I know that each of us grapple with the question; "who are we"? I think I am doing OK; at least as well as most other people. Those of you who know of my past brush with Islam, may also know that it left a deep, smoking, brand on my heart. I am talking of the stated philosophy, not of the weirdos, kooks and murderers who get all the attention.

So, it was with great surprise that I found out through either Sephrina or Edeyn, can't remember, that I could paste a tiny photo as part of my signature.

At first I posted the Muslima picture of me. I felt that was truly who I am. Then I began to fear that some radical Muslim man would see it and hunt me down. NO REALLY. If I were in England, I would be a lot more afraid.

The thing that tipped the scales was a girlfriend of mine told me one day that she could see the "party girl in my eyes". "Is that so", I asked her? That's when I posted the "Blue Lady".

Now I get a complaint from Gabi, saying that the "Blue Lady" was frightening and seemed evil to her. Yes, there is something "frightening and evil" in me.

So now, up goes my "Birthday Photo". I shall always remember this as the happiest evening in my whole life. Some friends cared enough about me to help me dress up, get into performance quality make up, and a girlfriend of mine took it. I have a friends picture in back of me crudely crossed out. He might not appreciate the notoriety. I'd had two beers, two vicoden (so I could dance with out pain) and had eaten a "special brownie". It was a wonderful evening. I put "March Forth", the band to bed about 3:00 AM, and then we went to breakfast. I was so messed up, that a dear friend of mine threw me, "giggling and screaming" over his shoulder and carried me to the car.

This is something really intimate that I show to you. Enjoy.