At last ‘A life’
By Julie D Cole
Chapter 66 Kates story

I realized that Kate was right. It wasn’t that my curiosity hadn’t been fully satisfied but I did still feel there was a lot more to find out about Kate and her family and the links between he father and my real birth mother.

I could sense what Julie would be saying if she were with us. She’d be nudging me to ask more questions yet I felt tongue tied for a few moments and I guess I was still in awe of Kate who after all was my boss.

I was obviously a little bit nervous in these surroundings trying to sit forward on the sofa with my knees together and hands together as Sally had coached me recently. I looked at Kate and my mouth wasn’t working so she started the conversation.

‘Chrissy we talked quite a lot about Jessica and I’ve explained the circumstances about why I helped her didn’t I?’

‘Yes I understand that she is your niece and about her illness, if it is an illness.’
‘Yes but you still seemed to have doubts even though I explained so since we do have some sort of connection through our families I felt you should feel free to talk away from the office. Is anything still troubling you?’

‘Well it’s not exactly troubling me but I’ve obviously been talking to mum and Julie and this weekend we’ll be with dad hopefully and they are sure to carry on conversations we’ve been having and Julie did find it strange that Jessica was your niece.’

‘Why, don’t you believe me that she’d been given up for adoption?’

‘Yes but you told me that she was your sisters daughter, born after a fling with a school friend.’

‘Well, so what’s the point?’

‘Well, according to the information Julie found about your father when we were trying to trace what might have happened to him, he had two sons and one daughter.’

‘Oh I see so are you asking me if that’s true? Are you suggesting that I was in fact the real mother?’

‘I wasn’t doubting you at all and I do believe that Jessica is your niece.’

‘So then there is only one question to ask surely, so please ask it.’

‘Well did your father have two daughters and two sons, or could it be he even had another daughter out of wedlock.’

‘Oh Chrissy, poor dad seems to have the reputation of a philanderer and that’s far from the truth. He is a very loyal and homely person and I’m very attached to him. He helped me a lot.’
‘So the inform
ation was wrong then, he had two daughters and a son?’

‘Well I suppose you could say both answers are right and in the end that’s the reason we moved and why he ended up transferring to Manchester.’

‘I’m a bit lost.’

‘Chrissy the truth is my sister is truly my sister but I was in fact a little bit unique when I was born and was registered as a boy because I had some testes, but I was androgyne.’

‘Oh but you are not a man, you are quite obviously female’

‘Well now it’s true that this is the real me but it wasn’t easy to get to this stage that is why I fully understand your situation and why I am available if you need help or advice.’

‘Are you telling me that you changed sex?’

‘No I was one of a few cases of a person born with two sexes and at first I was raised as a boy.’

‘Wow, how amazing so does that mean that you had boy and girl bits?’

‘Yes if you want to put it like that but really I’m a bit of a mix even now. Dad says I have all the assets of a woman but that I think and act more like a man that is why I’ve been so successful in my career so far.’

‘But do you still have your boy bits and is everything real.’ I was looking at her figure and envying her cleavage and colored up a bit.’

‘Yes as I grew older the female side of me developed and I’d already had problems at school because my some boys were bullying me one day and ganged up on me and stripped me naked in the gym. They didn’t hurt me and I could handle myself one to one but there were too many of them.

They laughed at me and eventually pushed me into the girls changing rooms where some girls freaked out’

‘So what happened?’

‘Well the gym mistress intervened and gave me a towel and recovered my clothes. After that rumors went around school like wildfire and I was an outcast for a while.’

‘Mum and dad met with the headmaster and I was excused gym lessons because I was appearing more feminine by that time and my breasts were starting to develop.’

‘So you were turning into a woman?’

‘Ha-ha yes I was turning into a woman but I still felt confused and was dressing in boys clothing.’

‘Did it affect you or what?’

‘Well I just got on with my studies and it made me more determined than ever to excel at everything. I was already pretty smart compared to most in my class and I came top in most subjects.’

‘How old were you?’
‘I was thirteen and the only problem was I was getting dizzy spells and hot flushes. Some of the girls in the class were in the same situation so my sister took me under her wing for a while and explained a few things to me. It was like the girl inside me was taking over my body and my testes weren’t developing.’

‘So what happened?’

‘I started to have regular consultations and it was decided that I should try living as a girl rather than as a boy and I was referred to several medical experts and asked about my feelings as they tried to determine if I was girl or boy.’

‘Oh it must have been horrible. I can imagine that you felt very embarrassed.’

‘Yes I felt a bit of a freak for a while until my features changed and it was more obvious that I was a woman who needed some medical attention rather than a boy changing sex.’

‘Did you want to be a woman and what happened to your male bits?’

‘Well I had advice not to have any operations and I was given some medication to help my feminine development and the body changes were amazing. My breasts developed and my hips were wider and my hair was soft. I had no beard or moustache growth anymore and boys actually started to look at me and notice me. We’d moved by this time and I attended school as Kate Harper instead of Kerry Harper that was my birth name.’

‘Wow so you had far more problems than I had since I was just a whimp and a bit of a nerd and was largely ignored.’

‘Well as Kate I never had any problems at all. Girls at school accepted me as Kate and life was much easier. Some boys were really attracted that did cause me difficulty since it was strange when I’d been one of them for such a long time. I had a few serious flings but I didn’t want to encourage them to get too physical that was a bit difficult sometimes.’

‘Oh Kate I think you were so brave and it’s amazing that a person can be born like this.’
‘Well I am one in a million as dad says but maybe it’s one in thousands I don’t really know.’

‘Kate I really admire you and I hope you don’t mind me asking but did you ever have feelings for girls.’

‘Ha-ha only for you Chrissy only for you.’

‘Oh.’

‘No I’m joking with you. I did have a few close friendships and yet none of them developed into anything. I feel a bit in the middle so I throw myself into my job. It’s a bit lonely for me sometimes when I come back to this empty apartment and a lot of my school friends and University friends are getting married. We do get together sometimes and we have a good laugh and party very well but we are all dotted around and do different jobs.’

‘What about this boyfriend you mentioned you had who was a transvestite.’

‘Yes I met him at University and he was very nice but he liked the club scene more than me and eventually he started to frequent bars in Manchester where there were lots of men in drag on their fun nights and he joined in. I guess he enjoyed it more and more and he started to go to bars where he could dress as a woman but I was not comfortable when he wanted me to go with him. So we separated and whilst we still have contact we don’t meet very often. He is such a nice guy and I think he found a few very close friends and feels much happier so I’m happy for him.’

‘Oh Kate do you want me to keep all this as our secret, just between us?’

‘Well it’s better that you don’t gossip about it but if you feel that you have to explain to your mum and dad or Julie then I’ll leave that up to you to judge. Please take care though.’

Well be sure I prefer not to gossip and really the only person likely to ask is Julie who I would trust with my life. I don’t think mum and dad will pry. They are old school people.’

‘So have I helped you at all with this chat?’

‘Yes Kate you have made me realize that I’m not different I’m just a little bit unique.’

‘So will you be a friend to me as well as my assistant at work?’

‘Yes of course I will because you are so kind and without you I never would get the chance to find out about myself.’

‘So what about your situation? What about your feelings now you found out about your real mother and her relationship with my dad? How do you feel right now since you have such a lot of changes happened and what about Sally? How do you feel about her?’

To be continued………