Looking back over the years, I see a shameful number of stories that I've read and not commented on early on. For this I apologize and I will try to do better in the future.

Gwen

It's been years coming but lately I seem to subconsciously be on the prowl for a man to plow me. Would I do blow jobs? Come to think of it... Does that mean I was always a latent homosexual, or have the hormones finally done their job on me. My only worry now is that I do not wind up with some sort of sexually transmitted disease. Questions, questions.

Preaching to the choir here... Women in western culture can basically wear anything that is not too revealing. On the other hand men who wear women's clothes, it's not good.

I really like stockings and garter belts (Suspender belts in the UK), and I have several variations of them. Anytime I wear them it must be in secret or heavily concealed.

THIS PISSES ME OFF !!!

Looking at the story menu tonight, I am surprised at my own reaction to it. Referring to someone as a sissy is particularly off putting for me but talking about someone being feminized or even forcibly feminized is not. Odd that. This is in no way a criticism of others but simply refers to my own reaction to the word.

While scratching away, vainly trying to write something intelligent, compelling and interesting, it comes to me that as far as TG, GID and all that, it feels like I've "Been there and done that". This is no reflection at all on the experience of anyone else. I've had over 70 years to think about, theorize and experience the whole of it, and as soon as I could took the plunge trying to make it all real. In some ways I had great success and in others it was disastrous. I'm sure that my suffering is typical of the usual T person, so I won't further traumatize you.

I had my Neo-Vagina installed in 2007 and for a decade it was fun. In the last few years it does nothing; worse than a dead fish. Er, it doesn't smell though. One thing that does happen is that at times, it feels like I am sitting on my penis, and when I am walking the feeling is stronger. There are no more Orgasms, and there are perhaps several reasons. I've got several conditions that are vying for the right to kill me. I am just wondering if any other Post op ladies can relate?

I've been working on some short stories that one might classify as lewd or pornographic. I had thought that I would tone them down before I published them at BCTS feeling as though that was my only proper option. One of them is Forced Feminization with Bondage. I am shocked at myself that now that I'm nearly finished, I do not wish to castrate it. Yes, I know there are other sites and I wonder if I should attempt to use one of them?

I've been thinking of taking the plunge and attempting to publish on Amazon Kindle. I've read some books there and a few of them have been from BCTS authors, though some of the others could have been but were done in the stealth mode. I'm not planning to out anyone.
They are my three oldest stories, and I think that all three are large enough to interest Amazon. I'm not terribly worried about my editing work because I recently read a very long book there that passed but still needed a lot of editorial work, though the story was quite engaging.

I'd read "Battle For Earth" before but I don't remember how far back. It is engrossing, interesting and involved. Did I mention that it is quite long? I think there is a surprise ending, but I am not there yet.

I encourage you to read it.

Gwen

Originally, in 2004, I didn't intend to be a woman but then my family and everyone around me were so mean and condemning and self righteous that it broke me and I gave up. I decided to be me, really me. I stopped trying to be that uber religious, pastor wanna be, and to just live for me! The kids were grown and gone. My then wife was super busy, self focused on her career, and she left me out.

We may have discussed this before but I do not remember the outcome.

I was just watching a YouTube video about a British Sunderland scrapping with some German aircraft and the narrator repeatedly used the pronunciation (Leftenant) of the word I normally hear as Lieutenant. Then again I have been told by some of you from the UK that Lieutenant is the proper form. Which is it to be?

I was preparing to re-read Warrior of Batuk, and in the notes before the beginning, the editor said to use a certain font in MS Word. I tried to cut and paste Chap. 1&2 in an open document in MS word, and as I had expected, it did not happen. We all know that I should be on a leash when on the computer. Is there some secret that I missed and is it worth the effort?

Trying to write effectively after a long period of absence is so hard right now. I can only hope that it gets better. Today, while reading another's work, it was clear that they had "missed a spot". I'll be even more alert to this weakness in both my own work, and in the work of others. As an example; when something happens to transform a man into a woman, perhaps it should follow that his brain and thought patterns should change too? Or perhaps the writer could make it clear that his change was merely superficial?

Wearing stockings, is there a good way to stop your feet from sliding around in your shoes? I don't usually wear any leg coverings because my whole body is almost completely hairless. Today I was playing and noticed that my feet were sliding round in my shoes.

Over the last fortnight, I've been gathering my resources, buy men's clothing, and making all sorts of decisions in a very deliberate way. Life is really complicated and where possible I intend to live as a man as far as that is possible. I idea of living as a recluse in the deep woods keeps passing through my head. I have no idea what my life will look like in the future.

I wouldn't call myself homosexual having never had willing penetrative intercourse other than anal rape. Many years later I look back at the three boys who did it and hope that they repented and had good lives. When it happened, the victim was blamed as much as the assailants. The PTSD and Psychologists who drove surgical intervention were as much at fault as I am. Lately I am just sure that I would have done fine as a crossdresser. I did not know it at the time but the peculiarities of law mean that if I had not started living as a woman, I might be living in a tend or even dead.

I'm very ill with a Urinary Tract Infection and Arthritis in my back. The Hospital has given me Antibiotics and Narcotic pain killer. Right now it all feels quite dire.

Gwen

I've only just finished reading "Changing Roles" By Julie D. Cole, and found it riveting in the Literary sense. The last chapter available (# 32) was recently released on BCTS and I have been hoping for more soon. I was searching for other of her works on the general Internet and found an English Author of the same name, though have not found other published writings. It seems as if her husband is an Author and then the trail grows cold.

Hoping for more work from her soon.

Gwen

A few years ago, I read all or part of a story in which an Administrative assistant is feminized by his boss. I have no idea what the title or author of the story is.

Gwen

So, I was just cruising the web this afternoon when suddenly I was at a site that I did not recognize that had about 25 or more photos. One caption said that it was the server room on the east coast and another caption said BCTS. I don't know what was going on and it seems to have cleared now. I had previously visited a site called "Chat GPT" that did not interest me, so I left. I don't know if this caused BCTS any grief and if it did, I am sorry.

Gwen

So often, the people I meet assume that I am homosexual, while in fact I boringly don't have any sort of sex with anyone at all male or female. Though a correctly done spanking now and again would be nice. As most here know, I am mtf post op and having been living as a woman for a long time. (2004) In the last few years, I don't have any sort of pleasurable sexual sensations at all.

So, do other mtf post ops have any sort of partners? I apologize for being nosy.

Gwen