OH, my goodness. I was doing some fiddling about, calculating the cost of Petrol in the UK ! Glory be, it it really about $8.25 per US Gallon there? It appears to be around 1.30p. My goodness.

Well, today is my fifth anniversary here on Big Closet!

Well, I had a dental appointment yesterday, and I am in pain, but at least its over with.

I was accosted in the hospital last night.

I try to let people know what's going on with me, especially after I don't produce something in a month. I am hard at work on Phenom, the fourth book in the God Bless the Child saga. I finally got to the main issue and it should be smooth sailing from here on out (probably not). I am over 50k words and I already see areas that I need to do major reworks over, but I'm hoping for that random bit of inspiration to hit me.

Some of you know that I have been toying with the idea of returning to living as a man.

Ok, so well I was talking with a half dozen trans-women today, at various stages in transition and one of then just had not come to the realization that the moment you put that skirt on you lose some of your privilege. Later when you get whacked and finally have the shovel handle insertion procedure administered, you lose all your privilege.

Yes, sure the more passable you are the better it is if you simultaneously load the feminine wiles and deportment routine. I have had the worst problem in tuning my approach to become sweet and endearing without actually flirting.

After my group therapy session, I stopped at a local mall and looked around, including a walk through the bookstore, and I came across a book called "623 stories you can write". I took a peek inside, and it had story titles or questions like "you're an astronaut - describe one day in your life", or "describe the worst Thanksgiving day dinner ever".

I forgot to get the name of the authors, but I'm sure someone could find the book if they were interested in writing but have trouble finding good ideas.

So, recently someone expressed interest in my stories, in editing them, and giving me advice on how to publish them. Those published will likely be Kindle or something like it, but I do want to publish a "dead tree" book just for my own personal satisfaction. That someone would show interest in my stories is a great surprise to me.

As some of my regular readers know, I have always been interested in alternate universes.

Just a quick note to thank all the people who sent me good wishes during the last couple of days.

You're all amazing, thank you.

Well, since I had talked about it briefly yesterday, I want to share a bit about the two dreams I had recently that have me wondering what my unconscious or subconscious or whatever is trying to tell me.

The first one took place in a crowded restaurant, and I ended up having to share a table with a man. Despite my initial shyness, he managed to draw me into a conversation, and when it was time for me to go, I gave him a sisterly kiss on the cheek. The gesture was so feminine, and came to me so naturally, I woke up being jealous of my dream-self's confidence.

Well, I spent the morning today cleaning up my computer area, and as a reward, I went to the Y.M.C.A. pool for a good swim.

Ted Talks of interest to the community

Hello all. :)

It’s been well over a year since I posted on this site and boy what difference a year makes!

There are a great many things I can say about me.

I was broken.

I'm healing.

I'm still not who I want to be.

I'm no longer who I was.

I was doomed to be trans, no matter what.

I seem to have struck a note in mentioning that I was thinking of living in my car and camping for a couple months. I was looking at it as more of an extended camping trip away from the city in far North Eastern Oregon. It has been my experience so far that if one can get more than 100 miles or so from the big city, there is just less trouble.

That's what I turn tomorrow. An auspicious date certainly. After all, the Titanic sank on April 15th, Lincoln died on April 15th and, just to top that off, there will be a Blood Moon at 2AM EST(EDT?) on the 15th. Quite a trifecta,to say the very least.

I seem to have reached that awkward age. You know, the one where most of the people in the newspaper obituaries are younger than I. As Red Green so eloquently put it, "when I furrow my brow, it looks like a rump roast made of corduroy."

We did not get a chance to read these during our civil wedding, as the judge had her own set of vows. So I thought I would share them here.

I promise
To love you for all you are

Just to let people know I'm around again ;)

Lynne

I had a conversation with Sharon on Friday, and she is thinking of taking Samantha to Mexico in September, if she can get her passport by then.

Then she said I could come too, if I wished.

As some of you know, as a consolation prize for my entry in the last contest, I won a freebie visit to the hatbox, so I took advantage and read as many of the stories as I could.

you know, I often praise the level of tolerance I receive here in Edmonton, but there have been some ... troubling signs that the forces of bigotry are trying to push back.

I knew it was coming, I just hoped it wouldn`t be so soon. My laptop has been having enough issues with the memory and hard drive problems and various other problems with USB ports, network card, and a lot of the other onboard motherboard related hardware. Now the onboard video is going too. I`ve been plagued with various screen and graphics errors the past several days and It`s getting progressively worse, I can hardly see what I`m typing through the damn lines on the screen..