my computer has died, probably from an overdose of Jaci's girly germs. So I wont be online for a bit. huggles to all.

The quote is of course, courtesy Monty Python, and fortunately, I'm luckier than the fellow in the sketch. See, I dodged a bullet in terms of my liver. CT scan showed the same level of fatty tissue as before, so for now, its exercise, diet, and keep an eye on things. Also good news, despite the pain I have been feeling in my hip the last while, no signs of further arthritic damage, so my doctor said its most likely a pulled muscle or strained tendon, and again, losing weight would be the best thing I can do for it.

It is safe to say that without Big Closet. "Dorothy" would not exist. In fact its debatable whether I would even be alive now had I not found this site. Which is why the constant struggles to keep the site financially afloat has me worried, and more than a little frustrated.

See, I am on disability, and once I take care of my rent, car, and food, I might have maybe 20 bucks a month left over, and that's on a good month. Not to mention my mom is covering for me in terms of giving money to my ex and my daughter and that's far from fair.

Just wanted to send a public thank you to crazypagangurl; aka Tiffani, who listened to me blubber for about an hour last night.

hugs, and thank you!

Okay so I got some good news about Sam's future.

Apparently there is a program offered at NAIT that will allow her to take cooking arts there even if she doesnt have a GED. Not only that, it is specifically set up for people with mental disabilities like Sam, and they will also help her find a job in the field when she's done.

It all sounds fantastic ...

I have the beginnings of an idea about a story connected to my M.Y.T.H. universe, but I am going to need help. Does anybody know about creatures of the Louisiana swamps? Specifically, I'm thinking any thinking monsters or were-creatures ? If you do, or know any resources related to that mythos, please let me know.

Okay so this is getting ridiculous.

Last night I again dreamed of being an actress, this time with a guest role on Buffy the Vampire Slayer as a mystic healer who also worked as a nurse at Sunnydale hospital and helped Buffy and the gang, and then had to treat Spike who had been hurt during a battle.

Help!

okay for someone who doesnt actually watch that much TV anymore, other than sports and Dr. Who. (and Agents of Shield), my subconscious seems to have been infected by TV shows.

Twice in the last week or so I have had dreams of being an actress on TV shows. The first time I played a young woman who had been a pioneer in getting an education in the early 1900's, and returned home to her small town in Eastern Canada, faced people who dismissed her because of her youth and gender, and helped solve a mystery.

reports say two tornadoes have hit in or near Ottawa, Ontario. My prayers are with those affected.

I was hoping to have "Synchronicity" finished and up by now, but the last while PTSD issues and depression have taken my writing spoons. Not sure when I'll have it finished, or when I'll have serious work done on my other unfinished stuff.

Sorry.

just letting everybody know, I'm going to be rather busy the next couple of days. so if you try and contact me, and I'm not on, it means i'm either a) running around like a chicken with its head cut off, or b) sleeping or possibly c) both.

Things I've learned, transitioning late in life:

So I've been having teeth pain the last couple of days, and finally screwed up my courage and went to a dentist.

Today all I got done was x-rays, so I will have to go back Thursday for the first part of the work that needs done, and chances are it will take 2 visits to get everything accomplished.

So anxiety levels are not going to be lowered for a while, sadly ...

When I posted a link to my story "The things we do for love" here, I wasn't expecting more than maybe a couple people clicking on the link and enjoying the story. But Erin and the elves here decided I needed a present, so they not only put the story back on the top of the front page, they added a beautiful image to it as well.

Thank you ever so much. After grinding out my latest down time, to get this kind of generosity ...

I'm ... overwhelmed ...

I only wish I could do something in return ...

Okay, although I'm not comfortable blowing my own horn much, I want to do something a little risky and put a brief spotlight on some of my older stories. Since we have a lot of new readers here, they may not have seen them the first go-round. Its a bit like the Retro Big Closet feature you may see here from time to time.

Its been very smoky here in Edmonton this week, as fires rage all across BC and the smoke pours over the mountains into Alberta. Should be good writing weather but I ... just havent had as much writing spoons as I would have liked. Still, I have a couple of pieces more or less ready - one for the September contest, and one for the next "mix tape" if it gets accepted. Plus I have one more that is about a quarter done, my Siege of Fiddler's Vale story which is started but kinda stalled, and a few older pieces I hope I can get wrapped up some day. So as the saying goes, stay tuned !

Kristine Roland contacted me on Facebook saying she's having troubles accessing her account here. If Erin or any of the elves could help, I'm sure she would appreciate it ...

Well, my muse brought me a little snippet, so I'm sharing it with you, my friends. Hope you like it!

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/75371/gibraltar-falls

Well, I just posted a little preview of my upcoming story "the siege of Fiddler's Vale" - just to whet everybody's appetite ...

you may or may not remember that a few years ago there was a documentary called "super size me" in which a man decided to eat nothing but Big Mac hamburgers for a year. In the documentary, the man's doctor begs him to stop half-way through the year because of the damage he was doing to his organs.

Well, I am in basically the same situation as that guy.

I have been told in no uncertain terms I have to change my eating habits and my lifestyle, or I wont have either style or life, or at the least I'll be unable to enjoy what life I have.