The last blog I wrote, I was in a pretty depressed state. I'm still not doing great but life is getting better. I'm finally out of my great aunt's house. A place of hell for me for the past five years. This last year the worst of it after her shocking passing. My older brother and I are finally 95% moved out of there. We're in a new place, its a big room, lots of natural light---3 nice windows. I have a lot of space here too. My old room was so cramped and I felt like the walls were closing in on me.
After everything that's happened in my life lately---the eviction looming chief among them---I think I need a break. I've been giving it a lot of thought lately and I'm not happy. Not just with writing either. I took a long look at my life the other day and I realized its dull. I wake up in the morning and do the SAME NOTHING EVERY day. Its not a life I'm proud of. There's no purpose to it.
UPDATE #2: The city wouldn't go for it. They wouldn't go for any of the suggestions in the comments either. Thanks for the help. It was worth a shot. They suggested we get a lawyer. As of right now, I still have 30 days to vacate the house.
UPDATE: My brother explained the situation to his boss---a man he's known for years---and the boss wants us to bring him a list of how much money is owed. He's agreed to pay it off if we agree to take action to get the home put in our names.
There's going to be no chapter update this week. I do have the next chapter finished---Ch.3 is ready to go---but I've made no headway on the story at all last week. Suffice to say, the last few days of the week were hell. I had to deal mostly with a selfish bitch of a friend who wants everything her way and won't let anyone else contribute. I know its a game and all but when someone WANTS to do everything in said game and get's pissed off when she can't...its ridiculous. "I feel worthless" -_-.
So I wrote a blog a bit ago about a writing delay because of Life in general. Things have NOT been easy around here. My books aren't selling anymore and my brother is breathing down my neck. I got into a fight with him---verbal, not physical---last night. Every weekend now he takes off to go to his girlfriend's, leaving me here to look after the hundreds of animals he owns. That's not an exaggeration either. I'm already fed up with it because he took a job that keeps him out of the house for 12 hours a day, four days a week.
Due to circumstances out of my control, Ch.8 of Starlight Summer is going to be delayed. I wasn't able to write it last week and if its written this week, it probably won't be posted until the weekend at the earliest.
Ok so I'm not sure if this has been posted here or not and it appears this movie was released in a limited capacity already but I had to share it. Its called Every Day, its based on a best selling novel by David Levithan, about a person named "A" who wakes up every day in a different body, one of which leads him to a girl whom he falls in love with. The trailer speaks for itself I guess but it looks really good. I'm gonna look for the book and I'll definitely look for the movie when it comes out to purchase.
So I need some writing help. I'm currently developing a story with a young person who when born was mistaken for male up until puberty. When puberty hit, they started to develop like a young woman and not a man. I'm wondering if there is a specific medical condition that can describe that. I don't really want to create one for this story because it just won't feel accurate to me. I want it to feel real and plausible. Any help would greatly be appreciated :).
So after giving it some thought, I've decided that my current story---Burning Bright---will end its first part with ch.9. I've since updated the last chapter with a To Be Continued at the end. I always planned on the story being told in pieces. I can honestly say that I have no idea when the next part will be up though. Its one of those stories that my Muse felt very strongly about all the way through until I got to the end of Ch.9. I started Ch.10 and finished it more than once. Only to continue to stumble with where I wanted things to go from there.
George has always been a little different from other boys thanks to a childhood accident. Now an incident at school might help him figure out how different he truly is. >
Well I'm pretty certain I need a lawyer now. Preferably one who is free because I have $60.
My cousin is refusing to get involved with the house at all now. He's officially having it declared insolvent. On advisement from his "solicitor". I'm also being told to vacate the property ASAP.
I told the bastard I have no money and no place to go but I don't think he cares. I want to sue him though because for the last three years, he promised to pay me for taking care of HIS MOTHER.
So I know I told everyone about my life, what's been happening and how I've been coping with it all. Well I'm writing this to say that I'm not coping with it any longer. I can't do this anymore. Everyone around me are liars, cheats and fucking cocksuckers. I'm not apologizing for the language, the tags are appropriate.
I just wanted to let everyone know that the building inspector was out at my house on Friday. He told us that if we sealed the floor with Kilz paint then we would be allowed back in. I'm happy to report that he came by this morning, was here for about 5 minutes and told me it was good to live in. The house is no longer condemned. So I'm not in fear of losing my home or my dog as of right now.
We shall see about the future. One day at a time now :).
Sorry there's probably not going to be a new chapter this week.
This has been the week from hell for me. By far the worse week in my life, worse than last year when my dog died. So last Tuesday---as I'm sure some of you know from my blog---my aunt fell and hit her head. She was later unresponsive and sent to the hospital via Mercy Flight. I was later told that if she had a DNR, they probably wouldn't have even bothered with surgery. Right now she's currently in the ICU in a vegetative state. They're not even sure if she'll ever recover.
Well my happiness was very, very short lived sadly.
This morning at 4am, my great aunt took a pretty bad fall. I live with her, I have been for almost 4 years now. She and I have had our ups and downs over the years but we have never been violent toward one another. Sadly the local police do not think so.
So I mentioned in my blog the other day that I was back to writing and trying something new.
Well I'm happy to say that I've currently finished the first two chapters in a story that's going to start a new universe for me. Its about normal, every day people getting powers from a solar event. I don't have all the specifics worked out but I know there will be non-gender flipped characters with powers as well.
I'm really excited about it. Hopefully I can have it up by the end of the month.
My life has been utter shit as of late and because of that I haven't been happy with anything that I've been doing....whether its writing or just plain living. Thankfully I got a bit of a wake up call in the form of Adult Protective Services. I was accused of some nasty things toward my elderly great aunt I live with---all of them false and unfounded I might add. It was kinda scary though. There is a silver lining with it though.
Whisper Pines is being a real SOB at the moment. I can not for the life of me figure out how to get myself out of the current hole I've written myself into. I'm sure I'm just over thinking it all and the solution will come to me eventually. I really like the story and I want to finish it, I owe it you guys to finish it :(.
Ok that's the bad news.
The good news is that just because I can't seem to write that, doesn't mean I'm done with writing.
So I took my dog out this morning at about 2am. I let him out the back door and went to pee. Its our usual routine. By the time I'm done, he's usually done too. Today he took a little bit more time because he hadn't been out for a few hours what with the fireworks and all. I should have known something was wrong when he didn't come in right away. I had to go out and get him and everything seemed to be fine when I did. It wasn't until we got close to the house that I noticed he was severely foaming at the mouth. Of course my first instincts were to panic.
I want to apologize for earlier. I went to a dark place this morning and it took me all day to bring myself back from it. I want to thank everyone for their kind words too.
Its not a bad something, its actually a pretty good one.
You see usually I do a lot of thinking while I'm walking. Many of my stories and chapter ideas come from when I'm walking from place to place. I was walking to Walmart today to meet my mother and sister to do some shopping. I was trying to think of ideas for the next chapter of Whisper Pines when something strange happened: another story came to me. Not a new one either. One that I thought my Muse had abandoned a long time ago....The Unusual Clownfish.
Ok so I thought I'd give everyone a quick status update on the whole "Tree Fiasco" from last week.
The tree is no longer on my roof, having been removed by my neighbor. He was also nice enough to put a tarp up there, over the hole. So at least I don't have to worry about doing that myself and definitely don't have to worry about paying a professional to take care of the tree. He said he'd fully do that.
I'll have new stuff written soon. My MMO friends tossed me a wrench this holiday season...with a brand new computer. It just arrived today so I've been busy transfering files and things over. So it might be a few days before I get back into writing again :D. I am working on something though...I will give you a hint...there are cows in it LOL.
A couple of people have been PMing me wondering if I've fallen into a hole or something, I just wanted to post this to let everyone know I'm ok. I've just been trying to figure things out creatively with a couple of stories of mine. i hate leaving things unfinished but more often then not, it seems to turn out that way. Especially with me as of late. It sucks too because things go so well and then I just can't seem to get the rest of it done :(.
Nothing new. Sorry. This blog was written a bit differently before, I apologize for that too. Today has kinda sucked for me to be honest. It started out a lot later than I wanted and it just sorta slid down hill from there. Some personal shit of mine came crashing at me earlier this evening. Stuff that had been building to a head over the week and it finally got to me. I wrote the blog after that. First rule of writing---at least to me---Never Write Angry.
That doesn't explain why there's not going to be an update tomorrow though :(
I'm currently working on the spin off to It's Just a Skirt, I think I might have mentioned that more than once. I'm making excellent progress on it, I'll post it as soon as I'm finished. It is turning out to be a much longer tale than I anticipated too. It will more than likely be longer than Skirt. After I finish I'm hoping to get back to Just Keep Rolling.
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