My mom had a serious and scary dementia moment this morning.

She woke me up at 4 am saying she heard Carol killing Mike.

Then she ran outside in her nightgown looking for an ambulance.

Dam scary stuff, honestly.

problem is, it does come back another day!

I am going for an endoscopy tomorrow, and I'm already struggling with anxiety.

Thanks to my PTSD, I have a gag reflex like nobody's business, and therefore the prospect of having a tube shoved down my throat doesn't exactly fill me with happiness.

hugs appreciated.

While the more eagle-eyed among you may have noticed recent comments from me scattered across a handful of stories, it actually marks a 'soft' return from a prolonged absence (from here - those who frequent the BCTS group on the Book of Faces will probably have seen me quite frequently...) of about 3 1/2 years...

Hey everyone, just a quick note to let you all know that MSPD won't be posted today. I'm going to try for tomorrow, but it's been a long week, I'm a bit depressed, anxious, and exhausted both mentally and physically and I just don't seem to have any spoons to spare the last few days. Hopefully I'll feel more capable or energetic tomorrow since there's a lot of writing I want to get done once I actually have the spoons for it.

*big hugs to you all*

Amethyst

And its the finale of Summer Girl!

Just wanted to let people know, while I have a couple of stories that are close to done, I currently have no spoons for writing.

So it might be a while before they see the light of day.

Sorry.

those things above your eyes

My mom and I were talking about my bras, and in the process I realized how my breast growth has snuck up on me.

Which got me thinking about my transition in general - that success has snuck up on me, and I hardly noticed it.

Weird, huh?

To every one of you who have questioned yourselves, who haven't been able to make that big step...I know where you are...I've been there and I KNOW how difficult it is!

These words, from a TV show of all things, helped me...encouraged me...spoke to my struggle and the courage they spoke about. It became my private, personal theme.

I share them with you now. They may be familiar to anyone who is a Science Fiction fan.

Rod Stewart's words.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0azMOJ-h_o

I guess you are wondering what that scream was about. Or maybe why you haven't heard from me for a while.

I am really good about doing backups. Honest, I am. I realized at the beginning of this summer that I had to reinstall my various OSes in the computers in the humble abode lest the odd virus crash a computer that was needed by family for school or for work. Maintenance, Maintenance, Maintenance!

Everyone seems to be sharing their dreams, so I finally had one that folks here may find interesting.

I rarely recall my dreams in any real detail, but a couple of night ago I awoke with one that mostly stuck with me.

Well there's a new thing. Last night my dream self forgot stuff on a trip to some school or recreation building, and mysteriously acquired a pair of kitten heels in a shade of light turquoise. It seems I had to use them rather than go barefoot, and nobody batted an eye (or ear) as they clicked in the corridors.
Later though, I found it necessary to walk home, and though my feet didn't complain, the shoes were starting to look a little used when I took them off which was a shame!
Been searching the web this was the nearest (do not walk home in these!)

Hey everyone, I was really hoping to have a chapter of MSPD ready for this weekend, especially after being sick last week, but the past few days have been pretty busy and I've had no writing time so it probably won't be ready until next weekend.

With COVID-19 rearing it’s ugly head these days I’ve had to find a way to entertain myself and my 3 girls. Recently I have been reading stories on here that have not only been enjoyable and entertaining to read but have been scratching that itch inside me that wants to write again but doesn’t know where or what to start with. My girls have their interests and that’s great to see them spreading their wings.

for anybody interested, here is a link to my sermon

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1HFgmC26kz8JDrnE40DL671x1moG...

even if it is a bit draughty

Hey everyone,

Just a quick note to let everyone know that I've been stuck in bed with the flu the past few days, and while I'm feeling a little better today I'm still not quite up to writing so the next chapter of MSPD probably won't be posted this week. I'm hoping to be on schedule with Apocalypse Dawn though if I continue to feel better over the next day or so.

*big hugs to you all*

Amethyst

- the gift that keeps on giving!

I'm having a really bad dysphoria day. Hugs appreciated.

is where I've been

be able to concentrate enough for writing at the moment

Hey everyone,

I'm just posting this to let you all know that the next chapter of Apocalypse Dawn won't be posted today. My long weekend was, well long, and between being busier than I had hoped and still being in one of my insomnia/nightmares cycles I didn't have as much time or brain power to work on it or other projects as I was hoping. I will be posting a chapter, but it's only partially done and probably won't be ready and edited until tomorrow, or Thursday at the latest. Sorry about this, but I want to make sure it's done right rather than trying to rush it.

but I've been in A&E this evening