Why doesn't it feel like love?

I just had this exchange with my Son. I imagine that it is nothing new to some of you. How do you put an end to this?

Dear Dad,

When I left home to join the Navy, I thought I was getting out
from beneath authority so I could be my own boss.... "At last,
FREEDOM!!!", I thought. I didn't hate you, but I thought I could do

Apparently someone has finally decided to work on the DSM.

Well, they have put Dr Kenneth Zucker on the committee to do that work on transgendered folk. He is a crony of Bailey, and Anne Lawrence. Do you think that is the reason I feel like I have been staked out on a hill of fire ants?

Gwen

I was reading a story, I thought was called "Rhapsody" and now I can not find it. I thought PB wrote it. "Hellllllppppp!", The young drama queen cried piteously. Anyhow it was about a Bass player in a band who dressed as a girl to hide out from bad guys.

I met a girl the other day and can not get her name off my mind. She's HalaMaksoud and a real mystery to me. Saying her name seems best when pronounced to the beat of Bedouin Drums. HalaMaksoud, HalaMaksoud, HalaMaksoud...just seems to become a chant. Can't you see Her/my hips shimy like...oooooh, mmmmm giggle.

In an effort to get out of this whiny assed, needs a whippin' blue funk, I am working on the next installment. Expect action, like you ain't seen no shit like this befo'. It's going to be one of those "leave the ladies faint" episodes with much funk and gore.

I am sitting here feeling very confused and disillusioned. I am no longer sure that any of this transgender stuff is anything but a delusional fantasy. The thing that makes it really bitter is that I believed it all. I'd had these drives for 57 of my 61 years and my siblings say it was evident even before that. I'd been led to believe that the solution for the problem was the surgery that I had.

I am unsure of the best way to spread the word, so I chose to blog it.

I was just the recipient of two viruses that were very costly to get rid of. SpyBot@MXt and NetWorm-Ivirus@fp took over about 75% of the function of my machine. That, in spite of my having Norton 360 and updated regularly.

Gosh people! I can't believe that you all missed a key element in the chapter. Do you all skim so fast that you missed this. This is soooooo key; like as in a big deal!

>“Jennifer, I felt to see if you had any development with regards to your testicles. I couldn’t even feel them. I’m surprised that your old doctor didn’t say anything to your mother about this,” she said.<

Andrea James is a young transwoman whose career I have followed for a few years. My first impression of her was that she was another man struggling to make a new life, and at first it seemed somehow flawed. My heart went out to her; and my wishes for her to succeed.

A few weeks ago, I saw a clip with her in it. Her voice was flawless, and she was pretty; no trace of "Frank" there.

I had not realized that there were several transwomen here who found themselves at an early age. My happiness for you.

To all those who have faced the horror of coming against a society that does not understand. Pray happy for you.

To all those who have been beaten half to death because of something you did not do. Pray happy for you.

I am sharing these following details so that those who have not completed this journey will either be too frightened to continue or go into SRS with a more realistic view. Had I realized how significantly different my experience would be from what others had described, perhaps I would have thought things out more thouroghly, though I doubt that it would have changed my ultimate destination.

I volunteer a couple days a week at my church. The people there have been just wonderful.

Was just thinking about some of the old music that I missed experiencing, because I was a Fundi. You know, ZZ Top, Led Zeplin, Queen, The Village People, just to mention a few.

I have a powerful need for contact with other human beings, and in spite of my own personal fear of rejetion, that need drags me out of my apartment and into the public. Inadvertently, I have spent thousands of hours working with a group called,"The City Repair Project", and have made dozens of friends. Oh, I am 61 and they are all in the 18 to 30 Age group, so my social contacts with them are less than what I would like but we have worked on several projects together. The good part of this is that they have seen a transwoman who is socially together enough to be a viable positive force in their organization

It is something that they needed to see, and I like to hope that little actions in many different places by transwomen will ease the way for all of us.

I posted this as a comment to "Who Was I", and then realized that it may be for a wider readership.

My dears, coming out as a T girl can be extremely hard for most of us. Perhaps coming out in our teens is easier but I don't see how it could be. Now, into my 4th year fully out, I can see a posible future for myself. Before was all about death and dying.