Many times in my life I have taken crap from other people. I did not have the good comebacks or the will power to stand up to them. When I started at my present job it was much the same. However, I soon learned to use my sarcasm and humor to defend myself and get what I needed. I learned to use my size to my advantage. Now that I’m dealing with my problems I don’t know how to turn these responses off. It’s difficult. I’m trying to change who I am and the smart ass remarks come out with out me even thinking about them. Now I’ve been suspended from work.

I have been very upset over the open ended Safe Haven law in Nebraska. For those who are unfamiliar with it, it allows for parents to legally abandon children in a hospital up to age 18. The governor of Nebraska has called a Special Session of the legislature to fix the loophole and limit it to newborns up to three days old. Parents have been coming to Nebraska from other states and dropping off their kids before this loophole is closed. There have been twenty three kids dropped in Nebraska since July. Half are teenagers.

I think I want to share just a bit more here. I have several blogs around the Internet, one for my religious stuff, one for my personal stuff, one for memes and so on, one for me as Joy and this one. But here I think I can open up some.

See, there's a lot of pain in here. I don't know how I as Joy came out as well adjusted as I did, mainly because of some of what has happened. Just like the character in my stories, I worked my backside off to fit into the world of maleness. Just like that character, I now feel trapped with no way out.

As an author, it's nice to get comments for my work.

It shows that people care enough to take time out of their busy lives to respond to a story.

The main things are:

1. Always use the same pattern.

Thank you all for your comments. They're very generous and I love reading them.

I'm in the local library. This is the first time since I posted that Websense isn't running. TopShelf and the other main TG sites have always been blocked, but lately there has been a random dropping of the guard. The odd thing is Stardust, Beverly's Balcony, Tuck, TG Comics and Stories and various other sites are always available.

I wish to thank Stanman for his excellent editing prowess on the remaining stories from Mellissa (prairie_girl_64. The time and patience upon which Stan dedicated his time to do a wonderful job is gratefully appreciated. In the jouney these past few moths since her passing, I have become accutely aware of her strong devotion to sharing her story. I am also aware of her ability to describe in detail her struggles and pain. Mellissa has noted in her journal(s) that she was/is not the best editor in the world.

Hello all! I'm finally getting back to the Mia novel. I had some paid writing work to get done over the summer (Boring technical junk) but now, things are back to normal and I can squeeze in some writing I actually enjoy. :) Anyway, I have posted a new chapter of Mia, I hope you like it.

I was thinking while I was writing that I should include some links to some of the things I mention in the story. Mainly, so you can see what I'm talking about, and to give you insight into Mia's world.

Was perusing the vast intartbes and came across an interesting concept:

http://lab.drwicked.com/writeordie.html

90 years ago today the Armistice was signed, ending the Great War. It was carnage on a scale not known before, where over a million British Servicemen and women perished, many in the mud of the Somme. It is perhaps beyond our imaginations to realise how awful this must have been, dealing with daily shelling, the cold or heat, constant sniper fire, poor food, lice, disease and boredom. Then if you cracked under the stress of it all, your own side would shoot you as a coward.

A security change in the BC software on Sunday has caused login problems for a few members. The solution is to make sure your cache is clear. Browser caches can be cleared by holding down shift (or control or alt, depending on browser) and hitting the reload button on the browser. ISP cache's are more problematical but this will also clear those in many cases. Some browsers have a cache-clear button in the preferences pane or edit menu. It may be called clear history. You might also need to discard cookies, though waiting a day or so will usually expire any stale cookies.

I am a fan of all sorts of fiction. I have found several other TG sites and do enjoy the prose. I marvel at the descriptions of the characters though. When I was 19 years old I was 5 feet 8 inches tall and weighed less than 120 pounds. I thought about that and I downloaded a BMI calculator. According to what I can find, I was in the lower 15 percentile of my growth group. It gets worse as I go back to when I was 14 years old. I was in the low 5 percent range. And as far as shaving, I did not start shaving till I was well in my 20's and then not every day.

One picture tells the story:

An incident which occurred tonite has made me realize that my priorities are way out of whack. My best pal, my housemate, the one person on this planet who knows me better than I know myself, called me, crying, feeling deserted and alone, and unloved. She was out driving at the time because she felt the need to be alone by choice, instead of an enforced aloneness caused by someone dumping her...again. I begged her to pull over and stop, and she complied, thus removing some of my sudden anxiety. But.

As Binky the Clown would say, "Heeeeeeeeeey, Kiiiiiiiiiiiids!"

...and I'm still up. So tired.

I'm not entirely sure what to make of this column. Julie has an unfortunate habit of upsetting transsexuals, and I'm not sure she breaks it with this one. See link below:

I caught this today while surfing.

This is a very funny look at getting breast implants. http://www.ifge.org/Article63.phtml

Huggles 'n stuff from,
Catherine Linda Michel

I am working on Second sight and think I have a way forward.

Traffic on BC is up. Way up. Like 20% above last week's record traffic. I have to assume this is due to FM being down.

Erin, please don't unpub this, I promise I'll be good! K?

This is not intended to be political as such. I just think the people of the U.S.A. should be congratulated on choosing the first black President. That will show the world that America is a different country to what many of them thought,
Joanne

Just in case readers are confused by which dormouse is which:

I've suspended google ads on BC until after the election due to offensive and misleading political ads.

Hugs,
Erin

So, I've officially passed the goal of 50,000 words on day 3. Heh.

Sometime recently, the old printer friendly pages stopped working.

I've installed new printer friendly pages which work slightly differently but do work.

Bob helped. :)

Hugs,
Erin

Top banana Lewis Hamilton has just won the F1 drivers championship to become World Champion in only his second season.

There are only four entries in the All Souls Day Contest at Stardust and only two at Fictioneer.

The dangers of non-speakers of a language using translations supplied by third parties is shown by this road-sign erected in Wales (where bilingual road signs are compulsory).

Yes, that beats the previous record last January by more than 15,000 visits. October has been a wild month.

Both Sk8r Grrls and the 4 Dear Diary entries will be up later today. They are stored on a website that current has a server down issue.

This is personally the scariest thing I've ever written, so please bear that in mind when/if you respond.

finally after weeks and week of not finding a simple sentence i the mue and a feeling of helplessness. New words new stories and new parts of present stories pouring from me like water from a sponge.

YEEEESSSS!!!!!!!

It was Halloween night and Ted, the cabbie picks up a nun in front of the mall.

She gets into the cab, "Please take me to Saint Barnabas Catholic Church."

Just a general blog post here.

I had a rough time sleeping last night. I’m not one for nightmares but I did have one last night. In this dream I was outted at work. I was harassed and degraded by people I have worked with for 7 years. I had nurses that I really liked; scream at me for even looking at them. I guess that this is just me dealing with my fears of being outted.

Jessica Marie

Dr. Phil had a show today about Gender Confused children. There was a couple on there that are allowing their child to live as a girl and they were supported on the one hand by a very knowledgeable therapist who has worked with countless children. Dr. Phil played the skeptic and interviewed the child and insinuated that the mother influenced her in this. The child just went to her mother and asked her what the name of the condition she had. The mother told her and that was why she knew what the terms meant.

I was reading over my stories again, which I do from time to time, and I noticed that in some of the comments, the readers are saying that my stories are unrealistic, and overly optimistic.

Saw this on YouTube today, in video format.

It was read by a young lady (my guess is college-age) and is a very powerful commentary on the state of the world and the "Lost Generation" that is coming up in it now. At first, this seems like an unbearable message, but please hang in there until you've read through all of the post and instructions.

I'm doing my music homework which involves listening to drums and writing down the rhythms. The dog thinks someone is at the door. :) I'm going to have to use headphones. :)

Hugs,
Erin

I was upset to discover that sometime within the last month, Karen Michelle pulled her stories off of Storysite. I am a big fan of her stories. "My Mom, My Bestfriend" and "Beware The Zealots" and I was hoping to read them again. I am very disappointed that they are no longer there.

Hugs,

Jen

We've just had some horrible news here. Two women have died due to brutal attacks. A news reporter and a single mother have died. The mother died while taking a shower. Her ex-boyfriend beat down a door and shot her while her children were in the house. Anne Pressly, an ABC local reporter, was brutaly beaten by an unknown assailant last Sunday night in her house and died of her injuries just a while ago. We are heartbroken over both incidents. When will this madness end?

Portia

I am happy to report that my friend Melissa Dawn Northe, better known has Prairie_Girl_64 will have a new story to post tomorrow.