What happened to the story where this guy was dying and went down a worm hole and wound up a Princess with a pet dragon? It is recent within the last 6 months and I do not think it was finished. They were just getting ready for war with humans that had found them.

I have been exchanging PM's with another author who thinks that expressed Rage can have a strong role in stories. His assertions have caused me to be quite thoughtful about the concept.

In August of 2007, when I went to Thailand to have SRS, I contacted a Urinary Tract Infection, post op. Who knows how it happened. It is a whole new world when you cut your primary defense against such things off and make it a Vagina. You go from at least several inches separation between the tip of your penis, and your anus, down to an inch or two. Ecoli is resident in your intestines, and in males it is less troublesome than in females. I had contacted a strain of Ecoli that is antibiotic resistant, perhaps due to poor sterilization of the tools?

When I heard this talk on "TED Talks", the woman's story surprised me by its practicality. There are lots of concepts and ideas there that can be used by us all. Many of those ideas are exactly what I had to learn in my own recovery.

I hope that many of you will find this as useful as I did.

Gwendolyn

http://www.upworthy.com/what-s-schizophrenia-like-a-woman-wh...

So, I've almost always run my getting to be, ancient, Dell XPS 430 64bit computer with two screens. So, I frequently will answer an email, or comment on a blog by opening the original blog on one screen and then opening the same blog on the other screen for purposes of answering said blog, or email.

So, I am wondering how it is possible to view the same URL twice on the same computer and have it not get terribly confused?

So, since my SRS in August of 2007, dilation has been painful and icky to the point that I eventually just abandoned it for like years!

No alarms please, no one is doing anything stupid here.

OK, I freely admit to the duality of my nature. On one hand, I am devout. On the other hand, were I married, things could go way over the top within the confines of our bedroom. It is probably a shock to some of you. In the time when I wished to kill my self, perhaps some will think I should have. Frankly I have an attachment to pain that I did not understand and felt considerable guilt over most of my life. I think only one or two of you actually do understand. I never acted on it they way I wished to.

Many people think I am always sweet and kind. Last night I was a bitch.

I'm Sorry.

Gwendolyn

Well, this is surprising to me. I wrote this blog in the midst of writing my latest love story, a full on, unapologetic TG one too. As I am writing this story, I am also re-reading 50 shades, watching the news, and processing the romantic proposal of a Muslim Imam.

Am I so far out of step with the folk here that my time has passed? Is it time to go?

As some of you know, I write Romances and over time, some of them have gotten quite soppy, and my naivete has made my life adventurously interesting at times.

I stumbled into this tonight and had not thought that I would ever hear SSM discussed in Utah, AS IF. Well, there is dialogue going on. Hmmmm

I am reading Nancy Cole's, "Dance of the Baccha". It in many ways is a pleasant story, though at times quite frightening and tense, the subject matter dredging memories up less pleasant times for me.

I am in the first chapters where "M's" brother is being exposed to things that he had longed for, but had buried so deeply that he had not practiced.

I've been feeling quite down and sorry for myself. My church is being demanding and I am acting like a piteous 14 year old; quite intolerable and disrespectful to boot. So, I threw a right fit today and did not report for work as I had promised. I spent the day sleeping too late, eating too much and drinking coffee which is quite forbidden. In my moping about, it felt as if I have been working far too hard and everyone is being mean to me.

Ghost Writer? What is that, and would it be of use to me?

This autobiography that is in progress has proved to be so painful, that I do not know if it can be finished by me. Perhaps.

So, I had a meeting this morning with the Diversity folk up at OHSU that seemed relatively fruitful, though along the way, I started to feel somewhat like the FtM folk are doing all the talking, and the MtF folk are strangely silent.

Then she suggested that I get in touch with a group called Transactive.org, she, thinking that I would make a great volunteer there. On their web site, they spend a lot of time talking about "binders", but no time talking about male GRS.

I almost feel like they have literally taken over. I wonder why more MtFs are not being heard from?

OOPs, I put some art that has been sitting on my computer for a long time on my Facebook page and it so magnified it that I now see that what I thought was a belt buckle was actually a Copyright mark. My eyesight is not wonderful.

So, I'm trying to find a way to contact FB about it to take it down, so if anyone can help me with that ????

If anyone knows M. C Krauss, please extend my apologies.

Sorry

Gwen

I am surprised that someone did not blog this, so for those of you who might have missed this, here you go.

http://www.standard.net/stories/2013/05/30/first-transgender...

My "Girl Card" is punched. Anyone who wants to hate me for what I am about to say is quite welcome to do so. I do not claim this to be a scholarly, authoritative document. It is my opinion.

OK, I'll admit it! I am not always entirely innocent. So, last night I happened upon one of those web sites where guys are doing strange and painful looking penetration things to women.

As always, the "why" quest occupies a lot of my time. It is funner than suicide. :)

I've become aware of a website that seems to actively be trying to work things out. I went in there with my gun locked and loaded, expecting trouble, assuming the worst. That is not what I have found. I am willing to give them a try and just see what we come up with.

I have decided to behave myself and see what sort of dialogue we can have. So far, I have no objection to their policies, but have only been there a while.

I'd like to see what you think of the website. Please behave and don't make me sorry I published this. :)

Gwen

If you stop taking Estrogen do your breasts go away?

Post ops, do you ever get horny? I know this is an indelicate subject and since I say I am so religious, you probably find my question unthinkable. It’s approaching 8 years since I had any Testosterone in my blood. The Endocrinologist confirmed last week that my T levels are not measureable.

My E levels are around 50.

Well, ever since I moved it has been a battle to get sufficient signal to get on line. I have been using the Hot Spot on my phone but that gets expensive and I worry that the phone will melt. :) The house has "Clear" and my wifi works very spotilly. So, today I bought 50' of CAT 5 cable, measured 40', bought 50' and should have bought 60'. Sigh. I wish I had asked one of the men to do it but noooo miss independence had to get blisters, and sore knees of her own. Somebody spank the girl!

When I send this I will install the cable ends and hope that improves things. Wish me luck.