is in hospice care as I type this. According to the best information I have right now, she is not expected to live much longer unless hospice care can bring her back.. Apparently the cancer was worse than we knew. This might be the hardest thing I've ever had to write.

After reading SamanthaMD's story about a girl and a motorcycle and reading the comments, I wonder how many readers rode or still ride motorcycles? I know I mentioned that I ride on several occasions, but I'd like to know other readers that did the same.

I wish that being trans was my biggest problem. I'd be darn new home free now. Instead I get to try and deal with both PTSD and a boatload of mental problems as well. For example, my friend Jaci and I were talking and I mentioned that I hadn't shaved in days, giving me a pretty scruffy face. She asked me why I hadnt shaved, and I told her it was for the same reason I struggle with the idea of losing 40-50 lbs. In both cases, its to protect me from the notice of men.

I am feeling very sick right now. Good thing I have Jaci to make me giggle ...

Hi everyone!

First off, I want to kill my cat at times. I love Pepper, so named because as a kitten it looked like someone put pepper on her hose,but she drives me crazy.

I've posted a new story, Cynthia and the Solicitous Sisters-In-Law, Part 1. The story will be in three parts. I played with the idea of posting it all at once because it is quite short - only 14,500 words; however, decided to do it this way. The action picks up considerably in the next part. I think there may be a message in the story; however, at the moment, I'm not too sure what it is.

I need the assistance of someone who knows all the ins an outs of Firefox 22.0. I've been running Firefox as my preferred browser for many, many years and it's always performed beautifully. Then last week, suddenly it's incompatible with my Windows 7 home premium OS. They've been getting along famously for a year and a half and now I can't get it to fully load. It starts and then without even starting to display it quits.

Philip Porter, Former Transgender Woman: 'I Was An NFL Cheerleader

Dorothy and I have been talking about starting a support group for those of us who want to shed some weight. I've tried some groups online and they've not been much help. They don't understand us or our special needs. At one when I admitted my age, I was told politely that the group was for younger people. At another when I foolishly revealed myself to a woman who I thought had become a friend, she outed me to everyone and I was asked to leave.

Here's part of my last message to Dorothy:

I've made this twice recently, it's good hot weather food and it comes out differently every time so this recipe is just a guideline.

I am so happy and excited and I wanted to share my enthusiasm with the site and offer some encouragement to those who are thinking about publishing E-books. There is a market out there and it isn't as small as you may think. If you write good books with global appeal, it will do well. You need to work, you need to market, but it can be done. I'm not the only author on the site who is doing well on Amazon, and I think there are several others who might be wanting to join the ranks.

No alarms please, no one is doing anything stupid here.

So, out of sheer boredom, I was watching Sandra Bullock in "Miss Congenality 2". Lots of T girls in this movie, some of them credible. Well at about 43 minutes from the end, she is having this girly duke out and suddenly her boobs are down round her waist and not staying where they should.

Why didn't they take that part out? I mean she knew she was filming a scene, (not a BDSM scene) but the other kind. Could she not have worn a bra? What was with that? So if her boobs aren't real, why did she not put her bags of rice in a bra?

I don't know if any of you are familiar with the story of little Logan Stevenson, the little 2 year old boy who was suffering from cancer and served as the best man at the wedding of his parents over the weekend. Sad to say little Logan lost his battle and died Monday night. It was such a sweet story to read and yet it just tears your heart out. If there is one thing in this world that will get to this hard heart of mine, it is child that is in pain for one reason or another. His troubles are now over and I pray the blessings on his family.

I just completed the longest scene I may have ever written.

I have been reading my Bible during my breaks at work, and trying to focus on the women, to see how they handle situations, how they interact with other women, with men, and with God.