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Is It worth it.

I used to be a devoted Flight Sim pilot. Then the whole thing imploded and it was gone.

Now it seems that a new version is trying to learn to walk. I have a second computer with two Monitors. It is an i3, and reading all the specks, it will never work. Technology has moved at light speed.

I do not like the very aggressive and bloody video games. They are a huge turn off for me.

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The Unkindest Cut.

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I had read, or heard someone say that Transgender folk have a high incidence of Autism or something on the Spectrum, but I know a woman that spent many years working with the folk and she does not see the connection.

Then I was reading on the internet and it seems to be a popular idea among PhD. Psych. folk that Transgender folk have a predominance of three serious personality disorders; Paranoid PD, avoidant PDs, and comorbid PDs. Someone else indicated that many were Borderline Personality.

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A New Hope.

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I've had new contact with my estranged Son, something I had given up on. He first emailed me, saying he was thinking of me, and tried to talk about my living in sexual sin. Sorry to drop the Religion Bomb on you, but I shared Matt 19:12 and Isaiah 56:4-5 with him, and later I got an email from him asking for my forgiveness.
He can't speak a sentence without using Scripture or mentioning God.

I'm very thankful but I do not plan on a deep relationship.

Gwen

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Must Needs there Always be Fear and Aggression?

Those sworn to defend the world, no matter their country or loyalties, watched, completely confused, as a tube shaped object accelerated, completely out of the atmosphere. A scrambled fighter, one of several fired a missile at the object, but it was far too slow.

Humans had assumed the visitors to be hostile, but the truth was something they could not understand.

We must wait for understanding.

Gwen

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Is It A New World?

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President Elect Joe Biden is planning to nominate Dr. Rachael Levine as HHS Secretary. I wish them the best, though I think that some will fight this. She is Transgendered.

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I Need Courage To Live...

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Lots of us are in the same boat here. I am sorry to be whiney. I started Isolating about the first of March and it is getting old, really old. I am very lonely. I get all masked up and go grocery shopping about every 10 days and that's it. I've seen two ads about people over 50 getting together but that will have to wait until after the second vaccine.

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Perverted...

Due to Covid 19, I haven't been out more than once a week, to avoid it, and that is since January. Life is just really strange right now. I've been doing my best to keep distracted and calm, though the VA is anxious to get me on Psychotropic drugs. I doubt that I shall follow their wishes.

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Nun or None

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It's been two weeks since I've gotten groceries. I had to go, or the specter of starvation might overcome me. Since the stimulus there was money to shop. I was poking about for some eggs and then I spotted those precooked pasta. These had shrimp and lobster inside. I reached round a Native looking man to get some. Later we looked through the Cereal together. Then I noticed Watermelon Juice. So did he. A frision began to steal its way through my innermost parts. Later, at the check stand, he was behind me. What would I do about my vow to finish my life alone?

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The Study of Gender Variance.

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Gender Identity has been under study for just yonks'. There have been far too many folk moralizing about the various manifestations of it for like ever, or longer. Perhaps the issues with gender differentiation come from some not having to squat to pee? I wonder if no one had a Penis. We'd all be going round making messy little puddles.

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To Be Or Not To Be 2 Spirit

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Facing facts can be difficult, and the facts are that I no longer pass, especially wearing one of those horrid masks. Some are optimistic that we are at the threshold of having a viable Vaccine for Covid 19, but I won't allow my happiness to get out of hand.

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BBC, War of the Worlds

War of the Worlds has been reproduced many times. I am surprised. I just happened upon a delightful preview version of it on YouTube set around the turn of the 20th Century with the long skirts and such. I have been trying to rent the full version of it but the BBC seems reluctant to do so. I even subscribed to BBC and gave my address as Dumfries, but they seemed quick to suss out my treachery. My next approach might be to use something to show my address in the UK, but not be there. I'm reluctant to do that because I do not wish to be spanked.

Suggestions?

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Full Blown Crisis! Help

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A man that I have known for perhaps 25 years when I was attending an Evangelical Church, just told me about something that I've never heard of before and the way it was worded it seemed like he wondered about me. I'm shaken right to the core, and do not know what my future is going to be.

He asked me about the term, "Clovergender". I had never heard of it and no one ever accused me of any sort of abuse of a child. He felt that the idea is that folk like that are Pediophiles. I raised three children and there was never any of that sort of behavior.

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Copying others

The Film "Avatar" has just lots of six legged animals. It makes me wonder why there Navi are not six legged?

I've also been re-reading David Weber, where the birds, mammals (?) are Hexapods. They have Treecats that are 6 limbed and live in the trees.

How did the makers of "Avatar" copy David Weber's Heptapods and not be in trouble?

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Perhaps I just need a good slap?

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I'm feeling sort of tearful, perhaps without right? It's been years since I wanted a spanking. I thought that was over.

I was talking with my therapist and she asked me if I felt arousal when I got dressed in the morning? That brought me up short. I felt like I'd gotten poked with a stick.

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Thankful for your love.

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I've been at BCTS for a long time and many of you have expressed kindness to me in that time. I'm so thankful to you all. I just wanted to make sure I had a chance to express that sentiment in case things went really sour.

I live in Portland, Oregon, right next to the ICE center. The demonstration tonight included yelling, explosions and tear gas that got in my 4th floor apartment through an open window. There was no warning. The demonstrators were attacking without warning. I almost went to the hospital but some medication stabilized me.

Peace to you all.

Gwen

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The Handshake that Hides the Snake

I am reading a Kindle Book that makes me very uncomfortable because I have personal experience with the subject matter in a very specific way. I've been personally raked over the coals by the company and SEEN the manipulative way their parent company gaslights them. I'm very upset and feeling like I'm going to have a Panic Attack. AND, there is an admonishment to comment on the work and so far I can find no way to do it. I paid for the Book and think that it will be best to walk away from it. I can be a lot more specific but then Erin will be very upset. Dropping the Mike now.

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To Her, All My Blessings, and Love!

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Today, I suited up, using all I could to keep me warm, concealed and safe and rode my bike about 5 miles to the Hardware Store, and while I was rooting about in there, trying to find a certain soap, I came face to face with another T woman. OR she could have been Intersex, or any number of other things also. She had the hips, and was very slim. T folk are sometimes very critical of each other. I didn't say anything because that would mean I had clocked her. At that point felt all the love and support for her that another human being could feel for another.

Blessings to you all.

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Sweet story about twins.

I wanted to write a story about twins, girl and boy who were very close, perhaps right up through High School and longer perhaps. As twins sometimes do, they played games with their parents, switching clothes and so on.

I read this story more than 10 years ago, I think. Since the Author was so much better than I, It seems that it would be better to read their story rather than my own.

Has anyone an idea where I might find this story?

Thank you

Gwen

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Not about Religion

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It is not important if you are religious I suppose. Look at what is happening in the World, then read Revelations, especially Chapter 22, from the Bible. Not saying anything political. The Quran makes only oblique mention of it. Perhaps the Jews have something in their Tanakh.

Blessings to you all.

Gwen

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5 Languages, two degrees

A character that I am writing, a most exceptional young lady, writes and speaks 5 languages, English, Spanish, Arabic, Urdu, and Afghani. She writes two ancient languages that she uses for scholarly study. She has a Phd. in Archeology, and Sociology, with some expertise in other ancient History.

I was a blue collar worker, so have no idea how one would accumulate that much education. She's obviously a Polyglot and has a rather high IQ.

It is obvious that there are members here who know the answer to my question.

Thank You

Gwen

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Too fearful to write about this.

Perhaps someday I will write about this, but not now. None of what I am relating has to do with religion, rather more about Anthropology perhaps? Apparently this work is housed at the British Museum of History.

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Sexuality I don't understand.

With the recent disclosure of Paris Hilton, I begin to suspect that lots of people have severe trauma in their lives, yet somehow manage to hide it and pull together a reasonable life. I'm no exception. The mistake I made was to marry a severely damaged partner and eventually our lives caved in. She was an Alcoholic and I changed male to female.

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Gender Stereotyping CNN Article

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https://www.cnn.com/2020/08/11/health/tomboys-lisa-selin-dav...

I am angered by the ignorance in this CNN Article. It's all about it being OK for girls to be Tomboys, and just goes on and on. Yet, if a boy tends to be effeminate, many of us know there is hell to pay.

It is amazing that they had the cheek to publish this article.

Gwen

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