So, a good friend of mine at church, mostly figured me out, or at least I thought she did. But, later she told me she had not and to have me talk to her about it was really jarring to her. I've been with this church for 18 months and am extremely happy. Now this latest stupidity on my part feels really awful and I am very frightened of the consequences.

I was taking a shower, and when the water hit my right leg, a very large piece of skin fell off My doctor says this could be a sign of infection in my leg and sahe wants me to go to the hospital. If you don't hear from me for a while, I'm probably there!

Wren

I kinda need advice right now.

See, since all the recent flashbacks, I uncovered some new memories, and now I have this urge to tell them to someone, as a way of getting them out.

But I'm not sure about publishing them here, as many people have had enough of their own nightmares that they dont need mine as well.

Would you recommend publishing, or not?

I am currently evaluating my situation and I think I've discovered what is wrong with my life.

I just saw the forwarding page for A Familiar Experience, with a nice graphic thereupon. I realize most people may not see it as a very special thing, but I do, so Thank You to whoever did it. I was impressed! That was very nice of you!

Wren

To whomever it was that went thru many of my stories today and gave me kudo's,

Thanks!

I'd love to thank you more directly, but kudo's being anonmyous, I don't have a clue as to who to thank.

Hugs,

Kristy

Last night when I got to work, I noticed a dispenser beside the gumball machines with the logo "Trendy girl" on it, and since whatever it sold only cost a 2 dollar coin, I figured what the heck.

It was a pair of fishnet style fingerless gloves.

So before work, I decide to put them on, and I had a reaction I dont get very often.

I

Felt

Sexy.

My self-confidence rose, my tiredness lifted, and generally it was an amazing boost, which I really needed after spending dinner at my brother's place and have to listen to my family use male pronouns for me ....

Ah, well.

I know bikes get stolen regularly, but surely this hasn't happened to my latest episode has it? I posted it last night and when I went to bed it was still there - this morning - gone.

Anyone who knows of its whereabouts please let me know.

Angharad

No, as some of you may have noticed, I'm still around. Life continues along it's merry way, despite our expectations that something life changing has happened.

That was the verdict of a co-worker, adding that trying to go back to being male would be "living a lie" for me.

So why is that a big deal? The co-worker in question is a high-functioning autistic person and pretty much incapable of lying, so that's her true opinion, not because she wants to make me feel good or anything.

Nice to get that kind of recognition, you know?

I've been living with a lot of pain for the last two years. The rotator cuff in my left shoulder is pretty torn up. I've been able to function, barely. Yesterday I received word surgery to repair it has been approved. Yeah!

September 24 I go under the knife.

This is critical for me. I have at least two surgeries too get through before I can even contemplate SRS. I'm happy this is finally under way! December I should be able to have surgery on my right ankle. That means I'll be on track for SRS sometime late next year!!

Please, keep me in prayer.

Love, Hugs, and Blessings

Had a bit of a tough moment today, where all the stress of my mom's job, our potentially losing this place, and a realization that I might just possibly be attracted to men all hit me at the same time.

Fortunately, Tels was there to talk to me on the phone, and she recommended I get up off the couch where I had been huddling, stand up, and walk with one foot right in front of the other, tightrope style.

It helped.

Hey all Jenn here. Well I have been away for awhile, most of the time I access the BCTS site through a smart mobile device. It has more privacy than a computer and I can control who has access to my data. Smart phones have come a long way and other than a 4.3 inch screen I can do most of my mobile computing on one but they do go wonky occasionally. This is what happened to my last device so for awhile now I have been only able to read stories and post short comments with an older device I had until my new one came in. I am now back on the air and will be posting and messaging again whoop!

I just got back from going out for breakfast with my mom, and it was a strange experience. Our server was not only a cheerful and talkative young lady, she seemed to want to touch me as often as she could - rubbing my back, my arm, and once actually sitting in the booth beside me.

I have no idea why.

Otherwise, it was an okay day, I got my blood work done, so that's one more step taken care of.

Each step, even a baby one, is a good one, I think.