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conspiracy (joking)

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It's a conspiracy I say. Although it's a a sad one. Tom Waits Traubert's Blues, Dougie's Loch Lomond, The Dubliners Parting Glass, 99% of the fan fiction I'm reading on AOO, ... *ad's a dozen of so different things* And then I just have to look at the pets ...

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*and the migraine isn't helping either*
PS Need more 'happy' F/F or at least with an happy ending (grrr all main char. deaths)
PPS still trying to figure out how I'm still functioning, more or less, in school at the moment.

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Bad dreams

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i have always had strange dreams.

Not only the night terrors I had for decades, but just plain odd dreams.

Well, last night, I had a doozy.

I dreamed that I was with a group of people being harassed by government officials when a group of tough looking men started attacking the group.

I got the idea of giving this one guy a drop-kick because I was on a platform and I figured i'd at least get his attention.

So I launched myself at him, kicked him in the face.

And I killed him.

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Testing, testing

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Well, "testing" seems to be the theme for the day.

I took my ex to get her heart tested (she'll wear this monitor for a day and then hopefully get the results soon).

I also got the results of an X-ray done on my knee, and I have mild damage. That's a better result than I feared.

Same goes for the results of the x-ray I got done because of the fall I had a work - no breaks, just some bruising and strained muscles.

And in April I'll get tested for sleep apnea.

The more you know the better, they say ....

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I fell at work on Saturday

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My week was going great until Saturday morning. Then I managed to slip and fall at work, and since then my neck hurts, my tailbone hurts, I've had trouble concentrating, and I've been very shaky PTSD wise.

I'm going to the hospital to get checked out ...

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A Co-Worker AM Radio Story

I've recently been kind of engrossed with the whole idea of gender fluidity and a non binary definition of gender. I guess I've been thinking about these things my whole life, but only recently really started reading and thinking more seriously. The political season has lots of people all fired up and the supreme court case on gay marriage has got issues of "queerness" on peoples minds. I think something that really got me thinking about issues of gender was an argument I got in at work awhile back, this was last year when Caitlyn was in the news everyday.

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paperwork

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Well, step 2 is done so I phoned the service that actually is going the pay my pension. Got at least 2 to 3 months before they'll finish the paperwork. which means no income for March, April and probably May with the possibility of even longer. Lucky I got some savings but it's coming close to forcing my hand ...

So that's 3A. 3B is getting my name published again in the 'Belgische Staatsblad' (no clue for the englisch translation)with me being retired from the Civil Service, but I'm told that's only a formality

Still don't know the exact amount I'll be getting in hand :(.

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Details, details

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Apparently, I was so ditsy yesterday, I forgot to give details on being called a heroine on Saturday night.

See, what happened was I ended up having to help stock the store, and I got so much done my boss was super impressed and used the term.

Sorry for the confusion.

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'homework'

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Doing a prep for my next appointment with my psychiatrist (probably going to reschedule the one for April 11th to an earlier date). Thinking about the future and words I associate with different paths.

And here I'm thinking I'm being me again a..k.a. weird due to the words I'm getting. OK maybe I'm too prideful ... *sigh* and I don't like me when I'm thinking about some things.

Lynne

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Told My Wife I Was Gay

When I started writing my story the words just flew out of me. It's going a little slower now, I still have words, but I have to wring them out. I have chapter 10 almost written, but it's taken about a week. How about a little distraction writing from my real life.

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Intro Blog

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Hello everyone, my name is Lilly and pretty soon I'll be posting the first chapter of my first story.

Some things to know about me:

I'm a TG Female, age 20. I had SRS last year and met my boyfriend in the process(He was having Gaulbladder surgery) I graduated High School in 2012 top 50 in my class. I grew up in foster care because my parents died early on in my life. I transitioned early as well, at age 4 I became a girl full time.

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An Apology to the board.

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An Apology to the board.

I have been absent for an extended time from the board due to RL events that kept me from being on line here. We nearly lost our housing, we did louse our internet provider because they went out of business. Money problems topped this list of barriers to my continuing my story.

I did not stop writing I just could not post what I had been writing. So for those who can find it in your heart to forgive my bad manners in being absence from the scene, I have just posted a new continuing chapter of Havens Salvation for your examination.

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got some bad news

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Well, I just got some bad news.

My work is going to start outsourcing store cleaning to a cleaning company sometime this year, so my job will be coming to a close.

Not sure what I'm going to do, but I'm going to try my best to keep my chin up and do my best at the job in the meantime.

Prayers and hugs appreciated always.

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I am well-loved

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I am well-loved by my church.

If I needed extra proof of this, I got it Sunday.

See, I went to church, but partway through the service my leg muscles decided they wanted to spasm, and my knee moved in a direction its not supposed be able to go.

I managed to suppress my yelp, but then the pastor asked if anybody had a prayer request, so I asked for prayer for the pain.

The pastor made the prayer, and the service continued, but no less than four people came over to me to check on me, to comfort me, and to offer me any help they could.

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Two types of depression

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I would kinda like to talk about depression for a moment.

See, I get two very different types of depression, that have very different effects on me, although neither one is fun.

The first type is sadness. "The Blues". When I get this type, I just want to curl up and cry myself to sleep.

But the second type is even worse - anger directed inward, otherwise called self-hate.

That one is more dangerous because if I stay that way too long, I might succumb to the notion that everyone would be better off without me.

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RL - and on becoming a grandparent

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Hi all,

my daughter is about to sprog - we believe that the little joyous bundle shall be pink-coloured. So I am likely to be a grandparent in the next couple of weeks.

Which means I shall make a mad dash in the car from Switzerland to the UK soon.
And deal with the little one when I get there.

I have been trying to get the next couple of Julina episodes up and posted, but I am having a little difficulty concentrating on them at the moment.

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Sometimes, it sucks to be me

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I have learned, perhaps too late, that choices have consequences.

For example, a lot of the reason why I am in such pain is because I made poor choices with the food I ate and not doing enough physical activity, leading to me being overweight.

But that's not the worst consequence I'm facing.

See, I chose to get married. i did not choose well, but I chose.

And because I made that choice, and further made the choices that led to my separation, I do not have a special someone in my life, nor will I.

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Re: Thinking out loud - conclusion

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Thanks for everyone who commented, I read all your words of wisdom.

I've been thinking about this for some long time and today I enrolled for the first module of my Environmental Science degree, although it doesn't actually start until October. I am now officially an undergraduate (again) and will be for the next six years after which I hope to be able to call myself an ecologist, albeit somewhat poorer financially, I expect to have achieved a long term goal and therefore will have a smug grin on my face for weeks.

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Catching up

On Friday I travelled South to the town tht for twenty years I worked in, married in and raised two children. I left there eight years ago with a job in disarray, my health a serious problem and my marriage was subject to divorce. Of course my children didn't see me for ages, either.

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down memorylane

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A part of the bagage I carry around where the comments my Ma made and one of her actions since the first time she found out I dressed (think I was about 8 years old at the time but it was going on from age 4 although I didn't life with her at that time). The action was the fact that there where no more hugs or any other comforting physical action. That hurt but it's the comments that screwed my up more. She basically told me I would end up only being good for working the streets in one way or another and she did this for about 7 years every time she caught me.

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Thrift King and Queen of the Midwest

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So here I am, blogging on a transgender story website, where I'm hopeless addicted to reading a story and becoming addicted to writing a story. I guess there are worse things to be a addicted too, like shopping.

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How I Cheered Myself Up

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I bloody hate February.

With each day that passes the leafless trees, the bare fields, the unrelenting grey skies and the cold, dark nights imprint themselves more indelibly onto your consciousness, so that by this time of the month it's almost impossible to imagine the world being any other way. The memories of Christmas and New Year that got you through January have faded too much to be of any help, and spring is still too far in the future to be more than wishful thinking.

And this year it has an extra sodding day in it!

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Twice a year

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Twice a year, I give my wife some time with the man she thought she married. On our anniversary and on her birthday. By that, I mean that I dress, from the skin out, in men's clothes. It's amazing to me that I still have some that fit well enough to be seen in public in.

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Testing times indeed

I'm off South in the morning to the town where I spent twenty years of my working, and married, life. I have some great friends there and some happy memories. Both of my children were born there and my daughter will be going with me so she can see her nan. It's also entirely possible her mother will make an appearance.

I no longer have any communication with the ex and am unlikely to see her even if my daughter does. For legal reasons that meeting will be supervised to ensure my daughter's safety.

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2016-02 (2)

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*sigh* My psychiatrist reprimanded me in the last session about me turning into a hikkikomori (my term, not hers). and today I put my FB-account on inactive :(. been heading back to depression country for a few weeks now.

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I have come to hate being alone

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I went to see Pride and Prejudice and Zombies today, and it was an excellent movie. At turns action-packed, romantic, and actually a lot of humor.

But I believe it will be the last film I see in the theater.

Its not just the expense, or the urge to buy snacks both costly and bad for me, but the experience - I found I hated being alone watching the movie.

Story of my life, really - not really good at people skills, yet I have come to hate being alone ...

Ah, well. At most, only 30 -40 years of loneliness to go ...

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So tired

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I started back work last Monday. I have a paper route that pays like my last but is less papers and no apartments. So I can recoup the money I lost while in the hospital. The problem is, I'm always tired. It is getting to me. I can't do anything. Felix loads my car for me because I can't stand to wait for the truck. I got like a half hour that I can stay on my feet, so waiting for an undetermined truck time is not a good idea.

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Bunny kisses for Valentine's

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Well, I may not have found a snuggle partner this Valentine's, but apparently, my dog did - in the form of a rabbit in the next door neighbor's yard.

The two of them approached the fence cautiously, then the rabbit gave a quick sniffy kiss on my dog's nose through the fence, and hopped away.

My dog was clearly smitten, not wanting to come back in, and stayed as close to the fence as possible, waiting for her new friend to come back over - which she did, gave my dog another sniff-kiss, and hopped away again.

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Strange dream

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I had the strangest dream last night.

I dreamed that I was in Elementary school, and learned that a disease was going to turn me into a girl.

Even though I wanted to be a girl, i was scared in the dream, mostly because I was worried about the pain of the transformation.

Then, the time came, and I didn't transform, and I was devastated.

Ah, well.

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How I Fell in Love With Gaby

So the other day I was searching amazon for a new book to read. I entered the search term cycling and scrolled down the list. I really enjoying cycling biographies and have read most of them. As I scrolled down the list I came across a book cover with a really cute Anime girl, it just seemed so out of place, I thought what could this book have to do with cycling. Well the description really offered no clues but I was curious. I'm not a huge anime fan, I like the really good stuff, Studio Ghibli, some of the better series, I'd just finished watching SteinsGate.

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My wife's visitor

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...a faceless man, in a long dark coat. He stole silently into where she was sleeping, and carried her away.

It's not like we didn't know this day was coming. There is no recovery from the dementia, no going back to being the vibrant woman that she was when she was healthy. I'm slowly coming to terms with it.

I had a friend comment that he couldn't imagine what I was going through. I replied with this:

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Fighting Depression again (or still?)

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I don’t talk about myself much, guess I’m not very comfortable with it. I am willing to talk to anybody, be it a crowd or one on one, but writing about me feels weird. I post on my blog about twice / thrice a year, complete with pictures, if anyone is interested.

I’ve been unemployed almost 6 months, longer off and on again. Unemployment is long gone, and savings are draining steadily. I have my son (nephew actually, but the relationship is that of parent adult). If not for him I would be in real trouble.

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not the best news i've had

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I had an inkling last week but it's been confirmed today, my tenure at my employers has ended after a mere 11 years service. Brutal but quick end but no less discombobulating for that.

So I'm in flux atm, not sure what i'll do but I might have to fill some time with scribbles.

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Well, there went my good day ...

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Well, there went my good day.

I just got home from the doctor's and its not good news.

I have arthritis in both hips, not just the left one.

They want me to do physio, but its not covered by my work plan.

So I don't know what's next ...

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had a fantastic day with my daughter today

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I had a fantastic day with my daughter today. We went to West Edmonton Mall, walked around, talked of fashion, makeup, and shoes, and she was totally comfortable with both the conversation and my feminine wardrobe.

I am so blessed ...

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2016-01 (2) Exams

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Well one worry less for the moment. My results for the first semester are 70%, 80% and 80%. So 2 B's and 1 C isn't bad when I didn't study more then 8 hours total ( for 7 tests, 4 homework tasks and 3 exams) for the entire semester. (finishes what they call A-levels in the UK for the rest, years ago so only got the technical courses left).

Thursday it's the first day of the next semester but before that it's back for the retirement commission and work related stuff Tuesday >faceplam<. Here's hoping it will be the last one ...

Lynne

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bad day at work last night

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You know how I've been saying I'm in pain and wish I could get a break from work?

Well, I should be a bit more careful in my wishes.

I got a serious dressing down from my boss last night, giving me the impression I'm on thin ice in terms of continuing to work there, and to say the least I'm pretty depressed about it.

You add pain and PTSD to my depression, and its not a good situation at the moment.

hugs and prayers appreciated.

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2016-01 Exams, bikes and stuff

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Well my exams are over and now I'm just waiting on the points. Think I got everything but I won't know before the 29th.

Head 's cleared up a bit which is good and I spend Tuesday with my brother-in-law at the motor show in Brussels which also helped. And no, I didn't buy anything although I liked some of the light motorcycles a lot, BMW G310R anyone ;)

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