Okay so last night I had another dream where I was at school (this time it was university, but still) and lost.

Except this time I ran across a really bubbly young woman, who seeing me looking confused took my arm, and when I told her were I wanted to go, she found us a rather round-about route.

Facing facts can be difficult, and the facts are that I no longer pass, especially wearing one of those horrid masks. Some are optimistic that we are at the threshold of having a viable Vaccine for Covid 19, but I won't allow my happiness to get out of hand.

It snowed here Friday night and it has been raining since at the lower elevations. This has probably put an end to our fire season for this year, locally, though fires continue to burn in the northern part of the state.

One community near here in the mountains has suffered two evacuation orders due to fire and yesterday faced another order for flash flooding. The cold saved it, not enough rain fell on the snow to melt all of it and make a dangerous flood. This morning, the white peaks appear and disappear in the clouds that are still dropping snow up where we really need it.

so because we needed more stress, apparently, I got word that two of my uncles are dealing with serious medical issues, and thanks to family stupidity I don't even know what hospital they were taken to, or anything.

sighs, hugs and prayers appreciated.

so I've been fighting some kind of allergy for days, and I'm getting pretty tired of it.

Can I return my sinuses to the manufacturer?

which might give light relief from debacle that is the US election.

Oh yes, those of us in England at least had an unwelcome gift last night, the removal of November from the 2020 calendar! -break-->Yep, seems that from Wednesday we join France and Germany in a new national Covid lockdown in the vague hope that there will be Eid, Xmas and New Year in December. So its back to furloughs, empty streets, closed stores and no use of public transport, difference is, the weather may not be so clement and the smile and carry on we saw in the spring will, I'm sure, quickly turn to frustration as 'daily' exercise is less of an option in cold, wet weather.

Yep, a posting on the right day and before bedtime!

I feel like I'm failing my mom as she has started to struggle with what I think is dementia.

I mean, I'm a mess, barely holding it together for myself, how can I help her?

Hey readers. I'm very sorry but MSPD won't be posted again until next weekend. We've been so busy the past three days with dealing with things now that Martin got his first paycheck. We got a lot done and did some shopping and hopefully we'll have our medical cards in the next week or two so I can deal with getting on my meds and hormones again. So things are looking good.

*big hugs*

Amethyst

My mom had a serious and scary dementia moment this morning.

She woke me up at 4 am saying she heard Carol killing Mike.

Then she ran outside in her nightgown looking for an ambulance.

Dam scary stuff, honestly.

problem is, it does come back another day!

I am going for an endoscopy tomorrow, and I'm already struggling with anxiety.

Thanks to my PTSD, I have a gag reflex like nobody's business, and therefore the prospect of having a tube shoved down my throat doesn't exactly fill me with happiness.

hugs appreciated.

While the more eagle-eyed among you may have noticed recent comments from me scattered across a handful of stories, it actually marks a 'soft' return from a prolonged absence (from here - those who frequent the BCTS group on the Book of Faces will probably have seen me quite frequently...) of about 3 1/2 years...

Hey everyone, just a quick note to let you all know that MSPD won't be posted today. I'm going to try for tomorrow, but it's been a long week, I'm a bit depressed, anxious, and exhausted both mentally and physically and I just don't seem to have any spoons to spare the last few days. Hopefully I'll feel more capable or energetic tomorrow since there's a lot of writing I want to get done once I actually have the spoons for it.

*big hugs to you all*

Amethyst

And its the finale of Summer Girl!

Just wanted to let people know, while I have a couple of stories that are close to done, I currently have no spoons for writing.

So it might be a while before they see the light of day.

Sorry.

those things above your eyes

My mom and I were talking about my bras, and in the process I realized how my breast growth has snuck up on me.

Which got me thinking about my transition in general - that success has snuck up on me, and I hardly noticed it.

Weird, huh?

To every one of you who have questioned yourselves, who haven't been able to make that big step...I know where you are...I've been there and I KNOW how difficult it is!

These words, from a TV show of all things, helped me...encouraged me...spoke to my struggle and the courage they spoke about. It became my private, personal theme.

I share them with you now. They may be familiar to anyone who is a Science Fiction fan.

Rod Stewart's words.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0azMOJ-h_o

I guess you are wondering what that scream was about. Or maybe why you haven't heard from me for a while.

I am really good about doing backups. Honest, I am. I realized at the beginning of this summer that I had to reinstall my various OSes in the computers in the humble abode lest the odd virus crash a computer that was needed by family for school or for work. Maintenance, Maintenance, Maintenance!

Everyone seems to be sharing their dreams, so I finally had one that folks here may find interesting.

I rarely recall my dreams in any real detail, but a couple of night ago I awoke with one that mostly stuck with me.

Well there's a new thing. Last night my dream self forgot stuff on a trip to some school or recreation building, and mysteriously acquired a pair of kitten heels in a shade of light turquoise. It seems I had to use them rather than go barefoot, and nobody batted an eye (or ear) as they clicked in the corridors.
Later though, I found it necessary to walk home, and though my feet didn't complain, the shoes were starting to look a little used when I took them off which was a shame!
Been searching the web this was the nearest (do not walk home in these!)

Hey everyone, I was really hoping to have a chapter of MSPD ready for this weekend, especially after being sick last week, but the past few days have been pretty busy and I've had no writing time so it probably won't be ready until next weekend.