God's Design (sung to the tune "Flawed Design, by Sabilo)
When I was a young boy, knew I was different,
had feelings in me that I tried to control,
I was tempted no matter how I'd run
Then as I got older things got worse
'cause this need it beat me,
could not stop myself from wanting it
I tried to resist them cause I felt the difference
between what I needed and the world's view
Though I could not be happy, and hated my failing,
tried to act as a male, felt I could not give in
So I had to turn off
Had to shut down
resist the force within,
hide it under ground
I had to turn off
Had to shut down
and tried to pray instead
God, I die
I have the need here
to be female all the time
God, I try
to fight against it,
but could it be all be just a part of
Your design
But lately I have figured out,
could not worry about other people,
want to be able to sleep at night
So I ask for your permission
and I hope that its okay
I promised to serve you
and I will trust you
I am trying to make sure,
I know the devil is devious,
I feel its not a sin to re-make myself,
and that soothes my conscience
God I'll try
its time to be me,
to be female all the time
no need to fight against it,
I am now sure that its all a part of
Your Design
No need to hide myself,
that's what I now believe
I can be honest now,
have a smile on my face
No need to hide myself,
that's what I now believe
I can be honest now,
have a smile on my face
Don't have to turn off
Don't have to shut down
Now my heart is fertile ground
Don't have to turn off
Don't have to shut down
my soul is at rest,
no pain in my head.
No need to die
be who I need to
be female all the time
so I'll try
and I am sure now
God is with me,
and it is all
In God's Design