Our first summer together. We tell a few people about Gwen and one isn’t happy. A surprise at the lake. Could one of us be bisexual? Where does Kelly fit into all of this?

A special thanks to Hope for editing this part.

A Year In My Life
Part II - 4

Thursday, May 15

We’d just moved our things into Kate’s parent’s house for the summer and were taking a break. Her mom had joined us and said, “I was doing some spring cleaning and getting your room ready for you and I found something.”

Kate looked at me, then at her mother, and asked, “What was that mom?”

“I was rearranging the things on the shelf in your closet and I knocked a box off.”

“So?”

“When it landed on the floor it opened and I couldn’t help seeing what was in it.”

“What was it?”

We watched as she got up, walked over to the kitchen desk, picked up something, walked back to the table, and as she sat, she set the wedding album on the table and said, “This.”

There’s no reason that I should be nervous, but I got a knot in my stomach.

She continued with, “It looks like a wedding album. Who are these people? Are they friends of yours?”

Kate took the album and opened it to a page that contained our pictures, as Gwen and Kelly, right after the minister had performed the joining ceremony. She turned the book to her mother and said, “Do these two girls look familiar?”

Her mother looked at the picture, then at me, then back at the picture, pointed to me, and said, “I think this is Gary.”

“It is, and the other one?”

“The other? I’m not sure.”

“Look closer.”

Her mother studied the picture for a while, then looked at Kate, and said, “It’s you. Isn’t it?”

“Is it?”

Her mother looked at the picture again, then back at Kate and said, “It is you, with longer hair, heavier makeup, and glasses.”

“We had another ceremony, in the same chapel that we were married in.”

“Another ceremony?”

“The ceremony is called a commitment ceremony. Our friends decided that we needed something special.”

“But, you did it as two girls?”

“These friends know us as two girls, even though they know that Gwen is really Gary. The ceremony is usually used between couples of the same sex when there’s no wedding license. Two of our friends put it together for us as a way to celebrate our relationship with our friends that weren’t at the wedding. Did you happen to read the passage in the front of the album?”

“No. I just quickly looked at the album.”

Kate took the album, turned to the page where the commitment ceremony was, gave the album back to her mother, and said, “Read this.”

Kate’s mother read the ceremony, and said, “That’s beautiful.”

“We thought so too when we repeated it to each other. There’s one other person in those pictures that you should recognize?”

“Who’s that?”

Kate turned to a page that had a picture of Jaimie and Billie. Then she said, “The tall one is Billie. It’s the oriental girl that you’ve seen before.”

“The oriental girl? She stood up with you at your wedding, didn’t she?”

“Yes. But, you’ve seen her before that. Remember the high school dance where we all got in trouble?”

“How could I forget?”

“Remember who won the boy best dressed as a girl contest?”

“It was her! I mean him.”

“No, you’re right, her. She’s a transsexual. She’s become a girl.”

Kate’s mother sat there in thought for a minute, then said, “These friends. Who are they?”

“They’re all members of a support group.”

“A support group?”

“Everyone that’s a member is either gay, lesbian, transgendered, or someone who loves them.”

“You’re not gay or lesbian, are you?”

With a little smile Kate said, “No mom. We’re not. You remember how much Gary likes to dress like a girl?”

“Of course I do.”

“He’s transgendered, a cross-dresser.”

“I’d always wondered about that. Seeing how good he’s looked, the times that I’ve seen him dressed as a girl. Especially that time you went to the mall. He appeared to be comfortable as a girl. I’ve wondered if there was more to it than just dressing as a girl.”

“There isn’t. Gary just has a very strong feminine side that we both really enjoy. We’ve had a lot of fun with it including attending the support group meetings. When we go, I go as a girl named Kelly.”

“So, everyone in the pictures is a member of the support group?”

“Yes. Even the minister. The church is very supportive of alternate life styles and lets the support group meet in their community room. The group is also a recognized university organization, so we could meet on campus, but everyone likes the church.”

“Why Kelly?”

“To start with, it was a way to disguise who we really were. After awhile I just liked the look and enjoyed being different, just as Gary does.”

We continued to talking with Kate’s mother for a long time. It appeared that she understood where we were coming from with all the transgendered talk. When we told her what the psychologist had told us about ourselves, we left out the part about Gary possibly living as a girl.

Just as we were finishing, Kate’s father walked in and said, “Hi honey. Hi kids.”
Kate’s mother, placed the album on her lap and, said, “Hi honey. Have a good meeting?”

Kate said, “Hi daddy.”

I said, “Hi pop.”

Kate’s father stopped in his tracks, looked at me, and said, “Gary, anything but pop.”

“Sorry. Hi dad.”

Later that night, as Kate and I were laying cuddled in bed, she asked, “Do you think we should tell everyone?”

“Tell everyone what?”, I asked.

“About Gwen.”

“Everyone?”

“Our parents. Your mother knows that you’ve dressed as Gwen once in a while. My dad has seen Gwen. Maybe they should know more about you. Maybe even our brothers and your sister should know.”

“Why?”

“Don’t you think it would be better to tell them, than to let them find out in some other way?”

“Maybe.”

“We’ll talk later. Right now I’ve got other things on my mind.”

Friday, May 23

Katie and I had settled into being home and living with her parents. I’d already started my job and Kate started hers on Monday.

My brother, Bob, had come home from the Air Force Academy. Mary, his girl friend, had flown in with him. Like Kate and me, they were going to college close to each other. Bob was going to be home for a couple of weeks before going back. Anne, my sister, had also come home for a few days to see Bob and everyone else. Tonight we were all having dinner together at my parent’s house. Even Mary was joining us. It was like great big family reunion.

Kate and I arrived at my parent’s house around four in the afternoon. Bob was the first to see us when we walked into the house and the first thing out of his mouth was, “Bro. You just couldn’t wait could you?”

“Sorry,” I said, “Katie and I just couldn’t stand to be apart any longer.”

He walked over to us and with a big grin said, “Do I get to kiss the bride?”

He didn’t wait for my answer. He grabbed Kate and kissed her. This kiss lasted longer than I thought it should. I finally tapped him on the shoulder and said, “Enough already.”

He broke the kiss and said, “Bro. I’ve got to give my new sister-in-law a proper welcome.”

“You just did.”

Kate with that sly smile of hers said, “Don’t worry, Bob. He’s just jealous.”

Mary and Anne walked over and each gave Kate a big hug. I also got hugs from them. Then Kate and I got the twenty questions about the wedding and why we hadn’t waited.

Kate finally looked at Mary and said, “When were you going to tell us?”

“Tell you what?”, Mary said.

“Oh come on. No-one could miss that big rock on your finger.”

“Oh that.”

“Yeah that.”

“Bob asked me yesterday.”

Slapping Bob on the back I said, “Congratulations bro. Can I kiss my sister-in-law to be?”

Just like Bob I didn’t wait for an answer. I grabbed Mary and kissed her.

The five of us went into the den and talked. Bob filled us in on what the Air Force Academy was like. Anne told us about her job in Washington. Mary filled us in on her college career. And, Kate and I told everyone about State and our wedding.

Then we finally got Mary to tell us about Bob asking her to marry him. She told us that yesterday afternoon, right after they had gotten home, they had gone to one of the city parks and taken a walk. When she told us that the trail that they had taken ended up at a waterfall, Kate and I looked at each other and smiled. She went on to tell us how they were at the waterfall and Bob had gotten down on one knee to propose. Kate and I couldn’t help but laugh a little.

Bob asked, “What’s so funny you two?”
“I though the waterfall was our special spot?”, Kate said.

“Your special spot?”

“Yeah. That’s where Gary asked me.”

Mary looked at Kate and said, “A family tradition?”

“Could very well be.”, Kate replied.

Then both of them looked at Anne, and said, “Anne?”

“Don’t look at me.”, Anne said, “I’m not going to be ready, for that step, for a long time.”

Diner was a fun time. Having everyone together at one time, remembering things that had happened, telling Kate and Mary some family secrets, filler the time. No, we didn’t discuss Gwen.

My dad gave a toast to both couples, Kate and me, and Mary and Bob. Then with his droll sense of humor, as he finished the toast to Mary and Bob he looked at Kate and me and said, “And, we all hope that we’ll have more than a couple of days notice before the wedding.”

Later that evening as we were all sitting around talking Bob said, “Anyone up for going to Greg’s Drive-In? Milkshakes? My treat.”

My mom said, “Why don’t you kids just go?”

“Mom, you and dad are a part of this family too.”

“We know. But, you kids go and have fun.”

“Can we bring you back something?”

“No. Just have fun.”

Since Kate and I were going home from Greg’s we drove ourselves, and Bob drove Mary and Anne. On the way, Kate asked, “Do you think this might be a good time to tell them?”

“Tell who? What?”

“Bob, Mary, and Anne, about Gwen.”

“I’m not sure about telling anyone.”

“Lover. We’ve talked about this.”

“I know. I’m just worried that it won’t go over very well.”

“We’ll just play it by ear. If the time is right, we’ll bring it up.”

“If the time is right?”

“Just follow my lead.”

“Yeah, right.”

As we were getting out of the car at Greg’s, I saw her take something out of the under-seat, storage bin. I asked her, “What’s that?”

Kate said, “The album.”

“The album?”

A little sheepishly Katie said, “Uh huh.”

“Why?”

“It helped with my mom.”

“Katie, don’t push it.”

“I won’t.”

The five of us walked into Greg’s and sat in a booth, Kate and I on one side, and Anne, Bob, and Mary, on the other.

Anne said, “I feel like the odd man out.”

Kate asked, “Why?”

“I’m the only one without a date.”

“Anne this is a family thing, not a date.”

We placed our order, and while we were waiting for our order to arrive, we just started reminiscing. Bob started talking about high school and things that had happened. When he started talking about the spring dance during his senior year, I caught Mary and Kate exchanging glances.

I put my hand on Kate’s knee, leaned over, and whispered, “What are you planning?”

She whispered back, “Nothing, why?”

“The looks that you and Mary have been exchanging.”

Before Kate could say anything, Bob said, “You know the oriental guy that won the contest at the dance really did look like a girl that night.”

Kate looked at me, then at Bob, and said, “He’s become a girl.”

“Huh?”

“That was Jimmy Yamashita who’s now Jaimie Yamashita. She’s transsexual and went through everything that it takes to become a girl.”

“How do you know?”

I said, “He and I talked shortly after the dance and he told me all about it. Also, we ran into her at State.”

“So he’s one of those?”

“One of what?”

“One of those . . . those . . . “

“Those what?”

“You know. One of those . . . “

“You mean queers?”

“Yea. One of those.”

“Bro. This isn’t like you. I never thought that you were homophobic. You’ve never come across that way before.”

“I’m not. But, someone doing that just isn’t right.”

“Bob, there are a lot of people like her. They grow up feeling like they’re in the wrong body. She was just lucky to find someone to help her.”

“You like her?”

“She’s a very nice person and a good friend.”

“A very good friend.”, Kate added.

“You’re saying that this is normal?”, Bob asked.

“What’s normal? Can you tell me?”

“I guess a guy and a girl.”

“You guess? So, a girl can’t love a girl, or a guy can’t love a guy, or someone can’t feel that they’re born in the wrong body?”

“I . . . I don’t know.”

“Just realize that Jaimie is happy with who she is. As a boy, she was unhappy, confused, and getting into trouble. Now that she’s able to live as a girl and finally become one, she’s happy and knows who she is. She even has a boyfriend, and yes he knows that she’s transgendered and doesn’t care.”

Bob just sat there and finally said, “I guess I understand.”

“Just realize that there are all kinds of people in this world.”, Kate said, “There are gays, lesbians, transsexuals, bisexuals, cross-dressers, and more. Learn to live and let live. Just because a male, or for that matter a female, doesn’t fit what some people call the norm doesn’t mean that they are wrong in what they feel. Their brain is just wired differently and no one knows why.”

Again, Bob sat there in thought and then said, “You know. I like that better than the militaries ’don’t ask, don’t tell’ policy.”

Mary finally said, “Bob, I really didn’t think you felt that way about gays. You are more open minded than that.”

“I know. I guess hearing of someone that I knew was that way just made me not think straight. I didn’t think before I spoke.”

“Bro,” I said, “remember what dad always says, ‘place your brain in gear before engaging your mouth’.”

“I know.”

Anne had been sitting there quietly through this whole exchange. Kate finally looked at her, then whispered to me, “Anne’s crying.”

I looked at Anne and she was crying. Kate asked, “Anne what’s wrong?”

“Nothing.”, Anne said wiping away the tears.

“Sis.”, I said, “What’s wrong.”

Bob turned, looked at Anne, and put his arm around her. She looked at him, then at me, and finally at Kate. I saw her take a deep breath, and say, “Katie, you are a very special sister-in-law. Gary, you are the greatest brother in the world. I’ve been afraid to tell anyone this, but after what you just said I feel that I can at least tell you guys and that maybe you’ll understand. I just hope Bob and Mary will.”

“What Anne?”, Kate asked.

“What we talk about here won’t go any further, will it?”

“Sure.”, Bob said, “It’ll be just between the five of us, right guys?”

Everyone looked at Anne and nodded yes.

Anne looked at Kate for a few seconds, then in almost a whisper said, “I met a girl in Washington about six months ago and we’re living together.”

“Is she your lover?”, Kate asked.

“Yeah. But, we both still have boyfriends. I . . . I think I might be bisexual.”

Bob looked at her, actually pulled her closer, and said, “Sis, it’s all right.”

“Really? You don’t hate me?”

“Anne. You’re my sister, my only sister, and no matter what, I love you.”

I looked at Anne and said, “Anne, I love you too. It took a lot of courage to tell us what you just told us and I think a lot of you for doing it.”

“I agree with Gary.”, Kate said, “You told us your biggest secret and it took real courage to do it. We all love you.”

“Kate and Gary,” Mary said, “I can’t wait to have you for my sister and brother-in-law. You two have more feeling for people and who they are, in your little finger, than most people have in their whole body. And, Anne, you are who you are and you’ll also make a great sister-in-law.”

“Guys,” Anne said, “thanks. I was so afraid that you would all hate me when you found out. I should have known better. Just don’t tell mom and dad. I’ll do that in my own time and way.”

“Sis,” I said, “who you tell and how you tell them is up to you.”

We sat there in silence for a minute, then Bob said, “Anne. You are still the same person who you’ve always been. I think I speak for all of us when I say, we love you and support you.”

Anne gave Bob a big hug, which isn’t easy in a restaurant booth, then said, “I hope we don’t have any more family secrets.”

Kate and I looked at each other. Anne must have seen the looks we gave each other because she said, “You two have something to tell us?”

“No nothing.”, I said.

“That’s what I said when there was really something. Now little brother and sister, what?”

Again I looked at Kate, then back at Anne, and said, “I guess I’ve got a secret too.”

“I figured that.”

I sat there not saying anything until Bob said, “Gary, I guess all the skeletons in the closet are being let out tonight. So what’s yours?”

I looked at the three sitting across the table from me and I felt Kate take my hand in hers. I took a deep breath and said, “This goes back to that spring dance in high school. Remember how much of a fuss I put up when you wanted me to go to the dance as a girl?”

“I sure do and it cost me a hundred dollars.”, Bob said.

“That was the beginning of something.”

Mary asked, “You’re still dressing, aren’t you?”

“I think you know I am. I think you and Kate have been talking.”

“We are good friends. But, I didn’t know until Kate and I were doing the dinner dishes tonight.”

“Are you going to tell the rest of us?”, Bob asked.

“I’m a cross-dresser. I enjoy dressing in girls’ clothes and looking like a girl.”

“I started that?”

“In a way. Getting me to dress up as a girl for that dance, brought out something that was hidden in me. I have a very strong feminine side.”

“Kate goes along with this?”, Anne asked.

“Yes.”, Kate answered, “I love his feminine side almost as much as his masculine side. We have fun with it. It’s actually become a part of our lives.”

We went on to tell them about the two Halloween parties, the first trip to the mall, other outings, and the support group at the university. We did leave out all the juicy parts between Gwen and Kelly.

As we finished Bob said, “You can’t look that good as a girl?”

Kate said, “How good did he look at the dance?”

Bob just nodded yes and said, “Yeah, he did look good.”

I looked at Kate and said, “Go on. You’ve been itching to show them.”

Kate set the wedding album on the table and said, “A couple of weeks after our wedding, some of our friends at State got together and put together what’s called a commitment ceremony. It’s a ceremony that’s usually used for same sex couples.”

Anne looked at the picture on the cover and said, “Two brides. That’s cute.”

“That’s what our friends also thought. It’s the topper that was on the cake we had.”

Kate opened the album to a picture of us and said, “Do you know these two?”

Bob said, “No. I don’t think so.”

“Since this is your album, it’s got to be the two of you.”, Mary said.

“You’re right.”, Kate said, “Now turn back a page and read the ceremony.”

Bob turned back a page and they read the commitment ceremony. When Anne finished, she looked at us and said, “That is so sweet.”

“That’s what my mother said.”

“She knows?”

“Yes. In fact she’s known about Gwen for a long time and is very supportive.”

“Wow. That’s so cool. Does my mom know?”, Anne asked.

“Yes.”, Kate said, “But, not to the extent that mine does. Both sets of our parents have seen Gary dressed at one time or another. Even my cousin Wendy has seen, and been out with, Gwen.”

“Gwen?”

“That’s the name Gary uses when he’s dressed.”

They started looking through the rest of the book. When they turned to the page with Jaimie and Billie on it, I said, “That’s Jaimie Yamashita. The other girl is Billie, Jaimie’s boyfriend.”

“Billie’s a cross-dresser?”, Mary asked.

“Yes.”, I said, “They met at the support group and just hit it off.”

“He knows all about her?”

“Everything.”

“She’s completely a she?”

“As much as she can be. She lived her whole high school senior year as a girl, then last summer had her surgery. All of her paper work, including her birth certificate, now says female. The only thing she can’t do, is have children.”

When they were finished looking at the album, Bob looked at me and said, “I just can’t believe that the girl I’m seeing in these pictures is you. I remember when you dressed up for the dance. You looked so much like Anne. You no longer look anything like her.”

With a smile Anne said, “I’m glad. I was thinking about charging him a fee.”

“You really go out looking like this, don’t you?”, Bob asked.

“I love to.”, I said, “Kate and I really enjoy doing things as girlfriends.”

“No-one has ever figured it out?”

“No-one. Mom’s even run into us out shopping and didn’t know it was me.”

“Gary,” Anne said, “you do make one pretty and convincing girl. I now know why you understand the homosexual community so well. You may not be a part of it, but you’ve seen it and been close to it.”

Mary looked at Bob and said, “Care to tell me what skeletons you have in your closet?”

Bob looked at her and said, “Honey, I’m skeleton-less. Two is more than enough for this family.”

We all laughed.

As Kate and I were heading home, Kate said, “That wasn’t too bad, was it?”

“I guess not.”, I said.

“I was a little surprised about Anne.”

“Me too. But, you know, she’s never had a real steady boyfriend.”

Later as we were cuddling together in bed Kate said, “Anne wants to meet Gwen.”

“What?”

“You heard me?”

“I know. She wants to meet Gwen.”

“She told me when the three of us went to the restroom before we left Greg’s. I think Mary might want to see her again too.”

“You think it’s a good idea?”

“Why not?”

“We’ll have to do it soon. Anne goes back to Washington next Thursday.”

“How about a girl’s night out?”

Sunday, May 25

“I told mom.”, Kate said.

“Told mom what?”, I asked.

“That the four of us were going out to dinner and a concert.”

“What did she say?”

“Have fun.”

“Does she know I’m going as Gwen?”

“Of course.”

Late in the afternoon I was going through my transformation. My hair was down, brushed, teased, and curled into a feminine style. We’d attached my forms, and I was how sitting at Kate’s vanity in my bra and thong doing my makeup. I was looking for a subdued evening look.
One thing that has never ceased to amaze me, is that no-one, not even my dad, has ever commented about my feminine eyebrows. Katie’s done a very good job of teaching me how to properly take care of them, and I keep them trimmed and neat. Not very thin, but feminine, none the less.

As I applied my makeup, I saw more and more of Gwen. I replaced the studs in my ears with a nice set of hoops, then I added the wire rimmed glasses, and I was looking at Gwen. Not too long ago it was strange seeing this pretty girl looking back at me, but it now seemed like a normal thing. I liked Gwen. I liked being Gwen.

Katie walked over to where I was sitting, gave me a kiss on the cheek, and said, “You look so nice.”

“Thanks lover.”, I said, “It’s all because of you.”

“You’re sweet. You’ve come a long way and that’s because you’ve wanted to. I just provided some guidance.”

“Katie, without you, Gwen wouldn’t exist.”

I turned and carefully kissed her.

Katie said, “Lover, we’d better stop this or we won’t be going out tonight.”

“That would be fine by me.”

“You don’t want to disappoint Mary and Anne do you?”

“No.”

I got up so that Kate could work on her makeup. As I got up, I picked up a bottle of nail polish that matched what was on my hands and walked over to our bed. I sat down and carefully polished my toe nails. I was going to wear a pair of open toed wedge heels and wanted my feet to look nice.

Once the polish was dry, I walked over to our closet and tried to find something to wear. I was beginning to understand what real girls go though trying to decide what to wear. I was having a real problem and my wardrobe wasn’t that big.

I had tucked again so I could wear the tight hip hugger jeans that we bought last week. I guess Kate saw me standing there just looking into the closet because she said, “Honey, the red short sleeved blouse with the v-neck would look really nice with the new jeans.”

“You think?”, I asked, as I looked at the blouse.

“Yes.”

I took the blouse out of the closet and laid it next to the jeans on the bed, and Kate was right, they did look good together. I mumbled, “I’ll never get the hang of fashion.”

“Love, I’ve been doing it for nineteen years. You’ll learn in time.”

Kate helped me into the waist cincher, then I lay on the bed and struggled into the jeans. These had buttons up the left side of the front and they were tight, but I was finally able to button them. I stood and put on the blouse. Katie looked at me, smiled, and said, “That does look sharp. Don’t forget some jewelry.”

“These jeans are tight.”, I said.

“They’ll loosen up.”

“I hope; I don’t want to pop one of the buttons.”

With a grin she said, “You won’t.”

I walked back over to the vanity and opened our jewelry box. The first thing I slipped on, was my engagement ring. I then found the necklace with the two diamond hearts and fastened it around my neck. Then after adding a couple more rings and a bracelet, I turned back to Kate, and said, “Well, will I do?”

She looked at me, smiled, and said “Lover, you look great.”

While Kate finished dressing, I started trying to find Gwen’s voice and it didn’t take me very long. Kate again looked at me, smiled, and said, “I think Mary and Anne are going to be very surprised.”

With a worried look, I said, “I bet your mom and dad will be too?”

“Are you worried?”

“A little. More so with your dad.”

“He’ll be cool with it.”

“Neither of them have heard Gwen talk yet.”

“Don’t worry. I told mom that you now had a girl’s voice.”

“How did she react?”

“She just said, ‘Really.’”

“We’ll see.”

Kate finished dressing, I slipped on my open toed wedge heels, grabbed my purse, and we headed downstairs. When Kate’s mother saw us, she said, “Don’t you girls look nice.”

“Thanks mom.”, Kate said.

“We’d better get going.”, I said, “Remember we’re meeting Anne and Mary in twenty minutes.”

Kate’s mother just looked at me for a few seconds, then smiled, and said, “Kate did say you had a voice and it sounds very nice.”

“Thanks mom.”

Just then Kate’s father walked into where we were and he just stared at me.

Kate’s mother said, “Jim, say something.”

“Gary?”, Kate’s dad said.

“Yes sir?”, I said.

“I . . . I just didn’t think I’d see you dressed as a girl again.”

“Daddy,” Kate said, “you know Gary dresses this way sometimes.”

“Yes, but I thought he’d stopped.”

“Mom, we’re going to be late, can you explain it to dad? The album’s on the shelf in our closet if you want it.”

“Sure honey.” Kate’s mother said, “Run along and have fun.”

As we were closing the door, we heard Kate’s dad say, “Viv, I thought Gary wasn’t dressing up as a girl any more. Is he gay or something?”

Then we heard Kate’s mother say, “Jim, he’s not gay. Sit down and I’ll get you a drink, then I’ll tell you everything that I know.”

As Kate and I got in the car I said, “I think your dad is upset.”

“Honey,” Kate said, “don’t worry. I think he thought that your dressing was just a phase and it would stop after we were married.”

“Is he in for a rude awakening.”

“He’ll be fine. Mom will be able to explain it to him.”

“I sure hope so.”

Anne and Mary had gone shopping together earlier in the day and we were meeting them at a local Italian restaurant. When we pulled up there was a short line out the door, and Anne and Mary were waiting for us.

As we were walking from the parking area toward the restaurant, Mary was the first to spot us. She had been talking to Anne and it looked as if she stopped in mid-sentence. As she watched us, she touched Anne on the arm and Anne turned to see what had gotten Mary’s attention. They both just watched us as we walked toward them.

As we walked up, I said, “Sorry we’re late.”

Anne said, “Ah . . . you’re not late and . . . damn Gary you look good.”

“Thanks sis, and it’s Gwen.”

“Yeah Gwen, and the voice.”

Mary said, “I don’t believe this. When we did this for the dance I was surprised that it turned out as well as it did. But, this is just too much. I bet it takes hours to make you look this good.”

“No.”, Kate said, “It only takes her a little while longer to do her makeup than it takes me to do mine.”

“He does his own makeup?”

“Sure I do.”, I said, “Kate’s a good teacher.”

Anne said, “You even makes the clothes look good.”

I couldn’t help but smile.

As we stood in line waiting for a table or booth, we chatted like four girlfriends. Once we were seated in a booth and had ordered, Anne said, “My brother would have ordered a whole pizza for himself.”

“I know he would have,” I said, “but tonight I’m your sister.”

“You are. Aren’t you?”

“Right now, yes. Do you mind?”

“I was having second thought before I saw you tonight. The pictures in the album were very nice, but seeing the real thing, takes the cake. It’s hard to believe that there’s a guy under there. Do I mind? . . . No. I just don’t understand why you do it.”

“I don’t either. The psychologist said that I have a strong feminine side and he was surprised that I didn’t start dressing when I was younger. I guess I do it because I like the clothes, the way they feel, the way I look when I’m all dolled up, and that I can do it.”

“We also have fun with it.”, Kate added, “Like tonight.”

“You really like doing this don’t you?”, Anne asked Kate.

“Yes,” Kate replied, “it’s fun having a girlfriend like this and we enjoy doing it together.”

“You know,” Mary said, “looking back at that dance in high school. Gary did put up a real fight in the beginning. Then from what I saw, and what Kate told me, he started to relax into the roll. Some of his actions, as well as his voice, said boy, but there was something that also said that he was beginning to have fun with it.”

“Halloween was fun.”, Kate said, “Seeing him look so much like a sexy high school girl at Ken’s party was really great. When we went to Greg’s afterwards, he actually relaxed.”

Anne said, “I may never completely understand this, just like I don’t understand why I’m bisexual, but I can accept it. Even looking so good as a girl, you’re still my brother, always will be, and I love you.”

“Sis,” I said, “that’s all we ask. To be accepted as who we are.”

From that point on it was four girlfriends out for an evening. Nothing more was said about me being a guy looking like a girl and I was treated like one of the girls. Though I thought Anne was going to lose it when I walked right into the lady’s room with them as we were leaving the restaurant.

As we were walking back to the cars, Anne said, “I don’t believe you walked into the restroom like that.”

“Do you want me to walk into the men’s restroom looking like this?”, I asked.

“I guess not. But, it was sure strange walking in there with my brother.”

“Your brother? I thought I was your sister tonight?”

“You are.”, Mary said, “After seeing you at dinner, I have to agree with Kate, when you’re Gwen you’re all girl.”

The concert we were going to was at a large open air amphitheater with both regular seating and lawn seating. We took along a blanket and were sitting on the lawn. The groups playing were some of the better local ones that play for the 20 something crowd. We spent more time up and dancing than sitting, as did everyone else.

During intermission, Kate and Mary went to get us all something to drink. Anne and I sat and talked. Anne said, “You do make a fun sister.”

“Thanks.” I said, “It’s fun being your sister.”

“What do mom and dad really think about this?”

“I think mom is fine with it. She may not understand it, but she has seen me a couple of times and hasn’t gotten upset. Dad on the other hand I’m not sure about. The Halloween when Kate and I handed out candy as the twin witches, he was upset at first but later had fun with it.”

“Are you going to tell them?”

“Katie and I have talked about telling our families. That’s why we told the three of you the other night. We had a talk with her mother right after we came home from school. She has seen Gwen more than anyone else and is fine with it. Her dad saw me tonight and I don’t think he was happy, but I think Kate’s mom had a talk with him after we left. We’ll see when we get home.”

As we were saying goodnight to Mary and Anne. Mary and I hugged, and she said, “I loved tonight. It was so much fun being out with three great girlfriends.”

“Thanks.”, I said, “It was fun being with you guys too.”

Anne gave me a hug and said, “You make a wonderful sister; never change.”

“Thanks sis.”, I said, “I’m glad you accepted me this way.”

“Honey, you accepted me the way I am and it’s very easy to accept you this way. You make a very pretty girl.”

I gave her an extra hug and kiss on the cheek.

It was after eleven when we pulled into the driveway at Kate’s house and the lights were still on in the kitchen. Kate’s mother was waiting for us when we walked into the kitchen and she said, “Hi kids. Did you have a good time?”

“Sure did.”, Kate replied, “The concert was really good.”

“I’m glad. What did Anne and Mary think of Gwen?”

“They loved her. The whole evening was like four girlfriends out for a good time. I’m surprised we didn’t get hit on.”

“I’m so glad. But, sit down, we need to talk.”

Kate and I looked at each other, and Kate asked, “What’s wrong?”

“Sit and I’ll tell you.”

Katie and I sat at the table, and so did her mother. She looked at us and said, “Katie, your father doesn’t understand Gary and his dressing like a girl. He’s not upset about it, he just doesn’t understand it, doesn’t want to see it, nor know about it.”

“What doesn’t he understand?”, Kate asked.

“Why Gary does it and likes to do it, and why you like it.”

“Did you tell him about the psychologist?”

“Yes and it didn’t make any difference.”

“Did you show him the album?”

“No. I didn’t think it would be a good idea right now.”

“What should we do?”

“I just wouldn’t let him see Gwen. You know I don’t have a problem with it. In fact I think it’s cute that he can do it and that you can have fun with it. Just, don’t do it when he’s around.”

I just sat there and looked at Kate’s mother while she told us this. I was feeling sad and I guess it showed. Kate’s mother looked at me and said, “Honey, don’t be sad. Just remember, not everyone is going to accept this part of you. Kate does, I do, your friends at school do, Wendy, Mary, and Anne do too. There will be people that will ridicule you because they don’t understand. Just realize that we love you.”

This brought a little smile to my face and I said, “Thanks mom. I guess I can’t expect everyone to understand, but at least some people do. I’m just glad you do.”

“You know I do. I actually like having Gwen around.”

“Really?”

“Yes. She’s fun and seems at ease with who she is. She’s welcome anytime she wants to visit.”

Kate looked at me and said, “She is at ease with who she is and I love her for that. I wouldn’t want her, or Gary, any other way. If dad doesn’t understand, it’s his loss.”

“Gary, as far as I’m concerned, Gwen can visit anytime she wants to, but just not when Kate’s father is home.”

“I can live with that.”, I said, “I guess I just have to realize that not everyone will understand and when I find someone that does, it’s special.”

“Look at the time!”, Kate said, “I’ve got an early up tomorrow.”

A little while later, as we were cuddling into bed, Kate said, “Lover, I think my dad still loves you as a son. He just doesn’t understand the other part of you.”

“I know.”, I said, “I’ll just keep Gwen away from him.”

Monday, May 26

Today was Memorial Day. I didn’t have to work. But, today was the first day that the lake was open and it was a busy day, so Kate had to work. I took her to the lake and as we were saying goodbye, she said, “Bring your swim suit with you when you pick me up and we can go for a swim.”

I smiled as I said, “Can’t we go skinny dipping?”

“You’re bad. In the pool at home, yes. Here we’d get arrested. Just be here at four.”

I really didn’t want to go back to Kate’s house. I knew that her parents were probably just sitting down to breakfast and I didn’t want to see her father right now. I dove over to my parent’s house and let myself in. Everyone was still asleep.

I made some coffee and I guess the smell of it woke Anne up. She came into the kitchen in her robe, still half asleep, and said, “Good morning little sister.”

I smiled as I said, “Little sister?”

“After last night, I just can’t think of you any other way.”

“Kate’s father can.”

“What do you mean?”

As I poured her a cup of coffee, I told her about Kate’s father. When I was done Anne said, “Just realize that not everyone understands things that aren’t what they perceive as normal. Think how people feel when they find out that I’m bi.”

“I think I have an idea. I’m just happy that we understand each other.”

“Me too. I’m going to tell mom today.”

“Tell her . . . ?“

“That I’m bi.”

“How do you think she’ll take it?”

“I don’t know. But, I want her to know before I go back to Washington.”

“Want me around for support?”

“I think that I can do it. But, I may need to talk to you and Kate later.”

“We’re here when you need us. Want to go shopping?”

“Sure. But, why do you want me to go along?”

“Katie hinted that I needed something and I’m a little nervous to do it by myself.”

“Why, what do you need?”

“A swim suit.”

“A swim suit? So, what’s the big deal?”

“A girl’s swim suit.”

“Oh.”

Just then my mother walked into the kitchen and said, “I thought I heard voices. Where’s Kate?”

“She had to work. I dropped her off and came over here.”

“That’s right. I forgot the lake opened today. Would you like some breakfast?”

Two hours later Anne and I were walking into the mall. Anne asked, “What kind of swim suit are we looking for?”

“I don’t know.”, I said, “Maybe a one piece or a two piece.”

“What, no bikini?”

I just looked at her and she said, “You’d look cute in one.”

I just shook my head.

We walked into one of the larger department stores and found the part of the store that had swim wear. Anne started picking out various selections and holding them up. There were some really cute ones, but most showed too much skin on top and wouldn’t cover the breast forms.

We had found two suits that looked good. One was a two piece and the other a one piece. Then Anne picked out one more. It was a black one piece, with a halter top that had a gold and bronze stripe under the breasts. She held it up, looked at me, looked at the suit, and said, “I love this.”

“You think?”

“I do. What size do you wear?”

“I think a twelve.”

Anne started looking through the rack, pulled out another suit, and said, “You going to try it on?”

“Ah.”, I said, “I don’t think so.”

“Why not? You should be sure it fits.”

We weren’t standing too far from a changing room. I looked at Anne, looked around, took the suit from her, and walked into the changing room. A few minutes later I walked back out of the changing room and Anne was standing there waiting for me. I handed Anne the suit and said, “Fits like a glove. There’s a lot of stretch to it.”

“So, is this the one?”

“It looks great on. So, I’d say yes.”

As we were walking to the car Anne said, “You surprised me, going into the changing room.”

“I’ve done it with Kate.”, I said.

“So, it’s no big deal?”

“As long as there aren’t too many people around.”

As we were heading home Anne looked at me and asked, “Are you going to the lake in that?”

“I thought I’d surprise Kate.”

“Do you think you can pass in a swim suit?”

“As long as the top covers my breast forms, yes.”

“Won’t they fall out of the suit without a bra?”

“Not with them glued on.”

“Glued on?”

“Medical adhesive. They almost become part of me. I had them glued on the other night.”

“If you say so. Ah . . . what about hiding what’s down below?”

“I know of a way to hide that.”

“I don’t think I want to know.”

I dropped Anne off at my parent’s house and headed to Kate’s house. I knew Kate’s parents were at the country club for a golf tournament, so I had the house to myself.

Once home, I took out everything that I’d need to become Gwen and went to work transforming myself. Forty-five minutes later I was looking at Gwen in the mirror. The suit looked very nice, it covered the breast forms perfectly and held my male bits in their hiding place. I’d gone light on the make up, just a little eye makeup and lipstick. My hair was tied back into a girl’s pony tail, and I had replaced my studs with a pair of cute earrings from Kate’s collection. Of course there was the ever present, at least when I was Gwen, engagement ring.

The only thing that worried me a little was my waist, it was a little thicker than what I thought it should be. I had a figure, but my waist could be thinner.

I didn’t want to drive to the lake in just a swim suit, so I slipped on one of my short jean’s- skirts. Then it was into my sandals. As I was slipping on the sandals, I saw Kate’s pink baseball cap. I picked it up and put it on, but my pony tail got in the way. Then I remembered seeing girls wearing ball caps with their pony tails sticking through the opening in the back of the cap. I pulled my pony tail through the opening and the cap fit perfectly.

I looked at myself again and really liked what I was seeing. I put the usual things in my purse, then gathered the things necessary to bring Gary back before we came home and put them into a beach bag. I grabbed two beach towels and a blanket, and headed to the car. On the way to the lake I worked on finding Gwen’s voice.

Then it hit me. I’d been out once before by myself as Gwen, and that was just walking around campus. Here I am out again and driving by myself. What if something happened, an accident, or a flat tire? I almost turned around and went home. Of course nothing happened. Still, it was a little scary.

As I pulled into where the lake was, I showed my pass to the girl working the gate and she waved me on in. The lake was busy and it took me a little while to find a place to park. I locked my purse and the beach bag in the trunk of the car.

I knew where Kate was working, so I grabbed the blanket and two towels, and started walking toward where she was. I found a spot not too far from the lifeguard’s chair she was sitting on, spread out the blanket, took off my skirt and sandals, lay down to watch her.

I watched Kate as she kept an eye on everyone in her area. She blew her whistle a couple of times. She yelled at people who were doing things that they shouldn’t be doing. She was all business.

Of course there were the boys in twos, threes, and fours walking around the lake looking at the girls. I got my share of looks, but I didn’t pay any attention to them.

Right at four, I watched as her replacement walked up to the lifeguard chair and took Kate’s place. After Kate had climbed down off the chair, I saw her look around. I figured that she was looking for me, so I sat up.

It only took Kate a few seconds to spot me. When she did her expression changed from one of concentration, to one of puzzlement, to a big smile. She walked over to where I was sitting, looked down at me, and said, “Gwen, I’m surprised to see you and you have a new suit?”

“I just thought that I’d surprise you.”, I said, “My other suits just didn’t look right on a female body, so I got a new one.”

“Those other suits of yours sure wouldn’t cover much. We don’t allow topless females here. This suit is just so cute.”

Kate sat down next to me and asked, “When did you get the suit, you little sneak?”

“Anne and I went shopping this morning.”, I replied.

“I bet she thought that was interesting?”

“She did, especially when I tried it on.”

Kate leaned over and whispered, “I want to kiss you so bad right now.”

“So, do it.”

“Not here. I know too many of these people.”

“Chicken.”

“You just wait until I get you home. But, first I need a swim.”

Kate got up, walked into the lake, and started to swim toward the deeper part. I was right behind her. It was an interesting experience swimming in a girl’s suit with attached breast forms. Kate waited for me to catch up, then we swam together for a few minutes. We stopped at a dock that was out in the lake and she asked, “What made you do this?”

“You’d hinted about a swim suit for Gwen, and I just thought it would be fun to surprise you as Gwen.”, I replied.

“A very nice surprise. Why not a two piece?”

“I needed something that covered the forms and this suit worked the best.”

“It is really cute.”

“Thanks. I was worried that I didn’t have the figure to wear it.”

“No problem lover. It looks very nice on you. You’ve even got your male parts hidden.”

“In this suit, I’d better have.”

We continued to swim for a little longer. Finally we got out of the lake and lay on the blanket for about half an hour. As we were lying there I said, “Anne’s telling mom today.”

“Telling her what?”

“That she’s bi.”

“Oh.”

“I offered to be with her, but she said she’d rather do it alone.”

“I think I can understand that.”

“We may hear from her later.”

“I wouldn’t be surprised.”

We lay there a little longer, then Kate sat up, looked at me, and asked, “Ah lover?”

“Yes.”, I responded.

“How are you going to change back to Gary before we get home?”

“I know your parents probably won’t be back until late, but just incase I brought everything with me. I just have to find a place to change.”

“Quick thinking.”

“Any idea where I can change?”

“Sure. The lifeguard building. It’s got a single shower and changing area.”

“That’s a little inconvenient for the staff, isn’t it?”

“Not really. It only gets used if one of the guards is going some place after work and needs to change. That doesn’t happen often.”

We picked up our things and after stopping at the car, we headed for the lifeguard’s building. The building is nothing more than a small block building with a small office, some lockers, and a shower room. There was no one around.

I walked into the shower room to change back to Gary, and Kate followed me in. Before I could start changing, she grabbed me and gave me a very deep kiss. Then in a very sexy voice said, “You in that swim suit turn me on so much. If I wasn’t afraid of someone walking in on us, I’d . . . ” And, she kissed me again.

We broke the kiss and Kate said, “Get changed. I want to get home before my parents do.”

She didn’t have to say it twice. I changed back into Gary as quickly as I could. We were back at the house in no time, in our room, and . . .

After dinner we heard from Anne. She said that telling mom went fairly well. There had been some tears and a lot of hugging.

Sunday, June 15

Kate and I had settled into a routine for the summer. Every weekday we got up together, had breakfast together, then she’d drop me off at the park department office on her way to the lake. In the afternoon, she would pick me up at the maintenance office on her way home from the lake. We’d have dinner together, usually with her parents. We’d spend the evening doing various things, going for walks, to Greg’s Drive-In to hang with friends, to the mall. Then at night we’d cuddle together in bed. Sounds boring, doesn’t it? In a way it was, but the time with Katie made it all worthwhile.

Again, as one of my duties at the park, I was given the key to the rock bluff. Sometimes Kate and I would stop on the way home to check on it, and other times, it was a picnic on Saturday or Sunday, usually with a little extracurricular activity. We actually watched a very spectacular sunset one evening.

Gwen was around, but not as much as either of us would have liked. With Kate’s mother’s help I was able to become Gwen once in awhile and escape her dad seeing me. Kate and Gwen would go out, if only for a few hours, as girlfriends.

Today was one of those days. Gwen could be around, even at home. Kate’s dad had to be at one of his clients early on Monday morning, so he took an early Sunday afternoon flight. Kate and I even took him to the airport.

When we were back home, it was upstairs and into the hair removal routine. I still didn’t have much body hair or have to shave every day. But, we both loved the feeling of my soft, hair free, body. When I came out of the bathroom, Kate had everything laid out on the bed.

We were going to the park for a walk, then to the mall for dinner and a movie. So, it was going to be a comfortable look. Kate had laid out a pair of shorts and a nice print blouse. These shorts were tight, so I’d have to tuck and Kate had one of my thongs on the bed. I went through my transformation to Gwen, the breast forms, thong, and bra. I spent a little while getting my hair into a nice feminine style. I was still regularly going to see Kate’s beautician, so my hair was in good condition. My makeup was a very light daytime look. I did my nails and toe nails in a very nice pink.

Kate looked great as usual and she gave her seal of approval to my look. I put everything that I’d need in my purse. Then it was off for an afternoon and evening as two girlfriends.

I bet you can guess where the walk in the park took us. No, not to the rock bluff, but to the water fall. This was our special place either as Gary and Kate or as Gwen and Kate. It wouldn’t surprise me if everyone seeing us, as either couple, could figure out that we were lovers.

As we walked back to the car, we took a side path to a secluded river overlook. While we were standing there, Kate turned me to look at her, and said, “Lover, being married to you is just so perfect. I couldn’t ask for anything more.”

I just looked at her, took her in my arms, and gave her a long, soft, kiss. Then we just held each other for a long time.

When we finally got to the mall, we did just what two girlfriends would do. We went shopping. We were in and out of many clothing stores. I knew Kate saw many things that she loved. We were also in and out of a number of shoe stores. Keeping Kate out of a shoe store was almost impossible. I knew she saw a number of pairs that she would love to have.

One store that we didn’t go into, but just stood and looked in the window, was the bridal shop. I took her hand in mine and whispered, “You’ll look so beautiful in one of those.”

Katie looked at me, grinned, and whispered, “So will you.”

“Me?”

“I think one day we should go together and try on bridal gowns.”

“You’re crazy.”

“No. I think it would be fun. It would also be a new experience for Gwen.”

“And Katie?”

“Yeah.”

We stopped at one of the restaurants in the mall and had a nice dinner. After we were finished, we stopped in the restroom and changed our makeup to more of an evening look. Not a party look, but something more for an evening look.

As we walked from the restaurant to the theater, we got the usual looks from the guys who were hanging out in the mall. There were two guys who bothered us a little, as they started following us.

We bought our tickets for the show and went into the theater. We noticed the two guys also buy tickets for the same show we were going to.

We sat in the middle of the theater and the two guys sat two rows behind us. Kate whispered, “I’ll bet that it won’t be long before they’re sitting right behind us.”

“What are we going to do about them?”, I asked.

“We may have to give them the lesbian look.”

“Lesbian look?”

Kate turned toward me, took my face in her hands, and gave me a quick kiss.

“Oh,” I whispered, “that lesbian look!”

I carefully put my arm around Kate and pulled her close. She rested her head on my shoulder. After the lights had dimmed and the movie started we shared another kiss. Then Kate whispered, “They’re gone.”

We settled back and enjoyed the movie. As we walked out of the theater, we saw the two guys talking to two girls and we smiled at them. One of the guys smiled at us, the other just shook his head.

As we walked through the mall I asked Kate, “So, where did you learn to use the ‘lesbian look’ to get rid of unwanted guys?”

Kate said, “Wendy and I used it once.”

“You’ve kissed Wendy?”

“Yeah. We had to make it a long kiss.”

“Oh?”

“Well we are kissing cousins.”

“I don’t know about you.”

“I don’t know about me either.”

Since we both had to go to work tomorrow, we were home early. We found Kate’s mother in the den reading and she asked, “Did you girls have a good time?”

“We always do mom.”, Kate replied.

“It’s good to see you enjoying yourselves.”

“We’re going to bed. We both have to be up early tomorrow.”

“Good night kids.”, Kate’s mother said.

“Good night mom.”, Kate and I said together.

We were barely in our room before Katie attacked me. Her kisses and touches were very soft and sensual. It wasn’t long until we were . . .

Later, Gwen had left and Gary was back, and we were just laying in bed cuddled together. I was about to doze off when Kate asked, “Honey, am I bi?”

“Are you bi what?”, I asked.

“Bisexual?”

I was completely awake when I said, “I don’t think so. Why?”

“Some things that I’ve wondered about for a long time.”

“Like what?”

“Anne telling us got me to thinking,”

“About what?”

“Things that have happened.”

“Like?”

“Like what Gwen does to me.”

“What does she do?”

“You haven’t noticed?”

“I’ve noticed, but I want you to tell me.”

“I love her. I love being with her. I love doing things with her. I love going to bed with her. She’s a major turn on for me. . . . That kiss in the theater tonight had me thinking of how we could make love right then and there. Having sex with her, you, is amazing.”

“Is it because it’s really me?”

“I know it’s you, but I feel Gwen’s femininity. She’s just so . . . so sexy. I just feel special things for her.”

“I really think it has a lot to do with what you feel toward me. Maybe you do have underlying lesbian feelings for a certain type of girl and Gwen is that type of girl. Then, when you see me as Gwen it adds to your feelings for me.”

“Maybe. You know that kiss I shared with Wendy?”

“Yeah.”

“I wonder about that too.”

“Why?”

“When we kissed, I made it last longer than it needed to.”

“Why?”

“Because it felt good.”

“What did Wendy think?”

“She didn’t push me away and has never said anything about it. But, she did return the kiss with as much feeling as it was given.”

“What about Tiff?”

“That was pure stupidity on my part.”

“Was she the only girl that you’ve had sex with?”

“The only one and sex is all that it was. There was no love there what so ever.”

“Was it what you wanted?”

“No. There was a lot missing. What I have with you is so much more.”

“What about Gwen?”

“That’s different. I love you and her, and making love with you when you look like Gwen is fantastic. It’s more than sex. It’s a fantastic love making experience.”

“Was it like the way you and Tiff did it?”

“God no. She was only in it for herself. She never cared about her partner. It was more like she was a macho guy. You spend more time pleasing me than I ever thought possible. It’s like all you care about is how your partner enjoys the love making.”

“Is there a difference between me and Gwen?”

“A little. When you’re Gwen, you are very soft and gentle. You spent a lot of time kissing and caressing. You seem to know what I really love, where to touch me, where to kiss me. Gary’s gentle too, but it’s different. He’s more physical. He does know what I like, but doesn’t spend as much time doing things as Gwen does. Do I love the way they both make love to me? God yes. I couldn’t ask for more. But, it’s like you’re two different people. A guy and a girl. But, when we consummate our love making it’s all you and you make it so wonderful. You’re the only guy that I’ve ever had, and I couldn’t imagine anyone being any better than we are together.”

“Gwen isn’t a girl.”

“I know. But, I think when you dress as Gwen you change. I think something, inside you, tells you that you’re a girl, and you become as much of a girl as you can. Anne and Mary saw it the other day. They saw Gwen as a girl, not a guy dressed as a girl. Mary told me that she couldn’t get over how feminine you were. It’s like you’re a different person.”

“What if Gwen didn’t exist?”

“I’d still love you with all my heart.”

“Would there be a girl in the picture?”

“I . . . I don’t know and I don’t want to know.”

“So, I’m your male lover and Gwen is your lesbian lover?”

“You definitely are the only guy for me. Gwen is all the girl that I need or want.”

“Maybe you are bi.”

“I really don’t know. All I know for sure is that I love you more than life itself.”

“I love you too Katie. More than you’ll ever know. But, now you’ve got me thinking. Just how does Kelly fit into all of this?”

“She’s just the disguise that I use sometimes when we go out.”

“I think there’s more to it then that.”

“Like what?”

“Is she your alter ego?”

“In what way?”

“Maybe your real lesbian alter ego?”

“Oh! Why?”

“You seem different when you’re Kelly, more in charge and sexually aggressive. The sex is more intense, it seems to last longer and we do more things, all at your urging. You’re also very protective of Gwen when you’re Kelly, like a boyfriend is of his girlfriend, or maybe a girlfriend is of her girlfriend. Remember the times that Tiff hit on me? Remember that night at the cabin?”

“Yeah. Am I’m really that way?”

“Yes. When you’re Kelly.”

“I didn’t realize.”

“You are.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be. I love it when you’re that way, when you’re possessive and get jealous.”

“You really like me that way?”

“Sometimes. It adds to our relationship.”

“Gwen likes being dominated by Kelly?”

“Not so much dominated, but she likes it when Kelly protects her, controls the situation, holds her, takes the lead in the bedroom, and treats her like the girl she is. But, she also loves what she has with Katie; cuddling together, going shopping, going out to dinner, for walks, long talks, or long quiet times.”

Kate sat up a little and looked at me, then bent down and gave me a long, soft, kiss. Then sat back up and said, “So, I am bi and Gwen is my girl?”

“Gwen is your girl and only your girl. If you are bi, then I’m very happy it’s with me. But, I don’t think you are. You’ve done it with a girl and didn’t like it. I’m not a girl, but I’m transgendered. I think you have something for a guy that can be a guy or pass as a girl, who can be a girlfriend or a boyfriend to you, and make love to you the way you like as either a guy or a girl.”

As Katie laid her head on my chest, she said, “I love you so much.”

Stroking her hair, I said, “I love you too Katie.”

End Part II
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This ends another year in my life. It was a very interesting year. I almost lost Kate, but we found each other again and fell more deeply in love. We got married, twice. I came out to a few of the people in my life and most took it well. We found that Anne, my sister, is bisexual. Kate thought that she might also be bi, but I think we figured out that she has a thing for guys, especially me, that can look like a girl and make love like a girl.

I don’t think that I’ve ever told you what Kate and I are studying in college. Kate is going to nursing school and thinking of going on to be either a doctor’s assistant or a nurse practitioner. Me, I’m pre-med. Interesting, me a doctor and Kate a nurse.

Give me a little time, and if you want I’ll tell you more about our lives and Gwen’s part in it.