If someone likes you, no matter how you're dressed, what are you supposed to do?

A Christmas Diary
Part 8
This Kiss...

Tom's Christmas Diary

By Little Katie

Part Eight: This Kiss

This is still a lot of fun to write. I do have another project going on at the same time, but this is a polar opposite. I am hoping that everyone is enjoying this little tidbit and where it is going. I am trying to keep it light and fluffy.

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Friday, January 3rd: Hi Mrs. Diary. It's Friday, do you know what that means. It means this is the last weekend for Tammy. Part of me is so very happy that I don't have to be Tammy anymore, but maybe a itsy bitsy little bitty piece of me is kind of not as happy to see this over. I am glad that Mom and I are doing stuff and having fun together.

Let's see what has happened today and tonight. Well last night I made ziti with Mom. I am a real good cooker. It came out tasting so goodand mom said it was the best she has ever tasted. Maybe I can be a chef when I grow up. Cooking is kind of fun.

Mom tucked me in with baby Amy, and I went right to sleep. I feel sad for baby Amy, she won't have a mommy anymore after Sunday night. Maybe I'll give her away to Tonya, this way they can have each other.

I woke up and I had another bad dream about my dad finding me in a dress. But this time he didn't know who I was. He kept going have you seen my son, and I kept going it's me, Daddy, and he kept going don't be silly you're a girland my son's a boy. It just kept going over and over like that. I don't really know what the dream means but I remembered it and this is the second time I remembered a dream and I never ever even remember one.

I got up and I made Mom some breakfast in bed. She was so happy at the surprise. I have a little cookbook and it has french toast, which is the breakfast for kings and queens it's so good. Well I followed the recipe for the french toast to a tee, and they came out perfect. Mom was so happy that I gave her such good food and I even gave her orange juice and I put a flower in a glass to. It was so perfect.

She said 'all you need now is a maid outfit.' I said I don't have one and we laughed. She said I really was the best kid ever, and smooched me on the cheek. I sat on her bed for an hour and then she had to get ready for work. She don't get much overtime now that christmas is up but she is covering for someone a little early. But she said we will have a mom-daughter weekend out if I like. I told her I wouldn't like it but would love it and I gave her a big kiss on the cheek.

When mom went to work I got on the computer. Vince left me an email. It was little dancing bears on a pink backround. Part of me thought it was really cuteand I was so flattered that he took time to write it. Another part of me thought it was so sickening that I liked it so much. He was on and asked to come over and I said yes. He came in 5 minutes. He drives fast I guess.

He gave me a t-shirt from his wrestling team. It is his size so it is way too big for me. He said I looked really cute in my outfit. Which I did, but he didn't have to do such a horrible thing like tell me that.

We sat down on the couch and talked. He told me all about wrestling and how he liked fixing cars. I told him about that I like to cook, he said he better stay away from me because it's wrestling season. It's because of his weight not because I'm a bad cook.

I told him how I got a job watching Tonya and how I really liked it. I also told him I was going back to being Tommy on Monday. He said "does that mean you don't want to be my friend then." I was like "I do want to be your friend but I thought you only liked me if I dressed up." He said. "I like you, clothes are just window dressing.' I think that was sweet.

He said it looked like I was really having fun as a girl though. That was another rotten thing to say, but he might be right, just a real little bit. This is weird with Vince, he isn't like my guy friends from school. When I think about them, I really don't know nothing about them, we never sit down and talk and know what each other are thinking.

Well Vince then goes, you would of made a real good girlfriend. You would think that I would go YUCK or barf or something. But instead, I told him he still had 2 days if he wanted. Why in the world I would say something so utterly stupid, I have no idea. I think the dress talks before I can even open up my mouth. Before I could take it back, Vince said okay.

Then I said something even stupider. I said don't I get a kiss to seal the deal. Now why I go do that. Vince said, oh I didn't think you liked that and gave me a chance to back out. Did I take it... no, like a real moron I said, I am still deciding and need more research.

So we wound up kissing. And instead of even thinking about it, and stuff. I just let the kiss go on and I think I really liked it and I don't know if I should worry because I didn't care that I liked it. Kisses from boys are much different than kisses from girls. Vince was very good and he didn't try anything fresh like boys are suppose to try. He didn't touch my booty or rub on my leg. He just hugged and kissed and I kind of hugged and kissed back. I just imagined I was really a 11 yo girl and I melted in Vinces arm when I thought that. See what a good actress actor I am, I fooled myself.

Vince had wrestling practice because he has a match tomorrow so after talking another half an hour of talking he took me by Sam's house.

At Sam's I told her and her mother I kissed Vince again. I also told them about pretendingto be really a girl and how it made me melt. Sam's mom said maybe I didn't have to pretend that hard. Wasn't that mean.

Sam hugged me and said it was okay that I liked it, and she was glad I found a nice boy. ICK. Why do the Ick's come after I let something stupid happen.

Well anyway, after being teased in a nice way, they asked me if I wanted to go in the hot tub and drink fruity drinks. I said yes. I was more like, sure a fruit drinking fruity drinks what's more appropriet.

Then I remembered I didn't have a bathing suit, but Sam is my size and her mom said I could wear one of them. Me and sam changed in her room. Then I realized wait she is naked again and I'm not even trying to look. Ain't I suppose to at least try.

Then I said, why don't you get mad that I see you with no clothes. And she said, it's okay for girls to undress together. Then I was like, but I'm not reallya girl. And she said, you really don't believe that do you. WHAT IN THE WORLD DID SHE MEAN BY THAT. THAT COMMENT WAS SO STUPID I DIDN'T EVEN REPLY.

Well we put our bathing suits on. They cover up your top and bottom and aren't like shorts that boys wear into the pool. Sam's was all white, she said she only wears that one at home. When we got out of the water I saw why. You could see skin.

Mine was black but the tummy section had a hole in it. You could see I needed to do a million situps. I looked in the mirror and the bottom didn't even bulge out a little. I wasn't even in the water and they were hiding. I wouldn't of noticed but Sam pointed out that I could probably go to the public pool and no one would notice. AS IF.

We went in to the hot tub, and it was nice, I like the bubbles. They have it set up so you can watch t.v. We watched soaps. BARF. At least I didn't go all the way over the edge. Sam didn't like them either though, so I don't know if maybe it's just adults that like them. I then dried off and came back home.

Me and mom are going back over to Sam's to watch college football. It's the national championship game. I really don't like college football to much, but I get to be with my mom and Sam and I get to be a cheerleader again. And sam's dad said he needed his good luck charm and that he has 100 dollars riding on the game. I don't want him to lose so I agreed to be a cheerleader for him. He said when he wins he'll give me and sam both 10 dollars.

Maybe I should of pretended I didn't want to. I mean not pretend because I really shouldn't want to right. I don't know what I mean and I got to go, so night night Mrs. Diary, don't let anyone read you.

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I am having so much fun. There seems to be one last weekend for Tammy. It's a shame though, isn't it? Tommy seemed to have so much fun, a boyfriend, closer to his mom and a lot of cooking. Just like most kids would agree, too bad school has to begin.