Abendsegen
(Evening Prayer)
by Andrea Lena DiMaggio
Donna sat on her couch; her nearly finished Sunny Randall novel opened and face down on one side, covered by her cat Adelheide.
“Listen to this,” she nodded as she scratched the cat behind the ears. Music that meant as much to her as anything she had ever heard or indeed might ever hear...
She aimed the remote at the wide-screen monitor on the shelf across from the couch. Streaming lag issues finally fixed, the video was in synch with the audio. Two women seemed to almost march down the aisle to take their places in the midst of the orchestra. She hit 'pause' and spoke.
“Mommy would always…” Donna sighed. In truth, sadly her mother barely offered any opinion, so that ‘always’ really was only the once, leaving the memory both sad and almost glorious at the same time.
“Mommy said this was her favorite. It’s mine as well.” Donna laughed softly to herself, as if her words might persuade her cat to adopt the aria as her favorite. She pressed ‘OK’ on the remote and the music played.
Abends, will ich schlafen gehn,
Vierzehn Engel um mich stehn….*
She barely heard the words before she pulled the cat into her arms and began to weep. The tears were no evil, as some might say, but harkened to a few moments in time that defined what, or rather, whom she would become…
Donnie sat on the floor in front of the old Sylvania black and white console television. All of his friends had color TV’s but there was almost something fitting, sadly, that he viewed the world through shades of gray.
“Mommy? Can I watch this?” he asked as he pointed to the screen. A little boy and a little girl in a familiar story except that it was being played out by animated clay figures to almost glorious music instead of the raucous melodies that usually wafted through the house on a cartoon-filled Saturday morning.
“I like this,” his mother replied. While she enjoyed her music; Eddy Arnold and Eddie Fisher were numbered among the friends, she never really introduced any music to him other than through the labored efforts of her 78s collection.
In fact, his mother rarely spoke of the things she enjoyed, almost preferring to display her likes by crocheting or by raising Persian Cats for show without so much as a comment. If she had a favorite movie or song, she rarely talked about it. So her admission that she liked the movie that was beginning was almost a shock.
“He’s a girl,” his mother pointed to the clay animation of the brother. Odd even now, looking back so many years to muse about his mother’s observation, but then again, ‘mothers always know.’
“A boy is a girl, Mommy?” he stared at the screen. She did not answer, but walked to the TV and turned up the volume a bit.
“I think you’ll really like this, too.” She sighed. Mommy, it was learned years later had her own reason for loving the opera; sadness mixed with hope.
“I think Julie will like this!” the boy looked over his shoulder to view his sister's bedroom as the story unfolded.
“Oh...She’s at Lynnie’s house,” his mother said with another sigh. Julie spent a lot of time at Lynnie’s house lately. The boy returned her sigh with one of his own even as the story turned scary. A little boy and a little girl in peril from an evil witch that became horribly too familiar as the boy stared in frightened, rapt attention. He winced as the story continued to play out with beautiful, terrible music.
“I always want to hide when night comes, sweetie, but let’s keep watching,” his mother said. On an odd but oddly normal morning, they would most likely be alone.
Jackie, his younger brother, was off playing as was his seven year old wont. Julie would probably stay over at Lynnie’s house until Sunday evening, and Vinnie was in Texas doing his basic training before the Air Force sent him someplace permanent.
“Here’s the part that…” his mother hesitated, having good reason for so many years to keep silent about anything to do with feelings. But she continued.
“This is the part that always makes me cry,” she said. Rare, precious tears welled in her eyes, but she uttered no sob. She used her hand to direct his attention to the TV where the boy and girl were being sung to a safe sleep by an angelic presence.
“Mommy? I’m not scared so much any more,” the boy said. It was almost a dream after that. As much as the movie played out like he remembered from the story he had read so many times before, he almost felt his hand reaching out to Julie so many miles away. His near- rapture was interrupted by the triumphant strains of the opera as the movie finished.
“It’s over?” he blinked as words filled the screen.
“Yes, honey. It’s over,” his mother nodded; the tears in her eyes still present but barely spilled.
“Mommy?” he walked over and sat down next to her on the couch. She looked at him in expectation without a word.
“Why did they have a girl play the boy?” A reasonable question in an already confused childhood. Of course musically, only a mezzo-soprano Hansel could sing along with the soprano of ’his’ sister Gretel. But his mother nodded and smiled.
“Because he’s a girl.” Donnie shook his head and half-frowned until he wondered if his mother wasn’t just talking about the boy in the story…
“Did you like the music, Kitty?" Donna asked Adelheid. The cat seemed to smile as she climbed into Donna’s lap, her loud purr almost seemed to speak approval. And Donna smiled.
Abends, will ich schlafen gehn,
Vierzehn Engel um mich stehn:
Zwei zu meinen Häupten,
Zwei zu meinen Füßen,
Zwei zu meiner Rechten,
Zwei zu meiner Linken,
Zwei die mich decken,
Zwei, die mich wecken,
Zwei, die mich weisen
Zu Himmels Paradeisen!
In the evening, when I go to sleep,
Fourteen angels watch over me:
Two at my head,
Two at my feet,
Two on my right,
Two on my left,
Two cover me up,
Two awaken me,
Two, point the way
To paradise in heaven!
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hansel_and_Gretel_(opera)
Comments
"he's a girl"
sounds like Mom knew things the child has not come to grips with yet.
huggles, hon!
Ausgezeichnet!
I got to play Hansel & Gretel once, a long time ago. That prayer scene is one of the best in the entire opera. I almost started crying just hearing the tune in my head while reading your story. Thanks, Drea.
Janice
Mother's Encouragement?
Was Donnie's mother giving him her tacit approval to eventually become Donna? Donna certainly thinks so.
Short, sweet and just a little melancholy.
Memory keys
Music is one of those things that always act as memory keys or triggers. Thanks for the reminder. Especially at this time of year and even more especially here in 2020, we need the various keys to our memories. It is very important to remember what has made us who we are today and the good friends who have helped us along the way. Thank you Drea, Erin and all the other wonderful authors and support staff at BCTS for making 2020 more bearable than it would have been.
>>> Kay
Twenty Years Ago
Twenty years ago, my father died from a heart attack. It wasn't unexpected as he had his first attack in his fifties and was in his early eighties. What was unexpected was my mother's death five days later. She did not have a history of heart disease -- but died when her heart gave out.
I was doing okay at her funeral until the organist -- acting on a prompt from my sister -- played my mother's favorite song "Josephine."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4lzTj7Msfs
I lost it. That might be the saddest moment of my life. . .followed closely by the horrible moment at the graveyard when we we burying my mother. I look down and realized I was standing on my father's new grave.
Music is a powerful stimulus.
Thanks for this story.
JIll
Angela Rasch (Jill M I)
Music
I was just texting with my niece about The Sound of Music; not only popular with all my inlaws, but my late wife's favorite film. Even now, after two years, the song that brings me to intense weeping is "I Must Have Done Something Good," because I've never been able to shake the idea that I never deserved such a wondrous love as hers. I am certainly satisfied that she did love me and that it did not need merit, but my heart and my head are not always on the same page. :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eITiP7tTDrs
Love, Andrea Lena
Oops
A double post
A Nice Tribute
A nice tribute to "Hansel and Gretel". I recognized the song as soon as I saw the first two lines.
-- Daphne Xu
Sooo...
English is a boring language. There are words for everything. I must admit that reading the given English translation of the German actually detracts from what is written...or in this case...what is sung. There is so much passion in the German that it truly matches the emotion of this lovely little piece. Thanks Drea. This one truly is a little gem.
Dein Görrrrrrrrrr
Ubersetzung
Hello Kelly,
The same thing can be said about any language. Any time a song, or poem, or prose, is translated into another language, it loses something. Prose is easier because timing and rhythm don't matter, but for music and poetry, it is very difficult.
Janice
Abendsegen
I like this version of the prayer scene. Concert setting:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=91h8uxAUOKI
Janice
Me too
I watched this yesterday. The amazing thing with the Animated video is that the same woman - editing of course - sang both Hansel und Gretel.
Love, Andrea Lena