Just a quick note to tell everybody my computer is down. I'll be back online when I can be.

To the people who care about me: I'm sorry. See, caring about someone is always risky. There is a chance you will get hurt by them. I'm not just talking about being disappointed, or betrayed, but hurt because the person you care about is hurting. So if you care about me, you've been hurt when I have hurt, and I'm sorry. And I'm afraid the hurting isnt over. See, I've been, so to speak writing checks my body cant cash for a long time, and it looks like nature is going to collect. And therefore I can see a lot of hurt in my future.

Just wanted to say that Andrea DiMaggio is my hero. She took time out of her own grief to send me notes of encouragement when I was having a tough day. You rock, my friend.

When I moved in to my brother and sister-in-law's basement, one of the things I agreed to was to take over the outside chores - mostly snow shoveling and lawn care.

At that time the thing I worried about was that my mental health issues would make doing these jobs tough.

I never dreamed how fast my physical health would deteriorate.

I never imagined that there would be a time when being out working for an hour would be a serious challenge.

I honestly dont know how long I can keep up to my promise, or what happens when I cant anymore.

sighs ...

Okay so I'm fooling around with a story idea, and could use some feedback, Basic idea is a young heroine from a obscure "magical girl" manga which has been repackaged for an English speaking audience finds herself blown out of the pages of her book, into a place between stories, between universes. She now goes from universe to universe, story to story, trying to get "home". To make this idea extra awesome I'd like other authors' permission for her to visit their stories and interact with their characters as part of her journey,

Anybody wanna jump in?

I found a video game about grief with all the feels:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JV8ZB26GE-A&t=26s

Well, its a week late, but my anniversary story is up: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/79328/anniversary-che...

if you had told me a few years ago my ex would be sending me a bag of women's clothes to use I would have called you delusional. But that happened today. I wish I could send out some of my good luck to everyone here.

So I took the clothes home, and tried them on, and I had a kitty "helping" me . She was very helpful sitting in the middle of the pile of clothes on my bed occasionally mewing commentary. the dog was at the foot of the bed to offer a dissenting opinion

tough day today. tweeked my male bits while out shopping with Sharon, which set off my dysphoria so bad I could have broken down and cried right there but managed to hold it in. The pain and dysphoria then triggered my PTSD, so I was really having a tough time. So how can I recover from such difficulties? I watch something like this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oW9f04Dctz4

Oh my goodness, it crept up on me, my 10th Anniversary ! (Well, 9 years, 12 months, as my account says)

whoo hoo! let the party begin!!

New story up! https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/79105/case-grimwood-g...

just wanted to give a big public "thank you" to everyone who sent me revisions/corrections o my story. I'm working my way through them now, and I believe the story will be better for it.

Again, thanks, and huggles to commentator, Eric, Xtrim, and Patricia Marie Allen for their assistance, and Qmodo who also volunteered.

To my fans (all 3 of you);

After a couple of weeks of struggle, I'm making progress on my Sherlock Holmes story.

Stay tuned ...

Just wanted anybody who has been hoping for something new from me to know; its gonna be a while. Depression and PTSD have drained my spoons, and in any case I seem to be seriously stuck on my Sherlock Holmes story.

So sorry.

disappointing outing at the writing group. They didnt hate the piece, but they thought it had the same weakness a lot of my writing does - a lack of detail.

Sighs ...

Okay, I'm trying to decide what piece of mine to take to my writing group, and your advice would be appreciated.

I have a new story up. Sadly, it's not the Sherlock Holmes one, but just a bit of fluff. Hope you all enjoy it: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/78736/last-race

I apparently forgot to tell everybody that I went to my writing group Thursday, and shared "Under the stars" (which you can read here: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/44433/under-stars ) and they absolutely loved it.

I really needed the positive reinforcement, you know?

I am currently writing: a tribute fan fic of Sherlock Holmes, a story about being kidnapped by aliens who are doing tag and release, a story about a race around the solar system, a story about a young girl with healing powers, a story about a school for mermaids, unicorns, witches, and vampires, and a story about finding a bracelet that summons a portal to alternate realities. Not to mention another Jaci/Dottie story.

Who else has too many ideas at once?

i had a really angry-sad moment today.

See, we're in a provincial election, and the guy everybody expects to win is very anti-LGBT. This was made abundantly clear today when he announced he would scrap the law that protects LGBT kids from being outed by their teachers.

I spent a long time in prayer asking for help to find grace for this man, so my anger wouldnt kill me ...

when I first arrived at this site I was a little shy about giving comments. (Its true!) But I always treasured it whenever someone left a comment on any of my stories, so one day I realized that if I felt that way, other authors might too, and so set out to try send out as much encouragement I could. I just hope I havent become annoying ...

just had the idea for a video game that would show through metaphor what transition is like - like you have to navigate the health care system maze, you can collect estrogen (or testosterone) as power ups, and so on,

What do you guys think?

I've decided to focus on gratitude for Lent. So here is a big thank you huggle to all the members of "Team Dorothy'