This is the continuing Story of Carol’s life. Is this the final Chapter? Chris W.

Part 14

“You sees Dr. Cindy, the peoples that loves me have helpted me and I didn’t asks for nothings, nothings at all, just like my special angel askded of me to do. After you fixded me, and I’m a real girl, maybe I can have a soul! Do you think my special angel can give me a soul when I am a real girl Dr. Cindy?”

Dr. Cindy and Nurse Pat couldn’t hold back their tears any longer. I got double cuddles then! I think they were happy tears because they were smiling, and weren’t sad. I was so happy my heart hurt again, but I just kept smiling because I’m used to things hurting me alls the times.

Anyways, they told me what a pretty story it was and they thought the angel would give me a soul for sure now! Dr. Cindy told me that was what Father Kowalski was going to talk to me about tomorrow and it was a real important thing to be given a soul.

I’m so happies now, I’ve never been this happies befores! My family really does loves mees, and I’m going to be a real girl and maybe get a soul and be able to get into Heavens! I won’t have to go to the kid’s dump! I hope so, I don’t wants to go to the kids dump no mores. I’m real tireds again and ask them if I can take a nap. I get tucked in and I have real happy dreams!

I wake up, Nurse Pat is there with a big breakfast for me, and she says.

“Right after you finish breakfast I’m going to get you into a bathtub filled with bubbles and then, guess what Sweetheart?”

I ask her what and she wiggles a pair of big girl panties hanging off of her fingers! I squeal and giggle, I’m so happy! No more baby diapers and rubber pants, I get to wear big girl panties!

I eat triple fast and Nurse Pat laughs and laughs. She puts me in a wheelchair and I sees other nurses coming out of the big bathroom with the tubs and showers in it.

I get wheeled inside and I see bunches of flowers and cards and balloons! Pretty pictures peoples have drawns and a lot of pretty-little angel pictures! The tub is filled with bubbles and they smell like flowers! Nurse Pat takes my nightie off and then says.

“Now remember Carol, you aren’t going to be wearing diapers anymore so let someone know if you have to use the potty okay?

I say okays right away and she sets me in the middle of the bubbles. I squeal again and giggle because the bubbles tickle me. Nurse Pat does a real good job of washing me and Nurse Karen comes in, washes, and then even conditions my hair! She says conditioning is real important for girls to do and I should do it every time I wash my hair from now ons!

Wow, Auntie Harriet is here and she’s brought her hair stuffs! She says.

“Carol I can’t give you a perm yet, but I can get your hair nice and curly and even pierce your ears this morning. Then all your nurse friends are going to help you get dressed in your new things, but first, lets get you rinsed off and dried.”

Nurse Pat and Auntie do just that and then I get to step into my big girl panties! I’m so happies nows!

Auntie combs out my hair in little sections and rolls the sections on curlers, but she uses this paper too and pink goop stuff. It goes like this. Goop, paper, curler, lots, and lots of times! Then she ties a pretty-pink hairnet over the curlers real tight and then the hair dryer bonnet.

My hair is dry now, but Auntie says I need to get all dressed first. I get wheeled back to my room once I have my robe on. Once I’m in my room the nurse’s start coming in each carrying something that’s all covered up. Nurse Beth smiles real big and says.

“Little Angel, big girl panties are nice, but if you wear big girl panties you need one of these too.”

She holds up a pretty-pink training bra, all shiny with little yellow flowers printed all over it and it has a pink satin bow in the middle with a little yellow flower in the middle.

I squeal!

“A bras, a big girl bras, just for mees!”

Everyone is laughing and I’m giggling as Nurse Beth fastens and adjusts it just right. Nurse Karen holds up the petticoat my daddy gaves mees and I slip into that. Nurse Holly walks in all smiles and she laughing as she says.

“Wait for me; she needs these before the dress!”

WOW, she has pretty-pink socks with yellow ribbon lace trim above the ankles! She slips them on my feet and then everything happens so fast, shoes are put on my feet and Nurse Pat holds my head and looks into my eyes. This stops me from my bouncing around and I feel a sting in both my earlobes at the same time! OUCH! Nurse Holly hands my Auntie my earrings! I just got my ears pierced!

My necklace is put back on me and then Dr. Cindy walks in and says.

“Surprise Angel, no little angel can go around without pretty nails!”

I get my fingernails painted, just like the big girls!

I’m so happies!

Auntie takes out all the curlers and then squeezes the curls because they are hards. I hear them crackle as she squeezes them. She brushes my hair out and everyone is making noises and saying how beautiful I am. The dress is lowered over my head and then buttoned up my back. A pretty-pink satin sash is tied into a big bow at my back and I’m ready! I wants to sees myselfs in the mirrors, but I have to waits for one more things. LIPSTICK! I get big girl’s lipstick!

Now I’m ready they say, but then I ask.

“Um, what am I ready for?”

Everyone laughs and they say.

“This!”

WOW, Mommy, Daddy, Patty, Jimmy, Dianna, Sister Anne, and Father Kowalski walk in! They all say at the same time.

“SURPRISE!”

Mommy says.

“Punkin you can’t be wearing a party dress without having a party!”

I’m bouncing up and down and squeal.

“WOWS A PARTYS JUST FOR MEES!”

We have a great party and it’s my being an official girl party! Father Kowalski and Sister Anne tell me I can get an official and real big girl soul now!
I ask.

“But I haven’t been fixded by Dr. Cindy yets!”

Dr. Cindy says.

“Carol you’re all girl where it counts Honey. That’s in your heart and in your mind. That’s what makes it official, not what your body has, but what’s inside you that makes you, you.”

Wows, I’m a real girl rights nows! Even befores I’m fixded! I’m so happy my heart hurts and it really hurts bads this times.

I can’t hides it, but I keep smiling I’m so happies! It’s so hards to breathes now, I has to lies downs. Dr. Cindy and Nurse Pat and Nurse Holly run and catch me before I falls on the floors. I’m back in bed ands I tells thems.

“I’m so happies, my heart hurts. I’m tireds, cans I naps now?”

Nurse Holly grabs me and shakes me as she says.

“NO ANGEL! No Naps Yet! You have to stay awake!”

Dr. Cindy hollers down the hall.

“CODE BLUE, CODE BLUE, ROOM SEVEN!”

Nurse Pat presses a red button on the wall and the lights all blink on and off and that makes me giggle. Then I hear my mommy scream! She screams.

“GOD NO! NOT NOW! PLEASE GOD SHE’S FINALLY GOT HER FAMILY! GOD DON’T TAKE HER AWAY FROM US!”

I see everyone’s crying, even daddy my sister Dianna, and Jimmy are cryings! I can’t talks, I can’t say anythings but I smile!

Nurse Pat says while crying big tears.

“Keep smiling Angel, keep smiling Honey. You have to much love to give away yet to go on any trips like this!”

Sister Anne and Father Kowalski are on their knees praying. My family is sent out of the room, as a lot of doctors and nurses come running into my room and start hurting me. They stab me with needles and run IVs in my arms. I get a tube shoved down my throat, and I feel the breathing machine start and push air into my lungs and it hurts bads!

Angel! My specials angel is here and he’s smiling real bigs! The bright light is getting brighter and brighter, the angel’s are singing and the beautiful music is playing and I don’t hurts no mores! I smile and smile!

My special angel just puts his hand on my chest as he keeps smiling. My mommy comes in with Sister Anne and Father Kowalski. He has that cloth around his neck like last time my angel was here. Mommy and everyone are crying real hard, but I smile and try to let them know every things really okays! My daddy comes in and he’s crying harder than anyone else! He hollers out.

“TAKE ME GOD, DON’T TAKE MY LITTLE GIRL! I JUST GOT HER BACK AND I DO LOVE HER SO MUCH! TAKE ME NOT HER!”

My sisters and brother are crying real hards too. Now everyone’s kneeling around my bed and each lay one of their hands on me as Father Kowalski says his special prayers. I look at everyone one at a time as I smile trying to let them knows its okays. I look at mommy and my angel says.

“Are you ready to go to Heaven little angel?”

I CAN go to Heavens! I can, I can! I’m so happies I can go to Heavens like a real girl can!

WOWS, I can fly with my angel! I look down and Dr. Cindy is closing my eyes with her fingers, but I’m up here now, not down theres! I’m up heres and I’m going to Heavens like a real girl in big girl panties and a big girls bras, and I’m in my party dress looking real pretties! I giggle real loud I’m so happy and I see everyone look up like they’re surprised, I giggle again and I see Sister Anne crying, but she waves to me! I wave back, giggle one more time and…

The End…

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This is the continuing Story of Carol’s life, Surprise! Chris W.

Part 15

WOWS, I can fly with my angel! I look down and Dr. Cindy is closing my eyes with her fingers, but I’m up here now, not down there! I’m up here and I’m going to Heavens like a real girl in big girl panties and a big girls bras, and I’m in my party dress looking real pretties! I giggle real loud I’m so happy and I see everyone look up like there surprised, I giggle again and I see Sister Anne crying, but she waves to me! I wave back, giggle one more time and…

Surprise!

Heavens is beautifuls! The closer I get the better it is! I sees so many pretty angels! They are all different ages and colors! Boy angels, girl angels, and angels that looks likes mees too! I knows that because some of them are flying around without anything ons!

I now knows it’s what’s in your hearts, in your minds, and in your soul that countsted. Not what your body looks likes. My specials angel lets goes of mees and I fly! I fly all on my own and with no wings! I’m flying with all the other angels and its fun! I giggle and giggle, they are giggling and laughing and my special angel takes my hand again and we land on this beautiful mountain of glittery colors and a rainbow shoots out of it and goes on forevers and forevers!

My special angel says.

“Little Angel, will you sing to Elohim?”

Oh do I want to sing! I don’t have to close my eyes anymore, all the colors and the music and the pretty sounding voices, and the brightest light of all is shining rights on mees!

I sing a song I didn’t think I knew, but I know it now and a lot more than that! I sing and sing and it feels so wonderful just to give and give and give! The more I sing and give of myself from myself, I feel better and better, fuller and fuller, I feel so good that I have to sing and giggle!

And then…

I’m in the light! I’m almost part and parcel of the light, but something is keeping me from becoming one with the light and I hear in my soul.

“Little Angel, you have yet much to do! Rejoice in this gift you have received, few others have received such a gift and yet returned to those that love them.

“Tell your Mommy, tell Father Kowalski, tell Sister Anne, tell Dr. Cindy, Most importantly, tell Mrs. Brooks. Tell no others!

“Little angel your family needs you, the world needs you. You understand the truth of the true self. Bodies are a tool to use to serve, as needed nothing else. It is what is within that body that counts for everything little angel. To give from within ones own heart, to dwell within ones soul and live that life, that identity is the secret humankind has shunned.

“Carol, seek out those in between, those that are caught between body and soul. For they are closer to Me than those that claim they proclaim My Word!

“Go back to your family that now loves you more than they love themselves. You have done well Little Angel; My gifts to you will be shown to you as they are needed. First, go see Mrs. Brooks. She’s waiting for you. You will understand, and be happy Little Angel; your place with Me is assured.”

I’m happy, but I’m sads too. I know what though, I’m really needed and wanted back home with my family now. Mrs. Brooks needs me bads! I sing my song of thanks to Elohim and I can sings betters than evers befores!

My special angel takes my hand and as we float, not fly, but float down back towards my hospital room, he says.

“You are a gift from Elohim to those you give of yourself to help Little Angel. Remember it is He who does these things through you. Never loose that thought Little Angel, it is He who does these things through you!”

WOWS, I’m not in my room, I’m in Mrs. Brooks room! There she is and she’s real unhappy and sad. She’s crying and her eyes are closed. I float down and she opens her eyes as I float to the floor and I feel my feet touch. I feel weight now and I’m heavy again. I feel! I breathe on my own! That first breath as I touch the floor with my feet feels wonderful!

I giggle and she smiles! She smiles real big and says.

“Angel, they told me you had died and had gone to Heaven! I heard you giggle as you left us. I knew you were my angel, I just knew it, but then you were gone and I was all alone again. I did a bad thing when I was younger angel. It was a selfish thing and I hurt a lot of people to save myself. I made myself whole by losing those I loved and now I know I am who I look like, but was it worth it?”

I giggle because I can’t help it and say.

“It’s never too late to try and change things by giving of yourself Mrs. Brooks. Use what you know, use your experiences and help others by sharing you with them. The true you, not your body, but what is within that body. That’s who you really are! Bodies are to look at and use as tools. We give them too much importance and use them as mirrors because we want the world to see us without saying anything. We can’t do that Mrs. Brooks. It would be like buying books because the covers are pretty and never reading them.

“A lot of people look at another person and instantly judge them by what they see. They are so wrong to do that Mrs. Brooks, and they cheat themselves and hurt others by doing that. Be who you really are Mrs. Brooks, give to others from your heart and you can’t ever be wrong! They might not understand, but you’re not wrong to give of yourself. They will understand eventually and then they will smile and be glad of your efforts whenever you gave them part of you.

“Um, oh yeah, I’m just a little girl and I can’t talk like this. I have a story to tell you because He said I could tell you. So…”

I told Mrs. Brooks the storys and she was the happiest she has ever beesn and promiseded Gods she woulds do what He askeded her to doos. (Whatever that is) That’s when we sang our song to Hims, and that’s when all sorts of crazy stuffs happened just like befores, GEEZE! Right in the middle of our song toos, I sees a lot of happy tears though, especially from Dr. Cindy, Nurse Holly, and Nurse Pat!

I can’t help but giggle and giggle because I’m being pushed real fast down the hall and I waves to the nurses and they are just standings with their mouths hangings opens! They look real funny!

As I’m being pushed into the big room with the bright light and all the peoples in it waiting for mees, I hear Dr. Cindy say.

“Angel, your family is on there way Sweetheart. They’ll be here real soon and so will your Auntie, Sister Anne, and Father Kowalski.”

I’m so happies, my heart doesn’t hurts no mores, and I feels better than I ever feels befores!

Everyone is crying, but now I know, they are all happy tears!

I hope you like my story, I told it to you so you could be just as happy as mees is! I loves you alls OODLES and SCOODLES! (that means lots, and lots!)

Giggle, giggle.

The End…or is it?

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