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God's Design (sung to the tune "Flawed Design, by Sabilo)
When I was a young boy, knew I was different,
had feelings in me that I tried to control,
I was tempted no matter how I'd run
Then as I got older things got worse
'cause this need it beat me,
could not stop myself from wanting it
I tried to resist them cause I felt the difference
between what I needed and the world's view
Though I could not be happy, and hated my failing,
tried to act as a male, felt I could not give in
So I had to turn off
Had to shut down
resist the force within,
hide it under ground
I had to turn off
Had to shut down
and tried to pray instead
God, I die
I have the need here
to be female all the time
God, I try
to fight against it,
but could it be all be just a part of
Your design
But lately I have figured out,
could not worry about other people,
want to be able to sleep at night
So I ask for your permission
and I hope that its okay
I promised to serve you
and I will trust you
I am trying to make sure,
I know the devil is devious,
I feel its not a sin to re-make myself,
and that soothes my conscience
God I'll try
its time to be me,
to be female all the time
no need to fight against it,
I am now sure that its all a part of
Your Design
No need to hide myself,
that's what I now believe
I can be honest now,
have a smile on my face
No need to hide myself,
that's what I now believe
I can be honest now,
have a smile on my face
Don't have to turn off
Don't have to shut down
Now my heart is fertile ground
Don't have to turn off
Don't have to shut down
my soul is at rest,
no pain in my head.
No need to die
be who I need to
be female all the time
so I'll try
and I am sure now
God is with me,
and it is all
In God's Design
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God's Design
Yes, I BELIEVE in my Heart that GOD wants for all of His Children to be happy and be true to themselves.
May Your Light Forever Shine
May Your Light Forever Shine
Fearfully and wonderfully made...
...this is such a great example of your heart and the truth of your life. It would be great to share this with your brother, along with some of your other work, sis. Another great example of your heart and your talent. Thank you!
Dio vi benedica tutti
Con grande amore e di affetto
Andrea Lena
Love, Andrea Lena
I feel its not a sin to re-make myself,
This line is one for body I hope, because it is not a sin to be who we are, and by being female all the time, we are not remaking ourselves, but are trying to be what society wants us to be, and then we finally cannot fight these feelings any more. So we finally say we have had anough and start living the life we should have been allowed to live in the first place. I know this sounds like a lot of gobbledygook but if you stop and read it again, it will make sense.
To be who we are deep inside of our souls, we donot have to "remake ourselves". All we have to do is start living as the women we are and let the world see us for who we are. Being female is a 24/7 way of life with no coffee breaks or vacations. Being female is a discipline, an attitude. You either have it or you don't.
Those of us that have been female all of our lives, have not allowed others to tell us who can be. We were punished for this hautiness and deliberate refusal to succumb under society's laws and rules of gender assignment. But we had our own gender to worry about. Thank you for sharing.
"With confidence and forbearance, we will have the strength to move forward."
Love & hugs,
Barbara
"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."
"With confidence and forbearance, we will have the strength to move forward."
Love & hugs,
Barbara
"If I have to be this girl in me, Then I have the right to be."