The actual date is December 08, 2024.

For all the things we can get for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, I look at all the items people buy for others and inwardly shake my head. For me, the true meaning of Christmas is not of the material, it is what we mean to others. Everyone is entitled to a wish for Christmas, as that is the day that Christ was born. If everyone else can have a wish, I can too.

Only that I know my wish will never be granted. The upstairs will never allow it to be.

My wish, if possible, would be for Leila to come back to me in my life, what little is left until they take me.

 
Leila was an author here, very brilliant, hampered by a debilitating disease. She was going blind. I so much wanted to help her, be her eyes, be everything for her. An incident occurred, and she left our site. She is free to talk about it whenever or if she comes back, but I will not say.

Since she is now blind, the chances of her ever coming back here are basically nil. So even though I have real life photos of her, I will never ever use them. What I did use, is an ai software to generate a photo that came the closest to looking like her. I can do that.

For her, I accept the wrongs both real and imagined.
For her, I take the Spear of Destiny to pierce my heart.
For her, I touch the electrodes on The Ark of the Covenant and commit myself to be cleansed of all sin, except for loving you Leila, from God.
For Leila, the one thing I know of that I cannot ever deny, is that female, or male, I desire you, I love you.
 
Forever.
 
My wish is for you Leila.
 

 
 
 
My favorite Music: Arch Angel , HD Accel World ED 2 Unite Instrumental, and Dreaming of You .

Old Friends of mine that have passed on: Chelsea "princess chelsea" Solis, Elsbeth, Dawn Natelle, Karen Lockhart, Crazypagangurl, Billie Sue Pilgrim, Arecee, Cindilee, Edeyn Hannah Blackney, Beth Williams, Holly Hart, Wren Erindae Phoenix, T.D. Aldoennetti, and Darla Raspberry, Florin Tudor "Blackey" from "Everquest 2."

Friends still living: Stacy St. Clair "Stacyinlove". Tanya J. Allan, Randalynn, Andrea Lena DiMaggio, Melanie Brown, Enemyoffun, Bobbi Cabot, Avia Connor, Maeryn Lamonte, Amethyst, Bailey Summers, Tigger, Ellen Hayes, Melanie Ezell "Rasufelle", Alyssa Plant "Kit", Aylesea, Tofu Cannibal, and Windosebaris and many more!

Last, but not least, Erin - Webmistress of this site. She ALWAYS left me out of the bcts crew!
But I didn't leave her out of my heart.
 

Sephrena

My music representing me Arch Angel , HD Accel World ED 2 Unite Instrumental, and Dreaming of You .