What is happening? Tension and anxiety seep into my existence as I think about the political insanity coming in 2024. Thoughts of suicide have been absent for a few years now. Those relatives I most valued don't speak to me because they have allowed their imaginationings about my morality to run amok though lately I wonder what it would be like to have a man rod me out with vigor. That neovagina that I paid so much for in 2007 has remained unused. How stupid I was to believe the fantasy that I could ever be seen as anything but a female pretender. I would pay some stud to fuck me were it not for the fear of contracting some sort of lethal STD.

Has the various Covid vaccines saved us despite their painful and troublesome side effects. We let scientists try to stop it with their stirring repulsive ingredients into their witches cauldrons. Despite my once strong desire to be a Doctor, nowadays I see the whole discipline as inept sorcery that often cures one ailment while causing another.

I had been on various psychotropic medications for years and in the last months have finally titrated off all of them. It is now clear that these concoctions meant to stop suicide had side effects that are the stuff of the most terrifying nightmares...