The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #46:  The Upside to Mental Problems, or At Least I'm Still a Size Zero To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

I spent Friday evening and the whole day Saturday in the hospital for a checkup. Just a checkup, no big deal.   My therapist thought it a good idea for me to have the checkup, and I did.   And since the set of tests to be done was just a hop, skip and a jump from those required for a full-blown complete physical, I agreed to the extra tests, x-rays and whatnot and made it a full physical - at least the kind of tests that my company's insurance carrier requires for a "full physical."   That means I doan pay nuthin'!   :-)   It's all on the company's bill, and it satisfies the yearly checkup requirement.

The results came Monday (the hospital apparently doesn't process test results on weekends), and then the squad of doctors that my therapist required did their thing and interpreted the results and typed up their findings, and we got everything Tuesday, which we brought to my therapist for her further perusal.

Anyways, my less-than-perfect bod was mostly okay.

There were some things that confirmed some major concerns of my therapist, but we are figuring out how to manage that, and to eventually "cure" me. But we are keeping it within the family for the moment, otherwise it might affect my standing at my  work.   She will consult with the medical care provider so everything's square. Nothig really wrong aside from low blood pressure, low bmr, bmi and fat percentage, and some vitamin n mineral deficiencies.

The blood tests, weigh-in, the urine n poop samples (yuuuck), and the mri,   x-ray and other scans were pretty much what I expected, but there were some other tests that I never had before.   Whoever heard of your hair and fingernails being tested, or your wrist and ankle being measured, or getting your butt and tummy pinched with gigantic calipers that looked like lobster tongs, or the color of the inside of your eyelid being looked at? But, hey, what did I know? Besides, none of them hurt. Thank goodness all of it was done quickly and one after the other.   I was out Saturday evening.

There are times when you feel pretty good, and you are liable to let small things pass, but when you are lucky enough to have an observant professional looking out for you, or a concerned spouse keeping your welfare in mind, things can be caught.   Small things - low weight,  feeling weak and tired often, especially at the end of the day, insomnia, unsociability, feeling cold often even when the temperature outside isn't particularly cold, dry skin, dehydration   even trouble pooping (eww), et cetera. All indicative of my "condition."   And, of course, the eating thing, but that is the problem, isn't it?   

Still, one needs to put a positive spin on things.   Not that I'm avoidiing this, coz it's a big deal, but one can't stop the world and start obsessing about the negative things like this.   Nope, I am not avoiding it.   Besides, Moe won't let me forget it or get away with it anymore lol.

When one's troubling habits are brought out tothe surface so that one cannot hide them anymore, and one has to face up to them - that's the beginning of healing.   I apparently need some kind of paradigm shift, as my therapist calls it, and perhaps try and understand where this is coming from.   Family Relationship problems, maybe? Body image problems? Gosh, I thought this kind of thing only happens to preppy teenage girls. Like OMG. Totally. (lol)

I'm still not totally sold on my therapist's conclusions, but more than eight years has taught me to trust her, if nothing else. So I will just trust her and go along with her for now, although I feel like a kid being watched over all the time, and being checked to see if I finished all my veggies.   Daily skype calls (so even while I'm in Manila, I can update her) et cetera. She even set me up with weekly sessions with a psychiatrist friend of hers who's based in Manila, and got Moe to agree to have breakfast, lunch n dinner with me as often as she can.   Like, OMG! Overkill much? Totally...

On the plus side, though, I think I look pretty good, and I am still a size zero. Lol

click here to read my old Working Girl Blogs, click here to read all of my blogs, click here to read my stories in BCTS, and click here to see my profile & know more about me.