We find an old friend and make new ones. We find a new group of friends. Tiff comes back into our lives. Then another interesting weekend together takes us in a new direction.

A Year In My Life
Part II - 2

While we were home for semester break Kate and I had a great time. We got back together with friends that we hadn’t seen since high school graduation. Gwen was out every once in a while and her wardrobe was growing.

My mom had even seen Gwen a couple of times while we were home. Once when Kate and I were at the mall shopping. We walked right into her in one of the stores. Her reaction was priceless. She of course recognized Kate right away, then she looked at me and asked Kate where Gary was. Kate looked at me and smiled. My mother’s face went blank, then started getting a smile as she said, “Gary?”

“No Gwen. At least right now.”, I whispered.

“Okay. Gwen. You do make a pretty girl. Aren’t you afraid that someone is going to figure it out?”

“Mom, did you?”

“Not until Kate told me.”

“Would you have if she hadn’t told you?”

“I don’t think so.”

“We just have fun with it. I enjoy doing it, Kate enjoys doing it, and it doesn’t hurt anyone.”

She shook her head, smiled, and said, “Come on girls. Let me buy you something to drink.”

Monday, January 14

Classes for spring semester started today. We settled into our usual routine, meeting for meals and spending as much time together as we could. Even if it was in the library studying.

Friday, January 18

This evening Kate was already where we eat together. I walked up with my tray and sat down. Kate looked at me and said, “Hi lover.”

“Hi babe.”, I replied.

“Have a good afternoon?”

“Really good. You?”

“Sure. I even saw an old friend.”

“An old friend. Who?”

“You’ll never guess. It was someone from high school that you had fun with.”

“Someone from high school that I had fun with? I have no clue. Who was it?”

“You’ve got to guess?”

“Oh come on.”

She just smiled with that little mischievous smile of hers. Then I said, “All right. Male or female?”

“Ah. Female.”

“Female? You’re the only female I’ve had fun with.”

“Not that kind of fun. It was at a dance.”

“At a dance. The only dance I was at without you was that spring dance.”

“Warm.”

“I had fun with her?”

“You might not have thought of it as fun when it happened.”

“I had fun with a girl and it wasn’t you, it was at the spring dance, and I didn’t think it was fun when it happened. Hmm. The only person that I can think of is Jaimie Yamashita?”

“Give the man a kiss.”

“Where did you see her?”

“Here on campus.”

“Really.”

“She’s in the theater art’s program.”

“That figures. I think she was in all the high school plays.”

“We had a nice long talk.”

“About what?”

“Lots of things, but you in particular.”

“Me. What about me?”

“Well really Gwen.”

“Gwen?”

“Did you know there’s a support group on campus?”

“A support group. For what?”

“LGBT.”

“LGBT?”

“Lesbians, gays, bisexuals, and transgenders.”

“What’s that got to do with us?”

“Well you are transgendered.”

“Huh?”

“You crossdress don’t you?”

“Sh. Someone will hear you.”

“No they won’t.”, Kate whispered, “You do crossdress?”

“You know I do. What’s that got to do with the group?”

“Jaimie remembered you from school, and our meeting after Ken’s Halloween party and how pretty you were. She asked if you still dressed and I told her you did. Then we talked about the group.”

“I’m not gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgendered. Am I?”

With a sly smile Kate said, “Gwen’s a lesbian. She only likes girls. You on the other hand are transgendered. Jaimie said that it’s a catchall term for people who do a full or partial reversal of gender roles and other things. It includes crossdressers.”

“Oh.”

“She said that we should come to one of their meetings.”

“I have you. Do I need a support group?”

“No, but they do other things. They have dances, informational meetings, dinners, and things like that. It would give Gwen a way to get out while we’re here.”

“You think?”

“Lover. You like to be Gwen. This just might be the way to do it.”

“How?”

“You can go as Gwen and have some fun. They’re having a business meeting and social gathering on Friday.”

I sat there, looked at Kate, then said, “Where would I change?”

“Jaimie said that there are a number of safe places to change. The meetings are held at a church just off campus. You could even change there.”

“If you go with me anyone that knows you might figure us out.”

“I know.”

“I don’t really want to go without you.”

“I don’t want you to either, but Jaimie said you could go with her. If you find that we don’t know anyone, then I could go to other meetings with you.”

“I don’t know.”

“It would give you more chances to be Gwen.”

“I know, but all my things are at your house.”

“Not all.”

“Huh?”

“I never took the clothes that you wore at the cabin home.”

“Why?”

“The way we usually rush out of here on Fridays’, I just kept forgetting to take them with us.”

“Jaimie said it was a good bunch of people?”

“Yes. There are all sorts of people, obviously some gays and lesbians. Some are transsexuals, like Jaimie. A bunch of crossdressers. A number of them come with their, as Jaimie put it, significant others.”

“Weren’t we going home Friday?”

“Yeah, but I can use some quiet time at the library this weekend to work on that paper.”

“Let me think about it.”

After we finished eating we went to the lounge in Kate’s dorm and just sat together for a while. Finally I said, “I really don’t want to go without you.”

“Go where?”

“That meeting.”

“I know, but you’d be with Jaimie.”

“It wouldn’t be the same.”

“Lover. Does Gwen like to go out?”

“You know she does.”

“Does she get out enough?

“Not really, but she doesn’t like to go out without you.”

“I know love. Maybe I can come up with something by Friday.”

“Like what?”

“Remember what I did for Ken’s party?”

“Sure. The long brown wig, the glasses, and the makeup. I almost didn’t know you.”

“If I could do that again. Then . . . “

Friday, January 25

I met Kate at her dorm around five, she handed me the case with Gwen’s things in it, and we walked over to the student union to meet Jaimie. Jaimie and I greeted each other like long lost friends. From there we walked together to Jaimie’s friend Billie’s apartment which was just off campus. Billie was another crossdresser and had just finished doing her makeup when we got there. She looked good as a girl. Actually pretty. Except that she was tall, maybe six feet or a little better. Though you could tell that she was a guy.

“Billie.”, Jaimie said, “This is Kate and Gary. Gary goes as Gwen when she’s dressed. Kate and Gary this is Billie. She’s a dear friend and is going to drive us to the meeting.”

Billie showed us to a spare bedroom which was setup almost like a theater’s dressing room. I asked where the bathroom was and Billie told me. I grabbed my bra and panties, excused myself and changed. When I came back, Kate was already working on her makeup. I sat down next to her and went to work on my own makeup. I could see Jaimie watching me and she was watching very closely. I went for the same look that Kate had given me at the cabin. When I had finished with my makeup, Kate, wearing a long brown wig, came over to help with my hair. I looked at her reflection in the mirror, it was the same look that she had for Ken’s party and with a smile I asked, “Who are you?”

With a big smile Kate said, “Why, I’m your hair dresser miss.”

“So, where’d you get the wig.”

“Jaimie came up with it. Like it?”

“It looks better then the one that you wore for the party.”

“It feels better too. It’s real hair.”

Kate then worked on my hair for a little while. When she was done I looked in the mirror and it was the same look as I had at the cabin.

Kate then helped me into the waist cincher and I ran the garters down through my panties. Then I slipped on the nylons and fastened the garters to them. As I stood up Billie said, “You make one good looking girl.”

I think I blushed a little as I said, “Thanks.”

Jaimie was still watching, but not saying anything.

Kate got the nylons that we use to stuff my bra. As I started to put them in the bra cups Jaimie said, “Girl, what are you doing?”

I looked at her and said, “Padding my bra. Why?”

“Girlfriend, stop. Billie do you still have that other set of forms?”

“Sure.”, Billie said. She walked over to a chest of drawers, took two boxes out of a drawer and handed them to Jaimie.

Jaimie then said, “Girlfriend, these will be much better then nylons in that bra. The university theater group has half dozen sets of these and I don’t think they’ve ever used them. We signed out two sets for Billie to try.”

Jaimie opened one of the boxes, pulled out something that looked like a breast, and said, “They’re breast forms and a lot of the girls use them. I did until I got the real things. These may not be the right size for you, but are worth a try.”

I looked at Kate, she grinned and said, “I told you that you needed breasts.”

Jaimie then said, “Billie uses them. He actually likes to attach them.”

“Attach them?”, I asked.

“They feel like they’re really part of me when I attach them.”, Billie added.

“How do you attach them?”

“With some strong medical adhesive.”

“How do you get them off?”

“With some adhesive remover.”

Jaimie asked, “Want to try them?”

I looked at Kate and she said, “Couldn’t hurt to try it.”

I looked at Jaimie and asked, “They do come off easily. Don’t they?”

“Yes,” Jaimie said, “no problem.”

“Okay. Lets give them a try.”

“Take off your bra and I’ll put them on for you.”

I reached behind my back, unhooked my bra, and removed it. Jaimie had me lay down on the bed and she attached the forms using the spray adhesive. Kate was paying very close attention to what Jaimie was doing. When Jaimie was done she said, “It will take you a little while to get use to the weight and how they move. But your bra will help.”

I sat up and she was right. The forms did have some weight to them and pulled on my chest. Kate helped me on with the bra and it did help support them.

Jaimie asked, “What do you think?”

“They’re really different,” I said, “and there is some weight to them.”

“You’ll get use to them. You know, in looking at how they fit you in that bra, I think this size works for you..”

I finished dressing. It was the same skirt, blouse, and shoes that I’d worn at the cabin. Then Kate pulled out the jewelry, the hoop earrings, the necklace, and rings.

I finally stood there in front of Billie, Jaimie, and Kate, fully dressed as Gwen. Jaimie was the first one to say something, “I watched you change from a boy to a girl before my eyes. I just wish it had been that easy for me. You make one damn pretty girl.”

Billie added, “When Jaimie told me that you were going with us to the meeting and that you made a pretty girl. She wasn’t lying. It’s hard to believe that the same person that walked in here a little while ago is the same one standing here now.”

Katie walked over to me, gave me a hug, and whispered, “See lover, I told you that you were pretty, and you’re all mine.”

I looked at Jaimie and Billie, then said, “Thanks guys.”

Jaimie with a grin shook her head no and said, “No, that’s thanks girls.”

At a little before seven we were walking into the church’s community room. There must have been thirty people already there and Billie said, “There will be close to fifty here tonight.”

“Fifty!?”, I said.

“Yes. With a campus this large we have more than a hundred and fifty members, and we usually have about a third of that come to meetings.”

“And, everyone supports everyone else?”

“Yes. Everyone realizes that each person is an individual. No matter if they’re gay, lesbian, or whatever. If they are going to receive support then they have to support everyone else.”

“It works?”

“Yes, very well.”

Jaimie and Billie took us around and introduced us to a number of people, including the officers of the group and the associate pastor of the church. That evening to help disguise who we were we were telling everyone that Kate was Kelly. I tried to hide that I was a guy by not talking or just whispering.

When Kate and I were alone, she whispered, “The girl that’s the president.”

“Yea.”

“It’s Dr. Friedman.”

“So.”

“Dr. Richard Friedman he’s one of my profs.”

“Oh. Well, I guess anyone can be transgendered. Can’t they?”

“You’re right.”

We found a place to sit at a round table that sat eight. There were already four people there, a lesbian couple, and two crossdressers. We sat and chatted with them and each other waiting for the meeting to start.

Just before they started the meeting I saw Kate whip around and looked at the door. She turned back and whispered, “Damn!”

“What’s wrong?”, I asked.

“Tiffany just walked in.”

“You’re kidding?”

“I wish to hell I was.”

Looking at Jaimie, Kate asked, “I did ask you if Tiffany Fabry came to these. Didn’t I?”

“Yes,” Jaimie said, “I knew she was a member and as far as I knew she never came to meetings. Why?”

“She’s here.”

“Is it a problem?”

“I hope not.”

“She won’t recognize you.”, I whispered to Kate.

Kate looked at me in a way that said, ‘I sure hope not.’

We watched as she and a girlfriend walked to a table on the opposite side of the room. We were basically looking right at each other.

I could tell that Kate was a little nervous with Tiff being there and I asked, “Do you want to leave?”

“No. She’s looked over here a few times and I haven’t seen any signs of recognition from her.”

“Just try to forget that she’s here.”

“I’m trying too.”

The meeting wasn’t long. They talked about regular club things. One was an on-line directory that covered all the friendly places in the area, such as restaurants, clothing stores, medical services, and such.

Then the social part of the evening started and it was a mixer. They had coffee, soft drinks, and someone had made a bunch of cookies. So, everyone started mingling, munching on cookies, and drinking pop and coffee. We met a number of really nice people and tried to stay away from Tiff. Who looked like she was trying to hit on every girl there, unattached or attached.

Jaimie had to use the lady’s room and grabbed Kate to go with her. I hung close to Billie while they were gone. I was standing with him while he talked to some friends. Then I sensed someone standing close behind me. I looked around and it was Tiff. I turned back around trying to ignore her, but I felt her touch my shoulder. I turned around again and looked at her. She said, “You’re new here, aren’t you? And, you’re too pretty to be guy trying to look like a girl like your friend here. You’ve also been hanging with another very pretty girl all evening. So, I figure that there’s a good chance that you’re a lesbian. Am I right?”

I just looked at her.

“Oh. The silent type. I like girls like you.”

I just continued to look at her, not saying anything.

“Sweety, at least tell me your name?”

I finally said in a soft whisper, “Gwen.”

“That’s a pretty name. Do you like girls?”

“Yes.”

“Like me?”

“No.”

“No! What. Am I too forward for you?”

“Yes.”

“So, you really are a shy girl. All the better. I really love girls like you. They make the best lovers.”

Billie finally came to my rescue when she said, “Gwen, is she bothering you?”

I just looked at her and nodded yes.

Billie looked at Tiff and said, “She’s spoken for. In fact here comes her girlfriend.”

I looked, and Kate and Jaimie were on their back from the ladies room. I saw the expression on Kate’s face when she saw Tiff talking to me. I wouldn’t want to be on the receiving end of Kate’s wrath if she got mad.

As Kate and Jaimie walked up, Kate asked me, “Is she bothering you love?”

Trying to keep the fur from flying, I just shook my head no.

Kate glared at Tiff and said, “I sure hope not.”

As she started to walk away Tiff said to Kate, “You can have her. She’s too quiet for me.”

Tiff was then able to whisper to me, “I’ll see you later.”

I just glared at her. Kate looked at me and asked, “Lover, are you all right?”

“Yeah. What a bitch.”, I answered.

“I told you she was.”

Jaimie asked, “Was she hitting on you?”

“Yeah,” I said, “and I didn’t like it.”

“Do you want to leave?”

“No it’s fine. As long as she stays away.”

“Okay love.”, Kate said, “We’ll stay as long as you want to.”

The rest of the time we were at the meeting was really nice. Most of the people that we talked to asked us to come back.

As we were getting our coats to leave, so was Tiff and her girlfriend. As she walked past me she whispered, “I want you.”

I just looked at her.

Kate saw the exchange of looks between us and asked, “What was that about?”

“Nothing.”, I replied.

“Lover, what?”

“She just said that she wanted me.”

“That bitch!”

If I hadn’t been able to grab Kate I think there would have been a fight right then and there. I told Kate, “Let it go. Be a bigger person then she is.”

“God I hate her.”

“Lover, I’m yours and only yours. Don’t worry about anyone taking me.”

“I know. But, I just can’t stand her hitting on you.”

As we were getting into Billie’s car she asked, “Would you like to stop somewhere for a bite?”

Everyone agreed that it would be a good idea. Billie drove to a small restaurant, Max and Tommy’s, that wasn’t too far from the church. As we walked in Jaimie was greeted very warmly with a hug and kiss on the cheek by the greeter, as was Billie. Jaimie introduced us, “Kate and Gwen, this is Tom Garver. He and Max Watson own Max and Tommy’s. Tom this is Kate and Gwen, some old dear friends of mine.”

Tom greeted us in the same way that he’d greeted Jaimie, with a warm hug and kiss on the cheek. As we walked into the dining area we noticed a few people from the meeting had beat us here. As we sat at a table a server walked up, introduced herself, and asked if we’d like anything to drink. We ordered and while we were waiting I asked Jaimie, “Was she a he?”

“Was is the word. She’s a pre-op transsexual like I was during our senior year. Tommy and Max only hire, gays, lesbians, and transgenders.”

“I figured that Tom was gay. So, I guess Max is too?”

“They’re a couple. They started the restaurant together, Tom runs the business and Max is the chef. No one cares that they’re gay or that all the servers are who they are. Everyone comes here for the fantastic food.”

We sat and enjoyed a light snack and chatted. Jaimie finally asked Kate, “What’s between you and Tiffany?”

Kate looked at me then said, “She almost came between us last semester. She tried to take me way from Gary.”

“Someone come between the two of you! You two were the definition of love in high school.”

Kate smiled and said, “She almost did. She’s very controlling. Then when she hit on Gwen I felt myself start to lose control.”

“I could tell. I saw the fire in you eyes.”

“I’ll fight for Gwen. I love her very much.”

We went back to Billie’s apartment and changed. We saw Billie for the first time as her male self and learned that his real name was Bill and that he’s a senior. I had seen him around campus, but never figured him for a crossdresser or even though that he might be one. I guess, like Kate’s professor, we come from everywhere and never really know if someone else is transgendered or not.

Saturday, January 26

It was almost one in the morning when Bill and I dropped Kate and Jaimie off at their respective dorms, then headed to my dorm. On the way we talked and Bill asked me, “How long have you been dressing?”

“Since my junior year in high school. How about you?”, I replied.

“Since I was about ten. You got a late start?”

“Yea. It started as a prank for a school dance and went from there. Kate is the one that actually brought Gwen out.” I went on to give him a short history of our relationship and my dressing.

Then I asked Bill, “How did you get started?”

“I guess it was curiosity.”, Bill said, “I’d seen my older sister’s things around the house. Then one day I tried some of them on and I was hooked. I’d never gone out or anything like that until I came here and found the group. One of the first meeting that I attended was on makeup. After the meeting I talked to the girl that did the demonstration and we set up something for me to learn makeup. Now, I feel good when I go out. I know that I’m not completely passable like you. It’s just who I am.”

We said good night and as I was getting out of the car, Bill said, “If you want to go to any other meetings my place is always available. We’d love to have you and Kate come.”

“Thanks Bill. I think we might just do that.”

It appeared to me that Bill knew who he was and wasn’t afraid to show it. I liked him.

I met Kate at noon for lunch, then went with her to the library so she could work on her paper. I had some reading to do, so this quiet time did us both some good. Later as we walked toward her dorm Kate said, “My roommate is gone for the weekend.”

With a knowing smile I said, “Why are you telling me this?”

“Lover, it’s been too long since we’ve had a night together. So, I want my desert before we have dinner.”

Later at dinner I said, “You weren’t happy to see Tiff were you?”

“No. When she hit on you I was ready to kill her.”

“I didn’t appreciate it either. I couldn’t defend myself without giving away that I was a guy.”

“I know. I won’t leave Gwen alone again.”

“No, I need to be able to talk like a girl when I look like one.”

“How?”

“I was looking at the list of friendly places in town.”

“Yeah.”

“There’s a voice coach on the list.”

“Voice coach?”

“They say that she has helped a number of people learn to talk like their chosen gender. All the comments are good.”

“You going to look into it?”

“Do you want me to?”

“The question is do you want to? Would it make you happy to be able to talk like a girl?”

“You know it’s been one of the things that has bothered me. I’d love to be able to take part in conversations as a girl when I’m dressed as a girl.”

“I know love. So, are you going to look into it?”

“I thought we could.”

After dinner we cuddled up in the lounge area of Kate’s dorm. It was quiet, almost deserted, most of the residents, if they could, went home on weekends. We just sat quietly for a long time. Then Kate said, “I wish you could spend the night?”

“I know,” I said, “it would be nice.”

As she cuddled closer she said, “Not just nice, but wonderful.”

“If we got caught, we’d be in big trouble.”

“I know. But, if Gwen spends the night then no one would know.”

“You are so bad.”

“No, I love you and just want to be with you.”

If we’d been in the pool house the kiss that followed would have led to much more.

Friday, February 22

The past month had been almost the usual routine for Kate and me. School and home on weekends. We did check out the voice coach, who just happened to be a member of the university’s faculty. She told us that learning to speak like a woman took a lot of practice and that there was more to it than changing how a voice sounded, that it was also vocabulary, grammar, and even body language. I set up a few appointments with her to see if it was possible for me to change my voice.

One of the first things that Dr. Hickey, the voice coach, told me was that there are a number of women that have a husky or low voice, so to not be worried if mine turned out that way. Another thing was that the pitch of the voice isn’t as important as its resonance.

Today was another meeting of the support group and Jaimie had asked us to go along with her and Billie. I was a little apprehensive because of Tiff. Kate wanted to go and said, “I’m not going to let that bitch get in the way of us doing what we want to do.”

Kate and I again met Jaimie at the student union and walked to Billie’s apartment. Billie answered the door and looked very nice in her jeans and peasant top. She greeted us like real friends and then went with us to her spare bedroom. Kate and I did our hair and makeup, and Jaimie again attached the breast forms to my chest. I didn’t know if I could ever get use to them.

Tonight was a dress down meeting. Everyone was going comfortable. Knowing that we’d probably go to other meetings we had brought some of Gwen’s clothes back with us on one of our trips home. I had on my jeans with the flowers on the leg, my pink sweater, running shoes, and a full complement of jewelry. Kate was in a cute jeans skirt and peasant blouse. Jaimie was dressed very nicely and her comment was, “I feel better when I’m dressed nicely. I usually wear pants to class and I need to dress up when I go out.”

Kate smiled at her and said, “Every time I see you, you look very nice. Just dress the way you feel comfortable.”

As we walked into the church’s community room we saw a lot of people that we recognized from last month and few we didn’t. Many of the people recognized Kate, or should I say Kelly, and me. Everyone said that they were happy to see us back.

As we were looking for a place to sit, I saw Dr. Hickey, and Kate and I stopped to say hello. She looked at me a little strangely like she didn’t know who I was. Then she got a little smile on her face and said, “Gary?”

“Yes, but right now it’s Gwen.”

“I didn’t recognize you.”

“Even my mother doesn’t when I’m dressed.”

“She knows?”

“Yes, both of my parents know.”

“That’s wonderful.”

“I didn’t know you came to meetings?”

“I support the community. I have a son that’s a crossdresser and I support him.”

“Is he here?”

“No he lives on the west coast. Why don’t you join me?”

“We’d love to. We’re here with two friends.”

“There’s room for everyone.”

This was going to be an informational meeting. After a short business meeting, a lawyer gave a talk on the law and how it effected the gay, lesbian, and transgender community. There was a really good question and answer session afterwards.

After the meeting the four of us were sitting and talking with Dr. Hickey and she said to me, “You are really making good progress with your voice lessons. I noticed tonight that you’ve been talking in a soft whisper.”

“I do that to help hide my male voice.”

“Actually if we can get the volume up a little bit it wouldn’t be bad. Maybe a little husky and there’s nothing wrong with husky feminine voice.”

“Really?”

“Yes, I’m thinking that by the time the semester is over we’ll be really close to having you talking like a woman when you want to.”

I just smiled.

Jaimie looked at me and said, “You little sneak. You didn’t tell us.”

“Sorry.”, I said, “I started seeing Dr. Hickey after the last meeting and was going to wait to see if I could do it or not before I told anyone.”

Later as we were getting our coats I heard, “Hello sweety.”

I looked and it was Tiff. I just glared at her and she said, “I told you that I’d see you again. Where’s that little girlfriend of yours any way?”

“Right behind you bitch!”, Kate said with some authority.

I saw the expression on Tiff’s face change just before she turned around to look at Kate.

Kate continued with, “I told you to leave her alone!”

“Hey.”, Tiff said, “She can see whoever she wants to.”

“Yeah, and it’s not you!”

“Let her tell me that.”

Tiff turned, looked at me, and said, “Gwen, tell her that you want to be with me.”

For whatever reason I grabbed her by the shoulders and kissed her. Then in my male voice I said, “No way in hell do I want you. Anyway, I hear that you really don’t like guys.”

I watched as the color drained out of Tiff’s face and she stuttered , “You . . . You . . . You’re a guy!?”

“Good guess sweetheart.”

I’ve never seen anyone back pedal so fast. She almost forgot her coat in her rush to get out of the cloakroom.

A number of people had watched the exchange between Tiff, Kate, and me. Jaimie and Billie being two of them. As Tiff was almost running for the door they applauded. Others, including the president of the support group, were standing there in disbelief that Tiff had left without a word.

The president finally asked me, “Are you really a guy?”

“Yes.”

“You sure had everyone here fooled. We thought that you were a lesbian couple.”

“Sorry.”

“Don’t be. If you can look as good as you do, enjoy it. We’d really like you to come back next month and become members.”

Kate looked at her and with a big grin, said, “We do enjoy it and we’ll be back.”

As we were walking out of the church, Kate said, “Girl, you sure threw Tiff for a loop.”

“I just had to.”, I said, “Now, I need some mouth wash.”

“That kiss really surprised her.”

“And me. I had no idea where it came from.”

“Girlfriend,” Jaimie said, “talk about standing up for yourself. Whatever you want at Max and Tommy’s is on me.”

We did go to Max and Tommy’s for a snack. Tom remembered Kate and me and gave us the same warm greeting he gave Jaimie and Billie. Just like last month there were a few people from the meeting there and we got some really nice smiles.

The four of us sat and talked for a long time. Jamie and Billie wanted to know more about my voice lessons. I filled them in on what I’d been doing with Dr. Hickey.

One group of people that had been at the meeting, as they were leaving Max and Tommy’s, walked over to us. One of the girls said, “We just had to stop by and say thank you. You were the first one to stand up to Tiffany that way. She’s hit on almost everyone and been told off by a number of people. You told her off in away that she never expected and it was just fantastic.”

“It was my pleasure.”, I said.

Then looking at Kate the girl said, “You’re one lucky girl if she’s yours?”

“She’s a very special person to me.”

“See you at the next meeting?”

“We’ll be there.”, I said with a smile.

Saturday, February 23

As we were leaving Max and Tommy’s, Billie said, “We’ll stop at my place so you can get changed and then I’ll run you to your dorms.”

Kate said, “No.”

I looked at Kate and said, “No?”

“No.”, Kate said again.

“Why no?”

“If Billie doesn’t mind could Gwen come over later today, or maybe even on Sunday, to change?”

Billie said, “I don’t mind. I should be home studying.”

“Katie,” I said, “what are you thinking?”

“Remember how I’ve said that I want to spent a night with you again?”

“Yeah.”

“After that meeting tonight. I’m going to spend at least one night with you this weekend.”

“What if we get caught.”

“We won’t.”

“Says you.”

“Yeah, says me. My roommate won’t be back until Monday and the other six won’t be back until late Sunday. I get lonely.”

“Gwen,” Jaimie said, “you’d better listen to this girl. There’s no telling what kind of mischief she’ll get into if she gets lonely.”

I looked at Kate and said, “Katie, if we get caught doing this . . . “

“Trust me,” Kate said, “we won’t. Some of the girls that stay all weekend have friends visit all the time.”

“All right. Billie drop us at Kate’s dorm. Hopefully we’ll see you tomorrow sometime.”

Kate added, “Maybe it won’t be until Sunday.”

I just shook my head.

As they were dropping us off at Kate’s dorm, Jaimie said, “The two of you behave.”

“Yes mother.”, Kate said with a big smile, “We’ll be sure to behave ourselves.”

As we walked into Kate’s dorm there was a Resident Assistant sitting at the desk. Kate stopped, checked in with her, and signed me in as her cousin Gwen Cutwright. The Resident Assistant didn’t even bat an eye.

As we walked into Kate’s room, she turned, wrapped her arms around me, and gave me a long, soft, deep, kiss. When we broke the kiss Kate said, “I’ve wanted to do that all evening.”

I smiled at her and gave her my usual line of, “You are so bad.”

She had a sly little smile as she said, “If you think I’m bad now. Just wait until I get you in bed.”

She led me into her bedroom and we started undressing each other. Then it hit me. I still had the breast forms glued to my chest. As she was removing my bra I said, “Ah Katie, we might have a problem?”

“What lover?”, she asked.

“The breast forms.”

“What about them?”

“Unless you have some of Billie’s adhesive remover, I don’t think they’re coming off.”

“Oh. Yeah. Right.”

“What do we do?”

“You know. I really don’t care if you don’t.”

“You’re kidding?”

“No. You’ve got breasts. I’ve got breasts. We’ll just make do.”

“Katie, I really don’t know about you.”

“Lover, nothing matters as long as I’m with you.”

Late Saturday morning when I woke up, I was cuddled up very tightly to Kate. My front to her back. We had to be cuddle up tight as the beds in these dorm rooms were twin beds and were fastened to the wall. So, we couldn’t push the two beds in the room together.

I was feeling something strange, then I remembered the breast forms. I carefully worked my way out of bed and went to the common bathroom. Feeling the weight of the forms and having them move as I walked was strange enough. Then looking in the mirror and seeing Gwen with breasts was really strange. I almost looked like a girl. Until you noticed the seams around the forms and what was below my waist.

I was going to start removing my makeup, but before I could I saw Kate, completely naked, walk up behind me. She wrapped her arms around me, nibbled on my ear, and whispered, “Like what you see?”

“When I see you. Yes.”

“I mean do you like what you see in yourself?”

“I’m not sure. It’s kind of strange.”

“Strange?”

“Yeah, nineteen years of a flat chest and a guy’s face. And now I’m seeing a girl with breasts, even though I know they’re fake, looking back at me. It’s kind of strange. Besides, breasts look better on you then me. What do you think?”

“Remember. I’ve always told you that no matter what you look like I love you for what’s in your heart. Right now you look a lot more like Gwen than Gary. So, right now I love Gwen.”

She turned me around to face her and we shared a long kiss. Then she said, “I’m hungry.”

“Me too.”, I said and started for the bedroom.

“Where you going lover?”

“To get dressed.”

“Lover, we both need to remove our makeup, take a shower, and redo our makeup. Then we can get dressed.”

“Yeah, I guess you’re right.”

“You know I am.”

About an hour later we were heading to the cafeteria. After we’d gotten our food, instead of sitting next to each other like we usually do, we as across from each other.

That afternoon we took in a movie at the student union. It was about the only place we could hold hands without getting some strange looks. After we had dinner, even though it was cold outside, we walked around campus for a little while. Then we went to Kate’s dorm room, sat in the common room and actually watched some television. Kate was cuddled up really close and asked, “Lover, want to tell me about the kiss you shared with Tiff. It was almost as good as the one you gave Wendy.”

“There was one big difference.”, I said, “The kiss I gave Wendy was because she’s going to be my cousin-in-law someday. The kiss I gave Tiff was to get her full attention and to tell her, bitch you don’t bother me and I’m not taking your crap.”

“You’re really beginning to believe in yourself. Aren’t you?”

I turned to Kate took her in my arms and kissed her. That kiss turned into some heavy necking, and that turned into a very long love making session that lasted late into the night.

Sunday, February 24

Late on Sunday morning when I woke up Kate was laying there looking at me, she smiled, and said, “I just love waking up with you next to me.”

“No more than I love waking up with you in my arms.”

We kissed and if we hadn’t heard a noise in the common room we probably would have made love again. I asked, “What was that?”

“I don’t know. I’ll be right back.”, Kate said.

She tossed on a robe, walked out of her room, and into the common room. I heard her say, “Oh, hi Linda. You’re back early.”

“Yeah,” I heard a female voice say, “I broke up with my boyfriend. I just came back to get some studying done.”

“I’m sorry. Are you all right?”

“Yeah, he was a jerk. Too much of a jock. I’m glad we broke up.”

“As long as you’re okay. My cousin, Gwen, spent the weekend with me. I have to get her home, so well be out of here real soon.”

“No problem Kate. I’m just dropping off some things and I’m going to the library.”

“Okay. I’ll see you later. Let me know if you want to talk.”

“Thanks.”

Kate came back into the bedroom. I looked at her like are you sure we’re all right?

She just held her finger up to her lips.

We listened as Linda moved around the common dorm room and into her bedroom. Then we heard Linda say, “See you later Kate.”

“Bye Linda.”, Kate yelled.

We heard the door close. I looked at Kate and said, “That was just too close.”

“No problem lover.”, Kate said, “Linda’s had a couple different boys in here.”

“Any of them look like a girl?”

An hour later Kate and I were on the way to Bill’s apartment. We figured that we were pushing our luck to keep Gwen around much longer. We walked up to Bill’s door, rang the bell, and were surprised when Jaimie answered the door. Jaimie’s comment was even stranger, “Well if it isn’t Friday night’s heroine.”

“Huh?”, I said.

“Come on in and we’ll show you.”

We walked into Bill’s apartment and I said, “What are you talking about?”

Bill said, “The support group has a web page and members can post on a message board. You’ve become the main topic of discussion.”

“You’re kidding?”

“No. Sit down and I’ll show you.”

I sat down in front of Bill’s computer, he brought up the web page, and logged into the message board. The first thread he showed me was titled, ‘Cat Fight at Friday’s Meeting.’

That message, the first in the thread, said, ‘There was almost a fight at the meeting Friday night. Tiffany, the bitch, came on to a new girl. The new girl’s girlfriend told Tiffany off, then the new girl gave Tiffany a big kiss. Then, are you ready for this, the new girl tells Tiffany that she was really a guy. I thought Tiffany was going to loose it on the spot. No one knew this new girl was a guy and I wouldn’t have believed it myself if I hadn’t heard her talk. Everyone thought that she and her girlfriend were a lesbian couple.’

Another message said, ‘Damn. I miss a meeting and it’s a good one. I’m glad someone finally stood up to that bitch. I wish I had before she used me. Tiffany is a user and a looser.’

Another one said, ‘Serves the bitch right. I’d love to give that new girl a big hug.’

Bill said, “I saved this one till last.” He pulled up another message and it said, ‘This new girl is one hot chick even if she is a guy. If I hadn’t heard her talk I would never have believed that she was a guy. Here’s a few pictures so you can judge for yourself.’

I said, “Pictures!?”

Bill then scrolled down the message to where the pictures were. One of the pictures showed me kissing Tiffany. A couple others showed Tiff, Kate, and me during our confrontation. Another showed Kate and me together. I looked at Kate, she didn’t look happy, and I asked Bill, “Who can see these?”

“Just the members. It takes a password to access them.”, Bill said.

“Can we get the pictures off of there?”

“Sure. The webmaster can do it.”

“How do we get a hold of them?”

“Easy.”, Bill said as he held his right hand up to his ear like you would a phone and said, “Hello. Is this the webmaster?”

Holding his left hand up to his left ear he said, “Yes. This is the webmaster.”

“Could you take Gwen and Kelly’s pictures off the message board?”

“Sure can.”

Bill then did his webmaster magic and removed the pictures from the site. Then, I asked, “How did those pictures get taken? I don’t remember any cameras”

“The group asks that no pictures be taken at meetings without the permission of the people in the picture. Some people, and I know who did this, bring cell phones with cameras and take pictures that way.”

“I don’t think either of us appreciate it. I know I don’t.”

“I know. I’ll have a talk with this person.”

Kate then went with me into Bill’s spare room to help me change. Kate had already lost the Kelly look at her dorm, and we had also brought Jaimie’s wig back. After I had stripped down to my panties and bra, I carefully removed all my makeup. Kate put my hair back into its male pony tail, then helped me remove the breast forms.

I guess I was feeling something as I was putting Gwen’s clothes away because Kate asked, “Why such a sad face?”

“Huh?”, I replied.

“You just look like you’ve lost your best friend.”

“No, you’re my best friend.”

“You look sad.”

“I guess putting Gwen away makes me a little sad.”

“You love being her, don’t you?”

“I like being her. It’s you that I love. I guess it’s just the let down after being her all weekend.”

Kate walked over to me and we just held each other for a while. Then she whispered, “Lover, just remember that Gwen is a part of you. Feel her inside you and know that she’s always there.”

I pushed Kate back a little so that I could look at her, and said, “Katie. It scares me that you know me so well.”

“Scares you?”, she asked a little puzzled.

“Yea. I’ll never be able to surprise you.”

“You surprise me all the time.”

We finally walked back out to where Jaimie and Bill were and Bill said, “There’s been a couple more postings and they all say that you did a good thing.”

“The pictures are gone. Right?”, I asked.

“Sure are.”

“Would you write down the URL of the web site for me?”

“Sure.”

Later as Kate and I were walking toward the resident hall for dinner I said, “You know. I’ve seen myself as Gwen in the mirror, in the pictures from the dance, and the party at the country club. But, the pictures that were on the web site were just different.”

“Different.”, Kate said, “How?”

“I think I saw the real Gwen.”

“The real Gwen?”

“Yea. When you guys dressed me for the dance it was just a gag and didn’t mean much to me.”

“How about for Halloween?”

“The witches were cute and a fun thing to do. It still wasn’t Gwen. What I wore to Ken’s party was more like a pretty high school girl showing off. It was overboard for her. She’s actually a quiet girl.”

“I know.”

“What you and I’ve done with Gwen has been wonderful. Dressing her nicely and not going overboard. She does make a very pretty coed. She enjoys going out with you and our friends. What I did see in those pictures, except for the kiss, was Gwen. A self assured girl being able to go out and really enjoy herself. Being able to stand up for herself. Being able to love who she wants to love the way she wants to. Being able to be just be who she is.”

“Lover, I’ve watched Gwen come out more and more. It’s been so much fun being with her and helping her find herself. I love what we have and share.”

I stopped right where we were, looked at Kate, and said, “Katie, I don’t know how much longer I can stand not being with you. Every time I have to say goodbye it hurts more and more.”

“I know love.”, she said, as she wrapped her arms around my neck and whispered, “I’ve felt that way for a long time.”

We held each other very tightly, then kissed, then held each other again.

When we broke the hug Kate with a smile said, “You know we haven’t eaten today.”

“That’s what’s wrong.”, I said.

I looked and we were standing right in front of the student union. So, we waked in and into the cafeteria. We picked up some food then walked into the dining room. There were a few people there and they were all smiling at us as we walked in. I whispered to Kate, “Why are they all staring at us?”

“I don’t know.”, she whispered back.

We found a booth, sat, and started eating. A few minutes later I saw my roommate and his girlfriend walking toward us. As they walked up, I said, “Hi Doug. Hi Beth Ann.”

Both Doug and Bet Ann had big grins and Doug said, “Hi Gary. Kate.”

“What up?”

“Just wanted to thank you two for the show.”

“The show?”

“Yeah, that kiss was really something.”

“Kiss?”

Pointing at a window Doug said, “You two were standing right in front of the window over there. You gave everyone in here a really nice show.”

I saw Kate hide her face and I felt my face get warm. I finally said, “I guess we didn’t realize where we were.”

“That’s okay. It made our day and probably everyone else’s too. Right, Beth Ann?”

“Sure did guys,” Beth Ann said, “and we understand.”

“Want to join us?”, I asked.

“Thanks. But, I’ve got a paper due tomorrow that I’ve got to get finished.”

“Okay. We’ll catch you guys later.”

As Doug and Beth Ann walked away, Kate said to me, “I had no idea where we where when we kissed.”

“You know something Katie.”, I said, “I don’t care who knows how I feel about you.”

Friday, February 29

We were going home for the weekend and were riding with Wendy. Kate and Wendy were chatting about anything and everything. I was just sitting there quietly and in deep thought.

It took Kate about half an hour to realize that I wasn’t contributing to the conversation. Finally she turned, looked at me, and asked, “Honey, is something wrong?”

“No, just thinking about things.”

“Things?”

“Yeah.”

“What things?”

“Us.”

“What about us?”

“About when you want to get married.”

“What!?”

Wendy said, “What did he just say?”

“You both heard me.”, I said.

“Yeah,”, Kate said, “ah . . . yesterday.”

“Are you guys nuts?”, Wendy asked.

“Probably. It’s just how we feel.”

Luckily we were close to a rest area on the Interstate. Wendy pulled into it, parked the pickup, turned, looked at us, and said, “Are you both crazy? Your parents will kill you. You promised them that you’d wait until after you graduated.”

“I know.”, Kate said, “We both really have a problem being apart. We’ve been able to spend a couple of nights together and it’s very hard to say goodbye. Not to mention every day when we have to say goodnight and go our opposite ways.”

“Guys, think about this. It’s a very big step especially while you’re still in college.”

“We have.”, Kate and I said together.

“Are you going to do this right or elope?”

“I don’t know.”, I said.

“Maybe . . . elope.”, Kate said, “Then have a church wedding later.”

“Are you going to tell your parents?”, Wendy asked.

Kate and I looked at each other then I said, “Maybe, but not right away.”

Monday, March 3

Today started another week of classes. When we had returned to campus we had brought another small suit case with us. Along with some more of Gwen’s things it also contained a few of Kate’s things.

Wednesday, March 5

As usual Kate and I didn’t have any afternoon classes today. Right after an early lunch, instead of just hanging around campus we had decided to go downtown. The university offered free bus service to students, so we took the downtown loop bus and were down there in no time. State is, of course, located in the state capitol which is a fairly large city. We’d been downtown before and knew all the good places to visit. We also had one special place to visit.

We wandered the shops for a while looking at clothes, shoes and other things. Then stopped for something to drink. As we were finishing our drink I asked Kate, “Are you ready?”

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