I've been thinking hard about why I have such a hard time sometimes with the idea of moving forward. It has a lot of factors - a lot of fear of losing my child, some general anxiety about the necessity of this transition, to name two. But one major factor is the fact that the closer I get to being female, the closer I get to the heart of my abuse. It was the justification my attacker used for his use of me, and it led to me making a connection between being girly and being hurt. I hope I can move past that part, eventually.

I just noticed as I was about to post this that my blogs are suddenly getting an awful lot of reads, I'm not that interesting am I?

Well, on to the purposes of writing this morning.

I've recently noticed that my fingernails, toenails, and the bit of skin that comes over them slightly, have all gotten incredibly healthy.

Well I thought I'd post an update and tell you folks that I'm almost finished with the sequel to Incompatible. The main part of the story is finished I just need to tie up some lose ends and maybe add a few details. I hope to have it completed by the end of next week, but it just depends on my schedule and how much writing I get done. The Sequel will be roughly half the length of Incompatible, but is an important bridge between the first and last stories.

But the next couple of stories won't be filled with sunshine and puppies. Sorry.

The past few weeks have seen some interesting occurrences. Mostly positive, but, you know what they say about "interesting times"...

For 36 years I have lived a conflicted life. I went through abuse when I was younger, but I made it through. I took up wrestling in High School and did pretty well at it. I have memories of my life as Keith that I will enjoy, but I have decided that the real, complete me must be set free. I have decided to transition, but maybe not in the way that many may think. I didn’t go out and buy a bunch of dresses (though that would be a hoot) and I didn’t start wearing makeup (I doubt I would do it correctly without practice) and I am not shouting out to the world I am trans accept me.

I know we all have car problems from time to time, and in speaking to a friend about mine realised she'd had problems too.

Well, my muse has been a busy girl. This is where things stand for me at the moment: "Notification Service", a look at a future war between the sexes with a focus on a family caught in the crossfire - status, almost done; "Command Performance", a dark story from one of my nastier nightmares - status, being beta tested; "Quest for the Silver Cleric", which will be my D & D story - status, in progress; "Indestructible", a slightly different super-hero story - status - in progress; and story whose title I cannot reveal, because it will give the game away, but it is also in progress.

What do you listen to when you write? i'm writing Slacker 3 right now and i have been trying to get into a skater mindset, so Phantom Planet, ween, Fountains of Wayne, Avril... a little, offspring... but i was wondering if anyone else soundtracks their writing?
Rawking out,
Diana

Just got back from a walk with my daughter, and along the way we ran into a lady with a dog named "Dexter." Only Dexter is a girl dog. I wonder if other dogs tease her about her name?

לשָׁנָה טוֹבָה תֵחָתֵמוּ וְתִכָּתֵבוּ

L'Shanah Tovah Techatemu VeTikatevu

HAPPY NEW YEAR 5722

Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year begins tonight and runs two days Thursday and Friday. While it is the New Year, it commemorates the the sixth day of creation, “When man(kind)is called into being", when Adam and Eve were created, which was the culmination of G-d's creation.

To all of my many friends here at BCTS I wish you:

Leshana Tova Tikateiv V'Techateim
Leshana Tova Tikateivi Vetichatemi

Last night, one of the janitors came up to me, and asked me why I have two names, so I told him about transitioning. He asked me which name I prefer, and I told him "Dorothy." He said, "Cool. Nice to meet you, Dorothy." Then he went on his way. Pretty cool, yes?

Daughter to Demons, the second of four stories by Jaye Michael I'm completing on his behalf and at his request, started posting today. It seems particularly appropriate to the days leading up to Hallowe'en and the days of all saints and the dead, respectively.

The last series was posted as a marathon, very rapidly, in order to get at much as possible out in the world as quickly as possible. This story will have a more leisurely publication schedule, once a week or more, depending on what else is happening in the world.

It is really quite sensitive, and presented an opposing view. The child was very natural acting.

http://www.cnn.com/2011/09/27/health/transgender-kids/index....

I was surprised that the nasty comments were not that many.

Gwendolyn

I just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone that offered to help with the editing of Jessica's Journey, I have decided to go with djkauf mostly because I am familiar with his work and have enjoyed most of the stories that he has worked on.

Thanks once again to everyone that stepped up and offered to help.

Cain129

Everything continues to go well, 6 days after getting out. I've cut the pain pills in half and may quite in a day or so, and went out for several hours shopping with Gwen and Shelly.

Didn't buy much as we we pricing and trying to locate an exhaust fan for the kitchen. I need to let the landlord's agent know our ideas, as it will soon be too cold to keep the back door and kitchen window open to keep the smoke alarms from going off,or when cooking onions.

I'm still less comfortable when sitting or standing vertically, but if I can kick back even a bit it isn't bad.

http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/8941/susie-and-jeffrey...

"If you want something doing, Jeffrey, do it yourself."

"That's what gran says, Susie, but I've begun to doubt the wisdom of her words since I met you."

"Are we ever going to visit your gran, or is she a comedy device like my car?"

"I haven't decided yet - I'll have to discuss it with my other half."

"You are your other half."

"Not Denise - Jamie."

"We'd be better off dropping that persona, Jeffrey. Our little blog did better than his 50,000 word epics."

I am continually surprised by the number of readers who seem to thirst for the next chapter of Somewhere Else Entirely. That being the case, I thought I'd jot down a few notes about the story - without giving anything away, I hope - so that readers know what to expect.

She posted this on FB a few hours ago

In the hospital again, after a minor fall. To my BCTS friends, please let everyone know. I don't know when I'll be back, as they plan to send me to a long term care facility, and I don't know if they will have wireless, or how long I'll be there.

I hope everyone will join me in wishing her well.