Home of the Brave
For 'Drea, just cause.
She finished the story, and turned off the computer with a sigh. It had been a good story, having some of her favorite elements. Her favorite stories were about girls who even though they had been forced to begin life as boys, had taken the steps needed to live as their true selves.
“She was so brave....” she sighed to herself, thinking again of the heroine of the story she’d just finished. “..She had to overcome so much, and yet she didn’t let that stop her.”
“Not like me. I … I can’t.” She wept, as the realization she would never take such a journey herself.
“Because of …. her.” She picked up a small frame that sat beside her computer. In its frame was the picture of a small girl, smiling at the camera.
“I’d lose you. Your mother would … I just can’t” She cried again.
After a few minutes crying, she powered up the computer again.
“Maybe I can lose myself in another story. Its gotta be better than just sitting here crying.”
A few minutes waiting for the computer to decide to work, and she was back on her favorite site. She lucked out, and found that one of her favorite authors had published another story, this one a funny collection of lines from famous movies and books, giving them a transgender twist. She laughed out loud, left a comment, and then closed the computer again.
“Its time to pick up my girl, anyway.” She thought, and reluctantly put on the male mask that allowed her to see her daughter.
Later, as the small child laid upside down on the couch telling her about the day at school, she smiled, and thought, “Not being able to tell you the truth hurts, but having you in my life is worth it.”
Later, when she had dropped off the little girl at her mothers, she thought, “I .. I have to hold on, and with God’s help, I know I can.”
Then she thought, maybe there is more than one kind of courage. Those people who decided to transition were brave, without any doubt, but perhaps she had her own kind. The ability to surrender her own dreams for her daughter’s sake, to endure the day-to-day without giving up, maybe that a form of bravery too.
“And maybe someday … things will change, for the better.” She thought, and went to bed, and was able to sleep peacefully, for once.
Comments
Another reminder of how life goes.....
...it is what it is. Courage is acting in the face of fear or threat or even disappointment. Thanks for this reminder. Blessings!
Dio vi benedica tutti
Con grande amore e di affetto
Andrea Lena
Love, Andrea Lena
Thank you, 'Drea
for the inspiration for this little piece.
Dorothycolleen
Ah Yes, I Remember It Well
Twenty years of need in conflict with Duty; his needs in conflict with mine. And then it changed. He was off to college and we both began a transition. Here we are fifteen years later and I am worried about an appropriate Father-of-the-Groom Dress. It can and often does get a whole lot better.
Great job of capturing the experience.
Joani
Dance, Love, and cook with joy and great abandon
thank you, Joani
I'm glad you liked it.
Dorothycolleen
Hero/Heroine
RAMI
Being their for his daughter and putting the love for the child ahead of his own makes her a hero and heroine both at the same time. That is a characteristic that I am sure this character shares with many of peple on this site, including I beleive the person to whom it is dedicated.
RAMI
RAMI
thank you, Rami
Yes, I think we have some real hero(ine)s on this site.
Dorothycolleen
Wasted days and wasted
Wasted days and wasted nights. It was my experience, and has been the experience of my friends who transitioned rather than die, that sooner or later one hits "the wall" and it's either do or die. The only one I know who is "living for the kids" swings between depression and suicide and the swings are getting shorter day by day.
CaroL
CaroL
I understand what you're saying Carol
But if I lost my kid, I dont know if being Dorothy full time would be worth it. My life would be pretty short without her, I fear.
Dorothycolleen
This One Hits Home
Giving hostages to fortune is one of the rewards for trying to pretend you are someone you are not, and suddenly it's too hard and hurtful to be who you really are.
Two sides of the same coin. Cowardice when you are young and courage to deal with your mistakes when you are older,
Joanne
thanks, Joanne
It takes a lot more courage when you are older, trust me.
Dorothycolleen
Powerful piece
'nuf said.
Bravo.
John in Wauwatosa
John in Wauwatosa
thanks, John
thank you so much for the comment.
Dorothycolleen
Home of the Brave
Very thought provoking.
May Your Light Forever Shine
May Your Light Forever Shine
Found this going through your
Found this going through your other works. *hugs*
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Thanks, John
nice to see a comment on an old story, thanks very much.
Some of the
very best stories are the very short ones.
Thank you.
T
thank you for commenting, Tarzana
nice to see a comment on an older story.
huggles!