I am terribly sorry for this afternoon's nuclear weapon. There are some things really bothering me and I just senselessly lashed out at anything close. I just wish I could sit down and cry and I will but my brain isn't ready to do it.

The TD Aldonetti thing, the killing of the officers near Seattle, the Fort Hood thing, and several other things plus the fact that I am sick and have been since mid September and worrying about my adoptive children, and any other lame ass thing I can think of are making be act like a bitch!

I have a few clients who I would like to know when they opened an email I sent them. Is there such a facility in Yahoo, Gmail, or Live accounts. I have not found it, but I know that Outlook used to have it. I would use it sparingly because I realize that this would double my traffic.

Gwen

It was plain to me, why not the Ref? Will the Frogs get away with it? I am waiting for the men to all get to it.

Where is that famous Irish ire and and taste for blood?

Have I been decieved, are these boys disappointingly civilized?

Gwen

He and I used to talk a couple times a month, but I have not seen him lately. Anyone seen him?

Khadijah Gwen

How is it in Boston for T folk?

Astonishingly, I have been asked to accompany a young college couple to Boston while they finish work on their respective Masters Degrees. My friend jokes about needing her English Nanny to help her care for her child to be born in June or July. If this seems a little sublime to you, then imagine what I am thinking. I worry about really having gone round the bend. I have asked them thrice over to think about this matter very seriously as it would hurt me greatly should they decide other wise at the last minute; even had a bit of tears over it. GAH!

Today, I was told that a transexual person had taken Estrogen for so long that her body had started making its own. Hmmmmmm

Well, I knew that there is some Testosterone in the body of a female, and it could seem reasonable that the body of a normal castrated XY male could have a little Estrogen in it even with out using pills, patches or shots. It seems rediculous that a T girls body could produce enough estrogen on its own.

Gwen Brown heard that you were hunting for her. If you are still suffering from the need to meet me at SCC I am at...............

Hugs

Gwen

PCOS "Polycystic Ovary Syndrome

I stumbed upon this while looking for "paint" to spray on the part of my scalp where the hair is a mere shaddow of its former glory. :( It looks like these girls suffer with many of the symptoms that the Intersexed do, and Male Pattern balding. In short they have far too many Androgins. So, not really knowing much about medicine, I am wondering if this is just a form of being Intersexed. The incidence is very high; about 1 in 10 women, and I wonder if some day things like this will help our society to get away from the binary gender model?

Khadija

Ear Bug warning?

Now, I don't want to seem too paranoid on this and I know that there is no proof yet. I recently got one of those Cell Phone Ear Bug thingies, and I just love it. Today, I went to lunch with a girlfriend who got one much before I did.

At breakfast, she saw my Bug and told me that she did not think it was good to wear it all the time because hers caused earaches. I said ok but left mine in but just a few minutes ago, I developed an ear ache.

In a short while, I will be publishing what started out to be a comic magical change from boy to girl, framed in Afghanistan. It is fiction. There is no intent what so ever to insult any of our brave soldiers to are or have served there.

I am looking for the Title to a recent movie where a CIA agent goes to Syria or Jordan to find a Terrorist. He gets captured by the same but gets rescued by the Jordanian version of the CIA. In the mean time he falls in love with a Muslim girl and stays on to marry her.

I thought it was Matt Daymon, Brad Pitt or Mark Walberg but so far can't find nuttin'

Can anyone help"

Khadija

I was talking on SKYPE this morning with a long time friend in Sauudia. We usually talk about situations there, his favorite books, and movies too. Yes, there are no movie theatres there, but they haf their vays. :)

He'd gotten heat stroke today and needed a pat on the head. I was suitably motherly to him and then out of the blue, he said,"would you like to meet my Uncle"?

I was talking with another author yesterday and she said that she doubted that she'd write any more, and after we talked for a while it seemed like she was saying "I had something to say and I said it". (I think I first heard that from Fleury)

I have frequently heard trans folk say that they felt that stress had a roll in their final decision to actually "come out", do it, get cut, and all that. I can distinctly remember the very day and minute that I finally threw the towel in, though my "comming out" and final decision did not come for a while.

Would any of you care to share that moment with us?

Khadija