Today is a sad day, and I felt the need to get some of it out.

I have noticed that now many authors have started including a picture or cartoon/avatar with their stories and comments. Me, I find the addition to be very welcome. They often help to tell the story. I am glad that this has happened and I hope that it continues too.

You know...it is the same old same old here. That is why you are "dead" ...you can't grow...

I fully realize that this is not a 'get out of jail, free' card, yet I feel as though I have just been, finally, given permission, not that I needed permission, to finally begin being the person I should always have been. I am ecstatic at the moment, and only waiting for the go ahead to begin my real life test.

There is an interesting article in today's Independent regarding the above.

It can be found on

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/education/schools/lonely-road-why-school-is-hell
-for-transgender-pupils-814378.html

I just got my bunny plushie from the mail and she is sooooooooooooo cute ^^

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=170198345379

I met a girl the other day and can not get her name off my mind. She's HalaMaksoud and a real mystery to me. Saying her name seems best when pronounced to the beat of Bedouin Drums. HalaMaksoud, HalaMaksoud, HalaMaksoud...just seems to become a chant. Can't you see Her/my hips shimy like...oooooh, mmmmm giggle.

Please limit the amount of characters unbroken by a space to a dozen. Thank you.

I have stumbled onto a web site that, so far seems very good, though I have a lot of reading to do to completely understand it.

http://www.gendertree.com/Reparative_Therapy.htm

As I become more proficient in remembering my dreams, they lead me down a meandering path.

I blogged a few months ago telling what a cool dream I had. Yet, recently, I've had two dreams showing I still have a long path to tread.

I came across this BBC article about the UK's "Child Exploitation and Online Protection centre" which is somewhat similar to Allie Burns' department.

Perhaps, one day, we will see Allie visiting the UK?

URL http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/7359589.stm

Posted at Fictionmania by Tigger. It will whet your appetite for Aunt Jane and Seasons House and being from Tigger, I know that it is a good as his other Seasons House Stories. I will not give away the plot, you have to read it or your self.

Here we are again, the end of another weekend with work lurking just over the horizon. Once more I feel that I haven't done very much at all, didn't do a bike ride or write another masterpiece, only fiddled about and achieved very little.

I hope this is set up right, I so seldom use it. I figure no one wants to read about me anyway, they have their own problems. But, I figured why not?

"It's not my knife," said Nolan, waving the switchblade around.

Birdsong 14 at Fictioneer.

- Erin

I know I've been more than a bit 'melodramatic' over the past few weeks. All I can say in my defense, is that I have been wrestling with old, bad memories and present day fears. It's taken a couple of days of "alone time" recently, to wrestle with my demons, major and minor, and at the end of that, I found myself with a new purpose, or a redux of my original purpose.

Good thing I'm ambidextrous. :) Mousing with my left hand isn't hard but my desk isn't set up for it. I may not be doing much more today, it's not a bad burn so it should be okay tomorrow.

- Erin

This is what's ahead for me, as far as I can see:

While wandering the web tonight, I stopped by the Skepchick website. This website is crewed by some wonderfully independent thinkers with a knack for finding and writing about things I find interesting and/or amusing. While browsing through the various bits, I came across a link to another blog, by Greta Christina.

In an effort to get out of this whiny assed, needs a whippin' blue funk, I am working on the next installment. Expect action, like you ain't seen no shit like this befo'. It's going to be one of those "leave the ladies faint" episodes with much funk and gore.

Hello everyone

It's been a while now since my last blog entry. When i returned from Dresden (see my previous blog entry)i decided it was time to do something and finad a therapist.

There I was last night huddling over a dim candle, blanket around my shoulders , shivering into my cocoa, trying to make sense of the latest chapter of Orphan.

In the end, I noticed the clock and decided that I would just have to send it out as it was.

Message from the author.

Arecee has told us that after part 30 he is taking a little break to look at his other story and come back to Show Me. Writing a couple of stories at the same time is tiring so for the time being he is taking a bit of time off to recouperate.

Hopefully it will continue asap

Samantha

Hiya everyone! I just wanted to let ya's know my computer died a while ago, and I just recently got a replacement and have been able to get back online. It feels so nice to be back again. :)

There are too many things on my mind and I cannot concentrate or even communicate with clarity. i know where my mind is headed and its a place I know very well. In that place I can harm people without caring what harm I do, and none of you deserve that, so I am leaving before I do that.

About a week ago I finished reading the science-fiction novel Trouble On Triton by Samuel Delany. I hadn't heard of it before, and only read it because I had the idea that it was about a man who turns into a woman.

Well. I wouldn't characterize the book *that* way. It doesn happen, but in the very last pages of the book.

Has anyone else read it?

This week's column from Tristan Taormino takes a look at what she characterizes as a new wave of "tranny porn". She reviews a number of movies featuring transmen. The reviews are explicit. The films don't sound like ones I'll be looking for, but I merely pass this column on for educational purposes in case anyone is interested.

While out with friends today, Saturday, we stopped at our local mall Waldenbooks store. I casually remarked, while checking out with our books, that if I ever saw MY book in the place, I'd probably faint. The clerk, as we were leaving, asked me, "You have a book out?"

I have in the past been accused of being a prude when it comes to writing my stories but I can honestly say that I am not a prude but I write my stories for a different reason. I don't write for the tittilation factor but rather to see the building of characters and plot. Too many stories, IMHO, are based solely on sexual content and no plot. That type of story I don't read.

I've spent the last fortnight alternating between the throes of nicotine deprivation and guilt from succumbing to it - I am too weak.

I've written nothing, though I've had a few new ideas, and earlier this week I - accidentally - half sold the idea of 'Midnight Angels' to one of the commissioning editors in work - like I need the pressure!

The jury is in. Our collective apprehension about the contents of the pop up ads has been put to rest by experience. Whatever filtering process Erin is putting them through works just fine. Hope they put lots of pennies in the hatbox.

Hugs to all, Daphne

Things are looking up for...

"A good lawyer could get her off..."

Apparently not going to happen.

So. The naysayers that wanted the project killed are going to be happy, at least. I received a total of 7 nominees. I wanted at least 1 nominee per category -- I didn't think it was too much to ask.

Ah well. Was probably a dumb idea anyway.

I have gained permission to use names by those who are mentioned in my posting.

I want to thank those who posted comments to my 'blog'. As stated, the events are true because my husband, Grover, and I have and are still coming to terms with what is going on between us.

I am sitting here feeling very confused and disillusioned. I am no longer sure that any of this transgender stuff is anything but a delusional fantasy. The thing that makes it really bitter is that I believed it all. I'd had these drives for 57 of my 61 years and my siblings say it was evident even before that. I'd been led to believe that the solution for the problem was the surgery that I had.

Jezzi has said that she would like to continue The Challenge and I look forward to seeing her chapter.

Sue.

I finally got around to joining British Cycling, which for those not in the know, is an organisation dedicated to sport and leisure cycling. I'm already a member of the Cyclist's Touring Club, which is the main lobbying group for cyclists.

A nearly empty nightclub, a tall, skinny man with no expression at all stands in a pool of light....

From Yahoo News:

A transgender man who kept his female reproductive organs despite his transformation is now five months pregnant and will appear on Oprah Winfrey's television show, the talk show said on Tuesday.

"I'm a person and I have the right to have my own biological child," Thomas Beatie, of Bend, Oregon, said in excerpts from the show, which airs on Thursday.

Someone recently created an account here for the sole purpose of posting a blog to complain that a BC author with a similar name got a higher Google rating than he. After thinking about it and deciding it wasn't really an April Fowl Joke, I unpubbed the blog and blocked the account. Essentially a whiny troll who didn't even know how to provide a usable link to his site, he got me to thinking:

I'm Sorry about the long wait and apparent death of my story. For the longest time I could not see where I wanted to go with it and I finally found my muse again.
I sould have chapter 3 up by next week (hopefully)

Remember I am still sort of new at writing for others to read so I am looking for any way to improve.

A warm Thank you to everyone who has commented or voted for my stories.

I was looking around for a icon or picture I could use in creating a title page in more than one book

I just now found out that MaddyBell.com and the GabyZone are both back up now. Thank you Piper for fixing the glitch.