We just payed our $1572 hosting bill and will have another smaller one next month (or maybe it is in November). Anyway, these things go on my credit cards and then I pay down the balance with the money that comes in from the Hatbox gifts. We made our goal for August over the weekend and now need to think about September.

Anything you can send will be good and if you can't do anymore than hit the kudos button on your favorite story, we all understand.

My computer refuses to add spaces between lines. I don't know why? Yes, I'm really pissed right now, Arecee

When I wrote God Bless the Child way back in 2002 my goal was to write a mainstream story that gave some insight to the plight of a transsexual. The story, which few would doubt is gripping, reads like a Lifetime- made for tv (good pun)- movie (still waiting on the deal).

Hits & Kudos & things have been my guide about whether or not stories I posted were OK or rubbish or not so bad.

I have totally lost my confidence and have now clue how to get it back.

My transition had been going extremely well --- Until recently.

As much as I try not to, as much as I try to divert my attention away from the feelings of worthlessness, of intellectual and creative inadequacy, and the persistent question, "Why bother?", I'm finding myself slipping into depression again.

Okay, so maybe not a great author, but I got you to check out the blog, how about checking out the clip and telling me what you think. If for nothing else, you get to see and hear what I look like. I am out there and there might not be any bringing me back.

Please post comments too.

http://www.notstr8.tv/shows/trt-44/

I wish we could embed this so you don't have to go off page.

Transgender Home Coming Queen Makes History

looking for a story I don't know if I read here or on another site. Its a father had to go on a working vacation and his wife and son was invited. and when they left home they forgot his suit case. And everyone thought he was a girl.

I have come to a crossroads in my life and have made a decision. It is life altering but it is a decision I must make.

Here is more proof that things are changing. A TG California teen was named Homing Coming Queen.

As you can see, I just posted the first chapter of Lashes, my newest novel. As I've stated before, I won't post until the story is finished. Liar, liar, pants on fire, sorry I couldn't wait. Don't worry, I've already written over sixty thousand words and figured if I posted the first parts of the story it would light a fire under my ass and finish the thing. Well as I write more things take place in the story and, well, the way I think about it, by the time I'm done writing, the chapters will just be getting caught up.

Yesterday I got interviewed on Transition TV on the NotStr8 television station (now available on Roku). I will post the link as soon as I get it. After the show goes live, they edit and then post a cleaner version.

Being interviewed was quite interesting. Part of me wonders if I am playing make believe with some of the stuff that's been happening in my life. I feel I backdoored my way into the interview, but I guess I'm okay with that.