katia" story took about 14 months.

My Christmas day when to hell with 1 phone call this afternoon . Our friend Jimmy never woke up this morning . The big guy (6'6") was 54 and probably had an aneurysm as he was in the hospital with headaches .
We have lost to many friends and family very young
Rest in Peace Jimmy you will be missed

Well, I have had a busy Christmas.

Sharon called me not long after I had come home and gone to bed, telling me that she had fallen, and was bleeding.

I drove over, picked up her and my daughter, took Sharon to the hospital and brought my daughter to my house to wait for word.

Finally, about 2:30, she called and we went and picked her back up at the hospital and took her and my daughter to their home.

Sometimes I wonder why I bother. I had an idea for a Christmas story but it had to be written and posted yesterday to be effective. It needed a sixteen year old boy soprano, they're unusual. So it needs a contrivance, there's always the cop out of magic, genital damage pre puberty, AIS or intersex - quite rare, or T-blockers. I opted for the latter, administered by a mother who thought she was doing best for her son. I then have calls of child abuse and for another author to redress the balance.

This was my repost of a story I wrote quite a while ago. The last time I posted it was four years ago. I still think it's a nice story that takes place in a universe not much different than ours; just that there's more magic.

http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/24037/cynthia-and-chri...

Sometimes they can't be clocked.

Just thought that I would pass this bit along as a comfort to my Sisters here.

I was once told by someone who was quite sure of themselves that if the second finger was longer than the third, you were a boy. Well, in the last years, I have met women, some with as many as 5 children who have that anatomical feature. So, you can relax.

The long finger only shows that there was an elevated level of testosterone in the womb in the first trimester.

Merry Christmas

Gwne

I'm adding music links to each Posting. I went back and did it for part one. Definitely listen to the Rachmaninoff Cello Sonata. It's a great piece of music.

Hello everyone,

I wish you all Merry and Happy Christmas! With many presents and in company of true friends. And to make it for your even more pleasant, let´s play some piano music which I found here: https://www.youtube.com/user/EasyPianoCZ/videos
So may your Muses be with you XD.
Enjoy!

Robin Šebelová
Otrokovice, Czech Republic

I just want to say Merry Christmas to everyone on this Site and Hope all of you have MANY MORE of them in your Future too! Richard

with anyone here, especially those from the U.K.? Jenny used to be a regular at Storysite and in the chats there. She published some stories and her "Britionary" there. She left quite awhile ago and hasn't been seen or heard of in several years.

If anyone knows her or knows where one can get hold of her, I'd greatly appreciate it.

Thanks and Merry Christmas to all,
Catherine Linda Michel

It's that time of year when stories take a backseat to real life. That means there may be sporadic story delivery for a week or so. Abnormal service will be restored in due course.

I was looking at a site analytical tool which stated that 75% of BC's traffic comes from the U.S. and about 6% from the UK, 4% AUS, 4% Can.

Erin - Are these percentages somewhat accurate?

Given a semblance of accuracy it seems to me that a disproportionate amount of posted content (stories, blogs, and comments) come from the UK.

Do others share my perspective?

If so, do people have an opinion of why this is?

December 23. It has been 10 years since the family got on my computer assumed I was gay, and threw me out. At first it was touch and go as to whether I would make it or blow my brains out. This was one of the happiest Christmases I have had until my son sent me an email saying he was coming for a visit. He'll likely see his Mum and sisters, and I suppose if I am fortunate if he will not come to see me.

I looked back at my notes. Comdex was started in March of 2002. Twelve years of having a story hanging over my head. In that time, things we take for granted in criminal investigations have moved from an esoteric field (I had help from a Florida State Trooper) to being a TV show.

Cruise ships have had their dirty laundry aired to the public. The worth of the telemedicine equipment described early on to the cruise lines has proven invaluable.

It's been fun. I'm pleased the story will go full circle in Chapter 13.

I sort of promised I would post my last novel in the California Saga series before the end of the year. Somehow, I managed to do it. It has been a struggle to say the least. It has take nearly a year and a half to write. The problem with writing a story that is happening simultaneously with four other novels is making sure that everything is happening in the right order. Thank heavens I had a pretty good time line to work from.

I am really struggling with my latest attempt at a story. Anybody want to take a look at what I have and make a suggestion?

As many will know, I separated from my ex in 2008 but was able to gain custody of my (then 9yo) daughter in 2010. Since then I have made best efforts to maintain contact between my daughter and her maternal family, albeit within the limits of a restrictive court order.

Been wanting to reread a story and cannot remember the name of it let alone what series that it is in. The first book is about a human er doctor who is turned into a werewolf and falls in love with the female alpha of the local werewolfs.

Anyone interested in seeing a Christmas story from me this year, even if it is a bit on the short side.

I am writing a story that is kind of TG/TS except that there isn't any cross dressing or anything in it. It is more of a lines of someone coming to terms that a person is TG and accepting them for who they are. It has some religious tones and I don't think people care for that any more. Anyway, I'm at 2000 words and am hoping to have it done by Christmas Eve. I haven't written much because of the infection, so it probably sucks anyway.

On Facebook I have encountered a young Mormon woman who feels she is male. Sigh !!! And looking at her facial features, it seems likely that she has some sort of intersex issue. She is one of those women who can look female with long hair, and with short hair and perhaps a bit of Testosterone look male perhaps. As you probably already can suss out, Dad is not speaking to her and Mom is in tears. This to me is the pain road ...

I have been dealing with a lot of issues at the same time lately - fighting a cold, several flashbacks, a massive depression, and several worries - worry over Sharon who is dealing with an infection post having her fibroid removed, worry over my mother's stress levels as Christmas approaches, worry over my financial struggles ...

Lets just say I am really running low on spoons, and I would appreciate any prayers or good thoughts or huggles right now.

Thanks.

And *I* am 57.

Damn it. Is that AARP with a battering ram at my door?

John in Wauwatosa

I had to change my account. Anyway the story I'm looking for is about a teenage boy who started collage out in the mid west some where or it might been the west coast. anyway he stated dated this girl who like girls. She started dressed him up as one.I know they ending up getting married at the end and I know his mother was upset when she saw him. The thing is can't rember if it was here on BC or another site

So my visit with friends in Germany has been and gone, i visited something like twenty Christmas market sites, collected a similar number of Gluhwein mugs and pretty much had a good time eating and drinking and just soaking up the seasonal atmosphere. I've updated the Gluhwein mug directory and the Christmas Market gazzeteer if you fancy a mooch. Of course i was accompanied by Gaby so a click here will take you to a photo gallery featuring the Wunderkind.

The Boy in the Dress Is to screen in prime time Christmas viewing!

It's on BBC1 at 6.55pm on Boxing Day.

Brilliant news!

Maybe just one or two bigots will become more open minded, and the rest will see it as a little more normal behaviour.

Charlotte

Another alleged criminal tripped up by social media. From the Palm Beach Post-

*****

Mom, friend charged with dressing son up as girl

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-politics-30399565

OK, i have switched to my subbie persona for the purpose of this blog.

i used to think that i was a bonafide subbie, and then today i listened to someone say that they always thought that they were an abused subbie, but as it turned out as she got well, she found out that she was actually an abuser, and not even a subbie or a Dom. Hmmmm. She also said that she had learned how to not manipulate people in a negative way.

Sorry, my cold has got the better of me today and I'm going to bed, just too fuzzy to think clearly.

I've been reading some back numbers of Bike and read the part about Billie's death, it had a new poignancy in view of my experience this year. So I shed a few tears and half a gallon of sn..., I know, TMI.

Hope I feel better tomorrow,

Angharad.

A program about the woodland habitat of dormice ...

Becoming Julie: My incredible journey by Julie Clarke. I have left out a link so that readers can use this site's own one.

I was bored, and so I went to Amazon and put in the search term 'transsexual', to be given the usual deluge of crap ranging from p0rn to Janice bloody Raymond. In the middle was this book.

I'm out of the hospital as of this past Tuesday. Thanks for the well wishes

I'm also thankful that no one has been added to our memorial board in sixteen months.

shalimar

I can't do Bike tonight, I've come down with a heavy cold and it hurts my eyes to look at the screen. I hope I'll be better tomorrow, but I'm going for an early night tonight.

Angharad

There seems to be a controversy regarding Bruce Jenner's recent appearance.

http://www.usmagazine.com/celebrity-style/news/bruce-jenner-...

Regardless of the reality of the situation, what I find amazing is the predominant attitude reflected in the comments to that story. It's rather heartwarming, IMHO.