I had an interesting conversation with my mom last night, in which she expressed her feelings of guilt over my situation.

She said she felt guilty that I was trans, guilty that she didn't stop my abuse, guilty about how my stepfather treated me.

I tried to explain that not only were some of those no fault of hers whatsoever, even what part she did play isnt worth feeling guilty over. I told her it was easy to look back with 20/20 hindsight, and say you'd do things differently, but ultimately its useless to do so.

To all readers,

Then they put this crown on your head and turned on the power… it made your eyeballs bleed

The cry rings out, far and wide! I am looking for an artist/illustrator to initially do some character design for my Novel "The Enhanced: TRI" that I am currently posting to BC. If things work out, I would love to adapt my novel into a graphic novel. RSVP here or by PM if you wish.
Cheers,
Diana M. Howe, Moongoddess at Large

Where can I find an explaination, detailed if possible, of what all the stuff is under the "Activity Settings" header in My Account. I don't like settings I don't understand. What I want is to find out how to set that so nothing has changed from the way things were before.

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/petition/executive-order-re...

I have no idea if this will come to fruition, but one can hope, right? I signed. If you're a Vet, or you support Vets, please sign?

Catherine L. Michel

Hi. If anyone has any way of reaching Bek D. Corbin please pass along my desire to see the ending for "Foxglove".

Just posted Chapter Two of TRI. Chapter Three Tomorrow,
Cheers!
Diana M Howe, Moongoddess at Large

Sorry, for those who'd forgotten or didn't know, it's the Gabycon weekend. Nine of us assembled at a restaurant in Dorchester on friday and ate and talked and talked and ate, and ate some more. I think I gained two pounds looking at the menu.

Just got some bad news.

My daughter's dog is in a very bad way, and may pass soon.

My daughter is totally in denial, and this is gonna be so hard ...

Having been raised in a particular gender role clearly didn't ‘imprint’ for many BC readers but I thought that I at least understood males until in raising the next generation I discovered that the boys were like a whole different species. Today I found an old (2002) radio show on testosterone which pulled the whole who, what and how of sex, gender, character and identity beautifully into focus

I have just exchanged emails with my friend, Itinerant, and we are both very concerned. As many of you are probably aware, it has been over a year since Julie O last posted a story. I can't claim that Julie and I are friends, but we did share an editor in AmeliaR, we have exchanged numerous emails, and she graciously gave me permission to set a story within the Julieverse. She has always responded to my emails promptly in the past, but that hasn't been the case for almost a year. Itinerant informed me that their last contact was May of last year, when Julie sent a new story for editing.

My Home Phone Is Driving Me Nuts!!!!
I am getting a Ton of Unwanted Calls!

to the my readers

I was almost done with chapter 17 of my story When tales come true but I was hit with a double whammy. Life and a massive rewrite will delay the chapter for a week or more. I am not sure what this means for the story. I will post when I can.

Sorry these didn't get up yesterday as planned, stuff happened. :)

If you've won, let me know what you want done with your prize money. If you got prize money in the earlier version of this contest, I'm sorry but that was it. :)

Oh, and all entrants get a free 3 month subscription to Hatbox. That's probably going to be a feature of ongoing contests.

Hugs,
Erin

Last night was “one of those”. I had an unsettling nightmare that led to me tossing and turning in grim reflection of my life. At my age (67) and given the tumultuous and very public life I’ve had I had plenty to think about. After due consideration I was not surprised that each and every problem I’ve had in my life could be laid at the doorstep of my transgender nature.

Each flaw in my four children sprang from my cross-dressing.

Every set back in my business was due to me being less than 100% male.

I could see her. Plain as day I can see her. At first I thought it was the shadows playing tricks on me or that I was very tired and my mind was conjuring images to keep me from falling asleep where I sit. I could see her, I would stake what little remains of my reputation on it. I could see the one I have seen before but I quite don't know where. I could see the one I know but can't place the name.

Check it out at http://bigclosetr.us/hatbox

Hugs,
Erin, Piper and Cat

P.S. The old hatbox link here: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/page/21977/hatbox-gateway-page still works for those who subscribed in the past.

E,P&C

Theres a big ole hole in my heart where Buddy Boy used to be.
I miss him so much it hurts. my 17 year old weenie dog went to the happy hunting grounds June 29 2015

May all your bacon be crispy, your pancakes be fluffy and over flowing with maple syrup, your beers be chillin, the poutine be hot and gooey...and a beavertail for dessert.

I looked back but zilch the last few days?

When I was in college, I used to make a play on that old Navy recruiting ad by telling people, "It's not just an adventure, it's my life." These days my life is more of a comic Greek tragedy than an adventure.

An accurate & recent account of a trans woman's incarceration in an American Prison

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Part 3 - Cold, dehydrated, scared and alone

Now that Dahlia had been made to leave and drive away I suddenly felt much more vulnerable and anxious. As the young hostile officer returned to his desk a rush of panic come over me.

On July 1, Amazon will turn off their Payments gateway and the links that BC has been collecting gifts for the Hatbox will go away. Any ongoing subscriptions will be canceled as far as collecting future payments. All such subscriptions will, however, continue to be honored for at least two years.

So this is the last chance for anyone who wishes to contribute money to BC through the existing version of the Amazon gateway. We may have another Amazon gateway up in future weeks but the software and interface to be used are not clear.

After this week, Unreachable and the sequel Worth Fighting For will be unpublished from the site. I want to give fair warning to those still reading it. Next Monday the elves will hide it for a while (I might repub again in the future) so do what you need to so you get the story if you want.

Only in Japan - 3000 attend funeral of Tama the only feline stationmaster. Next door in China, they eat them - go figure.

http://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/jun/29/tama-the-cat-30...

I thought the world was a crazy place when I came, but this makes more sense than many of the news stories we see.

This week's PBS Frontline program is titled Growing Up Trans.
Synopsis: A report on transgender children and their parents. Included: medical interventions that are increasingly offered at younger ages.

For me it's on Tuesday 6/30 9:00 PM - 10:30PM CDT. Check you local listings for the night and time in your area. The program will also be available online beginning 6/30 per the preview I just watched.

A story of mine, "The hem of His garment" has been published in an online magazine for LGBT Christians called "Created Gay".

Here is the link:

http://www.createdgay.com/files/magazinejuly2015.pdf

Someone told me that 80% of us who transition regret it, and many return to their old gender. I think this is a lie and am only asking this because of their professed religiosity. I am actually quite happy living as me, the only issue being that I do not look as much of a babe as I would like. And, of course, as usual, the family are consummate asses, but they can bugger off.

I have never seen or spoken to anyone who has done this, though I have read about a couple and their suicide rate was very high.

Later today for a new Gaby publication - Gaby Character Guide.

It's jam packed with illustrations depicting many of the main characters from the main series, covering the first 13 books. There's also a quick synopsis of the Gaby fanfiction as well as some information on locations and the Bond family tree.

So providing I can get an internet connection i'll post more details latert today.

Mads

Guess what time it is?

Its dream sharing time!

Well, my latest was very different. In the dream, I was invited to a church event at someone's house, and going there, I found no one I recognized. I stayed for a while, but I felt so out of place among strangers that I eventually left and started walking around the city to clear my head.

What made it really interesting to me was my reaction to this circumstance. I didn't cry, feel sorry for myself, or anything of the kind. I passed it off as some kind of mistake, and basically let it go.

Coming to PBS this coming Tuesday a Transgendered Story from New England Area, Check story at following address: http://www.nbcnews.com/health/health-news/stuck-boys-body-10...

Richard

Today is shaping up to be a landmark day for equality in the US. Heck, a landmark month in certain ways, given recent changes to the standing of TG treatment in government health care. Whether you agree with gay marriage or not, though, let's all give a few moments to feel happy for all the people whose lives, both now and in the future, have a chance of being enriched by the decision the court made today.

Melanie E.

My wife and I had dinner this evening at a nice Chinese restaurant in the Heights in Little Rock. As I approached our table, I noticed a couple having dinner to one side of the booth and a woman wearing a hat and a black top at the other side. She was alone. She looked to be in her 30's. That assumption ended as we sat down. The 'woman' was carrying on a conversation on her telephone. She discussed upcoming decisions from the Supreme Court, LGBT topics and groups all around Arkansas.

As many people know, a good portion of my titles are sold through Amazon. Because of a review on OEM (in the UK), I was forced to not keep my stories on site for long periods of time. Though I sell my books, I am not the heartless bastard people make me out to be. For those who can't afford to buy books on Amazon (I don't need to know the reason, just be honest about the need) all you have to do is send me an email requesting a title and give me an email where I can send it to.

Ok, so those reading my new story, Felicia's Second Life may be aware of how Felicia's turning everything upside down with her 'inventions'. In chapter 4, she will be introducing another 'invention' that would look like Eiffel Tower to these backward people. No, there's no actual tower involved.

In chapter 4, she will build ships. It starts with a cog, then larger ships. Let's talk about the largest ship.

Sorry that there isn't a Gaby chapter this week, my borrowed internet connection no longer works so that's probably it from me.

It's also occurred to me that the new Maddybell.com site is actually no advance over the original in that I still won't be able to upload updates. So whilst i'm grateful to those who've been working on it it's something of a Dodo as far as i'm concerned.

Our two kittens, Gracie and Audrey. Both are doing well and making friends with our not quite two year old calico, Sniffanie.

Tonight, 8PM at the Marcus Amphitheater at the Summerfest grounds these really, really, REALLY OLD geezers are performing.

John in Wauwatosa

P.S. Tickets ARE available through ticket brokers at 249 DOLLARS US last I looked -- 4:45 PM CDT -- and parking for just under 40 bucks.

Some of you may remember that recently I had some unexpected news: my eldest son was (a) getting married and (b) preparing for fatherhood. We flew over for the wedding in New York and subsequently to visit our twin grand-daughters.

Since then, he has declared his intention of returning to England, so we have to prepare for the hordes...

In my story When tales come true, I have found many things I would do differently. I got a wild hair and took a chance. As you will see in chapter 12 the main Gal takes a back-flip through time due to a accident. This is my way of redoing 3 1/2 chapters while leaving what I have already posted alone. I hope you all like my Chapter called You never know. to be put up today some time.

I got to spend Father's day with my daughter for a few hours today, and as a gift she gave me a little figurine. Its an elephant dressed as an angel, with a pink robe, pink trimmed wings, a halo, and a pink heart as a shield.

Does my daughter get me, or what?

Happy Fathers Day to everyone here that is a father or was one at one time even if your gender doesn't fit that image any longer.

Hi Everyone;

For those of you who have given up on seeing the completion of "Duty Calls"...

A recent comment attached to chapter 40 of "Duty Calls" prompted me to send a PM in answer. After some thought I felt I should also post a blog to let you know where things stand.

The story is still "in the works" so to speak. My own work has sidetracked me for this past year and appears to be prepared to continue that at least for the rest of this one.

I've been struggling for the past hour, I'm just too tired to finish Bike tonight. More tomorrow, I hope.

Angharad

The winners of the most recent contest will be announced on June 29th. Sorry about the delay.

Hugs,
Erin

What are your MPP's and why.

Even if you're not able to the one's in you head still count for this.