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Oh, Katia what shall I do with you?

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Gwendolyn's Muse, "Khadijah" is really confused with me right now, wondering just what I am up too. Those who have been following "Lt Katia in Afganistan" may have perhaps felt that she would end up a Nigab'd once warrior living in seclusion in the home of her love intrest. And to be frank, I had been thinking that she might too.

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Waterloo Road TG Episode!

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I was able to download a programe called Expat Sheild, an can now access the wonderful and fascinating world orf the BBC. I say this seriously and in no way mean any ridcule to anyone.

The TG episoce is one hour long, without commercials, and is quite excellent. There are a half dozen sub plots and like someone else, I found the parts about the girl with a brain tumor, and the GID boy to be especially moving.

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Ms Frankenstein 1 & 2

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I have been thinking about cleaning up some of my unfinished stories. After Ch 4 of Lt Katia, I was going to write the final chapter of MS Frankenstein but when I looked at the comments and reads, discovered that it just did not sell that well. I had thought it was a very good story but perhaps not. So, I guess I will ask for input from the readers.

Is this story worth finishing? If I get a few comments saying that it is, perhaps I'll do the final chapter. If not, I will just let it die a natural death.

Much peace

Khadijah

MS Frankenstein

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The Toy

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The Toy
Chapter 1
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The storm to the South West was rapidly gathering but there looked to be time to reset the power pull on the pole and then I could go home. The sky had gone all amber, the humidity was oppressive. The distant thunder sounded like the neighbor dragging his garbage can down the street. The approaching tempest looked like it could hatch a Tornado. I began to wonder if I should bother getting the power back up again.



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I Mighte Be Related To Kate!

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Eh what with all this talk of family crests and such, it prompted me to explore mine a bit. If the "Sun" can invent outraveous lies then I ought also.
So I went looking on the Internet for the "Boucher" place of origin and family crest. Gads, we actually have one! It looks like they were part of the Norman invasion around 1066.
http://www.houseofnames.com/boucher-family-crest

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How Would You Describe Yourself In A Story.

So tonight after I got home from my volunteer job in Cleveland, my roomate had fixed Matzo Ball soup and then we sat around talkig about the school year and how happy they were that it was almost over. All this made me begin to think about my own life and how I would describe it.

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Life

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Life

By Gwen Brown

Love them until they kill you.

Life’s too hard, the pain is sweet.

Fear the ones who love you.

Love the ones who hate you.

They make you grow.

Deceivers will give you what you want,

Even if it is insane delusion.

Courage it takes to face it head on comes

After failure and pain.

If you have the courage

or are fuckin crazy.



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Lt Katia Ch 3 posting.

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I was so astonished to day when I posted Ch 3. It went up just as I had written it!!! Thank you Erin!

This story is a horse of a different color, and in looking at the two previous stories, I am satisfied with the Kudos and read counts. I did not set out to be a star, but to write from my heart.

Ch4 will be the last. I hope that you will enjoy it.

Much peace

Khadijah

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Lt Katia In Afghanistan Ch 3

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Lt Katia In Afghanistan
Chapter 3
By Gwen Brown
Many thanks to Julia Phillips for very helpful editing.


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Transexual Body Types

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Here is a neat web page done by a trans woman. I hate using that term but must because if I just called her a woman, as I call myself, you would think that she knew nothing.

http://www.secondtype.info/bodysize.htm

This highlights the struggle of larger T folk very well. I know that they can not change what is in their heads and they are stuck with a body that they feel considerable pain over. My only, heart felt, suggestion is to do the best you can.

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On being a more effective writer (writer- ess)

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I was sitting at the post office today, waiting for it to open as a woman with three children walked past.

Then as I sat there in my car I began musing about how I could write about that experience.

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How much is too much?

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This is about Violence in stories and may be triggering to many.

So, some of the stories I'm reading just take me to a very dark place and make me very bad company. A few times, various people have asked me to write my own story, so I started on it. Below is an excerpt. This is not for the faint of heart. It spans about a 3 month period in my life. Does anyone really want to read 15 or 16 years of this crap? Does it make you feel like someone beat you up?

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Very early hormone replacement.

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I was wondering if any of the professionals here know anything about cases where female hormones were used on male children at a very early age; say, starting about one year old? I am looking for development of the wider pevlic bones, shoulder structure, and the seemingly more flexible ligament structure of a genetic female.

It is part of a story idea that is growing in the dirt in a dark place in the basement of my mind.

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Finally got my day in court today.

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Well, today I finally got some measure of vindication with the psych crowd. A young woman doing her Doctoral Theisis at a local Uni called me on the phone and we talked for two hours, using all my minutes up. Still, I got a chance to say exactly what I thought of the treatment protocol used on me. During the conversaton she did tell me that she knew a twoman married to a man and they were very happy. You can not imagine how healing that was for me. I had previously thought that no men were marrying twomen. If any of you are holding out, I would really like to know anonimously.

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Takin a break

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OK here's the deal. I am taking a break here; rethinkin what I am gonna write, and I am sort of tired of the ideas that some people are pushing at me. No drama here, I'm just standing up for myself. I am finding that certain things I do just retraumatise me, so I'm not gonna do them any more. That would be dumm. I'm not answering any more calls that are unlisted.

I'm gonna finish Lt Katia and write an end to Ms Frankenstein. After that I don't know what I am gonna write. And no, I am not on skype all the time anymore.

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Unpubing or deleting stories

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Due to your work load Erin, I did not send this directly to you in hopes that someone else can help me with this. There are a few of my stories that I don't feel good about and I would like to either unpub them or delete them. I thought there was a place that I could access to just unpub them but have not found it. Can someone help me.

Much peace

Khadijah

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Is Norton going out of business?

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As part of the continuing saga of computer woes, I have been completely unable to find a phone number for Norton. There is the Norton Community Forum, but so far the posts there are mostly complaining about Norton's unresponsiveness to their problems. Did the founder of the company sell out or something? Maybe I should buy a Mac?

Much peace

Khadijah

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XOOM ! Any comments?

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Well, with my laptop in the pit, I have been thinking about alternatives, and then today I saw Steve Jobes speaking about the new Ipad. $499 opened my ears a little. It'll have Wifi and Cell Network internet available. So, completely ignoring the fact that the release date is the 11th I went looking for one to ask questions. Did you know that Verizon is selling the Ipad? Well, I went into the store and started asking all sorts of laptop questions, and then the people there said, "Let's talk about the XOOM?"

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OK, you may as well know.

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Well, I had an MRI a couple weeks ago, and now I know why things are the way they are. As far as I am concerned, I function pretty well, have no physical disabilities, and have been pretty successful in life. One thing that has always bothered me is that in certain social situations, I just mess up. I just don't understand what is going on.

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Story word counts

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I just about have Ch 3 ready, finally, and this afternoon was looking at the other two chapters to see how they matched up with Ch 3 and at the heading of one of the chapters, it said the word count was about 40,000 words. Well I already knew that from my having done most of my writing in MS Word; though I am now using Works until I work out some issues with using Word. That works out to about 25 pages and for me that seems like a comfortable amount of work to do per chapter.

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The usage of the apostrophe

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OK, sorry people, I am not an English teacher, but I could sure use a little help here. I am aware that the apostrophe can be used to show possession or ownership. However, a word like "harm" can not own or possess, so I think it goes after the end of the word, like "harms'". Is that correct?

Much peace

Khadijah

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The Main Reason I Transitioned

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I am sorry this is not pretty. It really is an ugly thing to say about one's self. And, it gets obscured in psychological theory so complex that I doubt that even the greatest minds can comprehend it. This is not a poor me blog, but it is brutally honest; candidly brutal. I am also quite sure that there are many here who suffered through things in life at least as bad and many times worse than I have.

http://religion.blogs.cnn.com/2011/02/22/what-porn-did-to-a-...

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My first paid writing job ???

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I don't want anyone to jump to confusions over this but I am feeling a bit goose bumpy. A fledgling publishing company has offered me the chance to write short articles on Sustainability, the Environment, and the development of new energy sources. I am not an engineer, but I do have loads of hands on experience in the field, and have developed an opinion on what the difficulties are, and what needs to happen.

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More Successful As A Woman?

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Something has been jabbering away at the back of my mind for some time and I'd like to share it with the Lurker Psych people here. Am I being paranoid, I don't think so, because what better way to study people of our ilk than in one of our sanctuaries?

The initial 3 or 4 years after transition were pure unmitigated hell, because of the loss of my old life, especially my family. However, the last few years have been much better; the pain having finally dulled to a manageable level.

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Orbital Mechanics buffs Help!

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I need some help on a little exercise and I just know that one of you geeks can have the answer in less time than it takes to write this blog.

A habitable planet has been located that is 800 light years from earth. The Colonisaton ship can accelerate at 3 earth gravities. The exhaust gas velocity is about 97% of the speed of light. Facilities within the ship will hold felt gravity at 1.1 Gs. How long will it take to get there?

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Lt Katia in Afghanistan

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Gosh, it has taken so long to calm down and for my muse to once again feel comfortable in my flesh, Wallah ! Ch 3 is about half written and I hope to publish it this week. To both of my readers, LOL, I am sorry that I have been away for so long.

Once again, after Lt Katia's rest, she is in Afghanistan. Remember the war has now gone on for 20 years; the West seems unable to leave; the need for the rare minerals is so great. China is mining most of it but the West and China have come into a tense cooperation agreement.

Katia will face danger and startling personal revelations.

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GID in GAZA

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http://edition.cnn.com/2009/WORLD/meast/12/17/gaza.gender.id/

This is a really interesting article. The problem in GAZA is huge. And, now that I think of it, though we do not hear about it much, I am thinking that the problem is a big problem in Saudi Arabia too. Which explains, perhaps, why a Saudi man that I know seems really uninterested and not at all alarmed by my own status. Hmmmmm

Khadijah

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OMG? I'm A Lesbian?

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Over the week end, my roomate and I drove 1100 miles, attended the funeral of her grandma, met relatives. The weather was great, the roads uncrowded, the car ran perfectly and this morning after sleeping in my own bed all night, I was given the gossip that Hindi and I are lesbian lovers. LOL It is what the dead grandma was telling the family.

Well, sorry, I don't do girls, did one and she was not to my taste. I much prefer to have 'is lolly in my mouth. LOL

Khadijah

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Head MRI on the 10th

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I've been having increasing head aches for the last several months. They began when I was about 20 and were only about twice a year, now I have them about once a month. When they started, they would give me a shot of Novocane at the base of my skull. Leave it to Doctors to eschew the simple solution and now I use Vicoden to knock them down. The problem is that Vicoden is of lessening effecacy, so they finally decided to um take a look.

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Laser Hair Removal, a caution.

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In 2005, when I came out, the Doctors said I had a condition called Hirsuitism (excessive hair), and it seems related to a genetic disorder mostly seen in females. I spent $7,000 getting almost all of it removed with a Laser, and it has been wonderful. However, since then, either owing to the Laser work, or to my use of Estrogen, my skin is more tender than most women I know. I can only tolerate certain fabrics and certainly not Nylon or Latex, either in gloves or "play wear". When I sweat, I don't get really wet, but my body really reacts to the salt, or acid (?) and I itch like crazy.

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Will this be goodbye?

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I am troubled tonight, and I don't seem to be able to sort my feelings out very well right now. I have been coming to this site just 2 weeks over 4 years, and I have come to know and have great affection for a number of the Authors here. I really appreciate the patience and understanding that Erin has shown me when my emotions were unmanageable. It is posible that I was the biggest drama queen ever to come here, and in spite of it all, I don't think anyone has ever sent an unkind email or comment to me. I am so thankful for that.

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Just a heads up.

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I got the following email from my Son when I got back to Ohio, and had Computer access again:

Dad,

I think I have hit that place where you were when you decided that Christianity or the Christian's definition of God was not for you. When I was having a child out of wedlock and Christy was accusing mom of cheating on you, only to find out that Christy was doing bad things herself. What awful days those must have been.

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Dropped my phone in coffee!

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So, on the otherwise pleasantly uneventful trip to Iowa, I dropped my phone into coffee. It was really awful as a dipper. So, Cathy I am Ok but out of touch until I get home, inshallah, on the 29th. Beth, I did so want to read your story and will, I promise. Any one else, I did hope to get ch 3 of Lt Katia up but now it will wait. Sorry.

I cannot sort the phone out until after the 11th.

Merry Christmas to all. Ma Salaama to you also.

Khadijah

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An open question on Posting to BCTS

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Please Erin, do not be offended. I know that you are very busy, so I just thought I would post this question in the open so that anyone having time could answer it so that I did not take your time.

On Chapter 1 of Lt Katia, I cut and pasted it to MS Works, straighened it out and then cut and pasted it to BCTS. It went in flawlessly and I did not have to insert any paragraphs or any thing.

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Sumat About My Writing.

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A little about my writing.

I just thought it would be helpful to talk to some of the newcomers about my point of view in writing. Yes, I am Muslim, and was fairly heavily emersed in that culture until just recently. So, my understanding of the cultures is somewhat better than some. I have no Military experience in the Middle East. Mine was during the Vietnam war and I was a non combatant. Yes, I was Military Police for 3 years … It’s complicated.

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One Gene Can Change Gender Of Fetus.

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I have been expecting to see research like this, and in time, perhaps not so much we will know why we are the way we are.

http:/ /timesofindia.indiatimes.com/home/science/Gene-alteration-turns-male-embryos-into-female-shows-study/articleshow/7059503.cms

Much peace

Khadijah

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Lt. Katia in Afghanistan


Lt. Katia in Afghanistan

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Lt Katia in Afghanistan Ch 2

Lt Katia In Afghanistan
Ch 2

Katia has two fortnights back home near Worcester, with her parents, relaxing and trying to adjust to being a woman. She's been dealing with the effects of PTSD, but Malok has been able to help by making internal repairs to her mind, and being with her folk will help much.



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Drotandrous Dichogamous Pseudohermaphrodites

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I stold this phrase from AE Brain, LOL But reading about it, I wonder if at least some Transgenderisim is simply a variation of protandrous dichogamous pseudohermaphroditism. I hope that none of you missed the clip on CNN where a Doctor said that for example, a Mtf Brain is more like that of a woman, and visa versa.

Hmmmmm.

Dragging the world, kicking and screaming out of the dark ages.

Khadijah

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Lt Katia Ch 2 Delay

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I had planned to publish "Lt Katia in Afghanistan, Ch 2, on Tuesday, but suddenly suffered some insufferable, slothful behaviour from my computer! GAH ! Good old Murphy for you. Well, it all seems to be working once again after marathon sessions with Microsoft, Norton, and AMI. It was all a bit much for a mild mannered, compliant, obedient, woman to handle, though we did avoid actual tears over it all. I did, snark snark, allow the hot sounding, Punjabi man in India to think that I might be in danger of a serious tear storm.

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Windows 7 a Dog too far.

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About 7:00 PM tonight, I started upgrading (?) my computer from Vista to Win 7. It is now almost 1:00 AM and I am asking myself just what in the hell I was thinking? They changed things that I liked just fine, now I gotta figure out how to do them now. I was so happy being able to fun two screens and now none of that works. Norton doesn't even look right any more.

Now I am even thinking of going out and buying a refurbished Apple. YUKKKK!!! I hate Apple computer company. Like I would rather swallow a fence post.

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SKYPE issues.

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Well, I was talking to one of my UK friends the other night and when we hung up, my computer froze. It took me several tries to restart it before I could get it running again, and along the way I figured out that either SKYPE or one of the messingers was causing the problem. In my trying to figure it out, I see that SKYPE downloaded a new version on 12/2, and after that is when the problem started.

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May I Say I Am Frightened?

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I am hoping that this is a safe place to say this ?

In a few weeks, a dear friend of mine is coming from Saudi Arabia to attend College in Portland. He is a very good man, and we get along so well that if things were different, I would marry him with no hesitation. (We all know what differences they might be) He and I just have so much to talk about. There is a heart connection there that I can not explain.

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Transgender Research Leaders

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There used to be professors at University of Hawaii (Milton Diamond), and one at Umich, (Who seems to have been completely written out of the historical record?) who were studying Transgender Issues, and of course there was pioneering work done in the Netherlands in the early 90's, but lately I have not heard any new News. Of course there was the work done at a University in Australia that had done preliminary identification on a Transgender Gene, but in the last year, I have not heard anything new on that front.

Khadijah

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I'm Safe ... right ???

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I've had several emails from members of my "other" community who are quite frightened. I am sure that most of you are aware of the attempted bombing in my home town, Portland, Or. It is the women who have most reason to be frightened, because the Hijab "brands" us. It is likely that many of them will be going out sans Hijab in the future.

I do not have that choice. For me it is Hijab or dress as a Man. I can not wear a wig.

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Genetic Personality Types and GID

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I think that most T folk struggle with figuring out who they really are. WELL DUH !!!

So, today, I was just cruising the net, trying to figure out some feelings that, Bailey's, "I'd do anything for love ..." story caused to surface. Well, in my researching, I happened upon an author who is published on LuLu. You can get his book titles off the home page of his site.

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