Dear All,
I have to take time out for a couple of weeks...... hospital calls me.... the heart procedure is to be done this weekend. Wish me luck! Ginger xx

• Surgery may allow women to grow breasts
• Successfully done on pigs
• Could revolutionise cosmetic surgery

“The breakthrough could also could also completely revolutionise the cosmetic surgery industry by allowing women to grow bigger natural breasts.”

“If the human trials follow the pigs’ success, the new procedure will result in breasts that look and feel perfectly natural — because they are perfectly natural.”

Just when I thought I was getting it back together my muse decides to mutiny! Well, to be fair, the story she's stuck on is one that's been in my head for far longer than any of my others. I may have to write some of it, just to get her off my back about it! ;)

So I've made my decisions and now that it is time to begin implementing them, I'm really quite scared, much more so than I had hoped or thought I might be. I look at myself and think I really must be quite the coward, to have pushed myself to almost dying just because I couldn't stand the thought of losing love, when that isn't even a certainty. I mean, I'm truthfully not changing from the person he fell in love with, I've been the same way the whole time.

"The price of Freedom is vigilance." - T. Jefferson

"The price of Freedom is blood." - Every Veteran

May present friends and absent friends be remembered and blessed...

Lil' Kelly

I have a wonderful girlfriend, but she's half a world away.

I just spent twenty minutes standing and crying in the living room in frustration at the pile of shit my life has become.

I really have no idea what to do now and it scares me.

The only reason I'm not still in the hospital is not having health insurance. If I had it, they would have kept me at least another week, but more if I had no one to help take care of me at home -- but I have neither insurance nor anyone to care for me.

It was a dark and stormy knight
With whom I had to fight,
Me a damsel, whose chastity belt was on too tight.
His instrument was grand
When he held it in his hand
It wasn’t what I planned
As he sang to me all the bloody night.

When I awoke, t’was late of morn
And my Stormy knight had gorn
Red skies the sailors warn
And soon did come the rain
Which flattened all the grain
And washed my CB key right down the bloody drain.
Yawn, Yawn.

There’s a moral in this tale
Which howls in like a gale
Blows the skin until it’s pale
And it’s plain and obvious for all to see

I had been following her progress for some time, through FFS, job changes, etc and I thought she was going to have her surgery last month. It appears now that all her entries on You Tube are removed or access is prevented. Has anyone else been following her? Does anyone know what happened?

Portia

don't lie and say you will love me forever, forever lost
dont lie and say we will be together forever, forever gone
forever doesnt last, forever and ever
what happened to the promises? forever...

but I feel it's leading me to yet another bout of non-communicative time. The last time this happened it took a year or so for me to get back "in the groove." Maybe part of it is post SCC letdown, maybe part of it is there are so many bad things happening to so many of us and I know there isn't a damn thing I can do to help. I know I do feel very helpless and dejected about that. I know, I KNOW! I shouldn't...but that knowledge doesn't translate to feeling any better about it.

Hopefully, anyway! I've posted part 6 of The Watcher, at last! There's a link at the bottom for Venus Cursed! #112, as I always do, but since #112 isn't done yet, it won't work. I'm hoping I might have that up sometime today, too, but we'll see.

Since my last two blogs have been all whiney, I thought I'd post something a little more positive. Especially since I'm feeling a little more positive! I wanted to thank everyone again who commented on my last blog entry or sent PMs. I really appreciated it! ^_^