The final chapter of "Mirror Mirror" is up, and I have NEVER been so glad to put a story to bed.

To those who stuck with this story, thank you.

Well, there was some mixed news here, as one of the candidates for Premier of our province participated in a Christian parade run by a group known for their extremist views on homosexuality. Their pastor even blogged that the flooding that happened in southern Alberta last year were caused by God crying over the Gay Pride Parade in Calgary.

On the one hand, it was pretty sad that a major political player would be willing to stand with such a group, but on the other hand, both of the other candidates pounded on him for doing so, and so did one of our major newspapers.

I lit a candle for my brother in church today.

My day started with me in tears as I went to church, because as it is Father's day, I found myself missing my dad something awful.

Well, we got some bad news here.

Last night, I dreamed that my brother was dead. So this morning, I had to call him, just to hear his voice.

That's not too weird, is it?

If you are interested, I've found an interesting article on being trans and being a survivor of sex abuse:

http://www.firelily.com/gender/gianna/childhood.trauma.html

Just a question for you all. I am considering publishing here the speech I will give at church on Sunday, and I wonder if I should do so as a "story" or a "blog"?

opinions?

As most of my long-time readers know, I try my best in this blog to be as honest as I possibly can, in part to make up for the amount of lying that was part of my life before. That isn't always easy, a lot of the time I'd rather talk about something "safe" than bring out the tough stuff that's going on. Like, for example, discovering I did the double-look at boys, that was not easy to write out for public consumption, to say the least.

Sadly, I'm faced with one of those moments again

well, yesterday I went to the doctor's about my foot, and my 2nd worst fears have been confirmed. My worst fear was that it was cancer, which it isn't, but my second-worst fear was that they would tell me there's nothing more they can do for me, and that's what's happened. Apparently, they don't think surgery is a good choice because the risks of nerve damage, so basically, I can try to stuff a pad into my shoe and hope that helps, and otherwise, I get to just live with it.

Ah, well. with my gender issues, I already knew I wasn't gonna ever be pain free anyway ...

well, I have a rough draft of what I want to say in church on June 8, and I would really like some opinions on it. If you're interested, please send me a private message.

I just finished reading a book called "But inside, I'm screaming". Its the story of a young reporter who has a breakdown and ends up in a mental hospital, and the story is about her slow journey back to mental health.

You wouldn't think that would be a good story for me to read, especially as I have been fighting depression all week, but her learning how to love herself even if she isn't perfect was inspiring to me.

I can recommend the book to anyone.

Well, I just got home from my group therapy session, and once again, I am in tears.

Well, I have a new favorite book.

Well, today is my fifth anniversary here on Big Closet!

Well, I had a dental appointment yesterday, and I am in pain, but at least its over with.