This is a good day, kind of. I am no longer in the writing phase of my next novel. I wrapped up the first draft earlier to day of "Unreachable"" (I dropped the word "The" from the beginning). and now I am onto the tedious part of editing. The book is 240k words long, so a bunch is going to be cut off to get it to a respectable length. I overdid the beginning and I think I can lose that without hurting the story.

In a few weeks I have the opportunity to follow up my radio interview with an internet TV one. This would be an hour long (I thought the half hour would be long but I didn't even touch on everything I would have liked).

And I don't mean that in a way to say that I have arrived.

I'm still toiling away at my new novel. It's been so long since I posted a story that I compensate by doing blogs. The new novel is so worth it though.

Thanks to a friend of the site (they can name themselves if they want, I didn't want to presume) I have my very own website. That means I am not only an author, but a webpage as well.

I don't know how much more of this I can take and I wish I had some conclusion now.

I haven't posted a story in what seems life forever. Sure, I posted a poem a little while ago, but that's not the same thing. Rest assured, I am in the middle of a grand work. It is 180k words and still going strong (I don't look forward to editing).

When I don't post new things, sometimes I go back and look at comments and reviews from old stories. And since I sold a small boatload of God Bless the Child books last week I decided to check out the reviews for smiles sake.

If you've followed any of my blogs you know that I oft struggle with defining what I do as a writer. I know that may sound weird to some of you but it is very important to me. When writing is a hobby, you can get away with doing whatever you want and I, on occasion, will write as a hobby. When you write as a way of making an income you have to be a bit more defined in what you do. People see your name and they expect certain things from you. So for the last few months I have been trying to figure out who I am as an author. (I view being an author different from being a writer).

Now on amazon. A great weekend page turner with a positive transgender message. I hope you all enjoy.

I was wondering if a few people would help me figure out something that I am racking my brain over. I am wondering what exactly am I doing as an author. I know I don't post stories quite as often as others, but I do have quite an extensive library going on here and am in the middle of yet another major novel. I know a lot of people don't like definitions placed on them, but I am a different bird and sometimes like to know where I stand in the scheme of things. Here is what I got please add or subtract as you see fit.

I am going to be real here for a moment and share something deep and personal.

If I was in a better position financially I would commit myself to a mental ward and never leave. I am dangerously depressed and sleep deprived. Things are going well, but I am so fearful that the bottom is going to drop out and that I'm going to lose everything. I would rather die than to see that happen and that worries me.

I am so tired of the fight, so tired of the struggle, so tired of people looking down at me and sneering at me.

I was wondering if other author's did the same thing as I do or if I am totally nuts. See, when I am in the middle of writing a work, I make it a habit not to read anybody. I don't mean just reading things on line, I won't even read a newspaper article (even if I really wanted to).

A new E-book is available just in time for the fourth of July weekend (American Holiday). The Test Taker is now out for the Kindle and available on Amazon. The Test Taker

I figured I would try something new, so I made a fan page on Facebook. Don't you want to be a fan? Please? I need validation. Plus I give updates on books that I don't give here (I rarely post something on facebook and then blog about it here). And I'm planning on doing a ton of pictures. Maybe even me as a mistress/dominatrix, I just have to find a lot of black PVC.

Anyway... You can find my fan page here https://www.facebook.com/KTLBooks?ref=hl

I probably didn't make myself clear in the last blog of what I was seeking, so I will try to not beat around the bush this time.

As some of you may know, I've been trying to get my children's book done. I finally got some preliminary drawings of the first two pages and have added them to the story file. Unfortunately, I can't move the story back to the first page and don't want to repub something as new that isn't.

So, if you want to see the new artwork for But I'm not a Boy, please take a look. The link is here, http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/43417/but-im-not-boy

I am killing myself. I didn't mistype that and I don't think I'm being melodramatic. I am slowly and certainly killing myself and the truth is, I'm not that far away from succeeding. I think I decided sometime that I really have nothing left to live for so why even bother going on. Thing is, life has changed for me, and this time for the better, but my mind and body hasn't gotten the message.

Last week wasn't a banner week for writing. It isn't that I didn't get anything done, just very little. The issue was that I had something crop up everyday that ate into my time. On Monday I had counseling and dealt with car issues. Tuesday I was able to get some writing in but also built a bed frame. Wed I had my group meeting. Thursday I was able to write. Friday I had electrolysis and van issues. So the week yielded little but I got a lot done when it came to counseling and fixing cars.

I was looking on Amazon and noticed a one star review for the transsexual and the cross. At first I thout the religious right had struck and was going to take it as a badge of honor. Instead, the reviewer said that no one from the lgbt community should read it and then accused me of being homophobic and transphobic. I am totally pissed off.

I would appreciate if a few people would come to my defense.

Once again I finished a short series and I've fallen off the edge of the earth, or so it would seem. But I am still around, reading blogs, sending random comments, writing the occasional tidbit to make sure people don't forget about me.

I figured now is as good a time as any to update people on my life and current work.

And so I do what I've been doing for quite some time. I am undergoing another project, another novel. I haven't posted anything since the last chapter of Just Friends, but I was busy editing and publishing a few stories on Amazon while I gathered my wits about me.

I try to produce good works. I really in truly think I tell a very good story. But something must be lacking and I am wondering what it is. As long as it isn't an attack, I am wondering where people think I come up short in my writing so that I can improve. I have vision of finding an agent and a publisher or at least being mildly successful on my own. My goal is to make $2000 a month so I can live off of (right now I make 400 and I wonder if that would last). I sell about 200 books a month (so by math i would need to sell 1000 a month) on amazon.