Allie - The teenage years of Alexander Horten

August 30- September 5, 2015

August 30, 2015
Sunday
Dear Diary

While Dad and I were waiting for Billy to finish in the toilet, I told dad that mom and I had a serious talk. We agreed that this summer has been confusing because people thought I wanted to be a sissy. Now, mom told me that no one would pressure me into being someone I wasn't. I assure Dad that I was a boy.

I was hoping that Dad would be proud of me. I didn't expect that he wouldn't hear a word I said. He was in a daydream and suddenly asked me what I said. Luckily mom came and asked did I take the vitamin pill that the doctor gave me.

The choir was a nightmare. The boys asked why I did not wear a dress and some even asked me if I was in the choir to get a boyfriend. They all asked why I didn't cut my hair during the summer. I stood bravely up and told them that even rockstars had long hair.

Just before mass started, mom came up to where the choir was. She took a baby wipe from her handbag and wiped my cheek with the baby wipe. This was one of these times when a mom has done something that could destroy what little reputation I had. I could hear the other boys snickering as she has done this. Do parents not remember what it was like when they were teens?

August 31, 2015
Monday
Dear Diary

School starts in a few days. I was looking forward to school, but now I wish that the summer holidays would continue until I could repair my image.

I woke up and the diaper was still wet. I got used to the bedwetting and it did not bother me that much, as no one at school would really know. I had no intention of telling anyone.

Mom said I could be a boy, but why was I thinking so much about girl toys and clothes. I started thinking of these things when I got Madonna music from the doctor. Maybe she was trying to brainwash me through the music! I had to smile at this, as the doctor would not hurt me or do something that crazy.

In any case, I will stop listening to the music

I was looking at toddler TV in the afternoon. I do not know why I suddenly was looking at it, but I was engrossed in it. It was like the TV was taking me to another world. I knew I should have seen something in my old age group. Now it was too late. Needless to say. Billy teased me.

September 1, 2015
Tuesday
Dear Diary

School starts tomorrow. I am a bit worried about how it will be. Will people tease me that I am small and have long hair? Will they remember the newspaper? I am sure that they would and I wondered if I could be strong enough

The crises of everyone thinking I was a girl at home was over. Mom warned aunty not to try to influence me and to leave me in peace. This did not make aunty happy. Still, she had no choice. Mum had decided that I was to make the decision by myself.

This meant that I can get back to my plan. I had to show everyone that I was a boy. I had to like cool clothes, cool music, and cool films. It would be an extra plus for me if Annie sat next to me in class.

After my bath, I looked in the mirror. I just looked at it wondering why I did not grow. I also wondered why there was no sign of puberty. Why has it not started?

September 2, 2015
Wednesday
Dear Diary

I do not know where to start. Today was a day I would rather forget. I woke up as usual with a wet diaper when suddenly I got an anxiety attack. I was worried if I would have an accident at school! It took mom some time to calm me down.

When I was about to walk out the door, mom panicked and said that I forgot the vitamin pill.

The day started badly. As soon as I came to school. Noah saw me and asked me did I get smaller during the summer. Then he teased about my hair, saying many girls there will be jealous of my hair. I felt so embarrassed. I remember at the beginning of the summer, I was begging mom for a haircut. Now I did not want it cut

The others started teasing me as well. It didn't help that the picture from the newspaper of me in a dress was hanging on the bulletin boards. I went over to tear it down, but there was a new one hanging up later. Someone surely thought it was fun to do.

I did plan to let Annie sit next to me in class. I gathered all the courage I had and told Annie that she could sit next to me. She looked at me and giggled as she walked past me. I could feel my eyes well up as the love of my life just walked by.

Luckily, Bella came in and seen what happened. Everyone was so shocked when she sat down next to me.

After school, Sarah and I went to Bellas's house. She had a princess bedroom and I do not know why this made me feel jealous. Bella could also see that I had a bad day and understood that I wanted to sit by myself and be alone. Bella and Sarah played together. Bella had great patience with Sarah, especially when Sarah asked Bella if she fancied me.

September 3, 2015
Thursday
Dear Diary

The school was not that much better. I was now being called a princess. People were convinced that I was a sissy. They even asked why I was not wearing a girl's uniform. I did my best to ignore them.

It's true what they say about children. Children can be so cruel to each other. It's like the strong survive and the weak stay at the bottom to be trampled on.

I was once again being taken care of by Bellas's grandmother after school. She was an old woman and could be very funny. She told me that I had an angelic face. Another time, she told me that she did not like boys in the house, but she could see that I was special, so she was glad that I was here!

Bella had everything a girl could wish for, and a wardrobe full of clothes. There was nothing that a boy could play with. So I done homework out in the back yard and then used the swing. I would have to get used to being at this girl's paradise after school-.

Bella joined me and we started talking. Sarah did not like this. She was used to Bella giving her all her time. Bella and I chatted while we were on the swings. She did not understand why I fancied Annie, as Annie was always so mean. I tried to change the subject and said there are lots of pictures of a boy in the house. Bella went white and said that he is family.

Sarah was not happy no one was paying attention to her. She came out and asked Bella how she could fancy me. Then Sarah opened her mouth by announcing that I wore diapers in bed because I wet the bed. There was silence as I was in shock. Luckily mom picked us up.

Bella tried text messaging me several times asking if I was ok? I was too embarrassed to answer her.

September 4, 2015
Friday
Dear Diary

I know three things

It's not my fault I wet the bed. Diapers help.

I hate School. They continue to tease and bully me.

I am also so mad at Sarah. I told her that she was evil. I would never speak with her again or forgive her that she told Bella that I wet the bed.

Bella tried several times at school to speak with me, but what would I say? I was too embarrassed. What would she think of a boy that wore diapers?

I was forced to be at her house. I spent much of the time with her grandmother. Bella had enough. She took my hand and dragged me into her room. Bella told me that it was wrong for Sarah to tell her that I wet the bed. She promised that she would never tell anyone. Then Bella lifted her skirt and showed me the diaper she was wearing. I could not believe my eyes. A girl just lifted her skirt in front of me, and she was wearing a diaper. Bella explained that we had the same problem.

September 5, 2015
Saturday
Dear Diary

No School today!

Aunty was visiting again. We were sitting and playing a game. I was still not speaking with Sarah and doubted that I ever would speak with her.

A policeman and policewoman came to our house asking if aunty was there. They told her that she was under arrest. Sarah held my hand as she was afraid. We all stood there in shock as Aunty was getting handcuffs on.

Aunty was told that she was being arrested for an attempt to murder.

We all were in shock and told the police that there must have been a mistake. Aunty would never murder anyone.

However, she was taken away.

Sarah cried on my shoulder as I told her everything would be fine.