Friday, January 10^th, Hello Mrs. Diary, isnt today like a really good day to be alive. Well I think so I think.

I don't know whats really wrong with me, or if anything is wrong with me. First mom made me go to school. But I wore good undies and a camisole, which is like a t-shirt, but for girls. School was boring, Sam didn't tell anyone about me and we aren't going to. Mom says no need to create a stir over things. I did have my hair nice at least and didn't have that nasty gunk in it. I even had bangs, Nelson said I looked like a sissy and I told him I looked the way I wanted to. He didn't say anything back, I thought that was weird.

At lunch I stayed with Sam and Cindy, we played hop scotch, which I never did before. It was fun, I forgot who won because we was laughing and talking too much. It is nicer when you don't care who win's don't you think.

Well after school all three of us walked home holding hands. It was kinda funny but kinda nice not to have to think about things like that. Boy's don't like holding hands but girls do. It just shows your friends, I guess boy think everything has to be bad if it isn't MANLY.

We went to my house. Guess what I changed into real nice clothes there. I had a red skirt and white blouse. Cindy was so shocked to see me. Her mouth was wide open and she went "Oh my god, tommy." I said close, and told her about tammy. You know what, she thought it was cool. I swore her to secrecy and she agreed.

Luckily Tonya's house isn't to far away. I don't want everyone to know, but I don't want to be scared to be me. When the nurse saw me, she said that was much better, she didn't like the tomboy look. HAHA she doesn't even know I'm not all girl yet. We had a tea party with Tonya, she really liked it with 4 girls instead of teddy bears. I like this job, its so easy.

When Glenn came home I told him I told my mother, he was really happy I did. He said if I didn't he was going to have to tell her by Monday. I think he was woried I would of gone nuts, which is probably right. He paid me for the week too. Money is good. Well if you spend it the write way.

Cindy went home and Sam's dad picked us up. He said I looked very lovely. I asked him how he knew about me being a girl inside and stuff. He said that people were curious about me and some of the things I did, like the way I stood and held myself and the way I talked when I wasn't trying to be a macho boy. He said when I took my iq test that he slipped in a test to test my brain gender. I didn't know brains had genders, I guess mine is pink haha.

Well he took me to a jewlery store, I got my mom a charm, well it is half a heart, her side says daughter and mine say mom or something so we know who we love. Isnt that great, its my first jewlery. Mom loved it, I loved that she loved it. Well I am going to sam's for a sleep over, write you tomorrow.

Saturday January 11^th, Dear Mrs. Diary. Last night was so much fun. Even better then the first time because now I didn't feel like I was pretending to be a girl. I just really acted myself for the first time. We watched a real sad movie and I was crying and didn't care who saw. You know what the movie turned out better that I got into it. I was still sad the boy got stabbed at the end, he was kind of cute.

Then her mom took us to the mall, this way her dad could watch football. I still want my team to win tomorrow, but I only want to watch them. I got my ears pierced and 2 little hearts are in my ear. It was a really loud pop to, I thought I was going to go deaf. Sam's mom took a picture, I looked like such a goofball. Then we went in and got me a new dress. It's a real nice one for my birthday next week. Sam said I will be 1 years old as a girl and she said I should get pampers. SURE, RIGHT. Haha. She is too silly.

We then got 2 new pairs of shoes, one for regular walking around, they are black. And one that are matching my party dress. We then went back to my house. Mom totally loved the dress and earings. She says I look like a proper young lady. Ha. Isn't that great, I think. Well I am going to talk to Vince on the phone. Bye

Sunday January 12^th. Dear Mrs Diary, this is my last entry. I love all that you helped me with and helped me think of. I got another diary, and tomorrow I am going to start writing in that one as tammy, and not some silly boy trying to pretend. Sam's Dad wants to read you, you can let him see my secrets but no one else. I know that this isnt going to be easy and that I am going to think long and hard about things in my life. You have a lot of empty pages too, but you will always be my favorite mrs. Diary. I will read you though from time to time. Tomorrow I start my new life. Kiss Kiss, goodbye, I love you.