Kelly's Journey Chapter 7: Shopping   By Stanman63   Edited By Nora Adrienne with Special Thanks To Terry Naut and to Heather Rose Brown for the Illustration!   Synopsis: Now that Kelly's mother has started to get involved in her child's life, Kelly becomes scared at the prospect of actually being out in public where strangers may discover her secret and out her in public or some bigot harming her or her family. It is only with the help of Kelly's best friend Julie that Teri Moore is able to take Kelly on what has become the national sport for all women: SHOPPING.

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Then I saw Julie show up. She was smiling as she approached us and wearing a shorts set and pantyhose. I couldn't help but to notice how graceful she was and that the hose gave her legs a sheen as the morning light played on her legs.

[Shopping? Why would I want to go shopping? Momma had always bought my clothes. But then again, Julie loved to go shopping and we had fun unpacking her bags and hanging stuff up.]

Then Julie waved to us, "Hi! I see that Kelly is dressing as a girl. It looks like she loves pantyhose as much as I do. Here I am wearing a pink shorts outfit and hose and she almost matches me." [' I guess that Mrs. Moore finally saw Kelly in girl mode.']

"Yes Julie, I want for Kelly to feel safe enough to be herself. You two seem to know what the other is going to wear," momma said as she glanced at both of us. [Then again, they grew up together.']

"Well, you know what they say?" Julie giggled. [' It's been a long time since I've had a chance to joke around with her.']

Momma put her hands on her waist, "No, What?" [' Just what is that girl gonna say?']

"Great minds think alike Mrs. Moore," she giggled. ['But then again, that is one of my shorts set that Kelly is wearing.']

"They do indeed, momma giggled. [' It's nice to hear Julie laugh at this time, she can help me with Kelly.']

Then Julie sat by me, "I saw her at the game, she was very pretty and my brother Johnny loved seeing her there too. I knew that you would look great this morning Kelly. Johnny was sure smitten by you. He has it BAD for you." ['Seeing Kelly looking like that, I can see why.']

Then momma placed her hand upon Julie's, "Well, she does take after me," I heard Momma as she giggled. [' It's still hard to believe that Kelly makes such a pretty girl, will he choose to transition?']

"Golly Gee. Thanks a lot Mom. "I giggled. When momma giggled, everything was alright as far as she was concerned and I couldn't help but have fun too.

Julie hugged me close, "Johnny is in love you Kelly. You're all he talked about, since the game. He has it BAD for you girlfriend." ['Right now, that is how I see Kelly, kind of like having the best of both in one.']

Then I spluttered in my coffee and wiped up the mess, "Really? He’s in love with me? How can he be?" [' Is Johnny gay or does he see me as a girl, HIS girl.']

Julie looked me in the eyes, "Yes really, you flirt. He wants to ask you out too. Oh Kelly, if only you were a real girl for my brother." ['Why do I feel this way? Do I actually WANT for Kelly to become a girl and marry Johnny?']

Then visions of me being outed in public entered my mind, "He can't be serious, can he? What if others see me as a boy in a dress? This is the one and only time you, or he, will see me this way. I can't risk him being hurt because of me," I cried. "Johnny is a gentle boy. He has never raised his hand in anger to anybody. If he is with me and I am outed, he would be hurt defending me & I can't have that." [' LORD, how can I handle this?']

Then Julie smiled, "Kelly are you still fearful of those thugs. Well, don't be. They were caught before the game." [' Kelly needs to know that if she is to gain confidence in herself.'],

"I didn't know that, but there are others out there like them," I cried as I felt the impact of the news. I had been fearful of them ever since junior high.

Then momma hugged me, "Oh Kelly, you need some practice in being a girl and what better way than to get out and do something? Besides, the Halloween thugs got caught just before the game, and your friends will protect you." [' I know that Kelly has those friends because he has gone to Ronzi's as a girl for them.']

"I didn't know that Julie, all this time, I was afraid that they would catch me, but now that I have to worry about are strangers seeing me as a boy in a dress," I sighed.

I was unable to say anything, I was thinking about all sorts of calamities where I was outed and Johnny was hurt because of me.

Momma poured Julie a cup of coffee and passed her a plate with breakfast on it which Julie gladly wolfed down. "They were caught? That's good. Those cads have been a down right nuisance around here," said Momma. [' I have seen way too many results of their actions at the clinic.']

"Well, Kelly still needs to go out and see what being a girl is all about," giggled Julie. [' I have YET to go shopping with Kelly and it's about time.']

Then momma smiled, "What do you suggest? I say shopping. I can sure use your help since you know what girls wear Julie. Together we can teach Kelly about being a girl. You and your Mother have taught her well." [' I know that with her help that I can get Kelly out of her shell and free to be a girl.']

Then Julie volunteered, "How about going bowling? Just us three since my Momma is busy getting Johnny his winter wardrobe?" ['That brother of mine has absolutely no fashion sense. he just goes for jeans or sweats.']

Momma gathered up the now empty plates and cups while I quickly gathered the silverware, "I think that's a wonderful idea! Let me get our purses and we can go. I knew that you'd help out."

"Mom!" [' Was I the only one sane here?']

Momma hugged me, "Kelly! It'll be just the three of us." ['I can feel her heart eating fast. she is scared.']

I saw visions of me being outed at the bowling alley, "But what if they see me as a boy in a dress?" [' Can't they see that I am right to be scared to death, or am I the only one being sensible?']

Then they both embraced me as I wept bitter tears as I thought of all the ways that I could be outed and hurt and how Mom and Julie could be hurt because of me. Then Julie told Momma why I had my shorts outfit. "Don't worry yourself silly, we will help you to look and act like a girl, besides, you have worn that shorts outfit every time that you helped a boy to make up with his girl friend. Your friends will think nothing of it." [' Please LORD, give Kelly peace about this or he WILL out himself instead of being Kelly girl.']

"Kelly, on a date? I never would have believed it before now." ['Actually I have, but by letting Julie explain, we can help Kelly to overcome her fear.']

"Yes Ma'am, Kelly here would be a boy's SAFE DATE to help him apologize to his girlfriend. It was always at Ronzi's The Teen Scene Cafe by the mall where we hang out after school and on the weekends." ['I still remember the first time that Kelly went, I still can't believe that Mrs. Moore's child is so good at healing broken hearts.']

"Thanks Julie, Kelly, why are you so scared to go out then?" [She needs to give voice to her fears.]

Then I looked at momma with tears in my eyes, "Momma. What if my friends see through my charade, and what about strangers?" ['I'd die if they were hurt because of me.']

Momma cupped my chin in her hand, "Kelly, your friends accept you as a part time girl, as for strangers, we can help." [Oh Kelly, you are almost there my rose, soon you will truly blossom if you do not falter.]

Julie smiled at me. I was both eager and scared at the same time. Would I be outed? They were careful to coach me in how to be a woman until I was comfortable around them. It was getting near lunch time and we had stopped to fix something to eat. I had fun with them as we ate sandwiches and soda for lunch. We had so much fun that I was able to relax and be a girl around them.

"Kelly, you look and act just like Julie now," momma observed. [' Kelly now acts like Julie. At first, it was a rough copy.']

I blushed, "Thanks Mom, I was trying to copy her. I hope that I was doing it right." [' Could I actually be a natural girl after all?']

Then Julie patted my arm, "Well girlfriend, you have me down pat. Nobody will see you as a boy now," she giggled. [' Heck, even before, Kelly was the Real Deal, just needed a confidence boost.']

"Well, not unless they, uh, take a good close look," I giggled as I pointed to my crotch. ['Guess I AM a natural girl after all, or as Julie would say: the Real Deal.']

"That is why you are wearing a shorts outfit is good for you." said Julie. [' Too bad she doesn't have any of my skirts, skorts, or sundresses.']

"But what about my boy bits?" Am I really THAT vain about what little I have?" [' Even IF I can't sire any children, I still want to think that I am large enough, if I marry Julie.']

"With you wearing that padded brief and pantyhose, you are safe," smirked Momma. ['Good! looks like my child has overcome her fear.']

Then I got up and bowed to momma, "Oh?' And why is that, Oh Great And All Knowing One," I giggled. ['Sorry my LORD, but I can't resist this prank. It's been too long since I had a good laugh.']

"No bulge," they both dead panned back at me.

After we had us such a good belly laugh that we went to go wee. Then we headed to the bowling alley. I had fun and forgot about being a boy. I was Kelly girl at last and free of my fear. Several of my school friends came by and thought that I was helping some one. They thought it was cool that I was doing this for my Momma. At noon we stopped for a soda and a pizza.

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What I didn't know, was that at the same time, Johnny and Mister Woods were observing us from the rooftop patio. They had seen what happened between us and were talking about last night.

"Well Jonathan, How did you like seeing Kelly as a cheerleader last night?" ['Even now, all that I see is a young lady, NOT a young man.']

Johnny blushed as he remembered last night, "It as GREAT! I thought that Kelly looked dynamite!" [' And still does in that shorts outfit. I wish that Kelly really was a girl.']

"Weren't you worried about those bashers hurting Kelly if they saw her?" [' I am glad that they were caught, but at the time, Johnny didn't know that.']

"Very much so dad, in fact, I brought that up to Kelly last night after the game, he sighed. ['Why do I love her so much when Kelly is still a boy?']

"And what did she say?"

"That ever since she was Tinkerbell that she knew that she was a girl and that she needed my help." [' But what do I do about those bashers on the team? If I continue to see Kelly, they'll make things rough for me.']

Then he hugged Johnny, "My son, ever since that doctor hurt Kelly, he has changed. Kelly used to be all for marrying your sister Julie, but your mother and I have seen how he has become Kelly girl and has set her sights on you," he sighed. [' LORD why have you placed such a burden upon Kelly's shoulders? Will my Godchild succeed or falter under your burden? Please LORD, be with Kelly.']

Johnny blushed, "Dad, I don't deserve Kelly's love. I mean, I love Kelly whether as a boy or a girl, but what does Kelly want to be?" ['Dear LORD, I am so confused about my feelings about Kelly, and the team with their attitude thanks to their listening to that defrocked preacher is making it hard on me.']

"And what about last night? From what I understand about what you and Julie talked about last night, Kelly was all girl last night for you." [' It's up to my son to decide if he sees Kelly as a boy or a girl when Kelly is in girl mode and if my on sees himself as gay or not.']

Johnny pulled away from his dad, "What did you and momma hear?"

Then Mrs. Woods enters, "We know that Kelly gave you oral sex last night. We were up here cuddling at the time and saw what happened." ['It was a surprise to see that scamp take charge, but then again, Kelly has always been one to take charge.']

"Don't worry son, like Terri, we won't punish you, but you DO need to control your passion or both of you can get hurt." [' LORD, I never thought that I'd be having this talk with Johnny about Kelly, I thought that it'd be with Julie.']

"Thanks guys, I needed to know that I have your support."

"Come with me Johnny, Time to get you your winter clothes for the year."

"Go on son, when you get back, we will take your old stuff to the Church."

"Cool dad, I wonder when I'll stop growing?"

"Probably not until you get to your dad's size. You take after your dad in height."

"OK mom, hopefully I can get a pair of hiking boots for the cabin too,"

Then they went to the store while mister woods stayed up there to watch us and ponder the future.

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"Kelly?" [My son has certainly blossomed into a young woman before my eyes. There is no hint of a boy about him. But he still needs to replace those birdseed bags with better equipment if he is to be a better girl in the future. We had fun bowling today, now to see how my new daughter feels after being out for the first time with me.]

"Yes Mom?" I giggled. ['I had fun bowling. Those boys sure did like my hosed legs. I am sure that Julie and I caused a few gutter balls as we bowled and momma caught the eyes of a few older players too.']

How do you feel now?"[Kelly is so different as a girl. As a boy, Kelly is sweet & considerate, quick to help out others, as a girl, Kelly shows more confidence in herself.]

"I'm still nervous about being outed, but so far, nobody has bothered me." I giggled. "Being a girl was not all that bad, I sighed. ['Now that I've admitted it, I feel free of my doubts.']

"You just need some more practice."[Now for the Coup De Grace.]

"Doing what Momma?" I giggled,[Why was I giggling so much? I like the giggling.]

"Going to the mall." [Such a giggle box, but will she giggle after this?]

"Why?" I giggled ['Don't I have enough clothes? Oh yeah! Momma did say something about getting me a wardrobe.']

"We need to get you a wardrobe. Kelly, you've found your stride now. That giggling will brighten anybody's day." ['LORD, Kelly as blossomed as a girl just now, is this to be my child's future? Or will Kelly become a cross-dresser?']

Then Julie placed her hand on mine, "Kelly?" she giggled. ['Now to see if she has the shopping gene that we girls all seem to have.']

"Yes Julie?" I giggled because her hand was tickling me. [' I wonder just what she has in mind, surely not a prank.]

"We girls make shopping our national past time, it's time for you to use your Shopping Gene." [giggle]

"Are you sure that I have one?" [giggle]

"It’s time to find out." [giggle]

It took all day to get what I needed. I had more lingerie and clothes now as well as makeup. While there, I was treated to the works at the beauty salon. We dropped Julie off at her place, and then went home. I was in my room hanging things up and putting things in the dresser when Momma walked in.

"I'm not going to push you into anything, when you feel the need to dress up, do it, and do your very best."[I had fun today, but Kelly still needs to grow into her womanhood.]

"OK momma, but why are you doing this?"

"Because you need it. Why you do feel you have to do this I don't know. What I do know is that males that dress as girls and women never quit. Some do it in secret away from their family. Some never have peace. They do things in despair to their bodies to be a woman"

"Is there something that you need to be telling me?"

[God, she is insightful, I can never tell a lie around her.] "Come down stairs and we will talk over a soda."

Momma led me into the kitchen where I got us both a bottle of diet soda and set them upon the coasters.

"I see that as a girl that you are tidier." [giggle]

"I am developing my girl self Momma so that I won't be outed."[giggle]

"I can tell my daughter."

"Did you know a boy like me momma?"

"Yes."

"Want to tell me about him?"

"Brian was my best friend. We grew up together and when his parents died in a car wreck, my parents adopted him. When they saw his dresses, they thought that they were mine. When they learned they were his, they accepted him. After that, Brian became his girl self 'Debbie' , but only upon the weekends." [sniff]

"Was Brian my Aunt Debbie?"

"Yes."

"How old was he?"

"He was the same age as you were when you went as Tinkerbell when he became my brother. We became very close and Brian grew into tall and strong young man. In his senior year, he dressed as the She Hulk for Halloween. Everything went well until some jocks from another school cornered him and attacked him." [sniff]

"What happened?" Was it as bad as I think it could be?"

"They beat him up and raped him. Brian suffered from a severe concussion and they castrated him when they kicked him in the groin. Oh Kelly, I pray that that does not happen to you."

"Were those boys punished?"[It was, much worse than I ever thought about. How lucky I am that that has not happened to me.]

"Yes, your Grandfather forced the courts to try them as adults. They were sentenced to life in prison without parole." [sniff]

"I am glad to hear that, Too bad that Brian was lost though."

"He transitioned into Debbie. She now runs a special store that sells appliances that people need to pass as the other gender. Kelly, you are showing just how loving you are."

"Huh?"

"She sells breast forms and gaffes so men can be women and padding to help hide a woman’s breasts. I'm telling you about the store because you will need it all too soon."

"But why does she do that?"

"To help others like her to be as complete as possible. Some men just want to be a woman every now and then while others want to live as a woman. And some women want to be men."

"Thanks Momma for telling me about Debbie and about the shop. I think it's great that people can look like who they want to be. Too bad she is so afraid. [sigh]

"She is shy and afraid of rejection."

"Is she is afraid of me?"

"Yes, afraid of what you would do if you knew her secret and afraid to see you now because you are so much like her when she was hurt that she might remember her attack."

"Oh Momma, I love Aunt Debbie, we have so much fun when ever I see her. I would never hurt her. How can I let her know?"

"I will call and let her know tomorrow. Now since we have a big day tomorrow and we finished our soda, let's go to bed."