I'm hurting a lot right now, not that lots of others on this site haven't been hurt as much.

I have this file called "ideas" and I free write there to see if anything comes of the present idea. So, today I was working there and then I realized that what I was writing was far too BDSMish. and explicit. So, I took a nap and when I got up, I still felt that way, so I deleted that part of it, about 4 pages of smut. HMPH !

Downton Abbey has always seemed far too stern and tacturn for me. I've seen little snippets of it but always backed away to avoid the painful seriousness. For reasons unclear to me, I felt drawn to it yesterday, and rented the first episode of it, and am watching it in little bits.

I can't work out why or if the people were actually that inhuman to each other.

I've had these insane thoughts flitting through my head about a person, or family that finds themselves living with Dinosaurs. I haven't worked out if it is a time travel story, or if they were on a spaceship that took them there. The more I study, I am not sure IF present day humans could live at that time because of differences in the Atmosphere. And I don't know if the soil of the Earth of that day is terriformed enough to support plants and animals that humans can eat? I haven't worked out a premise for how any TG content could happen. And, I haven't written a thing yet.

Some of us are old enough to have had surgeries to correct sexual organ issues, and did not know until later. The story came out later for me and I had to piece bits of circumstantial evidence together until the pile got too big to ignore. Later in life I found out about my genetics ... The conclusion I came to is that the Doctor had taken me in another room and done a radical Hysterectomy. I found out that I spent a while in the hospital after I was born but not what for.

This is an appeal to the Geeks here:

When writing, I will often listen to music on my Computer. That has been seamless and trouble free, but with the new Google, YouTube, and Facebook policies things have changed. It is now common that I am listening to Music at lets say 3 db, and suddenly the volume will jump by 6 or more db for an advertisement. This is very distracting.

I've tried software volume limiting before but they somehow defeat that and it is not easy to manually adjust.

I've got an idea flitting around in my head that has revived an old story line that died out for me a long time ago. I have no idea if anything will come of this. There is no magic, no gender, not anticipating interfacing with Whately, though my character may very seldom perhaps visit the place on the way through the area for a cup of potion with one of the folk there. If my mentioning the name of the school, is an issue, I'd likely just not name it. My character might hate rules, love chaos, and rebel against authority, not that this character does anything to promote chaos very often.

At times being out and post operative as a transgender woman can be a "Hard Knock Life", filled with desperate emotions.

A genetic woman I know has been a good friend for nearly a decade, and lately she has started listening to "Candace Owens" and her "Walt Heyer" Videos. She is driving me nuts in trying to use his nuttyness to get me to change my life. In my opinion, Candace is in the video making racket to make money, and he's gone round the bend, perhaps into Dementia?

Perhaps I have been kidding myself in thinking I don't actually like men?

I can't actually figure it out. Maybe he could be my Daddy? I never had a proper one. :(

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=foneS2GhpUg&t=342s

He is actually a Fireman on a Steam Locomotive. You don't actually see the picture when the Video is playing, but it is the little picture that shows before you click on it.

A recent story here reminded me of one from an Author that published one about 8 years ago, and then they disappeared. I do not want to pop any bubbles or offend any sensibilities, so I won't name the Author nor Story Title.

The Pique of my curiosity "peaked" to night so I decided to see what happened to that Author if I could. After searching for too long tonight, I think the story came from a Sci Fi Book as Fan Fiction, or perhaps from a Video Game.

I'm discouraged and do not seem able to cure it.

I was just reading a very interesting discussion that I had been taken with, but as soon as they crossed an unseen line, I was finished reading it. It feels awful to condemn someone's work just because they crossed a conceptual boundary for me. At least I know it is there, but as to changing my mind about it, that seems unlikely.

Just finished up the restarted, "Twice Removed", and it is still echoing in my synapses.

The other day I watched an old movie, "Starship Troopers" and was disappointed. Apparently they decided to rework it in 2011, and they made a right muck up of it, in my opinion. The first movie was intact, but the others were not recognizable. The Videography was dark and they strayed from the original plot line. What a mess. I wish they'd left it alone. It was childish and immature but fun.

I really enjoy stories that are well written, and are NOT Fanfic. I love writers who use their own brains and imaginations.

A school Teacher volunteered to review two chapters of a story that is dear to my heart. "Hala's Snow Day", and "Cowgirl Hala". I knew that she was a feminist, and a radical one at the start of this. So I should have known, really.

Just making sure that folks know about this. In my most drunken and deluded fantasies, I am no computer geek, though I had a couple stories stolen years ago. -- Gwen

Some people have reported on social media that their stories have appeared on http://kisslibrary.com without permission. Since this is a site that sells ebooks, it could be a problem. They do have forms for asking for DMCA take downs.

Be aware.

Gwen and Erin