I just finished re-reading "Legacy of the Anari" by Ashley Blayze. I have no idea how I found the story after a dozen years. In my opinion, the story is as good as many of the other SCI FI greats, and yes, it contained Gender Change but without some of the tiresome tropes that most TG tales contain.
Sadly, the Author seems to have done this one off, and disappeared. I do hope that she has gone onto better things and had great success doing them.
Many years ago, perhaps even in the 90's, I read a story that could have been Medieval, in which a female (Witch, wizard ?) controlled time by cranking a reel to reel tape back and forth from a tower, splicing and editing it as necessary. It could have been on BCTS but also could have been on another site. It was a good story.
I had been friends with someone here for many years and she helped me through times when I was Suicidal. We used to PM and use SKYPE a lot. I even drove hundreds of miles to visit a couple times. Then she decided to get married and suddenly it was just off and completely so. When I asked questions, suddenly another member here felt obligated to be mean and blunt with me, treating me as if I am a idiot. She even asked if she needed to spell it out for me? Then another member with no knowledge of the situation from across the pond was similarly acting like a YOB.
Apparently Google has a pseudo AI program out that they are calling Replica. I saw it on Facebook but did not take the risk of logging onto it. Scam or no?
She and I used to talk on Skype, and I made a couple trips out to where she lives. To my knowledge she has not been on line for a while. Does anyone know how she is?
I first became aware of the idea of Two Spirit, reading a story here by "Teddie" (Not the LGBT one) but the one that has been with the Native Americans for a very long time. Remembering past conversations and incidents with my family, it seemed clear that I am from a branch of the Shawnee. Yesterday, it was surprising to find that my Counsellor at OHSU Teaching University brought it up and said that Native American Two Spirit is well recognized in her circles.
With Covid and weak health, I spent just lots of time reading here, on YouTube and other sharing services.
Years ago, I remember Joseph Campbell sayin that there are only a few different stories to tell. Lately I am seeing undeniable confirmation of that. Often I'll be reading a story or watching a movie and I'll remember seeing a scene or hearing a line from somewhere else, especially with things that come from Hollywood.
Cleaning house, I stumbled upon some old records that show I have a Cyst on the right frontal lobe of my brain that was detected in 2012. I'm seeing my health care provider on Tuesday, and am mildly frightened. Do these things turn into something more serious? The internet is frightening the hell out of me.
A couple of days ago I looked at my reflection in a window and was shocked. I look nothing like a woman, and don't care. I used to work really hard to appear feminine, in leggings and skirt and nice top on my bike. I don't walk much because my knees are both awful, and doing research, at my age (75) knee work just doesn't seem to work out. I'll stop complaining.
Now, when I go out, it is long pants. I have naturally grown B cup breasts but can't wear a bra of any sort because my lymph nodes all up and down my ribs hurt awfully. The girls really stand up with no sag.
It seems obvious to me that some of the stories here were driven by the game "Dungeons and Dragons", though I have had relatively little exposure to it. Some of the scenes in "Stranger Things" are really triggering because of my unwilling exposure to the psychological world and their drugs. Life has been much better since I told them to "F" off. One of the characters, Finn Walthard looks really feminine, If I have the right one. If I had a chance I would do much worse to the psychs than EL.
Wife stole his house and divorced him. He wound up around Newquay, UK. Was befriended by a very rich grandmotherly woman in a mansion that shoot moles with a shotgun. He somehow inherited a Yacht which he moored closeby. Don't know if he was trans?
In the early 2000's I remember reading articles on the Internet about the studies on Gender and Intersex done by some researchers in Scandinavia. They started a revolution of rampant speculation. I don't think that there are experts who have a firm handle on things. Some of the most significant progress in that and associated fields happened in the 20th Century. As a matter of personal opinion, I don't think that we actually know as much as we think we do.
Lots of excitement in my life just now. I've been cautiously thinking about how I might De-transition, and what good that would do? It might cause a lot of harm by making my housing situation and income uncertain. I rather enjoy not having to deal with men as a man. I don't want to lose that. My Breasts aren't that large, but I do not wish to try to pee standing up, even with my little camping funnel.
I started sneaking birth control pills around the late 90s since I was too stupid to realize that an abusive wife was likely the root of my bad self image. I should have had a divorce instead. It would have been much easier to simply be a crossdresser, and straight. Even Post op, I have not had vaginal intercourse, and it is not likely that I will. Cor, I could have bought a nice car for what I spent.
I watch YouTube a lot and just about the only female on it that does not run around in a bikini a lot is Itchy Boots. Many of the women on YouTube wear the skimpiest bikinis and appear to like it a lot. Due to their wider Pelvis women can generally tolerate thong type bikinis very well, while a man would die in pain.
I'm roughly in the size range of a woman with respectable natural breasts and being post op, there is no tackle down below. If I shaved very well and made a trip to a makeup artist, then wore something sexy, I wonder if I would get away with it? Perhaps too risky?
I saw my non VA Counselor for the last time today, I think. I feel good about it. Later I started to watch some episodes of "Stranger Things", and in one Miley Bobby Brown ( of Enola Holmes too.) is thrown into a Psychological Detention cell. That completely destroyed my happy thought. I was confined in one of those at the VA several times, once strapped down. In retrospect that was a huge over reaction on their part and caused by their evil Psych. drugs. Earlier I had been reading an old MRI report that says I have a cyst in the lower right frontal lobe. No symptoms to point to.
Not to offend atheists', I don't care about your beliefs. Those who know me think I am nominally Christian, but in reality my beliefs are radically more wide than that and I am more Muslim than anything. I don't normally bring that up, but in this case the surprise I just received may make a difference. I always thought that Saudi Arabia was the center of Sunni Islam, but according to several sources, its Egypt. There 2 years of counselling, and if Doctors agree, Sexual Reassignment surgery may be performed, both ways.
Lately I'm having a sort of cognitive disconnect that is frightening. I've understood and grown accustomed to my rough drafts being embarrassing. Perhaps it would simply be easier to stroke out and die? Mostly I've enjoyed it despite the painful times. Thank you for being part of it. This is not a suicide note.
This is set early in the 2000s. A families Mother dies and the children's only living relatives are somewhere north. I think this story starts out in northern Florida or Georgia and they have to hike to somewhere on the middle east coast, or even Maine perhaps. It is a harrowing journey for them and that is all I can remember.
Just finishing up another of Sarah Lynn Morgan's classics "Boy's School". Those of you who know me well, are aware that after my unwanted Divorce (The situation was much more serious than I will reveal) and all the fucking drugs that the shrinks put in me I had a very rough time, and was on a Psych ward 5 or 6 times. In my opinion the "Medications" only made matters worse, and only when I told the shrinks to go fuck themselves and STOPPED the drugs did my life begin to level out. It took years for my body to return to normal.
I'm rather tender on either side of my nether lips, and ointment for that is of limited effectiveness. I was looking for some loose legged underwear in satin perhaps. The catalog seems focused on "Sissy" and that is angering.
Just finished "Darkest Hour" and have watched " The Battle of Brittan" more than once. It seems to me that I have read stories on this site where children of that time were often shipped off to the country. The name of the Author escapes me. Does anyone remember the stories?
I just finished this amazing tale at 4:00 am this morning and feel completely "read out". I've tried to deduce what happened to the Author and I feel the outcome was dark.
I think that people should live their lives and never put themselves in the hands of Professionals. Such a talented Author too.
I've been in the habit in the past of talking to various folk on SKYPE but that can't be done any more do to my vocal cord issues. Now it looks like I will only be available by PM. Sorry. NO SKYPE any more.
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