You know, waaaaaay back when I sometimes gave in to my need to be a girl, I would just assume becoming one was pretty much impossible anyway. I could look with envy at the lives of females, but I could never have one. I would look down that path, and see impassible mountains and large guarded gates between me and my desired destination. But now that I'm finally trying to make it happen, I'm finding it almost easy. Those "mountains" are turning into gentle hills, those "gates" are not only unguarded, but unlocked, and open at a touch.

It is a repeat of the post. I tried to post, got tripple post, and while deleting, deleted it all. I feel blond.

I tried to write an introduction, but got too angry remembering parts of my life (or was that frustrated? It was a whole lot of different emotions). So I just stopped midpost.
Damn.
May be I'll write it next time.

Okay. I know a lot of you are gonna read this blog entry and go: "Jeeze, Cathy! Will you just make up your damn mind and DEAL with life as it is?"

The problem is that I have more questions than answers... about me, my life, where I go from here, and on and on, ad infinitum. Yes I know, this doesn't set me apart from many other people, or even the majority of people, but I do have issues in my life that I keep to myself. These issues cause me to go "quiet," or stealth, or whatever you want to name being uncommunicative for periods of time.

Rami

There were two articles of interest to this community in my local paper, The Ft. Laudrdale Sun-Sentinel, today.

The first, concerns how some Gynecologists are becoming more Transgender friendly is positive. The other about the new television show "Work It" is positive only in the sense that the reviewer pans the show, otherwise ABC should be chastised for showing it. It appears there is a betting line on how quickly it will be cancelled.

The links are below.

Gynecologists opening minds, offices to transgender patients

In my story Leigh Anne I meantion the MSHAA. Here is the complete handbook from the association.

Dis is in da foist state:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/01/02/delaware-welcomes-f...

Having the job that I have allows me to do a fair amount of thinking. So here is what is on my mind:

Developing slang...

Well, I've developed a few slang words for the final chapter in my Ragnarok Rising trilogy and I've become a bit conflicted on one particular slang word.

First, let me explain. The protagonist for this story is eighteen and I figured that he and his friends would be much more prone to using slang words than other previous characters. So I developed some terms like splurged, thatched, maer, frizz, and Rekk.

Nah! Girls like all sorts of 'guy' stuff, don't we? Please allow my niece Amelia Manfredonia and her girlfriend Seraphina Polycastro to elucidate -

In my years of trying to connect with someone to be my friend and confident I've made many online friends, some just for a season, some for a particular reason and some who have been with me a lifetime.
I enjoy the blogs and the stories and I often comment or leave a remark on a blog. There are several here who pm me, but what I miss the most is face to face contact with someone who is like me.

Happy New Year everyone! Just a note to say a new Morpheus story is up on FM. "The Day the World Changed." http://fictionmania.tv/stories/readtextstory.html?storyID=13...

Hugs
Grover

Warning!!!!!!!
Unlike his Legacy stories this one is not Work safe. It has a lot of sex in it!

Well, last night, as I was talking to my mother, she mentioned that my ex had said that "you treat him like a woman, so that's why he acts like one", referring to me. I did a double take, and asked her when this came up, and she said it happened during their fight the day before. I'm not sure quite what to make of this, but it could mean things are about to come to a head with her on the transition issue. Wish me luck.

I heard that Henry Ford said that if you believe you can't do something, you'll find that you're correct. I figure that it works the other way, too! Believe in yourself! I believe in you! Well except for Bailey Summers...nobody can write that many good stories in that short a time. There has to be something fishy there!

Love to all (Bailey too!)

Wren

Religious Bra
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Do you need a laugh?? What Religion is Your Bra?

A man walked into the ladies department and shyly walked up to the woman behind the counter and said, 'I'd like to buy a bra for my wife. '

' What type of bra?' asked the clerk.

'Type?' inquires the man, 'There's more than one type?'

'Look around,' said the saleslady, as she showed a sea of bras in every shape, size, colour and material imaginable.

'Actually, even with all of this variety, there are really only four types of bras to choose from.'

I am coming to recognize how I have allowed the events of my past to make me paralyzed in the present. After having my ability to act or think or feel for myself broken, its going to take some doing to learn how to take charge and to no longer be a victim. Its not going to be easy to break this, but break it I must, if I want to be more than a pinball in a pinball machine, as a friend said. I have to learn to trust myself to make decisions, to live with the consequences, and to stop being a deer in the headlights, because we all know how that turns out.