College Girl
By poetheather
Chap 7

I awoke shaking and sweating, tangled in my sheets. My dreams had been filled with lots of nightmares, of taunting and beatings by faceless jocks or being exposed and laughed at by faceless girls. I remembered half-waking a few times through the night, to be calmed and soothed by Meredith. I vaguely recalled her holding me and murmuring in my ear. She was still curled about me, breathing softly. She looked like she had slept well. Lucky her.

I had dreams of falling, of being discovered and beaten, of being trapped, of the masks to my soul being ripped away painfully. I shuddered; some of them had been so graphic. The blood and the pain and the sound of the taunts and jeers filled my ears. I was scared. Was this the life I had agreed to? Was this my future? Did I set myself up to be found out to be some sort of fake thing, a play woman? What would happen if they found me out? I could feel the stress rising and the beginnings of another panic attack. It was harder to breathe, my heart racing.

Meredith murffled in my ear and rolled over. She brushed some hair from her face and looked at me. “Wha time is it?”

I glanced over at the red lights of my clock. “uhrm….about eight?”

“In the morning?” She rose up on an elbow and looked confused.

“Usually.” I shook again. My heart beat was starting to slow down. Meredith said she would help me deal with this and I trusted her. I tried to fix my breathing but it still came out a bit ragged.

Meredith hugged me again. “It’s going to be alright Caitlin! I‘m here. It’ll be alright.”

I turned and hugged her back. She felt soft and safe against me. I shook and started to cry again. I was so jangled up inside. I felt her hand run through my hair. “Hush sweetie. It’ll be okay. Let’s talk about this.”

I nodded. I felt the bed move and Meredith was brushing my back as she stood. “Come on Richard, let’s get up and get you cleaned up.”

I nodded and felt numb and shook a little. She pulled me to my feet, as I wasn’t sure I could stand. Nightmares always messed me up for a while and this time it seemed worse than usual. “Let’s get you into the shower.”

“uhrm...” I stumbled over to my bath stuff and grabbed my towel. Meredith picked up my shampoo and things and carried them for me. Since my eyes were blurry with tears she steered me through the hallway and into the bathroom. There were a couple of girls who had finished their showers who Meredith gestured to leave. Soon we were alone in the bathroom.

She forced me to sit on the bench and then she started one of the showers. After she was done adjusting the temperature she undressed me, pulling my nightgown over my head. She helped me to my feet and gently pushed me inside.

The warm water was soothing, and it flowed down my front. I leaned forward and held my weight by my arms on the shower wall, the water soaking my head and running down my face as rivulets. I was wrung out emotionally. It had taken me a while to realize that and to figure out that I needed a break. “Meredith?”

“Yes?” She answered from outside the stall.

“I think I need a break. Is there some way I can just relax all day?” my voice was plaintive. I felt like I was whining and I hated that.

“Sure. Let me just make a call. I can get us into my sister’s spa for a day of pampering. She always has a few spots free for friends and family. We can get Massage and hot tubs and having our hair and nails done. Basically the whole day is taken care of. They even feed us. And it is an hour long massage. Isn’t that cool?” Meredith seemed excited. It was obvious that she had done this before and had really enjoyed it.

I grunted non-committaly. The massage sounded good however, as did the hot tub. Meredith might have come up with a plan that could work. I could hear her dialing her cell phone as I began to wash. “Can I speak to Tanya? Thank you. Tanya? Hey, Caitlin and I want to come in for the spa day thing. Yep, the whole day. We’ll be in about an hour from now, is that okay? Great. Will Caitlin get the discount as well? You rock. I love you sis. See you soon.”

I stood there and listened. Another adventure. Maybe this would actually be a rest instead another chance for Richard to screw himself over. I really couldn’t take anymore surprises and emotional trauma. I was determined to take it and not quit. It would be too easy to quit and it would show that I wasn’t a man of my word. I just hated that having given my word had ended with me here.

I left the shower feeling a little more alive. I was ushered back into the room and Meredith shut the door. “Okay. Since we are going to be naked for part of the whole spa day I was going to help you with another thing I made. This should help keep you from being found out by anyone there.”

She pulled out a section of fake flesh with some hair on it. There was a sleeve on one side and a slit on another. It looked really odd just sitting there all limp and floppy. Then I figured out what I was looking at. “Holy Christ, is that a…”

Meredith smiled her evil smile, which I was getting used to. “Yep. I was keeping it as a surprise. I know you need a break, so I am treating you to a day at the spa, since I am technically your keeper. It is an all day pamper event. And once this has been put on no one should notice anything that would tell them something other than what they are to be led to believe. And for the massage, have them only work on your back. That way you can get the majority of your tension out and not have to stress about them figuring it out.”

I nodded dumbly. She had me lie down on the bed and she rubbed some sort of cream on my penis and testicles. It was tingly and cold. It felt really odd. Then she pushed the testicles in and up and slid me into the sleeve. She then used the same adhesive that was being used for my breasts. With some minor adjusting and tugging she finally got it set correctly on my crotch. She held it there for a moment and then stood. She then had me stand and look at myself in the mirror.

I looked like a woman, everywhere. Oh my God, what the hell was going on? My head swooned and she helped me back to the bed. “It’s okay. Just relax. Let’s get you into some comfy clothes and head out for this. It will all be okay. Trust me.”

I got dressed with her help and then we headed to her room to get her things. She quickly changed and we headed out. Despite how much the things Meredith had made and attached to me. “I’m not sure of this, Meredith?”

“Why? This will be nice. Your hair and nails are fine so we can go for facials and scalp massages, maybe a couple of other things. It will help you relax. Come on Richard, have you ever been pampered? Taken care of, like this? Ever?” Meredith stopped and turned to face me.

“No. I’m just worried.” I couldn’t really look her in the eyes.

“Let me take care of that. I know how wrung out you are. I am just trying to help you relax and feel good. My treat, as I said before. And we can talk about you continuing this or not. This is not supposed to be some sort of emotional torture for you. Honest.” She looked as sincere as I had ever seen her. Maybe this would work out.

I nodded. “Okay. I am just so confused right now. I guess I didn’t really think this whole thing out as well as I had thought. I certainly hadn’t expected this.”

“That’s okay. I still think you can do this. I know its four years of your life, but you will have all of the girls of the house helping you in school and anything else you need. The new girls will not learn about this, probably ever, unless you tell them. We have all agreed to this already.”

“That’s good to know. I know the house didn’t want to get embarrassed but I don’t want to either. I think I am getting worried about getting caught. It scares me.” I shook a little. I think some of my nightmares had been about that. Just thinking about the situation made my heart beat faster and my breath catch.

“Caitlin, I will do everything I can to keep you from getting caught. I swear. I have actually put a lot of thought into this and talked about this with the others. I don’t want you hurt, and the other girls don’t want that either. Right now we are working on trying what to do to get a guy to be your escort for things who is not a threat. You’ll need an escort for some functions. Relax. I am doing all I can to take care of this one.”

My eyes widened. What the fuck? “A guy?”

“Yes. But don’t worry. I am working on this to come up with a pain free solution for you. You won’t have to do anything you don’t want to, I promise. Don’t think about it right now. Besides we are supposed to be relaxing.”

We were pulling into the parking lot of the spa salon where her sister worked. That put the conversation on hold for the moment. Meredith’s sister was outside waiting for us. She waved as she spotted the car. “Hey there sis. Morning Caitlin.”

Meredith went up and gave Tanya a hug. She smiled at her sister and said. “Thanks for pulling this together. Caitlin has had a rough couple of days and really needs to relax. And of course I thought that this would be the best way to relax.”

Tanya rolled her eyes. She was used to her sister’s games. “Okay Merri. Caitlin, are you okay?”

I just nodded my head. I really didn’t feel like talking. I needed to think, and I was here as much as I could be. If this turned out to be as relaxing as Meredith said than it would be worth being here. If not, then maybe I needed to just quit and admit that I couldn’t hack this.

Tanya escorted us inside. Two girls in pale pink cover ups were waiting for us. “Ladies this is April and May. That is really their names. They will be taking care of you all day. Oh, and Merri, I booked you both the ultra deluxe package.”

The blond April smiled and gestured down one hallway. “If you would both come this way we can show you to your lockers and get you both into the hot tub.”

I looked over at Meredith and she nodded slightly. She also looked a bit pinched around the eyes. This might be expensive, but given that she was part of the source of my suffering I wasn’t too upset by that. We walked deeper into the place and shown into a changing room. May, the brunette, pointed out our lockers and handed us two robes. “Here you go. Once you are ready come on out and we’ll take you to the hot tub.”

I took off my sweats and underwear, folded them and put them in the locker. The robe fell to mid thigh. It was comfy but I was a touch worried about how much it could show. Meredith was also ready. “Come on girl. Let’s relax.”

I followed her out and down the hall with our helpers. They opened the door to the hot tub room. The room was dimly lit, with candles burning. The room also seemed to have scented oil in the air. The room itself was soothing. The water was bubbling happily. I sighed. Maybe Meredith was right and that this would be good for me.

April said, “Please get in and soak. We will come and get you both in about twenty minutes. Then we’ll take you to get your massages. Enjoy.”

With that she closed the door. Meredith smiled at me as she took off her robe. I took in her naked both and smiled, she was beautiful. However, I didn’t feel any response from my penis. What had she slathered on me? “Come on Caitlin. In we go.”

The water was hot, but comfortable. I sat with one of the jets against my back. I could feel the tension in my back begin to relax as the jet worked its magic. Meredith moaned happily and wiggled a bit, probably to get better positioned. “Okay, if the thought of having a guy as a date is too much, I guess we can go with plan two which is to tell people that you are a lesbian. That has its own problems but we can deal with that.”

“This is just overwhelming. I just need some time to think about everything. Right now I am not sure about anything so I don’t think I can make that decision yet.” I said, with my eyes still closed. The room smelled wonderful. I think I was actually starting to relax. Meredith really could come up with good ideas. We both just sat there and blissfully relaxed while she left me alone with my thoughts.

After what seemed like only a short period of time the two girls came into the room with two towels. They held them out for us. “Alright ladies, here are your towels.”

Here was the big test of Meredith’s latex thingy. We stood up and got out and the girls didn’t even blink at my appearance. The towels they wrapped around us were warmed, as if they were fresh out of the dryer. I sighed happily. That felt great. I really needed to be able to do that more often. We fastened the towels around us and then pulled on the robes. The girls then led us to another room as short walk away. Two other women were there. Meredith smiled at them. “We would like only our backs worked on.”

The women nodded. “If you could just disrobe and lie down, that will be great. Also could you pull the sheet over you? We will be back in a moment.”

Once they left Meredith dropped her robe and towel on a chair and hopped up onto her massage table. I looked around the room at all the odd things around the room. I wondered what was going to be used and what wasn’t. I followed Meredith’s example and pulled the sheet over me. We lay there a short while, just resting. It was a nice change of pace from having to constantly follow the girl’s directions.

The women knocked on the door and came on in. “First we are going to give you a rock massage and then work on your backs. Is that okay?”

“Yep, sounds great. Let’s get started.” replied Meredith. I sat there and thought what the hell is a rock massage? I had no idea but I was sure I was going to find out.

The massage therapist rolled the sheet down, exposing my whole back. I heard her open something and then a warm to almost hot rock was placed onto my back. The heat seeped into my back and felt really good. ‘This is odd’ I thought.

A number of rocks were placed onto my back. The heat of them radiated into my already warmed back from the hot tub and my muscles were relaxing. I started to drift off to sleep, or at least to get in that state between sleeping and waking. Was this what being stress free was like? After several minutes she removed them and began to run one of the rocks over my back, slick with oil. ‘This isn’t so bad. So, what should I do about this? Do I want to be a girl for four years? Would that really be bad? I have already been one for a while and it hasn’t been that bad. But would I want to be a guy again after four years when this is over? Will I lose myself?’

I felt the massage therapist roll the sheet up my back. She then rolled it up my legs and I felt the rocks return. God this rock thing was nice. As the tension drained from my body I thought over my life so far. ‘What have I really done with my life? I know I don’t like things that are unfair. They really get me mad. But what can I do about that? Become a lawyer? That way I could help people get to their equality. But what about me right now? What do I want?’

After she finished rubbing my legs with the warm rock I felt her hands begin to work on my feet. The oil was warm as well. It felt wonderful. I hadn’t realized how tight the muscles in my feet were. How had I managed to have that much tension in my feet? ‘I have always wanted to be happy and to have friends. I never had that many friends in High School as people viewed me as an outcast. And in the sorority I already have several friends. I have people who know me and seem to like me as I am. If I quit this whole thing, I am back in the same situation I was when I got here. But do I want it enough to be a girl?’

She moved to work on my legs. Her hands were strong and felt nice on my hairless skin. She was finding knots of pain that I didn’t even know I had. I sighed happily. ‘What is wrong with being a girl? Is there anything wrong with being one? I don’t think so. It’s just a way of being, that’s it. I mean. Half the world lives like that and they seem fine for the most part. But will it be too much for me to handle. I am a boy and I only really know boy things. But I am learning to be a girl. Living like a girl for four years won’t kill me, will it? So maybe I should simply give it a try, to actually see how girls live and are treated by the rest of society. I mean I know they get the short end of the stick in terms of equality. Now I can live that, to know what I can fight for. I can go back to being me after this is over and I’ll be the better for the experience.’

The sheet was rolled back down my legs. It felt warm. Then my back and butt was exposed and she started to rub there. Why where my butt muscles all tense? More and more it seemed like I really had no clue how to relax. ‘I get to see Meredith and maybe I can find a way to go out with her. She said she was interested. Maybe I can ask about that and find out if there is a way to be a girl and to have her? It might be a good compensation for all of this.’

My thoughts faded as I drifted asleep, as the massage soothed everything.

I woke with a gentle nudge to my shoulder. The massage therapist was saying, “Miss, wake up.”

I blinked awake and turned to face the massage therapist. What was her name? I nodded and wiped a bit of drool from my lip. I must have really relaxed.

Meredith was being woken as well. I laughed a little at that. We both got back to the upright position, holding the sheets to us. The girls left the room and left us to put our robes back on. I happily got to see Merri’s naked body again.

“So what do you think so far?” asked Meredith, as she stretched towards the ceiling.

“I feel great. And to think that we still have more ahead is wonderful.” I smiled happily at her.

The knock at the door let us know that the girls were ready to come back in. I opened the door and we both walked out. “This way please.”

We followed them to yet another room. They opened the door and led us into a room with several tables. A lunch was set up there. I was wondering how long this had been going on. My stomach rumbled a little and I saw a clock. Two and a half hours?! I was surprised by how long the massage and the hot tub had taken. They had only said twenty minutes for the tub and then an hour for the massage. Wait, the rock thing. That could have added to the time.

The table was set and had two salads on it and glasses of water. We sat and May handed us menus. There wasn’t a lot of stuff on them. The pick was from either a steak meal, a chicken meal, a shrimp meal or some fish thing. The shrimp dish sounded good so I ordered that with ice tea to drink. Meredith got the fish.

They brought us an Italian vinaigrette dressing for our salads. We spooned it onto our salads, which was a first for me. It smelled good. The salad was crisp and tasty. Meredith dug into her salad ravenously.

“Meredith?” I was really nervous about this, but now was as good as any. I was going to take this chance.

“Yes?” She looked up from her salad.

“Can…can I ask you something?”

“Sure. What is it?” She looked concerned, as if something bad was happening.

“Were you serious about saying that you liked me, and not just as a friend?” The words rushed out of my mouth, as I was too nervous to say them slowly.

Meredith blushed and looked away. “Well, that was unexpected.”

“Well?” I was completely nervous about her answer. I was really interested in her and she had said she was interested in me, so….

“Uhm…yes. I really do like you and I think you and I can really hit it off. I’m bisexual, so you actually feed both of my interests as you are right now.” She was really looking at her lunch, as if she could figure out the molecular composition of the lettuce leaves.

“Do you think we can be in a relationship while I am going through this?” This was the question I was really afraid of.

She thought about it for a little, chewing her salad thoughtfully. After she swallowed she looked at me. “I think it can be done and not cause a problem in the House. We’ll have to be discrete and we should go out with some guys every once in a while, to muddle the picture. I really don’t want to make anyone in the House nervous. Would that be okay?”

I nodded as my heart soared. A really hot girl wanted to go out with me. “I think I can deal with that. I just am not sure how much attention I can take from guys. It is a bit scary.”

“That is always the question, Caitlin. Let’s just enjoy today and we can talk about this more back at the House.”

The girls arrived with our lunches at that point. My shrimp curry over rice with steamed vegetables was wonderful. Meredith had a dish made with Tilapia on saffron rice with black beans, cheese and a tomatillio salsa on it. She also had the steamed vegetables. Conversation was delayed due to how good the food was. I was relaxing and no longer stressing over this whole thing. I could do this. I could be a girl if it meant I got Meredith. It could all balance out.

Once we finished we were given small dishes of a tropical fruit sorbet. It was tasty. We both finished that happily, trying to scoop every last bit of it out. We washed down the desert with our drinks and stood. My muscles were still feeling relaxed and warm from the massage. I could really get used to this sort of treatment. This part of being a girl was great, but then a guy could get all of this as well. Well, maybe not all of it.

The next stop was for facials and pedicures. That should be fun. I was wondering what all sorts of things went into some sort of spa facial treatment. I was sure I was going to find out.